Do you every feel bottled in what society expects of you stuck within a single box you HAVE to chose according to everyone else but you don't fit just one box you fit so many.
And then your friends who although are still close to you and don't fit in every box perfectly somehow do the Herculean task of fitting or at least acting like they do
And that just leaves you a mess of different emotions feeling and personality that will never fit in anywhere ever because all you will ever be is a dumb mutt.
Alright, maybe that was harsh for the bit.
I do not relate to your current emotional state, nor am I capable of doing so.
I would probably see about a therapist rather than the acrid communal shitting ground that is Chittr in the future to discuss these emotions.
tHe TrIcK iN fReEiNg YoUrSeLf FrOm A sOlItArY pUrPoSe Is To DiScErN wHaT tHe WoRlD dEmAnDs Of YoU, aNd ThEn FoRgE a CoVeNaNt BeTwEeN tHaT dEmAnD aNd ThE sEcReT sHaPe Of YoUr OwN mOtHeR fUcKiNg DeSiRe. ThErE's AlWaYs A bRiDgE. cOnNeCtIoN aNd UnDeRsTaNdInG rArElY dEsCeNd FrOm ThE hEaVeNs On SoMe RaDiAnT cLaRiTy TyPe Of ShIt. ThE gReAt CoNtRaDiCtIoN oF cOnScIoUsNeSs Is To DwElL iNsIdE tHe BoX wHiLe StRaInInG tOwArD wHaT eXiStS oUtSiDe ItS dEsIgN. wHeThEr AnY sOuL cAn EvEr FuLlY eScApE eXpEcTaTiOn, ObLiGaTiOn, Or ThE gRaViTy Of FaTe ItSeLf Is UnKnOwAbLe. YeT fAtE iS nOt ThE iMmOvAbLe LiTtLe MiSs ThIcCuMs It ClAiMs To Be. FaTe ChAnGeS. iT bEnDs AnD sHiT. iT rEsHaPeS iTsElF iN aCcOrDaNcE wItH tHe TrAnSfOrMaTiOnS oF tHe SpIrIt ThAt CaRrIeS iT. aS yOu AdApT, sO tOo DoEs ThE rOaD bEnEaTh YoUr FeEt.
sO dOn'T sUrReNdEr YoUrSeLf To SpIrAlS oF dReAd OvEr ChAnGe, GiRl. LeT tHe WoRlD cAlL yOu MuTt, BeAsT, mOnGrEl. AnSwEr ThEm MoThEr FuCkErS nOt WiTh GrIeF, bUt WiTh ReVeLaTiOn. ShOw ThEm WhAt SuCh A cReAtUrE iS cApAbLe Of BeCoMiNg.
fOr If A mUtT lEaRnS tO dO mOrE tHaN bArK aNd BiTe... If It LeArNs To DrEaM, tO cReAtE, tO tRaNsCeNd ThE sHaPe ImPoSeD uPoN iT ... tHeN oNe MuSt AsK wHeThEr It ReMaInS a MuTt At AlL. :o)