
She and I are on great terms, mind you. So often I see versions of myself lamenting their own failed relationships, and while I empathize, the issue with my marriage was never the fact that Kanaya and I did not get along. We always got along. The issue was that she is one of the first ~20 women I ever met, and the only one who clicked with me in that special way through those formative years of my life. We were, in our own way, all each other had. And that means very little when your planets are gone. But sometimes you realize that someone you thought you loved as a partner is just a friend you confused your feelings for because you had no other choice. I am not saying this is the case for every Rose and Kanaya out there — I know so many of them have a genuine and honest love. But that is not what ours was, and as far as the two of us are concerned, that is completely fine.


