point log, day 46 i have now been inside the point for six weeks. it turns out, meeting roxy wasn't the thing i had been putting off, but dealing with the fact that i watched all my friends die. including terezi. it sucked, actually. a lot.
...D4R3 1 4SK WH4T TH3 "PO1NT" 1S?
LOOK1NG THROUGH YOUR POSTS 1'M G3TT1NG TH3 1D34, 1 TH1NK. 1'M SORRY.
oh hey terezi. it's actually super nice to see your messages after having just watched you die over and over for two weeks straight, so...
4H. DO YOU W4NT TO T4LK 4BOUT 1T?
i'd kind of prefer not to. it's kind of a "i came to terms with the fact that i failed that timeline, and that version of you, and even with my retcon powers, that timeline didn't cease to exist so much as cease to be the main timeline."
4H. Y34H, 1 KNOW TH3 S1TU4T1ON. ST1LL, 1'M SORRY YOU H4D TO GO THROUGH TH4T. 4ND...1 DON'T KNOW 1F 1T H3LPS, BUT 3V3RY V3RS1ON OF M3 TH4T'S D13D BY YOUR S1D3 H4S B33N GL4D YOU W3R3 TH3R3. 4T L34ST, TH4T'S WH4T TH31R M3MOR13S T3LL M3. 1T H3LP3D TH3M 4 LOT.
I never blamed you.
B(( < man B// < idk if you can blame yourself fur timelines and nyarrative actively conspiring against us B33 < idk B// < theres a part of spurrite dave that wants to blame himself nyalso but B33 < bluh B33 < assigning blame when paradox space deals in death no matter what aint right B:33 < you did what you could in the worst possible scenario
yeah but it was more to do with the accepting the fact that the timeline didn't cease to exist, and so there's still a timeline where everyone died and my retcon powers don't erase timelines.