ONe needs aa fuckking permission to die when they reaach aadulthood, which is fuckking ironic, considering everything. OH, whaat is this, I aam too useless to die now?? I need to stickk aaround aand suffer aand loaathe myself??? BEcaause I aam not good enough???? #suicide, I suppose, except I do not even get to do THAT, becaause SOMEONE waants me to kkeep going AAnd #vaagueposting aas well now, I suppose #cw-self-haarm
I have lost enough people to know that I would miss you. But I am no good at comforting, or being kind in this way. Nor am I good at telling you off, apparently. It seems our last conversation did not leave a lasting enough impression. I will not begrudge you for lashing out in your pain. But there is no chance to heal if you end it. And healing is worth the fight.
FEw things leaave aa laasting impression when I caannot find it in myself to heaal, but only destroy. I try, I aalwaays try so haard, but it is likke clinging to saand, trying to hold on; you only feel yourself slipping deeper, you caannot claaw your waay out of it, aand the haarder you try, the worse it hurts
You do try. I am proud of you for trying. I know it is a lot to ask you to continue trying, and I know how it must be agonising. It will continue to hurt. It doesn't just go away. And when you are dealing with something you don't understand, its even more difficult. That being said... Truly, it is not impossible. And you deserve to win. If you're going through hell, why would you stop in hell? There is more to life than the agony, even if it feels like it is consuming you right now.
I do not waant people to caare aabout me, I only wish to be free to die
I'm sorry, then, that you cannot control the emotions of others. We will continue to care.
YOu do not caare, you saaid it yourself, so just tell me to go kkill myself aalreaady or better yet, end me yourself #suicidebaaiting
You really are at the end of your rope, aren't you. I'm not going to do that. I don't like that you seem to think that I would. Ormici would never forgive me if I did.
WHY? WHY CAAN YOU NOT DO THAAT?? I WISH TO CEAASE, THEY WOULD SURELY UNDERSTAAND. PLEAASE
... I'm going to DM you, Lantan.
>>| read the comments too .and... .i can really relate to that .actually. feeling the same way since .i left the caverns.