@nightterrorPsychologist — #cw-mental-health
I did technically drink less caffeine than usual due to not drinking any after that caffeine monstrosity that lead me to a 2 hour long dissociative episode.
I both do and don't want to die and given how conflicting that is it leads to a lot of incontinent internal conflict. What I'm saying is I really need to find a new therapist.
Typically either the blood or the sting will make me feel less empty and yet here we are. I suppose I feel disgusting, and like a waste, though even those thoughts are clouded in the blur of numbness that's overcome me as of late.
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