#cw-self-harm (slight menti.o°n) Been thinking n.o°w. A hist.o°ry. Culture and cust.o°ms never written .o°r c.o°dified but .o°bserved and .o°bserved. S.o°mething n.o°t really mine. Pe.o°ple wh.o° live f.o°rever but have names which are dead. That questi.o°n better ti live l.o°ng and be f.o°rg.o°tten .o°r die and be remembered f.o°rever. The answer is .o°bvi.o°us it is the f.o°rmer. Mem.o°ries cann.o°t taste cann.o°t see can n.o°t think. I d.o° n.o°t wish ti be a mem.o°ry. I am n.o°t the sum .o°f th.o°se came bef.o°re .o°r a p.o°tential .o°f what I c.o°uld be the past can n.o°t think and the future can n.o°t think .o°nly the me which is here can be th.o°ughtful. There is .o°nly s.o° much time t.o° experience it is f°o.o°lish t.o° be wasteful with it. T.o° give c.o°nsci.o°usness when it is all we have. T.o° dream t.o° sleep n.o° m.o°re? T.o° willingly n.o°t be. It is a little suicide every day. Mass graves under the burning light hiding away fr.o°m it. There are s.o° many wh.o° w.o°uld direct the wayy I am t.o° tell me t.o° sleep t.o° drink n.o°n-carb.o°nated beverages t.o° w.o°rk a pr.o°per j.o°b t.o° settle in a pr.o°per hive t.o° t.o° t.o° t.o° t.o°. I am a g.o°o.d citizen h.o°w I am. I am g°o.o°d. There are s.o°me wh.o° think I enj.o°y b.o°o.t taste. Well. I enj.o°y tasting b.o°o.t far better than never tasting anything again ever ever ever. I d.o° n.o°t drink tea I d.o° n.o°t have teap.o°ts I have never even been in .o°ne .o°f the battle camps as was described by the white man but. I remember spaghetti night. Eating t.o°gether drinking t.o°gether merry t.o°gether. These things are... nice. N.o°t w.o°rth writing a b.o°o.k .o°ver. N.o°t w.o°rth dying .o°ver. But nice. These are lacking in the death. These are lacking when y.o°u resign y.o°urself t.o° mem.o°ries. I will be f.o°rg.o°tten quick I am .o°ne .o°f many .o°ne .o°f billi.o°ns, trilli.o°ns but i will be alive n.o°w and i will have experiences and sensati.o°ns and I will think and I will be. This is n.o°t a manifest.o° simply... I have n.o°t g.o°tten ar.o°und t.o° buying a j.o°urnal fr.o°m the newly .o°pened fact.o°ry yet s.o° this is the best I am having in the m.o°ment. Just interesting which th.o°ughts are spurred up.o°n
#s.o°das.o°larsweep
Sokari... are you feeling alright...? - MC Oleana
Wistful. Pensive? It is g.o°o.d t.o° get these th.o°ughts .o°ut my think I ap.o°l.o°gize it is n.o°t very pr.o°fessi.o°nal .o°n my business acc.o°unt
Why don't you relaX for the evening? Watch some broadcast boX. Drink a boot- root beer. - MC Oleana
There is .o°nly w.o°rk m.o°re t.o° be d.o°ne I d.o° n.o°t need relaxati.o°n