all right chittr we #ffposting. i always feel like a piece of shit f0r getting with her when i did. part of me w0rried i was just using her two get 0ver aa. and then i fucked up even more. if i had been str0ng enough tw0 beat ampora- hell, if i never started a fight with him at all and let kk or kn talk him d0wn- she might not have died. but she was 0kay with all of that. where i bitched ab0ut how i didnt deserve her, she 0nly saw the guy who died getting her intw0 the game and who f0ught for her. she blew bubbles and made sure that after everything theyd been thr0ugh, the dead could sleep peacefully. and if she was happy in the end, i c0uld be two. but thats feferi. she makes y0u want two be better. 0bviously i didnt LIKE living under a caste system where i was near the b0ttom, but i was never brave en0ugh two d0 anything about it. she was. s0 when she came back, i held her as tight as i could. i wasnt g0ing two repeat th0se mistakes- taking her for granted and berating myself f0r it at the same time. i know yall dont want tw0 see me pour my s0ul out and interrupt y0ur valuable complaining on incredibly 0bvious an0n accounts or whatever, but if i can make a feferi s0mewhere happy with this, ill have done my part. just watch me, ff. ill be brave.
i realized recently that i dont lovve her the wway you do, an i nevver really did but for once youre right about somefin captor if wwantin ta become the person feferi peixes thinks you can be is wwhat helps you then you should do it its a shelluvva motivvator
i guess y0ure pro0f i DID fuck up pretty bad then. but yeah. go0d luck with your redempti0n arc.
many thanks in other wwords im fully on board wwith this sentiment an the #ffpostin wwill continue
O)(, Sollux! I'm gonna start crying )(ere. I know you're not my Sollux, but just know t)(at I sea )(ow w)(ale you're doing and I couldn't be prouder. I will alwaves )(old every Sollux near and dear to my pumper.
same two y0u and every ff. <> dont cry th0.