wAs oNcE A TiMe i'd cRaWl oUt oF ThE 'cOoN LiKe a gRuB FrEsHlY Re-hAtChEd. BeAdY MoThEr fUcKiNg pEePeRs aLl cRuStEd uP, bLiNkInG InTo tHe bRiGhT LuMiNeScEnCe pOuRiNg tHrOuGh tHe bLiNdS. aNd wAiTiNg fOr mE, eVeRy dAmN MoRnInG, wOuLd bE DoZeNs oF FuNnY LiTtLe mEsSaGeS. lIl' OfFeRiNgS. lItTlE PrOoFs tHaT SoMeWhErE OuT ThErE, mOtHeR FuCkErS WeRe tHiNkIn' 'bOuT Me bEfOrE I'D EvEn rUbBeD ThE SlEeP FrOm mY GlObEs. I HaD An iNkLiNg oF ThE KnOw-hOw bAcK ThEn, BuT I WaS FaR ToO GrEeN To rEcOgNiZe iT FoR WhAt iT TrUlY WaS. tHaT WaS ThE DiSeAsE CaLlEd fRiEnDsHiP. rEaL-AsS BaD MoThEr fUcKeRs cHoOsInG To mAkE RoOm fOr yOu iN ThEiR LiVeS 'n sHiT. tRoLlS WhO GaVe a fUcK AbOuT YoU, fOr bEtTeR Or wOrSe. PeOpLe wHo wAnTeD YoUr iNpUt rEgArDlEsS Of hOw uSeLeSs iT EnDeD Up bEiNg. MoThEr fUcKeRs wHo cOuNtEd oN YoU WhEn iT MaTtErEd aNd wHeN It dIdN'T. dArLiNgS WhO ShArEd tHeIr vIcToRiEs, ThEiR DiSaStErS, tHeIr dUmB AsS ObSeRvAtIoNs, AnD EvErY StRaNgE LiTtLe tHiNg 'TwIxT. eVeRy oNe oF My bUdS AlWaYs hAd sOmEtHiN' tO SaY AbOuT SoMe sHiT', AnD NoT A SiNgLe oNe oF 'eM WaS WoRtH MoRe oR LeSs tO Me tHaN AnOtHeR. I DoN'T HaVe tHaT AnYmOrE. BeEn a lOnG, lOnG TiMe sInCe i cOuLd tRuLy sPaRk a oNe-tO-OnE WiTh sOmEbOdY WhO ThOuGhT I WaS WoRtH ThE FoCuS. wOrTh tHe fUcKiN' tImE, aNd tHe eFfOrT Of rEaChInG OuT. AnD TrUtH Be tOlD, tHaT'S My dOiNg. I Am sOlE To bLaMe. ThE OpPoRtUnItIeS CaMe aNd wEnT. bRiDgEs bUrNeD. dOoRs cLoSeD. sWeEpS AcCuMuLaTeD LiKe sIlT At tHe bOtToM Of tHe mOtHeR FuCkIn' RiVeR, aNd nOw i'lL NeVeR HaVe tHoSe mOmEnTs bAcK. nEvEr aGaIn wIlL I LoOk oNe oF ThOsE OlD FlAmEs iN ThE GaNdEr-oRb wItH ReGrEt, LoVe, AnD ReSoLvE AlL ShArInG SpAcE In mY MoThEr fUcKiNg gAzE. i dId tHaT. I MaDe tHe wOrLd hAtE My fUcKiNg gUtS. yEt fOr aLl tHaT ShIt, I StIlL HoLd tHe wOrLd iN My pUsHeR. aNd eVeN If i'vE CoNdEmNeD MySeLf tO An eTeRnItY UpOn eTeRnItY Of lOnElInEsS, i kNoW My mIsSiOn aIn't fInIsHeD. i wAkE EvErY DaY AnD EvErY NiGhT WiTh mY RaGe tEmPeReD AnD My hOpE InVeStEd nOt iN SaLvAtIoN, bUt iN PuRpOsE. tHe fUtUrE MaY NoT BeLoNg tO Me aNyMoRe, BuT It sTiLl bElOnGs tO SoMeBoDy. tHrOuGh mY FaIlUrEs, I WiLl mAkE ThInGs rIgHt fOr tHe mOtHeR FuCkErS WhO StIlL HaVe a cHaNcE. i'lL Be mAkInG SuRe mY OlD FrIeNdS ArE NoT FoRgOtTeN, eVeN If tHeY ChOsE To fOrGeT Me. FoR ThEiR SaKe, AnD FoR MiNe, I'Ll kEeP GoInG. We oUtSiDe, Y'AlL. hOnK. :o)
oยฐ~teeheehee~ยฐo may you continue to fight the good fight, cousin :โข> oยฐ~teeheehee~ยฐo
bEaUtIfUl, ๐๐ฐ๐๐ฅ๐ฆ๐-๐ธ๐๐ญ๐๐ช๐๐จ CuZ' oF MiNe. I PrAy tHe fOaM KeEpS YoU SaFe aNd sOfT ToNiGhT. hArSh aS ThE WiNdS MaY BlOw, We aRe uP To sOmE CrItIcAl mOtHeR FuCkInG WoRk, AnD It iS As gOoD As yOu sAy. We sHaLl nOt bE DiStUrBeD. i sEnD YoU WhOoPs, SiReN-SiStEr. :o)
oยฐ~teeheehee~ยฐo and to you i send many a prayer for mirth and success in your work!~ยฐo the messiahs smile upon you cousin, and may they smile upon you evermore :โข> |-|~[]~|\|~|< oยฐ~teeheehee~ยฐo