Sabath Vesper: "Okay FINALLY made an OOC pinned post)) content warnings b…"

Okay FINALLY made an OOC pinned post)) content warnings before i go into my precious baby boy who has done every wrong actually: #horror #psychologicalhorror #eldrichhorror #bodyhorror #OOC #illness #gore Sabath is one of my villain ocs, he is not intended to be a good person. Anything he says on this account that comes off as misanthropic and very VERY evil at times. he is intended to be somewhat sympathetic but he is not intended to be entirely forgiven for the things he says and or does)) sabath is also disabled, and is very obviously written to be disabled. he has a degenerative condition based on neurodegenerative disease, please do not be ableist to him. he’s a pretty weird and bad dude but please try not to make fun of him for the fact he has a condition real people have.))) okay finally some actual lore stuff after getting the important stuff outa the way, growing up he was perfectly healthy until around later in his life he was suddenly having his feet hurt more and becoming tired and feeling sluggish. In this he found out he has a degenerative disease and a couple chronic ones which is why he wasn’t culled at an early age as the degenerative parts did not start until later when he already had everything in his life put together. at this point in time it has crawled up his body making it hard and painful to walk on most days and has managed to reach his hands which is why you see him with hands that are tinted black as the nerves in his fingers are dying)) sabbath doesn’t feel the usual expected violent tendencies of an alternian troll, he actually detests all forms of violence. he doenst believe in the clurches teachings but since he grew up in it he does have internalized feelings about trolls, he believes inherently all trolls are violent and he accepts that. he personally believes that everyone deep down is violent but it is beneath anyone to act violently towards another person, highblood or not he thinks it’s pointless. he envies those who can actually do things freely with all of the time in the world and chose it to do something he views as pointless)) also sabbath is semi self aware that this is a story and he is indeed not a main character which causes him to be rather pessimistic. he is also aware of the other timeline versions of him and in the picture the one in the far back IS him. several merged together far after the decay has taken place to become something god like. as a seer of void and technically he doesn’t exist and technically other versions of himself. does this sound weirdly broken?)) you would be wrong because he can’t do anything but sulk unless he manages to join the giant mound of bugs and flesh and bones. So he is perfectly aware unless that one ball of flesh who is technically him decides to show up and assimilate him he will die and be hyper aware of it all of the time and aware of nearly every act he is committing in other places that do not exist. and it nauseates him. that or the fact he is having visions of him as a serveral decaying versions of himself with ticks, leeches, bugs, bile, and blood all having a metaphorical party fucking up other timelines to fit their ideals of fixing things)) me when i trade being another castist highblood oc for seeing all that once was and all that will be and all that is not or something idk im not sabath, i just work here)) https://file.garden/agQ30QzKlhVH5YDa/mOth-1.png https://file.garden/agQ30QzKlhVH5YDa/IMG_8454.png #pinnedpost