@turntechGodcest — #cw-abuse
in other news i think i associate fear with positive results because of my brother and is probably a core reason i want him so bad even though he is dead as fuck #incest #abuse #cw-abuse #cw-abuse
he terrifies me and i also fantasize about him gently holding me and smiling and telling me he loves me more than anything even that puppet #incest #yearning #cw-abuse #tw-abuse
the casual mix between discomfort and yearning when thinking about my older brother #incest #yearning #abuse #cw-abuse #tw-abuse
i just want some proof he cared about me or that he didnt hate me #cw-abuse #tw-abuse
spotify is so funny you can just search missing my abuser and someone made a playlist about it and then you can sort of think about the fact you are not alone in that different kind of abuse between me and this playlist maker i imagine but it is sort of nice in a fucked up way to know other people get like this too #tw-abuse #cw-abuse
thinking back to my childhood and feeling weird realizing my bro didnt know as much as i thought he did and that he couldnt read my mind or see me all the time it fucks me up to realize there was stuff he didnt know or notice even he had his cams and shit #abuse #cw-abuse
stuck loving a guy who breaks his toys #incest #cw-abuse #abuse #yearning #iknowthatcomboisfuckedup