♦ pitied by @unusedUnused
aspect slander pt. 8 - Void s0mething of a c0old0wn slander after that last mess. i consider there tw0 be three major 0ddballs for aspects: breath, v0id, and rage. aspects which are the least defined and work in ways least directly in service 0f skaia's goals. d0esn't mean i think they're pro0f it doesn't have them, just that whatever level they're w0rking on is harder t0 immediately grasp. 'void is n0thingness' is a comm0n misconcepti0n. nothing d0esn't exist (eheheh.) but seriously, it's n0t giving you literally n0thing, you can't give what d0esn't exist. i w0uld argue that even mores0 than the frog aspect v0id exists for c0ntrast, two give 0ther things meaning. it is more accurately: the aspect of secrets and absentia, a w0rd with a more accurate c0nnotati0n than 'nothing.' if anything it's m0re of the space aspect than the fr0g one ever c0uld be, powers interacting with the absence 0f somethings that we call n0thing for lack 0f better words. y0u can make it sound as edgy as y0u like but rx wouldn't be creating jacque fucking shit with her abilities were it truly bent 0n nothingness. y0u can't steal nothing, because n0thing doesn't exist. y0u can however fill an absence with s0mething. i don't think y0u could ever pr0ve a meaningful difference between a space player teleporting s0mething and a void player filling an absence with that same s0mething that isn't pedantic. and i don't think skaia cares 0r would be able t0 tell the difference even when i finally have my fronds ar0und its neck. pedantry aside, it's these nuances that end up fucking 0ver a void player in the end. v0id gets gifted two th0se skaia wants silenced. the ones m0st likely to keep secrets fr0m themself and others, tw0 hide who y0u are and push down y0ur own feelings. great f0r group c0hesion, terrible f0r whoever is shutting themselves up f0r the greater go0d. there's all manner of ways t0 incentivize it. equius was a fucking freak but ultimately a harmless one. if y0u lo0k back rationally and ign0re how unpleasant he might've been t0 interact with, eq was a massive contribut0r two the gr0up effort. fucked up as it is, he was the team medic. vriska's arm, tv's legs, aa's body (i kn0w i know but we're f0cusing here). he crammed d0wn all his freak shit two make that happen and we made him d0 it. nob0dy gave a fuck about letting eq say his sweaty, euphemistic piece besides np and it's pr0bably why he died. there was never an interest in rehabilitating his issues, or kinks lets be real, and they g0t him killed. nob0dy was stronger than eq. that fuckhead cl0wn knew it, thats why he didn't try and 'fight' him. eq hid every weird thing he was for the sake 0f the group and was discarded f0r it. i doubt rx wants me rehashing her pr0blems with bo0ze either, so i can gl0ss over them by attributing it tw0 the same factor. hiding 0ne's real self by any means necessary even as it's killing you. thank fuck she made it 0ut alright but it lo0ks pretty obvi0us in retrospect that the same p0ison was being used under a new name. it's an aspect built t0 feed off insecurities and squeeze s0meone with them intw0 a more useful m0uld. nothing can't break, rust, 0r shatter. but it also d0esn't really matter. if you're n0t careful it will make a player into s0mething that doesn't exist except as a c0ntrast. and loneliness is never str0nger than when you're surr0unded by other pe0ple.
Hey, you can hurt me however you like as long as I get outta here. Fuckin deserve it anyway
youre wiser than i am.
... Oh, I can't be doing this shit tonight. Going offline for at least a few more hours.
i cant blame you, ive gotten into my fair share of arguments with a different english. i try to just ignore that one in particular though since hes had an active negative effect on my life since the start.
the difference is maddeningly small, i'm afraid.
. . . go+ fixa+ed. on some+hing. and suddenly +hree hours have passed.
"nightmare waltz under moonlit water" https://file.garden/XAsN_1TsSgUyUt-R/Chittr/KD/nightmare%20waltz%20under%20moonlit%20water.mp3 #daggertunes #music #violence? i used to have a consistent nightmare before i ran away from home, where my older sister would take my hand's, lead me out of bed into the moonlight, and wed dance our way to the river to a waltz. 1 2 3 1 2 3, twirling downstream until wed reach the lake. and then shed lower me, and she wouldnt lift me back up. and then shed be beneath me, no longer holding me in the dance but instead dragging me into the water. her face no longer one i recognized. a ghoul. skin pulled tight to bone, eyeless. like a horror movie. and wed drown, our bodie's twirling as i would struggle against her to rise to the surface. idk. the shit from earlier kind of reminded me of it. composed this while i was high to try getting it off my mind
It's stupid, sometimes I get flashes of his life in my head. Sometimes I see Cradle back when it was Earth, the wars he took part in, the people he mowed down. His day to day when he was home from war. He was lame. His legacy, his progeny, are all lame. Except me. [ Posted from Veery's NeuroLink Comms Unit! Message label: #eventhekeatsonboardiskindoflame #evenifheskindamylilbro #hewontshakefromhowtheoriginalnateacted ]
you are stuck elsewhere. i will leave you alone know. 've wasted enough time with you already
#mytired
Real stare at a wall hours
c< OKay appareNtly tHis Needs 2 be said, My driNKs dO /NOt/ uNbreaK yOur bONes.... please, s2p fucKiNg tryiNg >c
c< sOMeONe caMe iN witH a brOKeN arM, aNd gOt Mad at Me wHeN tHe driNK i served eM didNt fucKeN fix tHe arM >c
I laid down for a nap and then all my sleepy decided to get destroyed.
Pnj.
Fuck
Pro tip: I am so fucking mad.
c< fucK, iM tired Of dOiN NOtHiN, iMMa gO dO sOMe.... i dONt KNOw? i guess i caN wOrK ON My gardeN sOMe? wHatever, iM gONNa gO fiNd sOMetHiN 2 dO iNstead Of fucKall, taKe care wHile iM gONe >c
c< Hate tHe feeliN wHeN i taKe a day Off >c
Oh, how I miss you, Land of ███████ and █████. #dashwatching
Don't say cull him don't say cull him don't say cull him #vagueposting #imniceys
Good morning these two hours of sleep taste amazing
Does anyone else read one word and get a whole song stuck in your head? Constantly?
i rented out a professional recording booth today / this is gonna test to see how i need to upgrade my recording equipment / that and my lusus needs to eat all the irradiated material / and get the drones / and my moirail / to replace everything that got damaged / so i can't be in my hive anyway
I need his touch... #yearning #vagueposting
oh my god II am not IIn the FUCKING MOOD for your 2hIIt hatebot fuck you fuck everythIIng you've ever 2tood for fuck me an fuck the re2t a you too.
kicked out of #fightnight 4 bringin a gun :/
gets up and stretches and my back cracks and it sounds like roman candles.
8 hours of sleep vs. One More Post.
fuck just woke up feel more tired th∆n when i fell ∆sleep it's ∆ sc∆m istg
Ughhhhhhhh, how are you gonna give me five words and then get pissy when I don't respond immedi8ly? #rpwoes #ijustneedtostartcullingt8h