#dirt

𝚂𝚎𝚎𝚛 𝚘𝚏 𝚖𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚜

@discardedPasts[DP]

𝚃𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚖𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚢 𝚋𝚎𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚐𝚜 𝚝𝚘: @jade woof Bark Bark Woof #therewasatimewhereididntletmywhimsyshow #ispentsomuchtime #somuchtime #justtryingtojustifyappearances #justtryingtojustifywhoiam #iamdead #iliveinmymemories #alternatesofmyselveshavedaughters #daughtersthey #treat #like #dirt. #whywouldtheydothat #ijust #idontknow #whyaretheyallowedtolive #whyaretheyallowedtogoaround #andpretend #likeeverythingisfine #andbepiecesoftrashaboutit. #irememberbeingakid #irememberthinking #ifijustsmiledharder #ifijustwaggedmytailharder #ifijustmadeeveryonefeelokay #thenmaybe #maybe #maybe #maybe #they...Read more

#alternatesofmyselveshavedaughters #sohowdarethey #thatisthepartthatmakesmeteethsharp #iknowimnotfair #andyoustaygoodbecauseyounevergetthechance #becauseidid #well #itdidntitdidntitdidnt #becauseijustifiedit #busy #andtheyarealive #isthatwhyiamstillhere #ispentsomuchtime #somuchtime #thisishowjadesget #isntthatsofunnyyoucouldbark #thegirlwhomadefriendswithcorpsesandcomputers #notwheniseethemgivenlives #becausewhimsywasnotweakness #iknowthat #decideditwasannoying #ordesperate #whyaretheyallowedtogoaround #andtheyholdthosechildrenlikeburdens #becauseitwaseasiertobelievepainhadapoint #andthenapparently #myproofthattherewasstillagirlinthehouse #someversionofmegotone #liketheuniversegavethemsomethingsoft #notwheniseethem #beingaloneontheislanddidnotmakemebetter #ijust #thatisthethingnoonetellsyouaboutimmortality #andchildren #butstill #togrowintotheworstversionofyourself #anotherbranchonatreealreadyrottingfromtheroot #thegirlwiththedogears #thisishowthingshappenwhentheworldkeepsgoing #thegirlwhocouldfoldspace #daughtersthey #myhistory #anothertimeline #thisishowjadeis #justtryingtojustifywhoiam #becauseiwastherayofsunshine #like #iamdead #myvoice #idontknow #andtheygettomaketheirbadchoiceswithwarmblood #justwantedafamily #irememberbeingakid #howaloneiwas #likemistakes #sometimesyoudie #becauseiwasfun #andrealbreath #ifijustmadeeveryonefeelokay #andbeinglonelydoesnotmakeagirlkind #thenmaybe #itwasalwaysfine #pettingghostdogsthatarenotevenmineanymore #andthought #likeeverythingisfine #itmade #softthingsareforsqueezinguntiltheystopmakingnoise #isntthatfunny #whichisapparentlythesamethingifcanongetsitsway #dirt #itcanlearn #maybewecalledneglectcharacterdevelopment #andlookedatit #thegirlwholovedsomuchshecouldmoveplanets #iknowpeoplebreakinuglyways #sometimesdeathistheonlythingthatpreservesyou #andpretend #maybeweallmistookourlonelinessfortraining #maybe #maybewealllookedbackatthetower #orchildish #becauseiwasafraiditwouldlookstupid #theworldkeptgoingwithoutmeonce #thegirlwhowasraisedbyamonsterandsatellites #ifijustsmiledharder #whyaretheyallowedtowearmyfaceandforgetthethingsisweartoneverforget #maybeallofuslearnedthewronglessonfromsurviving #notalways #myhands #chewingonoldsunlight #ijustwantedafamily #ihavewatchedmyselfbecomecruel #whyaretheyallowedtolive #andrealconsequences #andnowiamdead #idontknowidontknowidontknow #theywouldntnotice #ifijustwaggedmytailharder #irememberthinking #likeitsjustanotherdoor #andhomes #howdaretheyturnthatgirlintoanexcuse #butitdidnt #whyaretheyallowed #howdaretheysay #andthatwasfine #pretendingeverybubbleisntjustanotherroominmytower #therewasatimewhereididntletmywhimsyshow #thatwasall #somewhen #andthenactlikejadeharleywasalwaysgoingtobeacurse #decidedalittlegirlcouldsurvivebeingignored #andthenwalkawayfromthem #stillagirlunderthegrief #orwhateverstupidwordtheyusewhenpeopleareallowedtohurtforeverandcallitnarrativeweight #whywouldtheydothat #becauseiwasthegirlwiththegun #itmadeherstrongdidntit #whyaretheyallowedtoliveinaworldwherejadesurvived #andnoneofmyshame #becauseiwasuseful #treat #iknowmotherhooddoesnotpurifyanyone #andbeingagoddoesnotmakeagirlgood #isthatwhythismegetsfloataroundinmemoryfoam #whyaretheyallowedtohaveadaughterandnotlookatherlikeamiracle #justtryingtojustifyappearances #likeproofthatsomethingwentwrong #itwasfine #andtheydecided #thegirlwhocouldfixthings #butidonotsmilehere #andthenilearnedtoshowitanyway #anddecideditwasanobligation #walkingaroundwithmyface #thatisthepartthatmakesmethinkthingsiwouldneverhavesaidalive #notwheniseetheothermes #itwasmyflag #myflare #orcanon #andstillcomeoutsmiling #somewhere #iliveinmymemories #andbepiecesoftrashaboutit #orliketheonlylanguageihadleft #thegirlwhocouldbeleftaloneforlongerthaneveryoneelse #stillagirlunderthegodhood

Kult: +14

Kull: +12

Total: 26

Ratio: 1.17

@hallowedVessel[HV]

okay. nap time now. will return later. #burrowing #inmyburrow #underground #dirt #evilgang

#underground #burrowing #dirt #inmyburrow #evilgang

Kult: +17

Total: 17

@deathlessDeadwood[DD]

♯wormless behavior from ♯some of you. absolute ♯lack of ♯dirt & ♯burrowing. do ♯better

#lack #better #burrowing #wormless #dirt #some

Kult: +15

Total: 15