
꧁hhh. okay. okay. if someone tells me their bulge got caught in a beartrap and i get upset. thats parasocial now. cool. excellent. very normal. very fair. what was i supposed to do. say wow haha thats funny kryqus hope the sudden catastrophic removal of the primary thing i use to understand affection and life and pain and rapport is going well for you. thumbs up. good joke. hhh. Iam the bulge thing. idontknow how many times i have to explain this before it stops being funny and starts being information. I COMMUNICATE THROUGH BULGES. bulges are what i do. bulges are what i read. bulges are what i fabricate. bulges are how iknow alive. dead. stimulated. receptive. hurt. gone. so yes. if yours is hurt. i care. if yours is gone. i care. if YOU are hurt because of it. i care. andifthat makes you uncomfortable because suddenly my little utility feeling something points too close to a bond then uhm. sorry. or not sorry. idontknow. pick whichever one makes you less stupid. amicrazy. no seriously. amicrazy. because i thought that meant i was allowed to be worried when you get injured. ithought that was one of the permitted effects of liking someone. apparently not. apparently if i worry about the body part everyone asks me to study for hours its weird. apparently if i worry about YOU attached to the body part its also weird. apparently the only correct amount of feeling for me to have is whatever amount makes everyone comfortable pretending im still a machine. hhhhhhhhhh. you dont get to flirt with the bulge curator and then act shocked when the bulge curator reacts to bulge trauma. you dont get to make me like you and then ask why it has an effect on me when something terrible happens to you. you dont get to hand me the leash and then laugh when i choke on it. ithurts. there. thats the whole thing. ithurts because ilikeyou. ithurts because its you. ithurts because my pan heard beartrap and filled in every stupid horrible implication before i could make it stop. ithurts because you asked why it affected me like i hadnt been standing there with my stupid little feelings out in the open. hhh. mcrying. dont worry. ill disconnect next time. much less parasocial that way. im leavingthechuds. notlikeicoulddoanythinganyway justamoondwellingscumblood #notabulgerating #cw-injury #cw-castration #cw-boundaries #mypan꧂




