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[unit_CN003NF_message] (...) [stress_level:9/10] (i-im... im g-gonna get o-on my s-scan analysis...) [end_message]
Yeah...
I waanted to be aappreciaative of my body. HOwever, it decided to be aa bitch, so post caancelled
Woke.up.with.a.headache.but.I.expected.that
Made.it.to.the.potential.hideout!!!.Fuck.that.was.hard,.so.many.fucking.drones
ᛝ It does not mind. ᛝ ᛝ It was designed to be this way. ᛝ
ᛝ It is finding movement different. ᛝ ᛝ Not more difficult necessarily. ᛝ ᛝ Not easier either. ᛝ ᛝ Just different. ᛝ
ᛝ It was unaware that too many pleasant sensations are as overwhelming as unpleasant ones ᛝ ᛝ It will take this into account in future ᛝ ᛝ It will calm and report on its status. ᛝ
I'm...kind.of.scared.that.every.time.I.sleep,.it'll.be.my.last.one.of.freedom..I.know.they're.not.gonna.stop.till.I'm.✨properly.culled✨(sparkled.for.fuckyou)..But.if.I.don't.sleep,.I'll.be.both.easy.pickings.and.it'll.give.them.extra.ammo.to.cull.me,.some.shit.like.'oh,.the.mutant.can't.even.go.to.sleep.on.time!'.and.force.me.asleep.like.a.culled.wriggler... #beforanculling.#kidnapping.#captivity.#substances
[BEGIN MESSAGE] ttazkz and tthe new zchedu|e m0zt|y. [END MESSAGE]
ᛝ It does not know how to stop wanting ᛝ ᛝ But it needs to stop ᛝ ᛝ Soon ᛝ ᛝ It feels it ᛝ ᛝ Teeth snagging its strings ᛝ ᛝ Each time it is restored it brings something into it ᛝ ᛝ It brings something in that it does not want. ᛝ ᛝ Sharp in what should be soft ᛝ ᛝ ... Can it only be free if it is stripped down to nothing? ᛝ
<Fŏr sŏmĕ rĕăsŏn, I / strŏngly dŏŭbt ănyŏnĕ's gŏĭng / tŏ jŭst drŏp ŏn / ŏnĕ knĕĕ fŏr mĕ. / Evĕr. And thĕ ŏnĕ, / mĭnĭscŭlĕ fĕĕlĭng I dŏ / hăvĕ ĭsn't gŏĭng tŏ / ămŏŭnt tŏ jăck nŏr / shĭt.>
⦓ Its alright! Effort is important. Things would be a lot more boring if nothing took any effort! You wouldn't even be able to feel pride in your achievements! So I don't mind it at all. Or, well... No, I do mind it, I really really don't like exercising, and I hate fighting, but... I'll do it, and become strong enough to protect myself! Little by little, ehe~ Thank you! ⦔
ᛝ ... ᛝ ᛝ it wants tha,t ᛝ ᛝ it does not know how ᛝ ᛝ it hopes th,ᛝerᛝs a wayᛝ
ᛝ it thiinksd it undersᛝants tiredness ᛝ ᛝ it is tiredᛝ
ᛝ it doesnt evᛝen have the option to pretend ᛝ ᛝ unfairᛝ
ᛝ nothin,gᛝ it can doᛝ ᛝ it is being protect,ted also ᛝ ᛝ this is the only reason it can risk thsi ᛝ ᛝ this is the only reason it can risk this. ᛝ
[unit_CN003NF_message] (i t-think the b-boys are b-being booted u-up to g-go ftl n-now) [stress_level:6/10] (i-i… i t-think im s-scared to l-leave my h-hiveworld) (but i-i guess m-my opinion d-doesnt matter a-anyways when i-it comes t-to this…) [stress_level:6/10] (u-uhm, i g-guess, while w-we’re c-charging up i-ill use t-this as m-my bye t-to alternia… i d-dont- know i-if you w-were a g-good planet, until n-now i’d n-never been o-off of y-you, and i-ive still n-not set f-foot on a-another world, just t-the anchorage i-in orbit…) (but, you w-were my w-world, and e-even if y-you were b-bad, being m-mine means s-something to m-me) (you w-were where i-i grew u-up) [stress_level:7/10] (y-you were w-where i l-learned to b-be me, where i-i met m-my broodmates, where i-i made m-my first d-dinner, read m-my first b-book, had a-a coffee i-in a c-cafe on a-a rainy n-night ) [stress_level:8/10] (a-and i t-think i m-might never h-have t-that a-again) (and i-it might b-be ill n-never be b-back on a-alternia again n-now that i-im in e-exile post a-ascension, and i-i know e-every troll g-goes through t-this but) (i-i never g-got to s-say goodbye, and t-thats probably w-what hurts t-the most) (s-so, in l-leu of t-that, this c-can be m-my goodbye, as w-we approach t-the edge o-of the s-system and f-ftl charges u-up… ) (goodbye a-alternia) (i h-hope you’re b-better to t-the next p-person than y-you were t-to me) [stress_level:9/10] [end_message]
[unit_CN003NF_message] (i k-know… lia h-hasnt been o-one for a-a sweep y-yet, i g-guess… pascal i-is still n-nice, i h-hope i e-end up l-like them) [stress_level:7/10] (b-but) (i j-just) (im s-still scared) (i-i guess i-im always s-scared arent i-i?) [end_message]
[unit_CN003NF_message] (i h-hope...) (in a-a few s-sweeps, after i've b-been doing t-this for a-a while) (t-that i s-still care a-about people) [end_message]
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[ It does not know. ] [ And it is not doing that right now anyway ] [ It was forbidden again ] [ It is only breaking curses, now. ] [ It is following what it has been told ] [ It is a good tool ]
<[emotion_detected: re|ief_medium] action; statement input; statement: they have decided on more data ana|ysis & simu|ations input; statement: i think input; statement: or at |east the head researcher has conceded that there is more to obser v eee error:inputdenied />
[unit_CN003NF_message] (ow) (u-uh sorry i-i) [stress_level:5/10] (p-probably should h-have said s-something once t-the integration a-announcement sent, but, i u-uh, got r-really busy...) (so u-uh, turns o-out there's u-usually only t-ten void a-anchors in t-the navy (i g-guess there's m-more somewhere e-else too? they're o-only really g-good for r-really specific s-ships) but u-uh, they h-have a r-really close k-knit group o-on the p-pilot network.) (i g-guess i h-have a n-nickname too ) (i'm d-dozen) (i l-like that n-nickname... ) (... oh r-right other n-news- ) [stress_level:6/10] (u-uhm... im t-the ship n-now? i'm w-waiting for m-my broodmates t-to get i-integrated too, but u-uh it's- it's r-really weird... i d-dunno if i-i like i-it but) (...) (anyways i'm f-figuring stuff o-out, i t-think, i'll b-be ok e-eventually... i d-dunno if t-that's r-really right n-now, but... eventually) [end_message]
<action; statement input; statement: i can promise you that i wi|| not hesitate in doing so input; statement: assuming that i am given enough time to do so how i want />
<[emotion_detected: annoyance] [emotion_detected: regret] action; statement input; statement: i have to run at |east 1 simu|ation now, maybe more depending on how p|eased the research team are with the outcome input; statement: i do not want to stop monitoring cre||y & reme|| & ste|ye but i cannot do both at once input; statement: i do not know how |ong it wi|| take but hopefu||y i wi|| fucknotime input; statement: hopefu||y i wi||bebacksoo n n error:inputdenied />
[unit_CN003NF_message] (she i-is, she's h-helping a l-lot, it's- i p-probably would h-have panicked a-a lot m-more otherwise) [end_message]
[BEGIN MESSAGE] perhapz. but if i did i d0 n0t tthink we w0u|d be quiet ready f0r tthem. [END MESSAGE]
hey i dont groan that much -n-