@destinedKiller — #cw-mental-health
h33h33. hoohoo? mmm no. nonono definitely not that one. fahaha.
heehe3. easy solution. i should. nnno. no no, who would raise their grub. no, bad idea. rgh. and would you CUT IT OUT WITH THE KNOCKING @kingofYellow
oh. i think i might b3 having a manic episode. fahaha. i feel like a god. this most definitely isnt good for me! heehee. heheehe3heeh33hehehehe fahahahahaha x) i do wish that ugly fucking door would get out of my head though
my mind is like a woven tapestry being tugged at the corners to reveal the gaps between and through them i see it and i know it can give me everything i could want and i know its also bullshit and a liar. one corner tugs and i feel giddy and elated, that i can once more indulge in the annoyance and teasing of a vile individual. another corner tugs and i feel sorrow, that i cannot speak my thoughts and feelings for some, that i cannot help people. another corner tugs and i feel a need to protect, to nurture, to hold while another corner tugs and incites a burning fucking violent rage and beneath it all th...Read more
...things have been going too well for me lately. kind of feels fake after all the awful metanarrative bullshit i been put through by the angel and fucking. doctor wingdings asshole. gonna dissociate in planetary orbit for a bit. ill be aight just know that if you cant reach me its cause of that. then again theres only one person who would actively go out of their way to do that so i guess this is more for them. hey deva. not gonna say the l-word cause thinking about genuine affection make's me feel sick but yeah. l-word. you. care. bluh. later.
not doin too hot. think i might take a short break from chittr or smth idk. bpd moment. or im just being dumb. #vent? #cw-mental-health //
...kind of pathetic and cowardly of me to want deva to do the soul-healing touch thing with the heart godtier powers only to immediately regret and want to undo it when i start feeling emotions more normally. simply because it gets a little overwhelming from not being used to it. i guess in a way my neurological disorder was "stable" with my emotions dampened too? cant have crashouts if you genuinely dont care. which. i havent had a crashout yet. but experiencing emotion again has been a lot. ...especially the yearning. the painful. endless ache in my hollow ribcage. fucking christ, even just *thinking*...Read more
disturbing post. click unquirk to read. pay attention to the tags, dont be a moron. VvvvvvvvvvvV ^^^^^^^^^^ #nsfw #nsfwe #selfcest #incest #guro #gore #violence #rape #abuse #knifeplay #clawplay #vent #cw-mental-health
@karmaDagger whats the matter dawg. not gonna take my advice? you dont want to become me, right? kill yourself and save us both the trouble then. ah, fuck, who am i kidding. youll probably fail like you did with the attempts when you wanted to defy the angel eye. youre pathetic.