@doomedTherapist — #cw-suicide
Wondering how conditional immortality works in specifics, part of me wants to run some tests but if I'm being honest I'd rather not kill myself repeatedly. #cw-selfharm #cw-suicide
Dave is frustrated with me, given I did this without telling him but still. Then again I did technically kill myself for this. He has a right to be mad that the only person he has to talk to essentially went dormant for a while. Divinity really didn't change much it seems. #cw-suicide #cw-self-harm
Dying, shockingly hurts. A lot. #cw-self-harm #cw-suicide
Wish I picked a sharper blade then again suppose I could have chosen anything else, this just seemed the least messy. Was debating on recording this, though that seems disturbing. Guess I'm just on this incredibly uncomfortable bed until I finally got through with it. I know I'll be back but still, seems a tall order. I don't know why I'm rambling this out to social media like it's my own personal diary, but who truthfully cares. #gore(?) #cw-self-harm #cw-suicide
It would be funny out of spite after twenty years god-tiering myself just to fuck with people. #cw-suicide
I'm not going to lie if I was alone here genuinely would've killed myself within the first three years #cw-suicide
Would pay someone to shoot me right fucking now, I'm in godamn agony. #violence #cw-suicide
A Depressed Suicidal Alcoholic and a Burnt out Undiagnosed Homosexual walk into a bar. This isn't a joke by the way, this is the first thing Dave and I are doing when we get out of here. #cw-suicide #substances
On occasion I'll stand by the edge, just looking down wondering how little would change if I took one last step. Then I remember that Dave would probably do something similar tried that, and take a step back. Suppose neither of us wants to leave the other alone too some extent. Still I find myself pondering what really would change on late nights. Perhaps one day I'll get drunk enough to take that last step. #cw-suicide #substances