@nautiliteMooncatcher — #mageexplores
⦓ Considering the level of Not My Job that this particular use of my power is, I'm surprised I only have a nosebleed. I was half expecting much worse. ⦔
⦓ This could be significantly worse than I thought... I'm going to have to push through this Void, aren't I ? I don't know if I'm capable of that. I guess I can try... ⦔
⦓ ... Apologies. Not trying to worry anyone. I'll be alright, I just... I don't like not knowing what's happening. The one and only thing my Class is supposed to do is be aware of certain things. When I can't even do that, I... Well, I was always the weakest link. It's alright. I'll rest a little, then try again. I can't break through the Void, that's not how it works, but... Perhaps I can find a gap somewhere. Something they've missed. ⦔
⦓ Maybe I just. Stop caring. I don't know how to do that but it might resolve the issue of my chest hurting this badly when I think about what could possibly be going wrong with them. I can never do right by them. If I had sought them out and nothing was wrong they would have tried to kill me. If I haven't looked for them and they're in trouble, then they'll be mad at me for not looking for them and they'll try and kill me. I should just fade into the background. I should just stop here. Ah... But I'm worried about them... ⦔
⦓ I. I need to lie down. I'm going to lie down on the grass now. ⦔
⦓ ... How? How? The Void player is dead! I know they are. I saw them die! Why is there Void in my way? This is all wrong... What are they doing? Why are they hiding? We won already. We won! We don't need to do things like this, so what... What is going on...? I... I hope it's just that they hate me. I hope it's something so simple. Maybe they just don't want me to find them so they've found a way to alchemise something with Void properties to hide from me. ⦔ ⦓ Please just be that. ⦔
⦓ I can't... find them. Oh. Oh that's not good. I'm just finding Void. That doesn't make sense. Our Void player died. What's going on here...? ⦔
⦓ ... Biting the bullet. I'm just... I'm just going to search for them directly. Oh they are going to be so mad... ⦔
⦓ ... Ah, fuck. That means I have to actually search for them directly, doesn't it. And then they'll notice, and then they'll be mad... Augh. I hope I survive this. I hate dying, it feels so, so horrible. And what if it's the last one? I don't like thinking about it... ⦔
⦓ ... Oh. He left it behind in his old hive, back on his Land. Well... At least he still had it when we started the game! That's honestly more than I expected, haha... ⦔
⦓ I wonder if Viccil still... Hmm. Maybe he still has that mooncatcher I gave him all those sweeps ago. Lets have a look. ⦔
⦓ Trying to recall objects that the others enjoyed... Not clothes or accessories, though, or they will feel my gaze regardless as they'll be wearing them. Mm... This is difficult. I only met the others once or twice in person, after all. ⦔
⦓ Maybe she moved. I. I should. Swallow my fear and just search for her directly, but I... I don't know if I'm quite ready for the fight that might lead to. I'll look for the next one. Maybe they're hanging out together. ⦔
⦓ ... Hm. That's... Odd. Dust on the bike. I suppose she hasn't had reason to use it since she can fly, but... I thought she loved this thing? Maybe she really did make a new one. Oh I should nottt be in her hive. This is such a breach of privacy. But I find myself even more worried for her now. I can't stop at this point, what if she's hurt somewhere and needs help? What if... What if we're down to 3? No, no no. That can't be right. I'm sure she just made a new bike that she likes more. ⦔
⦓ I have found her bike, and appeared outside her garage. Immediately I feel that I am somewhere I shouldn't be. I... I have decided I do not even need to actually see her. I will settle for just seeing proof that she has recently come hive. Then I'll know she's alive, and I can move on to finding the next. ⦔
⦓ I have considered another way to find them without their noticing. One of them has a hoverbike! I remember it very well... So provided I can zero in on it while she's not on it, I could, theoretically, find her garage. If she still has it, of course. It has been over half a sweep, and she may have made a new one. ⦔
⦓ Normal. I'm so normal now. My chest hurts so badly but aside from that I'm okay. That'll pass, it always does. Okay. Back to the search! I do wish my powers were a little more subtle sometimes so that I could find them without them immediately noticing and potentially getting absolutely livid. ⦔
⦓ Walking. Going to walk off this horrible pain in my chest! I know it's psychological because I would feel if something was out of place in a physical sense with my powers so this is. Uh. Probably. An anxiety attack? Yes. Something like that. Walking will solve it. Walking. Specifically walking away from the area. Let's not talk to anyone anymore I'll find everyone the old fashioned way I will just. Walk until I hit something. Yep. I'll just do that. ⦔
⦓ Nnnope nope no I'm good actually I'm cool with figuring it out the hard way hahahahaaha I do not need to talk to anyone I do not need to be worshipped do not worship me I'm literally just some guy I'm just some guything I'm just a dude I do not want to be called honorifics I do not want to be asked to bless people I don't do that I cannot do that that is not something I can do all I can do is know where things are and move myself and other things sometimes I do not do blessings I am not a god "god tier" is just a game phrase it doesn't mean anything it's just a level tier it just means you have some pow...Read more
⦓ ... Why am I scared? It's just talking to a single person. I can talk to a single person. I'm capable of that. ⦔
⦓ I have spotted a carapacian. A smallish Prospitian, who seems to be alone. Perhaps if I just... Talk to them... Eugh, I'm getting nervous just thinking about it... ⦔
⦓ I should probably tag all these ramblings for those who do not wish to see them... Mm... #mageexplores I suppose? I will use it from now on. And retroactively change a few posts, too. ⦔
⦓ Viccil had always joked that he'd become the mayor when we made the new world. Before it all went wrong. Before we knew that we wouldn't have 10. The talks of splitting up the landmass so we each could rule part were... Well, I wasn't involved in them. The assumption was always that I would share with my lover. Now, I don't have her, and I don't intend to rule over anything. I have a hive, and that's all I need. But Viccil had always wanted that kind of thing. I wonder if he runs a city now. ⦔
⦓ The town nearby seems... Quieter than I expected. Perhaps I am unused to towns, but I was so sure this place was busier. I suppose there's no harm in checking inside, but I do feel a little on edge. I have not been here in a long, long time. ⦔
⦓ Standing in the last place I saw them. It's been three quarters of a sweep, and this place still looks the same. Worn, perhaps. And there are plants growing through the cracks. But it's the same. Nothing new. I don't hear or see any sign of other trolls, nor even of Carapacians. I suppose they've all moved on to new avenues. Perhaps if I asked some of the carapacians, they could tell me, but I... I hate the way they look at me. Like I'm something much more than I am. Maybe I could bear it for a few moments... I'll see if I can find one alone. They tend to be much better alone than in a group. ⦔