Also, physical intimacy is nice and all, but I don't think I could ever really handle it, not cause I'm repulsed by it no no, cause I'm still a very touch starved individual. #suggestive
how bout you start with like a hug but with space between left for jesus like a little middle school dance waltz with somebody
Shit, you know I always gotta leave enough room for big J, but for real I've been through the thought process a million times bro, i think there virtually no way I can avoid at least having some kind of overstimulation fueled breakdown.
get it out of the way then give in to the feels and maybe theyll calm the hell down next time therapy might work too
Been going to therapy, it's been a slow but steady process.
youll get there man one day soon it wont even be a problem
Shit I know, but fuck it's gonna be a long ass journey, like a journey to the west, fucking call me sun wukong.
The cheat code is slowly building up the amount of touch you can handle while your brain is a a little fuzzy and not at full capacity yet. I started out with those hand holds that are just fingers linking while I was barely awake and functioning. Doesn't help with being touch starved but it does make it easier to handle skin-to-skin contact without wanting to rip all the arm hairs out pore by pore.
Shit, that is a pretty solid cheat code, maybe there's hope for my sorry ass yet.
Tip: Firm is better than light. Feels more solid and less tickly so it only feels like one sensation instead of 12
Noted.