Shazam Damned
@chattyCeazarnie
WRESTLER FOR THE SEROPHIN WRESTLING FEDERATION. FLY HIGH AND BRING THE THUNDER¡¡¡ THEY/THEM OR IT/ITS AFFILIATED WITH SWF. BUSINESS INQUIRIES TO THEIR EMAIL, NOT MINE¡
SHOWING UP TO PUT THE BEATDOWN ON YVONNE 'MONSTER MUNCH' LOPERL TOLIGHT ON SWF KILLNIGHTS¡ GONNA MAKE ONE OF THE CROWD TAKE A PRO-SHOT, I'LL POST IT WHEN ITS OVER¡
GEtting held while wraapped in aa blaankket aand waatching aanime. YOu aagree
SOUNDS BORING¡ I'D RATHER BE IN THE RING, LEARNING ABOUT SOMEONE THROUGH HOW THEY FIGHT¡
THaat aalso sounds likke aa pleaasaant paastime, however right now, I aam enjoying the former
MAYBE INSTEAD OF WATCHING ANIME LIKE SOME KIND OF SHUTIN LOSER, YOU CAN WATCH SWF KILLNIGHTS AND SEE ME, SHAZAM 'BLAM' DAMNED TEAR IT UP IN THE FOUR CORNERS¡
AAn interesting proposaal, certaainly. HOwever, I aam enjoying my snuggles
HAH¡ MY TASTES ARE HOLY AND IRREPROACHABLE BY DOCTRINE, MOTHERFUCKER. PLUS, I GET TO SHOW EVERYONE WHO'S THE BOSS OF THE RING. SOUNDS PRETTY AWESOME TO ME¡
○ ● ○ ╰( ◕ ◡ ◕ )╯ _|| ||_ BLOOD 49:27 "rai2e yOur vOice2, lift them On high. fOr Our little baabea2t, whO2e blOOd i2 Oh 2O 2weet, let her ichOr be Our 2alvatiOn and an Offering tO thO2e mirthful twO. LET OUR KNIVE2 CARVE HER FLE2H AND PULL THE PIGMENT FROM HER VEIN2. drink my 2i2ter2. and drink deep." #viOlence #n2fwe #cannabali2m #clurch #mirthfulpO2ting #2cripture ○ ● ○
WHOOP WHOOP TO THE TWO ABOVE¡
ENOUGH TIME HAS PASSED. START POSTING YOUR HEIGHTS AGAIN.
I need everyone to look at nny lusus, bog ol' stretchy stretch1 https://cdn.inngchest.conn/files/1646efed1bc6.png
FUCK YES FUCK YES FUCK YES¡¡¡¡¡ SO FRESH¡¡¡¡¡¡¡
my hEAd stIll hUrts tErrIbly bUt Its ImpOrtAnt tO smIlE AnywAys :)
IvE bEEn dEAlIng wIth... sOmEthIng? pErhAps An IllnEss Of thE pAn, Or A spIrItUAl pOssEssIOn? It hAs bEEn AIlIng mE I Am stIll In thE hOspItAl frOm Its lAst ExcUrsIOn And It Is gEttIng wOrsE
SHIIIIIIIIIIIT... I DON'T KNOW A WHOLE LOT ABOUT THAT KIND OF THING. I DUNNO, THAT'S SCARY... BUT I KNOW A MOTHERFUCKER'S GOT THIS IN THE BAG¡ NOTHING STRONGER THAN FAMILY¡
I hAvE IndEEd gOt thIs In thE bAg kIn prAyEr wIll gEt mE thrOUgh thIs sUrEly It wIll
LISTEN, PRAYER IS ALL WELL AND GOOD. IT HAS ITS PLACE. BUT SOMETIMES YOU NEED TO PRAY IN YOUR OWN WAY. BESEECH THE MESSIAHS ON HIGH WITH EVERY OUNCE OF YOU¡ I DO IT IN THE RING. WHEN I PERFORM A SICKNASTY HURRICANRANA ON THE NECK OF SOME CHUMPED UP LITTLE BLUEBLOOD, THAT'S ME POINTING DIRECTLY AT THE MESSIAHS AND SAYING: THAT'S FOR YOU, MOTHERFUCKERS¡¡¡ YOU GOT ANYTHING LIKE THAT¿
I Uhm Am mOrE Of A schOlAr dO nOt gEt mE wrOng thE mEssIAhs grAnt strEngth thrOUgh thE blOOd Of OUr kIn bUt AmOngst OUr kInd I Am A tAd bIt spIndly I sUppOsE, stUdy Is my pOwEr? Or, sOmEthIng Of thE sOrt? I dO nOt- dIsAgrEE wIth thE spIllIng Of blOOd Of cOUrsE As thE dOctrInA ImpErAtUs Of thE 7th AgE wOUld mAkE lAw fOr thE clUrch, prAIsE bE I jUst... knOw my EffOrts ArE bEst In A lIbrAry thAn A fIghtIng pIt
THAT'S WHY I SAID 'ANYTHING LIKE THAT', LITTLE SISTER. I KNOW THE RING AIN'T FOR EVERYONE¡ EVERYONE HAS THEIR STEEZE WHICH THEY USE AS THEIR OWN PERSONAL WORSHIP. IF STUDY IS YOURS...MAYBE IT'S TIME TO FALL BACK ONTO YOUR BOOKS¿ ONES YOU HAVEN'T LOOKED AT IN A WHILE¿
thAt Is fAIr I hAvE bEEn rErEAdIng ObscUrE trAnslAtIOns Of thE bOOk Of zEntrI thAt wIll sAtIAtE fOr thE mOmEnt thAnk yOU sIblIng
FIGURED I'D SHOW OFF MY LUSUS OUTSIDE OF MY PFP. ISN'T SHE THE FUCKIN' BEST¿ SHE'S A PUREBRED FANCY SCREECHFOWL¡ I SNAPPED THIS PIC OF HER DURING SECOND SPRING BACK ON ALTERNIA. BUT SHE HASN'T GROWN MUCH SINCE THEN, HONESTLY¡ HA HA HA HA¡¡ HTTPS://CDN.IMGCHEST.COM/FILES/0500270BB341.WEBP
she is. so pprettyy she llookss llikee. iinsteadd of ppipipii she ssayss eeeaaa!
HAHA HELL YEAH¡ SHE OFTEN PUFFS HER NECK FEATHERS REAL BIG AND GOES, LIKE. "EEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA¡"
SLASH OR PASS¿ ALWAYS ALWAYS SLASH¡¡¡ I'LL PULL YOUR INNARDS OUT WHERE YOUR EYES ARE¡ #VIOLENCE
#pass i don't have a blade #bucketslashorpass #suggestive
꧁#grief #zebruhcodakk #kryqusxyllem #traumadumping #selfreflection #mourning #cwdeath #cwobsession #cwpublicspectacle #nsfwe Hhhh. I've spent a long time trying to determine if there is an appropriate amount of time before I should stop being affected by something that rewrote all of the scribbles of my thinkpan. I haven't found the correct determination of time. Which, I guess, is surprising to me. I thought I would understand time very well by joining the Felt. But I think I understand it less. It's been a long time since Zebruh. I can say that plainly. It's not pretty. It's noe like, a bit of romantic devotion to him. Not as like, a joke, or a badge. Or an announcement. I'm not trying to make you all twitch. It's just. How long it's been since Zebruh. That's the line my pan keeps returning to. Since Zebruh. Before Zebruh, happiness wasn't easy. It was recognizable, sure, but it came like a pressure. It was a small mercy chemically dispensed through my pan to make my continued suffering worth it. A message could sit in my pan for nights and keep me warm enough to survive #mypod. After him, happiness just doesn't happen the same. It's awful. I still laugh, I still get flustered, I still enjoy board games and measurements and my little bits of cruelty from Chittr. I feel the stupid jump in my thumper when someone says something kind. I think I believe them for half a second. But I have to punish myself for believing them. Nothing gets as high anymore. The happiness reaches the ceiling and breaks its horsn against it. Everything pleasant is aware of itself and the room around it. I am skeptical at all times. Every little warm thing has me checking the corners of the room as if it is allowed to exist in my life. I used to think being noticed by him was proof that I had been made real. Then I lost him. Then everyone noticed me. And being real became unbearable. I wish I could say I learned something from it. I wish grief made me kinder, or convenient. I wish I could say I'm done confusing my feelings of devotion with feelings of surrender. I can't discern between attention, and safety. I want to be understood. I'm not finished. I'm not finished healing, but I am trying. There's a little humiliating difference, you know. Kryqus made me understand another piece of it, whether he meant to or not. The incident with him, and the way that I was forced to look at myself like a carnival machine that chews on its visitors. It's staying with me too. I was angry, I am always angry, really. Of course I was. Anger is easy. He recoiled from me, and I felt angry. But, he eventually relented. Thankfully, he finally declared that he officially had no interest with me. I'm happy about that, I guess. In the same, small, fleeting way. I wanted to say it was all voluntary. I wanted to say everyone who came near me knew what the page was. I wanted to say I am only a mirror, and if someone bleeds on the glass, that is hardly the fault of the reflection. A mirror can still be cruel, especially if the subject is. A stage can be a trap. Chittr is a trap. It is a stage of grief and cruelty. I do not know what all transpired with Kryqus after. I don't wnat to know. I guess. Out of fear that I had something to do with it. Maybe more than I would like. Maybe the incident was never really between us as individuals, but between what I made and what it allowed people to become while standing near it. I don't want to know. No single apology in the world could fix it. What happened. I know I can't fix it. I can't fix him. I can't fix how I felt or, maybe, still feel about him. My pan is fresh, it is always fresh. Like a recently peeled scab that keeps trying to heal over itself. I think I am coming to terms with the fact that I will not return to who I was before Zebruh. I was not better. I was simply broken differently. I do not think happiness returning at a lower rate means its fake. I still get to feel happy. But it's all maintenance. I hate maintenance. Maybe this is cope. Maybe it is ugly. I loved Zebruhh. I love him so much. But I lost him. Something in me dimmed, broke, and let me crumble into a spot where I have harmed and embarrassed myself in public enough times to know that shame is my indecency. I am not decent enough to do or be anything new. I am a spectacle, mistaken for needing saved. I am continuing to make a spectacle out of myself because that's what makes Chittr clap. Even if pitifully. But I am still here. Not triumphantly, or, as a symbol of something. Don't make me into a discourse object, or a pity offering. Do not see this as a reason to ask more invasive questions in my messages. I am an inventory note. Vesica Anelus remains present as the Panoptic. Happiness is present, but altered. Grief is present, and intrusive, and is sovereign over me as it pleases. I remain, unfortunately, responsible for what I preserve on this website. Hhh. His page remains under review. Given he is dead. This will continue. That will have to be enough for tonight. Because there is nothing more I can say. I just miss being the nothing more part of that. #Nothingness꧂
YO, I HAVE NO MOTHERFUCKING IDEA WHO ZEBRUH WAS. BUT I'VE BEEN THERE. I'VE BEAT DOWN COUNTLESS RIVALS IN MY TIME, AND SOME OF 'EM AIN'T GOTTEN BACK UP. AND I'VE FELT ALL KINDS OF DIFFERENT THINGS ABOUT THEM¡ STUFF THAT I CAN'T RECONCILE NOW THAT THEIR FACES ARE SMASHED PULPS ON THE SIDE OF THE RING. IT'S HARD TO RECONCILE, AND A LOT OF THE TIME THERE'S NO ANSWER. MY POINT IS, I GUESS, THAT YOU JUST HAVE TO KEEP ON MOVING FORWARD AND TRUST THAT IT'S RIGHT.
th1s goes hard... guys he's actually k1nda bad*ss...
AWWW THIS LITTLE DUDE IS SO FRESH¡ IS HE YOUR LUSUS¿ MY MOM IS IN MY PFP¡
yooo your mom looks k1ck1n, bro... nah tho, that's l1l pep1to! more l1ke my lusus's bab1es... someth1ng l1ke a fam1ly member w1th the same lusus as me... man 1 w1sh there was a word for that, haha...
SLICK AS ALL HELL, BRO¡ I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW LUSII COULD EVEN *DO* THAT. FUCKIN' FRESH FRESH FRESH¡¡¡¡
r1ght r1ght r1ght??? 1 was l1ke, woaaah }:O thought t1nkerbull had someth1ng wrong w1th em, but turns out he- or uh, SHE, was full of l1l m1n1 t1nks... crazy sh*t, bro...
haha, yeah, for sure... 1 a1n't 1nto the clown th1ng, but more power to ya, brosk1 }:)
AWWWW SHAME¡ I LOVE THE CLOWN THING¡¡ BUT I LOVE FIGHTING WAY MORE¡ MEET ME IN THE RING SOMETIME, BRO¡ WE'LL FIGURE OUT WHO'S STRONGER¡