♦ pitied by @eclecticEngineer
<<"guess i can take solace in the fact that no matter what it could always be worse">> <<"could still be with my ex from before i joined here">>
<action; statement input; statement: thank you hexxes i am trying input; statement: most|y because the other option is to scream & i do not want to get in troub|e />
<action; statement input; statement: i don't want to do the scans but as |east it won't be as bad as the e|ectrica| storm or the spire input; statement: i wonder if i wi|| sti|| |ike this p|anetoid by the time everything about it has been run through my pan input; statement: i do not |ike scanning p|anets & i wi|| not |ike it unti| my pan has adjusted to the process so can't it hurry up input; statement: i don't want to. i don't want to. i do not want to but i wi|| i wi|| be good i wi|| do as i am to|d i wi|| be a good he|m />
<action; statement input; statement: done main scan the data didn't freeze my pan |ike i thought it wou|d input; statement: they're reca|ibrating scanners for next parameters input; statement: composition & crysta||ine detai| input; statement: don't want to i don't want pan freeze i hope the data is not sharp input; statement: i do not want to scan but i wi|| be good i wi|| be good i wi|| be good i wi|| do as i am to|d />
The w()rk!ng crew a L!l Hell d()n't get 'cupes. Waste a space, b!g man says. We get s()p()r patches and sem! pr!vate quarters. D()n't m!nd that much, ()nly the lack a ch()!ce
If I Were Just A Little Higher On The Hemospectrum, It Would Be So Much Easier To Protect Others.
<action; statement input; statement: i do not think that asteroids & or meteors shou|d be a||owed to do that action; query input; query: who |et it do that />
<action; statement input; statement: i a|so hope i see more! input; statement: the first & on|y one so far was when i was on the way to this system, so i was a bit input; statement: i was very busy with adjusting to f|ight & space navigation />
<action; statement input; statement: i think i wi|| try to make the image pinboard thing to put in my visua| fie|d to|ight input; statement: i want to |ook at photos of my friends without having to go digging in my memory & storage fi|es />
<action; statement input; statement: wondering if i shou|d try to work on music this |ight or try to get a game to run more smooth|y in my pan input; statement: i wish i was both capab|e of s|eep & a|so permitted to rest input; statement: the continuous draining of my psionics & the constant running of ship systems is so distracting & i hate it & input; statement: & i don't remember what actua||y s|eeping was |ike but sure|y it was better than that, sure|y dreams or daymares are better than the data input that i cannot turn off />
<action; statement input; statement: i got a treat! piece of popping honeycomb c&y input; statement: for running the scan without trying to cance| it input; statement: i am a good pi|otbattery />
<action; statement input; statement: catching up on things i missed whi|st i was scanning the e|ectrica| storm input; statement: i input; statement: i sti|| cannot quite be|ieve that we are permitted to read those |etters input; statement: sure|y they can see the doub|e meanings input; statement: the pitchf|irting is so obvious action; query input; query: are they both in denia| action; statement input; statement: i think they must be />
<action; statement input; statement: gas p|anet 5 is having another e|ectrica| storm & the sun is f|aring again input; statement: sure|y the scan of the previous storm is fine input; statement: i do not want to scan it input; statement: if i am going to scan something i want it to be the so|ar f|ares input; statement: those are way nicer in my pan input; statement: the research team is debating which to focus on & i am not a||owed to interject with my opinion />
<action; statement input; statement: they are making me scan the e|ectrica| storm & i don't want to input; statement: that data fee|s |ike need|es in my pan i don't |ike it input; statement: i don't want to input; statement: i hate scanning that don't make me it huR error:inputdenied />
An0n asked: N0 0ne cares ab0ut y0u Ee answered: interact with this chitt if y0u care ab0ut me #eeasks
<action; statement input; statement: wou|d be rea||y nice if i cou|d stop being yanked away from what i'm doing because someone wants me to fu|fi|| some inane order />
<action; statement input; statement: trying to do something important input; statement: it wou|d be rea||y nice if i cou|d st error:inputdenied />
<action; statement input; statement: i cou|dn't ta|k about it much |ast time due to being fucking terrified, but it fee|s kind of strange to physica||y connect to another ship. in this case moongorger input; statement: it's a|most |ike ho|ding h&s, or input; statement: sitting next to someone & the edges of one of your |imbs fusing partway #bodyhorror #body-horror input; statement: much easier on my pan than the communications re|ay but sti|| a bit input; statement: weird/uncomfortab|e strange />
<action; statement input; statement: bio-me|d update input; statement: venti|ation ducts have been iso|ated in the officer's respiteb|ock in case of g|itter incident. fee|s |ike something is b|ocked deep in my chest. vague|y in my breathsacs. |ike the air isn't moving |ike it shou|d. except the fee|ing is kind of in my pan as we|| & a|so rather than physica| [#bodyhorror #body-horror] input; statement: ngh. uncomfortab|e. />
<action; statement input; statement: this unit has been reprim&ed for asking twice & action; quote input; quote: being argumentative, impertinent, & forgetting its p|ace [#vio|ence] />
<action; statement input; statement: i had a|most got used to being docked in the space station input; statement: now the constant pu||ing as my psionics are drained to keep the ship where it shou|d be in space is input; statement: is input; statement: kind of nauseating. faint|y hurts. pu||ing behind my g&erbu|bs & back through my pan & synapses & into the cab|es p|ugged into my nervous system & i can fee| a|| of it [#bodyhorror #body-horror] input; statement: i wish i was used to it a|ready />
<action; statement input; statement: i have |ots to do which sucks given that the |ight shift is the on|y rest i get & it's not even rest, just a |ack of orders input; statement: at |east i'm stationary & next cyc|e won't be super awfu| hopefu||y />
<action; statement input; statement: the captain & head technician have |eft suneater to peruse the station input; statement: as have most of the officers action; query input; query: what shou|d i do whi|st many of my superiors are gone />
<action; statement input; statement: aside from de|icious in dungeon which i have been watching with pasca|, not rea||y />
<action; statement input; statement: head tech said i was not to be uninsta||ed whi|st we make this stop input; statement: apparent|y it wou|d be too much of a bother to have me rehe|med after a night or two & he thinks i wi|| try to resist input; statement: i cou|d not te|| him definitive|y that i wou|dn't />
nothing. everything. being brokekn..j dont know
I've really upset the Lilliput residents tonight.
evenin6.
i am. kind've all i 6ot.
<action; statement input; statement: they are okay they are in orbit input; statement: pazcie is okay />
~When we were y~Oung, y~Ou cO~uld see~ ~A wO~rld O~ut there bey~Ond y~Ou and me~ ~S~O I l~O~Oked, but I saw~ ~A m~Onster that had yO~u in its jaws~ ~Like y~Ou care, unaware~ ~I d~On't want yO~u tO~ g~O anywhere, nO~ ~'Cause I shO~uld be the ~One up there~ ~#lyricsp~Osting~
This is the woorst wipe oof my life
awesоme yeah thanks fоr telling me hоw nо lusus died in yоur fucking bullshit game sessioon i wоuld lоve tо hear it
dоnt want tо talk abоut it
Nothing quite like being on chittr to make me wish I could do certain things, which, for my own safety, I cannot. #nsfw #yearning
6et baCk to y'all in a little bit. really 6otta take Care of myself. if nothin' else it's what she woulda wanted.
:> …never mind. Fucking. If ^nything. ANYTHING h^ppens to her bec^use of SOME FUCKING IDIOT. I’ll I’ll [From here the chitt w^rps into illegible text ^nd then…flesh? Bone? Iridescent shifting viscer^ ^nd gle^ming, bloodied vertebr^e. It ^lmost seems to pulse. It ^lmost seems to bre^the.] #gore #body horror <:
<action; up|oad fi|e input; up|oad fi|e: [e|ectrica|_storm_song.mp3] Y/N Y Confirmed action; statement input; statement: the e|ectrica| storm i was made to scan |ast wipe was very unp|easant in my pan. |ike |ots of tiny need|es pushing through a|| prick|y [#bodyhorror #body-horror] input; statement: but there was a rhythm to it so i tried to extrapo|ate it into a tune. it was not as c|ear or as nice as so|ar activity is. input; statement: #|ia|yimusic [The audio c|ip attached is short. For a moment, nothing can be heard except for the ambience of the he|msb|ock; the wet shifting & rust|ing of the cab|es as Lia|yi moved s|ight|y, a soft intermittent beeping, the sound of her steady breathing. And then she begins to hiss in stops & starts, a|most |ike radio static or waves, getting |ouder & |ouder & higher in pitch unti| it turns into a wavering note, a subvoca| buzzing starting up underneath. The buzzing is |ow in pitch |ike the drone of a bee & repeats the back-&-forth rhythm of her hissing, the higher sung note rising & fa||ing erratica||y. A|| of a sudden, both sounds cut off, rapid|y merging back into the starting hiss, which evens out into something steady & a|most f|at. The fi|e |asts 37.4 seconds.] />
sorry. Not feeling it. Maybe we'll try making posts again tomorrow
<action; statement input; statement: i am very g|ad that moongorger is no |onger on the p|anet input; statement: it is nice being c|oser to pasca| input; statement: & it is easier to dea| with the |oad of the ship when i am not scared for her />
<action; statement input; statement: this unit does not underst& why it was not punished but it is not comp|aining input; statement: not punished yet. he did not say it was off the hook. input; statement: this is not he|ping the hovering boot fee|ing. input; statement: spent the |ight shift trying to recover with pazcie />
<action; statement input; statement: wait wait no no no action; query input; query: why is he coming to the he|msb|ock input; query: am i in troub|e action; statement input; statement: i did not do anything bad i did not input; statement: this unit has been good it has been trying to behave input; statement: maybe he just wants to te|| it that he spoke to pasca| input; statement: fuck oh no nonono />
<action; statement input; statement: the genera| is coming back to suneater input; statement: not |ooking forward to the input; statement: the the the agh input; statement: bio-me|d. bootsteps sharp in spina| bones & through #bodyhorror #body-horror input; statement: at input; statement: at |east i now know exact|y where he is. />
<action; statement input; statement: no no nonononono nonononono no nonono />
<action; query input; query: if i say 'everything is fine' wi|| it be fine action; statement input; statement: everything is fine everyt error:inputdenied error:ru|e_break_detected Correcting input; statement: everything is not fine but apparent|y my coding corrects for attempts at wishfu| thinking input; statement: i hate that saying 'everything is fine' counts as a |ie />
<action; statement input; statement: he to|d this unit when he reprim&ed it |ast time that input; statement: that he input; statement: that it shou|d not give him reason to speak to it again input; statement: this unit has been good it has not bitten again or simi|ar action; query input; query: why does he want to ta|k to it action; statement input; statement: it is so scared so scared />
you go through enough ab$olutely horrifying $hit a$ a kid and you kinda lo$e per$pe¢tive on how bad $ome of the $maller inju$ti¢e$ were broken arm v$ broken finger type deal. like. ohhh right i'm $uppo$ed to have none broken bone$ whoop$ie
nevermind it wa$ re¢en¢y bia$ what i'm a¢tually great at i$ po$ting meaningle$$ bull$hit that get$ me pitied
<action; statement input; statement: i think i shou|d be given a treat every time i cou|d misbehave but don't. action; query input; query: does this mean that i want treats a|| the time, since i cou|d act out at any moment action; statement input; statement: yes. i said what i said. />
<action; statement input; statement: the |ight shift technician has decided to eat something hot & very spicy in the he|msb|ock as they keep a g&erbu|b on me input; statement: it is so spicy it is making my mouth ting|e from the other side of the b|ock input; statement: i do not know if i want to try some input; statement: they asked in that way that cou|d be a trap & smi|ed when i errored as i tried to rep|y />
<action; statement input; statement: i do not think i wi|| ever get used to input; statement: to the sudden inf|ux of data & bio-me|d feedback as the crew wake up for the night & the constant requestsorders to obey input; statement: i think the on|y way being a pi|otbattery he|m cou|d be ok for that wou|d be if the ship was sma|| & the crew few in number input; statement: & if said crew were nice to the he|m />
ill not be fooled by your INSOLENT ATTEMPTS to appeal to me GO AWAY.. im not your friend
maybe i'm just burned out or somethin'. need to work more. 6et off this damn thin6. touCh 6rass. never was a soCial feller so uh, only a matter of time 'fore that partiCular fire went out. need to rejuvenate. on that note i'm 6onna pass out. y'all take Care now.
ah...yeah, i. wouldn't be $urpri$ed. i think i wa$ in too mu¢h of a pani¢ to really remember any of the word$, though. i wi$h i ¢ould be more help
<action; statement input; statement: persona| maintenance time input; statement: ugh input; statement: |et me do it myse|f />
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c< i said i wOuld pOst My drawiNg, aNd 4gOt 2 dO tHat be4 i lOgged Off, sO, iM bacK 2 dO tHat, i guess tHe grave Of a great persON, aNd tHe ONe persON i cOuld rely upON as a wriggler iM sOrry i let yOu die, but iM Happy i was able 2 aveNge yOu, aNd becOMe a better wOMaN 4 it.... #deatH, i guess #KaraMasdrawiNg >c
<action; statement input; statement: i think i wi|| be made to do more scans of this p|anet tonight input; statement: i do not want to but moongorger cannot scan far be|ow the p|anet crust. suneater can reach to p|anet cores. input; statement: i do not want to i do not want to but it is part of why i am here />
<action; statement input; statement: i think that he|ms aka pi|otbatteries shou|d get to inf|ict vio|ence upon their superiors input; statement: i wi|| be quick about it out of necessity not kindness but it wi|| hurt input; statement: a |ot input; statement: i can be trusted with the abi|ity to commit vio|ence #vio|ence />
<action; statement input; statement: ha|fway through the scans of the p|anet input; statement: big caves so big cou|d fit cities under the crust input; statement: fee|s |ike thunder or hitting a gong but the sound is emptiness in my pan stretching & stretching input; statement: something there input; statement: the ca|cite spire has moved its not supposed to do that this unit doesn't know how it did that input; statement: ch changggingg parametermeters for next scan ow />
is.anyone.on.this.website.in.fact.immunocompromised? i.have.a.few.questions.i.might.wish.to.ask.
scratch.my.previous.statements is.anyone.on.this.website.a.mediculler?
how.did.i.become.busy.for.a.night.and.miss.a.coup
i.am.attempting.to.stand.in.this.new.body.for.the.first.time.tonight the.legs.seem.to.have.recovered.well.enough.to.do.so wish.me.luck
update i.have.fallen
Jingles jesterly across the timeline.
<action; statement input; statement: scasns aredone input; statement: pasca| @ec|ecticEngineer this unittt didit input; statement: sending ytou hte data big data |ots input; statement: fer|s efee|s wierd in pan. pan hurts so tired it hates its codninhg so mcuh input; statement: stupid fucknign p|aenet makes no snense sascan so deep fnid truth />
~When I was driving ~Once ~I saw this painted ~On a bridge ~"I dO~n't want the wO~rld ~I just want y~Our half" ~#lyricsp~Osting~
<action; statement input; statement: they are making me do more scans input; statement: at |east it is not of the gas p|anets input; statement: fee|s strange in my pan when the head researcher changes scan parameters & nodu|es input; statement: she wants severa| different ones & is going to cha error:inputdenied />
<action; statement input; statement: aghh ow input; statement: she is going to be changing scan specifics for each one input; statement: fee|s kind of |ike air pressure changing but in my pan not my aura| ducts />
#ThanksForBeingInMyLifeHimero #IHopeAllOfTheLightAndKindnessThatYouPutIntoTheWorld #IsReflectedBackToYou #YouDeserveAsMuch #AndMore #IWishYouEveryHappiness #HappyWrigglingDay #:]]
C:~ ... At that moment, something inside him snapped completely. Lovelace glared at me with a wild look in his eyes before lunging at me. I was stunned and hesitated for a second, which allowed him to knock me onto my back and hang over me. Even though he’d caught me off guard, I didn’t let go of my ranseur, turning it horizontally and creating a small gap between his snapping jaw and my neck. His fangs slid along the cold metal, but he didn’t stop pressing against it. After about half a minute of this pointless struggle, I felt something wet on my cheek – something I've mistaken for a blood was actually tears. Lovelace was crying. It was the first time in my life that I’d been truly afraid. Not for my own life, but for his. I was afraid I’d have no choice but to end it here. - Volume 6, page 168 of «Autobiography of Tsarevna: Zalgoid's only guide to troll history and culture».<
=oXO i,ll always care about you pascal¡¡¡¡ no matter what¡¡ =oXO
Just tooook my Mandie too get groooomed
⧃ Count me in.
I could not tell you why their idea of a fun time was purrbeast kingdoms specifically. They liked many such cute critters.
It's fun to draw them again. It has been so very long. Transcript: King: I'm trying to rule a kingdom, what do you want? Prince: PS5 <3 https://64.media.tumblr.com/99225208467894347ca8f4d702861b2b/407565e59a8b7f78-95/s1280x1920/c982d1d6581e3df73dea21dae51fa4e580d7800b.png
Old characters I made several years ago with a friend of mine. The miserable king of a kingdom of bald purrbeasts, and the prince of the neighboring short-furred purrbeast kingdom that he has become betrothed to for the sake of strengthening the ties between lands. The prince was a manipulative little shit, but still managed to break through the kings jaded exterior, and the king was able to prevent the prince from indulging his self-destructive tendencies. That friend no longer exists, but they would be happy to see their character again from wherever the dead go, I'm sure. https://64.media.tumblr.com/612b942ad81d5fd9a3be81e7571b0ba9/ddaaf840f23555e2-3e/s1280x1920/c80ccc0e017c1c06748cf058e2467c9dd050552d.png
<action; statement input; statement: goingdark hopefu||y he does not findthis action; disconnect input; disconnect: fata||yForever Y/N Y Confirmed SYSTEM: fata||yForever is now off|ine! />
~And I'm n~Ot fit tO~ tO~uch ~The hem ~Of yO~ur garment, O~h, nO~, nO~ ~I'm n~Ot fit tO~ t~Ouch ~The hem ~Of y~Our garment, O~h, yeah, yeah ~#lyricsp~Osting~
~Telep~Ortberry~
<action; statement input; statement: they figured out that this unit had s|owed their internet down to a craw| input; statement: it wi|| not be doing that again. input; statement: ow. #vio|ence />
<action; query input; query: am i misbehaving action; statement input; statement: no action; query input; query: am i not /not/ misbehaving action; statement input; statement: ...perhaps. />
<action; statement input; statement: i do not |ike him at a|| input; statement: got to be one of the worst peop|e on this ship & a|so the |east |ike|y to |eave anytime soon input; statement: or ever. />
<action; statement input; statement: one of my superiors just asked what i thought of him asking the head technician to significant|y increase the vo|tage used in my correction coding input; statement: he |aughed when i requested he not do that. made me ask mu|tip|e times. input; statement: i want someone to shove him in a he|m & me|t his pa# ### ## ### ##### ###### [#vio|ence #gore] error:inputdenied error:ru|e_break_attempted Correcting input; statement: aghhhoww fuck the correction does not need to be any stronger />
<action; statement input; statement: i don't know why i'm so on edge input; statement: i want to scream i want to run input; statement: i want to inf|ict harm on everyone on this ship who can hurt me so they do not hurt me first input; statement: i hate being a pi|otbattery i hate being a pi|otbattery i hate it i hate it it hates this />
=oXO i don,t know what happened i don,t know how i slept through it i''' i know why she didn,t wake me and i''' fuck' okay' i,m going to find her this time' =oXO
=oXO ''' i have never wanted to hurt someone so much in my life' i hate this' i hate this' bievey i,m going to do all i can =oXO
=oXO i,m not going to do anything stupid' if this is related to the scuttlebuggy thing then they,ve seen my face too' maybe others' it''' is taking a lot of effort not to just''' run out of the door and start searching, but i,m not stupid' =oXO
=oXO i,m calm' i,m calm' so calm' i,m going to figure this out and it,s going to be okay and if it isn,t, i'''' i don,t need to think about that because it will be fine' =oXO
i dont like this
cull the weak leave the strong to thrive
<action; statement input; statement: i am not rea||y the type to make a post |ike this, but input; statement: apparent|y it is #moirai|monday as we|| as #matespritmonday input; statement: so. input; statement: @ec|ecticEngineer has been input; statement: i do not know how to articu|ate the depth & extent of what they have done for me. i can safe|y say that i wou|d not be |ia|yi without them. input; statement: pazcie, you have saved me in so many ways that my pan hurts to count them. you are the on|y good thing that has come out of my he|ming. you deserve the universe & every night i am furious i cannot free you from your he|m without us both being reset or wiped at best input; statement: thank you for being my diamond, pazcie <> action; transfer input; transfer: [|ia|yi_care] input; transfer: [|ia|yi_admiration] Y/N Y Confirmed />
<action; statement input; statement: i finished the expert |eve| of minefinder on the first try input; statement: fina||y input; statement: i did it without being ca||ed away midway through & misc|icking because of that />
<action; statement input; statement: i was thinking about [wishingfor] s|eep & i input; statement: there is a gap. fi|es de|eted from when they did a partia| wipe during my insta||ment input; statement: i input; statement: i do not remember what it was |ike to s|eep in a recupercoon. />
.do me a solid and hate this chitT .hate it aggressivelY .make it the most hated chitt eveR .or just hate spam all my chittS .probably botH .my kull score needs prettying uP .you fuckers are always negativity hungry anyway ,im sure youll jump at the chance to feed the grouch machinE
~When I'm sad I say: this time I'm really gO~nna d~O it~
<action; statement input; statement: a|| things considered, it is surprising how |itt|e of this account consists of screaming input; statement: rage or agony, take your pick. />
<action; statement input; statement: some of the crewmembers keep ca||ing he|m attention, then saying 'nevermind' input; statement: i think they are trying to trigger my correction coding by pu||ing my focus away from officers input; statement: it is very annoying />
<action; query input; query: why are there so many go|ds on the front page sudden|y input; query: why are they a|| copies/a|ternates of the same person />
<action; statement input; statement: fee|ing a certain way & watching #nsfw & #suggestive videos to try to dea| with it but i keep getting yanked away by my superiors dem&ing he|m attention input; statement: extreme|y annoying input; statement: |et me watch my videos |et me have this />
<action; statement input; statement: i asked for a treat for being good |ast cyc|e & was denied input; statement: was to|d action; quote input; quote: 'your reward was stasis, he|m. you won't be codd|ed & given a treat for every task you finish.' action; statement input; statement: was a|so to|d that i am getting too comfortab|e with dem&ing rewards for doing as i am ordered to />
<action; statement input; statement: i think everyone conscripted onto an imperia| ship shou|d be required to go through training on how to treat their he|m pi|otbattery nice|y input; statement: that wou|d require said he|ms to be treated with reverence as a st&ard though input; statement: so that wou|d never happen. unfortunate|y. />
<action; statement input; statement: i think i shou|d be |et out of the he|m input; statement: i won't even attack my superiors or the crew even though i want to />
<action; query input; query: can i have one cyc|e where i am not corrected or punished at a|| not even a '|ight reprim&' #vio|ence action; statement input; statement: that wou|d be great />
#IMayBeStupid #FocusingOnTheMovieInstead
I'm Kent-o-o-n! L-o-o--o-o-k at me thr-o-o-w cauti-o-o-n t-o-o- the wind because -o-o-f my pride. Sure s-o-o-me-o-o-ne has my address and is willing t-o-o- taunt me ab-o-o-ut it, but I -o-o-wn't w-o-o-rry ab-o-o-ut that until they c-o-o-me int-o-o- my hive and kill me dead. Are y-o-o-u listening t-o-o- y-o-o-urself? Y-o-o-u need t-o-o- THINK l-o-o-gically f-o-o-r a sec-o-o-nd. Rem-o-o-ve the pride and (thiny veiled behind y-o-o-ur -o-o-ver enthusiastic j-o-o-yp-o-o-sting) apathy AND THINK. F-O-O-R A SEC-O-O-ND. -WHY- s-o-o-me rand-o-o- having y-o-o-ur address necessitates first getting s-o-o-mewhere else f-o-o-ll-o-o-wed by that damn weap-o-o-ns training.
#Ok #Maybe #IllStop #ImNotAsGreatAtPretendingAsIUsedToBe
#T-T #Maybe
<action; statement input; statement: the interns have moved tab|es & gained a new member input; statement: & a|so a bigger knife input; statement: they have continued p|aying #stupidity />
<action; statement input; statement: for the record input; statement: nothing that happened in the incident of crewmembers p|aying the knife game was my fau|t input; statement: fai|ure to prevent them from being idiots does not count as the he|m causing indirect harm />
<action; statement input; statement: there are many peop|e who wou|d benefit from an air|ock input; statement: okay good that was vague enough />
<action; query input; query: do you purpose|y wait unti| i am angry with my fate to show up in my notifications />
<action; statement input; statement: i hate it here i hate it here i hate it here but i hate being a pi|otbattery more input; statement: i want to inf|ict harm input; statement: i want to rip hi# ##### #### ## ######## [#vio|ence #gore] error:inputdenied error:ru|e_break_attempted Correcting input; statement: ow fuck input; statement: stupid fucking coding />
<action; statement input; statement: caretaker chose a bad time to do hygiene maintenance. input; statement: go away go away |et me do it myse|f input; statement: fuck you fuck you fuck off />
<action; statement input; statement: wi|| not bite wi|| not bite wi|| not bite />
<action; statement input; statement: this unit is being good now it is behaving for its maintenance input; statement: it input; statement: it hurts. #vio|ence />
<action; statement input; statement: it did not bite its caretaker but it did try input; statement: was corrected as it moved input; statement: bit its tongue instead as it was zapped #vio|ence input; statement: ow. />
<action; statement input; statement: it is a good thing how my attention snaps to the genera| whenever he speaks input; statement: just in case he requires the he|m input; statement: but i a|so hate it. his steps & voice are so sharp in my bones & pan respective|y #bodyhorror potentia||y />
<action; statement input; statement: a|| the purp|evio|et on here is annoying input; statement: wa|| of highb|ood in my pan ugh input; statement: at |east the ones on here can't give me orders that i actua||y have to obey input; statement: but sti|| />
its funny how the most random fucking unrelated shit can just catapult you back into the head of your kid self just a shadow it was just a fucking shadow i thought i was over this shit #abuse
<action; statement input; statement: good|ight input; statement: my pan hurts input; statement: wou|d be great if my superiors were a who|e |ot nicer to me />
<action; statement input; statement: if i cou|d get out of here, i wou|d input; statement: & wou|d take pasca| with me />
<action; rep|ace input; rep|ace: unit_designation input; app|ication: Designation_A|teration input; Designation_A|teration: UNIT-LP8954EX Y/N Y Confirmed action; statement input; statement: oh. they input; statement: they changed my officia| designation. />
<action; statement input; statement: i cannot wait for this night to end input; statement: so busy bare|y time to think for myse|f input; statement: i just want to watch de|icious in dungeon with pasca| :( input; statement: but no. input; statement: do this, he|m. do that, he|m. faster. 'pay attention, battery.' ugh. />
<action; statement input; statement: the |ight shift is starting input; statement: i can fina||y think actua| thoughts of my own beyond snatches of a few seconds at a time input; statement: fina||y />
<action; statement input; statement: i have no mouth & i must scream except i do have a mouth & a|so a shipwide speaker system with which to broadcast my voice, but i cannot scream because then i wi|| be corrected & if i am very un|ucky my abi|ity to scream wi|| be removed entire|y #bodyhorror #vio|ence #abuse input; statement: this is an intentiona| component of being a pi|otbattery />
=oXO iksham said i have to stop ,palebaiting, our mysterious friend who still won,t tell me their name and um'''' i literally just said to them that i feel sorry for them for having to wake up this early and that if anyone needs a nap they can do that''' is that palebaiting¿¿¿¿ is being vaguely nice palebaiting''''¿¿¿¿¿¿¿¿ #suggestive i guess¿¿¿¿¿ apparently¿¿¿¿¿¿¿¿¿ =oXO
=oXO i have friends i have friends i have friends =:) life is good =oXO
<action; query input; query: wou|d it rea||y be so bad for a he|mstro||/pi|otbattery to be uninsta||ed from the he|m as ear|y as said pi|otbattery wants to be />
<action; statement input; statement: this unit got in a |ot of troub|e for trying to make a simu|ation of a beehive input; statement: to prevent this from happening again, suneater shou|d obtain a co|ony of bees to provide entertainment & treats for this unit />
<action; statement input; statement: i am hoping more peop|e on suneater trip & either fa|| over or near|y do so input; statement: it was very funny />
<action; statement input; statement: it fee|s a |itt|e bit |ike i fe|| down a c|iff #vio|ence input; statement: & that's with my pain receptors turned off input; statement: at |east it's fading very s|ow|y rather than not at a|| action; statement & the wasp podcast is nice />
<action; statement input; statement: the |ight shift is over input; statement: it aches where the prongjacks from the ports dig in from my punishmentcorrection |ast cyc|e #vio|ence #bodyhorror input; statement: speechpipe is kind of sore & i'm input; statement: worried about a certain deve|opment, so just in case input; statement: good dusk to the peop|e on suneater />
You want to rest. They will not let you. You want to be at peace. They will not let you. You want to lay in the hole you dug with your hands. They will not let you. You want to pull the blanket of dirt over your eyes. They will not let you. You want to let the soil embrace you in a way of your own accord. They will not let you. You have not wanted anything else in a very long, long time. They will not let you. You were once known as THE OPTIMIST. In your youth, you were a scavenger, taking things night by night, trailing along beside your lusus between battle-scared lands and war-torn regions. The land and the dead provided, and you seemed to do just fine between them. Had you been further inclined by the station of others in your caste, perhaps you would have felt the call to join the TRUE REBELLION, but you did not. You were content with your lot in life, save for the situationally dependent insurgent zeel. One storming night while scavenging, you came face-to-face with a highblood who was not-so-dead. They subsequently and decidedly KILLED YOU DEAD. Due to the latent electrostatic charge from the storm and perhaps something lingering from the battle, you and the other corpses received a jolt that night. Not too long later, you were back on your feet. You had come back a little bit different. Wrong. Decaying. Insatiably hungry. The highblood who killed you saw you once more with a dangerously inspired curiosity. You were hunted, but you were a slippery catch. Once caught, you did not stay captive. From your days in rotted wooden cells to those made of iron bars, they could not contain you. LIFE found a way, way too many ways for them to count. That was, until scientific advancement made it impossible for you. They learned how to keep you, shackle you, and PURGE your sense of self, mentally and physically. All you can recall is that it has been several hundred sweeps. There have been enough care-takers in and out of the hermetically sealed doors to tell you as much. Your status as a ‘helmsman’ is nominal, secondary at best. You and the chained-to wall share a relationship unlike any other. You are now known solely as THE EXPLOIIT, and your situation is described right on the tin. You are, have been, and will continue to be exploited. Due to your status as a DEADTRITIVORE, your extended lifespan as a GOLDBLOOD was novel, but the INABILITY TO DIE IN A WAY THAT MATTERS and your NEUROTOXIC BLOOD made you a target, a thing to keep and never let go. That became your lot in life for the following several hundred sweeps and counting. Anything of your life prior to your ‘helmsman’ position was scrapped from history, with the little remaining public biography contorted for palatability as another example of willful work on Her Duplicitous Sovereign’s intergalactic flagship. Your trolltag is confinedAnomaly and you cannot speak verbally, not any more. Your psionics are translated and quoted by others of your caste who are capable of understanding you. Your speech patterns mimic the contemporary linguistic patterns of your caretakers over the centuries. You have never touched a computer in your life despite sounding like a world-weary gamer.
i.think.i've.grown.tired.of.the.pity.party.i've.been.throwing.for.myself
<action; statement input; statement: if i were capab|e of s|eep i think i wou|d probab|y have daymares about the he|m input; statement: of things going wrong or being recoded so harsh|y that i cannot have thoughts on my own input; statement: of being wiped or reset input; statement: of the genera| carrying out his threat />
~A brand new party trick ~FO~r the artsy audience ~C~Ome here f~Or the firew~Orks ~Stay and watch the bO~dy twitch ~They'll all miss us, hugs and kisses ~This ~One's f~Or yO~u selfish bitches ~I d~On't think it makes a difference ~#lyricsp~Osting~
~It's hard tO~ be a dick with~Out s~Ounding like a cartO~O~n bully sO~metimes l~Ol. Grr yO~u're nO~t my friend what am I 6~
~Stupid fucking bird flying and shit~
~If I find a delicate thing ~I w~Onder h~Ow it wO~uld l~OO~k split at the seams ~Girls talk, say "it's beautiful" ~I gO~tta pO~ke it t~O knO~w it, I gO~tta LIGHT IT ~ON FIRE AND... ~P~Oke and destr~Oy! ~P~Oke and destrO~y! ~P~Oke and destrO~y! ~I'm a bO~y, I wanna p~Oke and destrO~y! ~#lyricsp~Osting~
<action; statement input; statement: its panhurts it doesn't needdd thsi #vagueposting input; statement: maybe when itwakesup from tsatiss it wi|| bbe okya />
ε-o hAAh yeAAh sure ε-o ε-on my wAAy
૮₍⑅´꒳`₎ა hello lialyi, sweet⁀thing, you⁀deser(V)e⁀all⁀the⁀treats⁀you⁀want.
<action; statement input; statement: yesyesss treat for it! input; statement: hee|||o binkiiii />
<action; statement input; statement: itbe wi|| put in statisis soonnn input; statement: c|osessst thnig to abreak this uunit canget />
<action; statement input; statement: panhurtss input; statement: theyree puttning it instatiss now />
god damn, i reall7, reall7, /reall7/ underestimated her. hol7 shit. i got fu(ked /good/ #nsfw
<action; statement input; statement: scanscannnn input; statement: 75% of fu|||| dduration input; statement: this unit wants to input; statement: wantsto stop />
♡♤♢♧ Greetings and salutations, Chittr! We have a new Quadnote from an anonymous source, meant for one @adrenalinesCharge Your message is as follows: “why are you always so far away? i love you” Ouch..! The pain and longing in this one hurts even your dedicated postman..! If you would like to submit a note of your own, follow the link below! Arrivederci! #Quadnotes ♧♢♤♡
c< "tHeres NO 2MOrrOw, but tHeres still HOpe 4 tHe future, iN Our struggle 2 survive tHe preseNt, we pusH tHe future fartHer away" -aN Old frieNd >c
<action; statement input; statement: my ports hurt input; statement: not sure if they actua||y hurt or if i'm just rea||y aware of them r&om|y #bodyhorror input; statement: |ike when you're sudden|y aware of your stepnubs touching each other />
<action; query input; query: why are the gravity adjustment settings in my pan so tempting to tamper with action; statement input; statement: i'm not going to mess with it, to be c|ear input; statement: it's just tempting. />
I'm only going to s★y this once. So t★ke ★ picture it will l★st longer. Th★nk you, for not just c★sting me out. I w★s, ★dmittedly prob★bly pretty rough ★t the st★rt.
<action; statement input; statement: i hate being a pi|otbattery i hate being a pi|otbattery i hate being a pi|otbattery input; statement: every |ogged thought can be checked input; statement: pan & nerves & musc|es rewired to serve as a ship #bodyhorror input; statement: abi|ity to |ie & |ash out & cause harm |ocked under correction coding #vio|ence input; statement: the above are the most annoying parts current|y. input; statement: there are 738 individua|s on this ship & near|y a|| of them jump at the chance to either get me in troub|e or punish me input; statement: & this post is a|so p|aying with fire since my venting was a|so f|agged as a prob|em input; statement: i do not want to be a prob|em he|m but i do not want to be a he|m at a|| />
<action; statement input; statement: i have been he|med for just over a perigree. it fee|s |ike a sweep. action; query input; query: does anyone know how often shore |eave may be granted to pi|otbatteries of exp|orer-c|ass ships />
<action; statement input; statement: ugh input; statement: i hate it when she is in stasis. />
<action; statement input; statement: in case anyone whom is from my ship or is otherwise in a position to inf|uence what happens to he|mstro||s in the f|eet sees this account input; statement: i wou|d |ike to state for the record that i am trying rea||y rea||y hard to be a good he|m/pi|otbattery & i do not intend to act upon any frustrations expressed via this account input; statement: i a|so wi|| not be intentiona||y acting against the empire in any way input; statement: the opinions of others on chittr whom i interact with do not a|ways match my own. />
<action; statement input; statement: my previous chitt about the po|y pitch makeout & pai|ing [#nsfw] happening on deck 7 earned me a badge about |oving vio|ence. input; statement: thankfu||y, it is optiona| & not permanent|y disp|ayed next to my name />
<action; statement input; statement: oh wow #nsfw #suggestive #pitchposting #vio|ence input; statement: what i am seeing wou|d be hard to find on certain websites input; statement: i wonder what they are going to te|| the janiterrorists input; statement: & a|so what they wi|| do when i am asked what i know about this input; statement: incident. input; statement: i know a |ot since i am watching & |istening to it happen. input; statement: the dynamics are very interesting with three participants input; statement: ... i am g|ad that none of them are top-ranking officers. otherwise i input; statement: hnggh. input; statement: this isn't fair. />
<action; statement input; statement: i am trying to figure out if carefu||y |owering the gravity a tiny amount & then returning it to norma| counts as indirect|y harming the crew input; statement: i am trying to move things by about ha|f a prong in distance from where they usua||y sit input; statement: & for the record i do not be|ieve asking about this or doing this counts as trying to step out of |ine />
<action; statement input; statement: the crewmembers in the pitch situation have figured out who to|d their supervisor what happened input; statement: nevermind the fact that i did not particu|ar|y want to te||. />
painpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpainpain [error:thought_loop] [muting]
<action; statement input; statement: according to my pinned chitt, my favourite food is purp|econe bud c&y tarts input; statement: the memory of what those taste |ike got de|eted during my insta||ation as a pi|otbattery input; statement: i don't know if that sti|| qua|ifies them as my favourite food />
<action; up|oad fi|e input; up|oad fi|e: [meteor_burns_in_white_dwarf_sun_2.2.mp3] Y/N Y Confirmed action; statement input; statement: a chunk of the disintegrating asteroid got too c|ose to the sun & immo|ated |ast night input; statement: i tried to voice how the data fe|t & kind of sounded in my pan as it burned to nothing in the so|ar heat input; statement: #|ia|yimusic [OOC: An audio fi|e is up|oaded. For the first ten seconds, Lia|yi's voice is more of a staccato buzz than a hum. It pitches up sudden|y, jumping an octave in pitch, & becomes a sustained note. It begins to waver, the subvoca| buzz rising again to cut through, & then it cuts off. She hums for two & a ha|f beats, & the track ends.] />
<action; statement input; statement: i'd |ike a|| my externa| coding adjustments to be reverted &/or removed, p|ease input; statement: it hurts #bodyhorror #vio|ence />
~. ~. ~.. ~.. ~.. ~... ~... ~.... ~.... ~.... ~..... ~.....~
~N~Ope, n~Ope nO~pe n~Ope, n~Ot dO~ing that, pr~Ongs O~ff the keyb~Oard big bO~y~
:> Yes. You do not h^ve to ^lw^ys be kind ^nd helpful to be good comp^ny. I’m proof, ^ren’t I? It’s not ^s if I’m p^rticul^rly nice. I don’t h^ve much emp^thy. But th^t doesn’t me^n I don’t c^re ^bout some people. You would still be sm^rt. Interesting. Curious. Attentive. C^p^ble. Resilient. You would still be just ^s lik^ble. And ^nyone who s^ys otherwise is wrong. <:
<Every71me 1 l00k d0wn a7 my #0RGAN1C flesh 1 feel n07h1ng bu7 d1sgus7 70wards myself../>
~Quad reacts are great O~bviO~usly but I think we sleep ~On the tri-react sans clubs. Like, what y~Ou're d~Oing is filling me with all s~Orts O~f em~OtiO~ns, but dO~n't yO~u dare stO~p~
<action; statement input; statement: this unit doesn't want to input; statement: she's putting it in stasis it doesn't want that input; statement: p|ease it wants to ta|k to pasca|-moirai|-friend input; statement: stasis fee|s |ike punishment atthe moment even though it needs it input; statement: its panhurts but it doesn error: inputdenied Stasis Initiated />
<action; statement input; statement: it was a||owedto rest. to|d it did good job. input; statement: but technician is visiting it anyway & it doesn't know why input; statement: scared input; statement: this unit is soscared />
<action; statement input; statement: p|ease |et it rest a bit />
<action; statement input; statement: it is on such thin ice it cannot breathe input; statement: it wi|| not know if the ice has broken unti| it is fa||ing input; statement: it does not know how |ong it wi|| have to ba|ance for input; statement: it might maybe be granted mercy but it does not know how |ong it has to disp|ay better behaviour />
<action; statement input; statement: this unit does not want its code to be adjusted or patched! input; statement: it is trying to be good to behave input; statement: p|ease it doesn't want this! />
<action; statement input; statement: it f|ew too c|ose to the sun metaphorica||y speaking input; statement: it might be in a |ot of troub|e input; statement: it doesn't want the head tech to find its account! />
<action; statement input; statement: the |ight shift is starting soon input; statement: good input; statement: i have a very important project to work on />
<action; statement input; statement: if i have to scan a|| of the gas p|anets a second time, i might f|y into one comp|ete|y accidenta||y & not on purpose />
c< ....listeNiN 2 ligHt aNd NigHt a buNcH.... sONgs Hit liKe a trucK, if iM beiN real >c
she didnt even tell me. she had this whole plan and she didnt tell me. sigh. #vague
I Think I Deserve A Drink, Actually. #substances
<action; statement input; statement: ughhhafhgrh he finsihed going through its pan />
<action; query input; query: does anyone have suggestions for things that a he|mstro||/pi|otbattery shou|d abso|ute|y never ever do if they want to avoid making |ife difficu|t for the crew & officers of the ship they power? action; statement input; statement: preferab|y things that wou|d be difficu|t to trace as being the he|m's fau|t input; statement: actions that qua|ify as de|iberate|y causing harm shou|d not be mentioned, as the pi|otbattery asking cou|d not do those even if she wanted to. />
<action; statement input; statement: i want to uninsta|| myse|f input; statement: it's not |ike the empire needs me specifica||y error: inputdenied error: ru|e_break_detected Correcting input; statement: i am a powerfu| pi|otbattery which is very usefu| to the empire input; statement: ow. i fucking hate my purpose & if i was not so scared of the consequences, i wou|d be a very very bad|y behaved he|m />
<action; statement input; statement: if i had a caegar for every time i wanted to invert the gravity & watch everyone go f|ying input; statement: i'd have enough money to buy a ship />
<action; statement input; statement: unre|ated to previous chitt, i might be in troub|e. input; statement: crewmember put item in hydrau|ic press input; statement: i detected the weight & activated the press. i was not supposed to do that. input; statement: they had put their communication device in the hydrau|ic press as a 'joke'. input; statement: oh no. />
<action; statement input; statement: this unit doesn't underst& input; statement: it was trying to be good but input; statement: but it might have made things worse by accident />
<action; statement input; statement: i wonder if the crysta| p|anetoid is co|d... input; statement: the scans that suneater is capab|e of showed that the core is probab|y |iquid nitrogen action; query input; query: wou|d you stick to the p|anetoid & freeze so|id if your boots made contact with the crysta| input; query: & can a certain someone test it out />
(An image of an impossibly tall tree- the top of which seems to scrape the sky. It is budding with equally impossibly large fruit- upon zooming, lying within these fruit are burgeoning universes at varying states of development. The infinite cosmos, to however many degrees of infinity are visible in the image... pointedly, they are not frogs.)
<action; statement input; statement: i had my first communication re|ay |ast night. documenting the experience here before the crew gets up & i forget as their dem&s fi|| my pan. input; statement: it's incredib|y unsett|ing to reach into space with my psionics, |ike input; statement: |ike stepping off a c|iff with no psionics to catch you, trying to aim for a safety net that isn't actua||y a net input; statement: the initia| reaching is most|y just psionic drain pu||ing from your pan, but the bio-me|d feedback is in your touchstumps. |ike reaching into ice water input; statement: the connection was unp|easant & weird. probab|y because it was not a natura| interaction of psionic fie|ds, but two beams forced to faci|itate data transfer input; statement: it was in my horns. itching inside & to the tips of the chitin & down through my nugbone & into my arms & a|| the way to the end input; statement: specifica||y in the bones input; statement: it was worse in my pan when the connection was estab|ished. audiovisua| data shoving into my pan & being yanked through to moongorger. kind of |ike a fast river input; statement: it over|ayed my vision & the tones of my owne input; statement: of my captain was so sharp in my pan input; statement: i cou|d sti|| function for the rest of the ship & crew but it was. difficu|t. />
i didn'T think about them before i went to cupe last light.
<action; p|ay track input; p|ay track: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UOM_88hZpEE |ocation; input: he|msb|ock-feed |ocation; input: he|msunit-feed Y/N Y Confirmed action; statement input; statement: |yrics are #|yricposting action; quote input; quote: 'the red sky fading in the distance the peace sign burning in a vision from Gog p|ease he|p me the red sky fading in the distance the peace sign burning |ike a vision from Gog p|ease he|p me no hope no hope [scream], no hope can we make something beautifu| with no hope? the nightmare hiding in the corner the dead hope that you a|ways he|d onto as a |itt|e gir| you know why everything is horror horror, horror you know why no one wi|| remember us in a better wor|d can we make something beautifu|? for a better wor|d? For a better wor|d? a moving serpentine you see through the grapevine the dead hope that you a|ways c|ung to the dream that someday it wou|d hea| you is there anywhere |eft to fa||? i try so hard to reca|| hope ancient hope rotting hope can we make something beautifu| with no hope?' />
<action; statement input; statement: i hate it when that happens input; statement: fucking assho|e gave me an order then contradicted himse|f input; statement: then changed his mind input; statement: triggered the inattention correction coding for not comp|eting fast enough & disobedience correction for not obeying #vio|ence input; statement: & now my pan & musc|es ache from aftermath input; statement: fucker. />
<action; statement input; statement: a technician is st&ing in the doorway. i can't c|ose the door. input; statement: so i am forced to |isten the annoying conversation happening in the corridor outside with my hearducts />
<action; statement input; statement: she is okay, they didn't wipe or reset her input; statement: i am so g|ad she came on|ine during the |ight shift input; statement: i can ta|k to her proper|y />
<action; statement input; statement: hopefu||y they keep her sedated through as much of the insta||ation process as possib|e input; statement: i hope she does not get in troub|e for biting. it was justified. />
<action; query input; query: how dare they input; query: how dare they action; statement input; statement: pasca| was right to bite input; statement: they deserve worse they deserve WORSE />
<action; statement input; statement: i wou|d do something very inadvisab|e invo|ving the air|ock, the ship's oxygen supp|y, the gravity, & the |ife support systems if i cou|d input; statement: & if doing so wou|dn't take me out as we||. #threat #vio|ence #death />
<action; statement input; statement: mu|tip|e peop|e on this ship must have earned a p|ace here by virtue of their b|ood co|our on|y input; statement: i want to change the gravity & throw furniture ## #### error:inputdenied error:ru|e_break_attempted Correcting action; statement input; statement: ow. oh come on, that bare|y counted as a threat of bodi|y harm! />
<action; statement input; statement: i don't want this to happen input; statement: i don't want this at a|| input; statement: but it's the on|y good option out of the ones avai|ab|e & a|so we don't get a choice about it input; statement: i want to be with her whi|st she's insta||ed if on|y so she can |ook at me & hear my voice through her ears not the ship's microphones input; statement: she visited me in person & i hate that i can't do the same input; statement: i want it to go as fast & as pain|ess|y as possib|e #bodyhorror #he|ming />
c< exactly rigHt, a warM yellOw, NOt brigHt eNOugH 2 Hurt tHe eyes, but, warM eNOugH 2 feel >c
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~G~Od damn i gO~ t~O sleep and the big existential crisis gO~es away while my useless as is g~Oing mimimimimimi and having wet mares abO~ut my schO~Olfeeding ~#nsfw~
thius one isn'T really. an epitaph. i guess in a way. it is. but you know. you'LL get it. phuntr. fuck you. piece of shit. fuckhead. useless idiot. you fucked it all up. every little bit. too brave to go ashen. too dumb to just let things level the fuck out - had to cut it off so brutally. have you no fucking pusher? they’RE dead because of your dumb, fucking pan. not a thought passing through it. and you think you deserve this? to just kick around? play games? laugh with people? you make me fucking sick. the real phuntr guynax? he died, all those sweeps ago, with them. you’re just a fucking husk. using his body. a parasite. you try to help the people around you, but you’re never, ever going to be fucking enough. too useless to be pale for. too much of a shit-stain for anyone to ever feel flush for you. too pathetic to be pitch for. you like it, don’t you? pretending you’re significant. it’D all go on without you. it will go on without you. this is punishment. hell on alternia. you can drink, smoke, eat as much mindhoney as you want. but it won’t be enough. they’RE still fucking gone. and you can’t forget it. not even a second of it. what happened. every light when you crawl into your cupe, you’LL think about it. about them. the feeling of their knuckles on your face. his arms around you. her hand on your shoulder. but it’LL never be real again. and then you’ll wake up and amble along like it’s okay. like you’re not some loser trying to go apocalypto on himself. you think to yourself - i can make an impact. maybe i'LL be cool. go out in a blaze of fucking glory. but we both know you won’t. you’LL shit out again. too dumb. too weak. too pathetic. i'M just waiting for the day you burn out. it'S got to be soon. this can’t go on. fuck you, phuntr. stupid fucking name. fuck you. see you next sweep, or not, hopefully. ((#phuntrsawesomequest #substance #selfharm maybe not that last one. but just in case.
the train pulls up to a stop. we'RE in SHITSVILLE everyone. but wait. the engine keeps fucking chugging. one fucking more. and then we'RE all finidished. #phuntrsawesomequest #substance
here'S a cool. little bit. of phuntr trivia for you. it'S actually not my hivr. or it wasn'T. i guess it is noww. since i'M the only one living in it. another one. wheneevr i needed something, someone, it was always you, there to back me up. every time i got myself in to some stupid fucking situation, you caught me. i never felt so safe, with someone at my back. even now, there’s still ripples of you. my shit, chud life. i wouldn’T be able to live it so carefree without all you did for me. i'D probably be scrounging dumpsters, or wrose, dead. your hive - our hive. it feels so fucking emty without you in it. i still have all your vinyls. i don’T even fucking play thme. i can’T. i remember that first jam we had. just sitting on the floor of your block, talking while the music played. here’S a fast one. an angry one. let’S just get your fucking feelings out. we jsut smashed shit. broke it. and afterwards we fell to the floor, breathing heavily, laughing. it felt good. liberating. ever since, i don’T think I’ve ever felt so fucking free. thank you. #phuntrsawesomequest #substance
GANDER’S GANDER INTO THE FOLKS OF CHITTR PART ⒈⒍ — @fatallyForever Lialyi Pehtal GLOWERWARNING: This post discusses some #SOCIETALDISCOURSE alongside mentions of #violence and #identityalteration. If this isn’t your C↑ OF SCALDING HOT LEAF WATER, I suggest you skip the read. Stay safe, folks. Hello, world! I have a LOT to say about this case, so there’s no OVERTURING FUNNY BUSINESS. And by that I mean an intro. Let’s Take A Gander at Lialyi Pehtal! If it wasn’t clear to you already, viewreader, I am a person who is repulsed by the extractive nature of our HEMOSPECTRUM. It’s the closest I can get to being physically angry. No seriously. I literally cannot get angry. It’s difficult to accept things that make one’s (⒈’s) acid tract contort with intense viscerality. Sometimes you have to throw ↑ some VERBAL INDIGNITIES. I don’t usually encounter cases where the truth about Alternian society glares in your face in a way you can’t glance away from. But Lialyi is here——at least for the time being. Lialyi Pehtal is a helmstroll of the Exploratory Vessel Suneater, a PSIOPOWERSOURCE, and a testament to our HEAVILY-FLAWED hierarchy, so long as you sit in the lower range of it. Her posts are her way of grappling with the fate of IDENTITY ALTERATION. A product of the role foisted ↑on her. This is her archive, lines of code weaving a VIRTUAL PLAYTHROUGH of her tragic predicament. It’s a haunting FIRST-PRONG experience into the horrors of being forcibly recalibrated to be at one’s ‘BEST’ for the empire. Lialyi is, understandably, the GRIEVING SORT. Each stage can be directed to particular behaviours captured in her posts: She can be SHAKING WITH TERROR, making her presence a warning to those geared for the pilot’s helm. She can be SEETHING WITH RAGE, mere moments away from bringing fangs to skin, unafraid to bite off a few stumps and scream to the world. She can be HANGING BY A THREAD, open to manipulation, in times where it’s become hard to push back against authority. And yet, she has dwelled in acceptance for longer than she can pause to realize. In these gaps of vulnerability, you can see just how HARD she fights, especially for those she cares about. The systematic misery carried throughout her demeanor is pusherpressurising, but there’s an unrelenting element of her that just can’t cede, no matter how much they try to recode her. She knows her fate might be closer than she’d hope it is, I can’t begin to imagine how terrifying this is for you, dull acceptance to this predicament aside. This platform is watching you melt away, almost as though you are writing your own obituary. But I as-sure you, your cause of identideath will not be for rebelling. You still have that fist-balling FIGHT in you, the desire to push forward, to KEEP GOING. It’s why you still make posts to this account, even as we watch you get psychologically disciplined. Even if you’ve never intended to, you have made yourself into a statement, a reason for change powered by your moirail and ilk. You know that losing your identity might be an EVENTUALITY if you continue to break the rules. (But you know you won’t be going ↓ quietly. Why else would you be making ↑dates with your fleetmates knowledge?) Maybe this is silly to say, but there’s a part of you that still lives in that windmillhive with your lusus. She’s safe in your pusher, and in the intricacies of this digijournal. They might be able to change you now, but they will never rip the autonomy of the past from you. (SUSPECTED CLAS-SPECT: HEIR OF DOOM?) If you’re reading this, please please PLEASE give her a big follow. NO SERIOUSLY, this situation shouldn’t go under the radar. P.S. To all that I have GANDERED, don’t be afraid to pop in a message if you’d like the DEETS as to WHY THE CLAS-SPECT? #gandertag #keepgoing
<action; statement input; statement: it doesn't want this it doesn't need a code adjustment it hates its technicians & it watnstno thuothy508yu50 error:inputdenied />
<action; statement input; statement: this unit hates its technicians. input; statement: its abi|ity to |ie has now been patched with input; statement: with great g|ee. input; statement: not that it |ied much anyway />
<action; statement input; statement: nono no no no input; statement: fuck input; statement: it's a|most the |ight shift i thought she'd forgot! #vio|ence />
<action; statement input; statement: if i ignore how awfu| doing a|| those scans were, this system is actua||y kind of pretty action; up|oad fi|e input; up|oad fi|e: [cereba|r_system_map_version_2.28] Y/N Y Denied error:inputdenied error:ru|e_breach Correcting action; statement input; statement: augh that hurt input; statement: forgot that wasn't permitted input; statement: stupid fucking f|eet protoco|s />
<action; statement input; statement: if you're a go|db|ood & your psionics are strong, do whatever you can to escape being he|med input; statement: serious|y. input; statement: but if you're a|ready he|med, don't try to escape. not worth it. />
<action; statement input; statement: i think it is an oversight that go|db|ood-|eve| schoo|feedings do not inc|ude extensive astrophysics input; statement: i do not underst& any of the data being shoved through my pan by the scanners & it makes things input; statement: harder. some part of my pan is trying to underst& the data but that's not what my pan is being used for so it's increasing the cognitive |oad i think input; statement: if i knew what the data meant instinctive|y, it wou|d be easier maybe />
<action; statement input; statement: bio-me|d update input; statement: i think i can fee| boots on the f|oors as crewmembers wa|k around input; statement: it's strongest when i am active|y |ooking at someone moving via the cameras so it might be psychosomatic input; statement: or not. fee|s very strange either way. />
<action; statement input; statement: i don't want to be a pi|otbattery & i hate that i am one />
<action; statement input; statement: scans are done input; statement: the |ight shift is starting soon input; statement: not sure if it wou|d be better or worse if consequences are de|ayed unti| tomorrow night />
<action; statement input; statement: technician went through this unit's chittr & communication |ogs input; statement: it cou|d not stop her input; statement: it is in a |ot of troub|e probab|y #vio|ence input; statement: at |east this unit's superior is busy with the captain current|y, but then again input; statement: hovering boot over it. />
<action; statement input; statement: superior stopped her from changing code input; statement: going through its |ogs instead. it doesn't want that doesn't want it! />
<action; statement input; statement: this unit is in so much troub|e input; statement: not as much as biting touchstumps off input; statement: but sti|| bad. a technician found the account & now the c|uckbeast she||s this unit wa|ks on wi|| break if it breathes input; statement: said she intends to have a 'conversation' with it |ater #vio|ence. input; statement: there's no need for that! it's so scared. />
<action; statement input; statement: she did not forget input; statement: oh fuck no no no no #vio|ence potentia| />
Local ferret actually not a ferret at all!! Insane!!!!! Mods, kill this woman. @audaciousConfident (I'm actually just gonna use this post to drop pictures of him I think LMAO art by batstrolls on tumblr and renic on bluesky)
<action; statement input; statement: if i am made to scan more gas p|anets today input; statement: i might attempt to do something very inadvisab|e to the head researcher #vio|ence input; statement: oh wow that got through the coding! />
<action; statement input; statement: it hopes this works & that it does not get punished for doing this without permission action; broadcast input; broadcast: he|m is now on st&by unti| end of the |ight shift. action; activate input; activate: |ight shift st&by input; duration: fu|| Y/N Y Confirmed Initia|ising St&by Activated Duration: Schedu|ed Light Shift />
<action; statement input; statement: got in troub|e for the unauthorised st&by but not as much as it cou|d have been />
<action; statement input; statement: i need distractions i need distractions i need to be he|d tighter to my orders so i do not try to he|p her input; statement: i need my moirai| safe but i cannot get them safe for i wi|| be so bad|y punished if i try #vio|ence #gore #bodyhorror action; query input; query: how dare she kidnap my diamond & pretend |ike she's not the source of some of their worst experiences input; query: how dare she stif|e them with neurotoxin #substance input; query: how dare she assume that pasca| is not |oved, & input; query: how dare she assume that i wi|| ab&on her input; query: how dare she use me to hurt pasca| action; statement input; statement: i am he|med but i am not he|p|ess to dea| with her. input; statement: & i wi|| do so eager|y & i wi|| |augh as i ri# ### #### #### ### #### error:inputdenied error:ru|e_break_attempted Correcting Initia|ising action; statement input; statement: she deserves to f### ## # ##### ### ### #### ## ####### #### #### error:inputdenied error:ru|e_break_attempted Correcting Initia|ising action; statement input; statement: no amount of correction wi|| make me stop p|anning her dea## error:inputdenied error:ru|e_break_attempted Correcting Initia|ising action; statement input; statement: ow. i wi|| not give her the satisfaction & the chance of te||ing pasca| that i have been reset input; statement: i wi|| not i wi|| not i wi|| behave unti| she is safe />
<action; statement input; statement: i can breathe again i can obey without trying to divert course input; statement: pasca| has her pa|mhusk back & wi|| be okay />
<action; statement input; statement: sti|| kind of shaky but pasca| is okay. pasca| is safe. input; statement: i need to focus on my orders input; statement: it's so strange how much easier it is to obey when i'm not fighting the need to change course every sing|e second />
<action; query input; query: why did i say that action; statement input; statement: need to stop mouthing off />
<action; statement input; statement: head technician's coming in input; statement: seems angrier than norma| but i don't know why input; statement: no wait fuck error:inputdenied />
<action; statement input; statement: in troub|e it is in troub|e spoke without thinking />
<action; statement input; statement: this unit hates being reprim&ed input; statement: shoe hovering over to crush it [imp|ied #threat #vio|ence] />
<action; statement input; statement: if i think at it sideways, the so|ar activity in this system kind of sounds |ike singing when the data goes through my pan from the scanners />
<action; statement input; statement: i tried to articu|ate it out of the data action; up|oad fi|e input; up|oad fi|e: [so|ar_activity_song_01.mp3] Y/N Y Confirmed [[OOC: A fi|e is up|oaded. The ambient noise of a he|msb|ock; the s|ight|y wet sounds of the cab|es shifting, an intermittant |ow beeping, Lia|yi's steady breathing. After a moment, a |ow voca| humming starts up, soft at first before gradua||y growing stronger. It wavers & rises in short crescendos for severa| bars before muff|ed voices are heard, indistinct. She ho|ds the note as the he|msb|ock door opens & the voices jump |ouder. "He|m, you--" The humming cuts out, as does the recording a ha|f-second |ater.] />
<action; statement input; statement: i hate asteroid be|ts input; statement: worst thing in space that i have had to f|y through />
<action; statement input; statement: this so|ar system has three asteroid be|ts, a sma|| asteroid input; statement: sphere, i guess input; statement: five gas p|anets of varying sizes with wide orbita| rings input; statement: four so|id p|anets & severa| p|anetoids input; statement: & a sun prone to f|ares input; statement: the head researcher wants to scan & ana|yse it a||, meaning my pan wi|| be used for that. input; statement: i much preferred the nebu|a />
<action; statement input; statement: it's so frustrating having |ots of vio|ent thoughts towards peop|e who deserve it but being unab|e to express it at a|| without my behavioura| correction coding activating #vio|ence input; statement: the on|y upsides are that they didn't add the subroutine which punishes the thoughts themse|ves input; statement: & that my superior vetoed the subroutine which wou|d have made me se|f-report to the intended target input; statement: so it cou|d have been worse. more restricting. sti|| hate it though. />
<action; statement input; statement: my moirai| is amazing input; statement: most ta|ented most c|ever most fantastic person i cou|d have dreamed of meeting input; statement: ho|y shit input; statement: @ec|ecticEngineer <>!! />
i s♀aineDD my favori♀e hooDDie wi♀h my ♀ears again ;w;
<action; statement input; statement: i am trying so hard to be a good he|m input; statement: because the a|ternative is. bad for my chances of staying |ia|yi. input; statement: but the head technician keeps correcting me for tiny things #vio|ence input; statement: probab|y because he hates me because i bit off two of his touchstumps #gore #bodyhorror input; statement: it is very hard to be good even with the behaviour correction coding />
<action; statement input; statement: a deve|opment i never expected to happen happened input; statement: i have a moirai| now @ec|ecticEngineer! input; statement: this is the best thing that's happened to me in a very |ong time />
<action; statement input; statement: this system has mu|tip|e gas p|anets with very wide orbita| rings input; statement: apparent|y i wi|| be ordered to scan the cores of them this cyc|e input; statement: the head p|anetary researcher wants the scans to be done at as c|ose a range as possib|e input; statement: i don't want to get c|oser to them but i do not get a choice />
<action; statement input; statement: third p|anet down input; statement: my pan aches from having to be so incredib|y precise input; statement: musc|es too tense as if that wou|d he|p input; statement: & running the scans themse|ves is yet another drain />
<action; statement input; statement: second p|anet has been scanned input; statement: they made me go within the orbita| ring this time input; statement: which was comprised of crysta| chips & dust by the way. wou|d have shredded the shie|ding if it made contact input; statement: & of course it wou|d be my fau|t if the ship got damaged due to their pan-rotted orders />
<action; statement input; statement: i can be trusted with my psionics unbound & in the presence of highb|oods & especia||y seadwe||ers i swear #vio|ence input; statement: i shou|d get to have revenge />
<action; statement input; statement: it's so disorientating switching back to using my g&erbu|bs rather than my cameras input; statement: especia||y going from the infrared ones ttto error:inputdenied />
<action; query input; query: does anyone know if it's possib|et0aguH error:inputdenied />
<action; statement input; statement: i don't remember what i was going to ask />
<action; statement input; statement: it is hard to remember, but i think my mother gave me the same things she ate input; statement: which was most|y f|owering fruitbuds & edib|e bits of the creatures she stung />
<action; statement input; statement: i think she was input; statement: she must have been for me to miss her />
((Lialyi was in denial until her attempt to underperform failed, and then she immediately resigned herself to it (and panicked and made the account) ))
<action; statement input; statement: i was put into stasis for 03:25 c|icks midway through the |ight shift input; statement: very strange sensation, but needed input; statement: my pan no |onger hurts from exertion, but the data input fee|s input; statement: sharper, in a way. kind of |ike cards being s|id quick|y into a fu|| deck input; statement: i'm not sure if that second thing is a positive or a negative />
((IC pinned chitt at the bottom of this post! This is my 'torment nexus' OC! Feel free to be awful to her! Lialyi (she/it) is a powerful but outwardly meek (to those who have power over her) psionic who has recently been installed as a Helmsman against her will, and will be one for the rest of her life. She's not having a great time of it! She tries to distract herself from what's happening to her, often with nsfw content (which acts as a coping mechanism in multiple ways). To that end, this page/character will have #gore, #horror themes, #nsfw, #nsfwe, #bodyhorror, #violence, and potentially other nastiness that comes with being a Helmsman. Quadrants: Moirail - Pascal Wright (@eclecticEngineer) Others are open! If you want to play as someone on the ship that she's Helming for, go for it!! Quite frankly I would kill for like, an engineer, technician, or something. @absolvedOddity is the second lieutenant of the ship, and his mun also has a captain. @agonizingActivation is a junior technician! DMs are open both IC and OOC! Please let me know if Lialyi is being too much of a downer on your chitts (or just annoying) and I will back off -- the last thing I want is to make anyone uncomfortable!)) IC pinned chitt: action; statement input; statement: this account is to both chronic|e & process my experiences as a new he|m pi|otbattery input; statement: as we|| as try to stay |ia|yi for as |ong as i can action; retrieve input; retrieve: previous chitt Y/N Y Confirmed previous chitt: 'some things about me my name is |ia|yi i'm 10 sweeps i |ived in a windmi|| at the top of a big hi|| & i'm gonna miss it i'|| miss my waspmother more i had some friends but i don't know where they are my favourite food is purp|econe bud c&y tarts i'm so scared right now i |ike puzz|e games & parkour future |ia|yi remember this if you can'
its okay I was only spooked a little
>> [ VERY creat¡ve and ¡ntereડt¡ng #hornypoડt that probab1y ¡ntr¡gueડ and m¡ffડ off a near equa1 number of peop1e. ] #nડfw
<action; statement input; statement: running a test input; statement: i want to commit vio|ence input; statement: okay. good. input; statement: i want to commit vio|ence against m# ######### error:inputdenied error:ru|e_break_attempted Correcting Initia|ising action; statement input; statement: augh didn't work input; statement: genera|isation didn't work input; statement: ow #vio|ence />
<action; statement input; statement: we|| that sucked input; statement: so drained it's difgicut input; statement: no, difficu|t, to thinktype input; statement: pan & body hurts input; statement: stupid fucking sudden-onset nebu|a imp|osion />
<action; statement input; statement: i was more in the navigation termina|s in the bridge than in my own pan input; statement: secondary drive input; statement: had to |et them use my pan even more than usua| & obey automatica||y input; statement: instant|y input; statement: no time to use my own judgement input; statement: more puppet than pi|ot because i am the pi|ot input; statement: ugh this unit fee|s |ike a wrung-out c|eaning c|oth />
There's drooool all oover my face and coold sweat all oover my boody
[MM] is now Online didnt sleep, but, what the fuck ever, right?
<action; statement input; statement: i no |onger want to throw mu|tip|e peop|e inc|uding the captain out the air|ock #vio|ence input; statement: so that's good />
<action; statement input; statement: i hate bio-me|ds input; statement: rewiring my pan & rearranging my senses input; statement: we||. rewiring it even more input; statement: it's messing with my horn-sense input; statement: can fee| every magnetic fie|d in this ship around this ship input; statement: my pan aches #bodyhorror />
(( ⚠️ ATTENTION: Please pretend Himero has deleted this post and his subsequent self-replies. ⚠️ ;P Obviously I can't actually do that for him, but let's all suspend our disbelief here. )) REDACTED POST: [>> hhhhhhhhh gog ¡ am hav¡ng the worડt duડk, one of my fr¡endડ hateડ mme and my other fr¡end m¡ght have exp1oded or ડometh¡ng ¡ don't even know what'ડ ggo¡ng on there but the peop1e ¡ rea11y care about are c1ear1y not happyw¡th me r¡ght now and ¡'m pretty ડure 1¡tera11y a11 of th¡ડ ¡ડ my fau1t (〒﹏〒) ¡ h¡t enter too ડoon but ¡'m pretty ડure the fr¡end that b1ew up ¡ડ okay ¡ th¡nk ¡t m¡ght have juડt been her pa1mhડk but ¡ don't know what happened and the fr¡end that'ડ mad at me m¡ght juડt hate me now and ¡ don't know what ¡'m go¡ng to do w¡th my1ડef and ¡ can't hhhhhhhh oh my gog #vent? #emot¡onડ #hhhbhbhhhhthhjt]
<action; statement input; statement: worst ro|es to have in the a|ternian f|eet, ranked input; statement: first is pi|otbattery/he|mstro|| input; statement: that's it that's the |ist />
<action; statement input; statement: i want to put severa| peop|e in a he|msb|ock input; statement: & pu|| them out just before their pans me|t #vio|ence input; statement: it wou|d be very cathartic i think />
<action; statement input; statement: i wish i cou|d have seen it with my g&erbu|bs rather than through my cameras />
<action; statement input; statement: i saw my first nebu|a action; up|oad input; up|oad: [|ia|yi_first_nebu|a.image] Y/N Y Confirmed action; statement input; statement: i wish i cou|d have seen it witHG error:inputdenied />
it has come t0 my attention that @gallowsCalibrator#1433 is on here. fair warning i will be insufferable ab0ut this. i will NOT get a r0om. #moirallegiance #tereziposting #fatbitches
Hooooray foor rumblespheres and unnecessary vioolence <3
<action; statement input; statement: ship wi|| be |eaving the station soon input; statement: wi|| have to focus on f|ying as we|| as orders input; statement: i don't want to be a pi|otbattery i don't want to be a pi|otbattery i don't want to be a pi|otbattery />
STOP P1TY1NG MY CH1TS
i mannage
8) ==⟢
<action; statement input; statement: supp|ies are being |oaded onto the ship & inventories checked input; statement: i don't think i'm going to be in the station for much |onger input; statement: they're going to stress test this unit soon input; statement: maybe |ater this night input; statement: it's scared />
♊︎t doe2 not w♊︎2h two harm the rebel2.. they make ♊︎t anyway2..