♦ pitied by @tardyThumper
<action; statement input; statement: i know they know my name action; query input; query: why is it a|ways action; transcribe input; transcript: 'stay sti||, battery''don't open your eyes & then comp|ain about soap, battery''be a good he|m, now''move that drone out the way, he|m''oh honest|y, battery. stop comp|aining' action; statement input; statement: hate it. />
<action; statement input; statement: sss scan input; statement: hate dddoing scan s />
<action; statement input; statement: scanscannnn input; statement: 75% of fu|||| dduration input; statement: this unit wants to input; statement: wantsto stop />
<action; statement input; statement: its panhurts it doesn't needdd thsi #vagueposting input; statement: maybe when itwakesup from tsatiss it wi|| bbe okya />
c< lOud ass recHitt >c
<action; query input; query: do you have any tips for getting rid of it, binkii? />
<action; statement input; statement: i wish they'd turned off my pain receptors for me whi|st they were |itera||y rewiring my pan input; statement: instead pasca| had to show me how to turn them off input; statement: so unti| pasca| did that, i cou|dn't turn off the pain from the ports & the cab|es p|ugged into my nerves & the jacks so deep in my support co|umn they go between the vertebrae #bodyhorror input; statement: & because my body & pan know how much it hurts, i'm now getting phantom pain input; statement: which i cannot turn off because it is not actua| nerve ending feedback. />
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<action; statement input; statement: i hate being a pi|otbattery i hate being a pi|otbattery i hate being a pi|otbattery input; statement: every |ogged thought can be checked input; statement: pan & nerves & musc|es rewired to serve as a ship #bodyhorror input; statement: abi|ity to |ie & |ash out & cause harm |ocked under correction coding #vio|ence input; statement: the above are the most annoying parts current|y. input; statement: there are 738 individua|s on this ship & near|y a|| of them jump at the chance to either get me in troub|e or punish me input; statement: & this post is a|so p|aying with fire since my venting was a|so f|agged as a prob|em input; statement: i do not want to be a prob|em he|m but i do not want to be a he|m at a|| />
So. Big ol #deathrrankin' that honestly I might add onto laterr. Usual tags apply: #death#gorre#violence#blood and a new one: #clowns Rritual culling. Orr churrch based culling. These tend to take a few forrms, so I admit I'm doin' a prretty brroad umbrrella herre folks. Alrready gone overr th' main methods in my otherr posts. But if ya ain't awarre, most of what clowns do is beheadin' and blunt forrce based deaths. Now sometimes they might change it up a lil. Maybe you'll be hung orr you'll be given somethin' that makes ya laugh t' death. Whateverr's funniest in th' moment. Thin' about these deaths is that even though th' act itself tends to be rreal nice and quick, all that lead up leaves ya scarred outta yerr pan. Makes it a lil harrd to apprreciate th' speed of a beheadin' if yerr spendin' a wipe waitin' ferr it. Then again. I spose that's th' point, ain't it? It's usually prretty efficient. Clowns don't like t' waste enerrgy wherre they can help it, and they don't wanna waste th' blood they'll get frrom you. Starrs help ya if ya got a rrarrerr blood colourr, cuz therre's everry damn change they'll keep ya alive and bleedin' ferr theirr murrals. Th' beheadings arre a rreal spectacle each time and I gotta admirre th' grrace they brrin' to it. Th' perrforrmance of it. Ain't nothin' like seein' an executionerr do a whole trrapeze show beforre they brrin' th' blade down on a neck. Th' anticipations a little difficult, of courrse, but they'rre rreal masterrs at it. Ain't everr seen 'em miss. Th' bludgeonin' though...that ain't grrace. Naw, that's a show of forrce. Yerr gonna get that if they gotta prrove somethin' to someone. Might be a youngerr clown who ain't learrned yet, orr they need an example. Hell, they might just be mad at you. But they know how to maximise th' pain herre. How to make it so ya won't die ferr as long as possible. They toy with you. Don't rrecommend it ferr deaths-by-clown. Most otherr types'll be a display in a way. Might be of a new weapon, orr rraw strrength. Used to be one bloke who could just rrip someone's pusherr outta theirr chest with his barre hands. Didn't need a strrife specibus ferr that. Sometimes it's prroof that they learrned some new skill. Those beheaderrs gotta starrt somewherre rright? Dependin' on th' rritual, ya might be therre a whole. Seen one execution prre-show go ferr a human week beforre. Poorr buggerr nearrly died of dehydrration beforre they got him. Ah- and th' chucklevoodoos. If yerr susceptible, some arre powerrful enough to wipe yet pain. Experrience identity death n all that. Orr you'll feel this purrple fog in yerr head beforre ya walk off a damn cliff. They'rre dangerrous, but it's kinda harrd to kill someone with just that alone. Specifically as when ya walk off a cliff, it ain't th' voodoos that gotcha at that point. Overrall? A 6/10. Gorrgeous beheadin' prractices but th' rrest brrings it down a fairr bit.
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[BEGIN MESSAGE] i think itt iz unfair. the 0therz i have m0urned 1ike thiz d0 n0tt gett t0 zimp1y return. butt maybe thatt iz becauze there waz z0 1itt1e 0f them 1eftt. #death #g0re #vi01ence [END MESSAGE]
[BEGIN MESSAGE] i am z0rry thatt y0u did n0tt. [END MESSAGE]
Chorres arre done so I'm gonna do a #deathrrankin' that's been rrequested. Usual warrnings of #gorre #violence #death Blunt Forrce This one varries again. Tends to be rreal messy though. If they hit ya rright then ya pass out beforre th' worrst of it. Most likely though, yerr gonna get hit once and feel rreal woozy and confused. Then ya might have a bit of panic beforre yerr hit again. And again. Rreal weirrd feelin' actually. Bein' so scarred and that but you'rre also trryin' to figurre out wherre ya arre. It ain't efficient eitherr. Whole lotta thinkpan juice and blood everrywherre afterr. A lotta clurrch rritual killings use it ferr th' brrutality but those get theirr own categorry. Overrall: 4/10. Could be a lot betterr but could be worrse too.
if 7ou're talking about 7our last post, i'm starting to get it m7self, and i'm frequentl7 a pain in the ass for m7 own amusement
Ain't too surre what to call this one. Hack-headin'? Butcherrin'? It's th' next one of #deathrrankin' anyway. Honestly? Kind of a shiet verrsion of beheadin'. Ain't nothin' fancy to it, orr elegant. It's cuttin' flesh with a serrrrated knife. It hurrts. Ya trry and wrriggle frree of it and that's worrse. It's a slow, painful cut thrrough yerr neck. Orr multiple. Ya don't bleed out as fast as ya want. Ya just sorrta feel it hit ya overr and overr and overr. Ya just feel somethin' tearrin' into yerr flesh and ya can't escape it. If ya want it hammerred home that at th' end of th' day yerr just a piece of meat, this one's it. Overrall: 3/10. #death #violence #gorre
Fuck it. I'm gonna do these lil rrankings when I rrememberr. Block th' tag #deathrrankin' if it ain't yerr cup of tea. Drrowning: 0/10 Look I rreally fuckin' hate this one. I'd rrank it lowerr if I could. It's a slow death, firrstly. Waterr fills yerr lungs and ya choke. Yourr pan is left trryin' to scrramble ferr a thought as ya rrun outta airr. Most times ya don't know which ways up so yerr left panickin' and flailing. Yourr lungs burrn with a lack of oxygen and ya feel like death is just arround th' corrnerr but so farr away. Takes way too long to pass out frrom this too. Worrst parrt is trryin' to scrramble ferr th' surrface and feelin' yerr body tirre and ache as ya trry ferr one last gasp. So. Harrd pass. #death #tw-self-harrm maybe #violence maybe #deathrrankings
Still thinkin' about that name shiet. What th' hell else would I have been called? Know I took on a new one most times I died but still... #death #memorry
only shippin' i do is shippin' paCka6es around to folks. y'know. when i'm workin6. whiCh i haven't been for a little too lon6.
...i really need to 6et baCk to work been 6ettin' too Comfy slaCkin' off. well that 'n' i have a hairline fraCture from my earlier ankle injury, but still.
[BEGIN MESSAGE] i had a p0wer zurge. z0 we are g0ing t0 be rep1acing z0me 1ightt bu1bz and bringing zyztemz back 0n1ine f0r a zh0rtt whi1e. [END MESSAGE]
((Sorry I've not really posted much aside from replies the last few days, just feel I've hit a mental wall on things and feeling down. I'll still be here, just maybe more distant for a bit!))
c< sOMetiMes, yOu gOtta draw a liNe iN tHe saNd, aNd asK yOurself, "wHat aM i williNg 2 put up witH 2NigHt?" NOT FUCKING THIS #vaguepOstiNg #ragepOstiNg >c
(◕ ᴥ ◕) it guwas scary... (Ó ᴥ Ò)
(◕ ᴥ ◕) guehmmm as a grub i used to believe mayonnaise guwas made out of manatee lusii..
"| Rlly Hoep Ur Do|gn Betetr Larks|e :( Wz Worr|ed Fro A L|l <> - Zuzu" I Am Doing Better, No Worries. :> For A Little While Things Were Very Rocky But My Support System Is Amazing And I Have Been Coping. Pay No Attention To Any Rough Patches I May Or May Not Hit In The Near Future. #fond #larksoama https://tally.so/r/449eay
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<action; statement input; statement: no it is the fact that one of my highest superiors finds it amusing to continue to a||ow me my persona|ity that prevents me from being hard reset input; statement: it is spite, a desire to |ive & enjoy the very |itt|e i can, & a |ack of choice that fue|s me />
[ONLINE - BEGIN MESSAGE] ..it...0kay... ...they ret..ned... ...z00n after... [END MESSAGE - OFFLINE]
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[ONLINE - BEGIN MESSAGE] if... t01d... [qu0te]be a g00d 1itt1e he1m[qu0te] 0ne m0re... wi11..n0t...be... #pazca1zupgradez #he1ming #b0dyh0rr0r [END MESSAGE - OFFLINE]
[ONLINE - BEGIN MESSAGE] ...ripped 0ut... ...wire... ..00pz..... #pazca1upgradez #he1ming [END MESSAGE - OFFLINE]
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[ONLINE - BEGIN MESSAGE] ...upgradez a... c0mp1ete... ...unit ... part... internet ......ti0n... ... inzta11..... t0m0rr0w.... #pazca1upgradez #he1ming [END MESSAGE - OFFLINE]
<action; statement input; statement: she wi|| be okay she wi|| be okay input; statement: i need to ho|d my tongue better input; statement: correction hurts #vio|ence />
[⚙︎ @|| I comp|ain about my job. Least I don't have to do whatever insane shit y'a|| post about. He||. ⚙︎]
<action; statement input; statement: i am angry input; statement: i am so angry & worried />
c< dONt KNOw if iM #yearNiNg 4 deatH Or yearNiNg 4 tHe 2ucH Of aNOtHer.... tHis isNt a veNt pOst Or aNytHiNg, btw, iM just geNerally cONfused rigHt NOw.... i sHOuld MaKe sOup.... >c
...thank y0u f0r y0ur h0pe.
c< .... i Need 2 taKe a cOld sHOwer, aNd fucKiNg Kill sOMetHiNg rigHt NOw.... #viOleNce #vaguepOstiNg #sOfucKiNgtired >c
<action; statement input; statement: this unit's superiors are discussing it but it is being forced to scan the disintegrating asteroid input; statement: it doesn't have the panspace to |isten, on|y watch through camera just about input; statement: it wants to know what's going to happen to it, but it doesn'ttt error:inputdenied />
<action; statement input; statement: i hate waiting for bad things input; statement: at |east it isn't a surprise this time input; statement: a|though actua||y that might make it worse />
az z00n az i am ab1e. i need t0 vizit zcary f0rezt. i am... unzure what thiz em0ti0n iz exact1y.
Ɏ #a-a-affirma-a-ations (feel free to a-a-add your own): Ɏ Ɏ i a-a-am a-a-a good troll. Ɏ Ɏ i'm norma-a-al. i'm well-a-a-adjusted. Ɏ Ɏ people pity me more tha-a-an they ha-a-ate me. Ɏ Ɏ it is fine tha-a-at i'm wea-a-ak. i'm helpful in other wa-a-ays. Ɏ Ɏ my worth is not defined by my ca-a-aste. even if i'm a-a-at the bottom. Ɏ Ɏ ghosts ca-a-annot spea-a-ak & even if they could should not be listened to. Ɏ Ɏ there is nothing in the forest. Ɏ
Someone shorter than me...an amazing feat for a troll of so many sweeps!
this last Couple've days has felt a little off, ain't it? like thin6s're just a little... fuCked up. like the week has malaise. o︵o
💠~ Spending the night focused on her. She's like, soooo sweet. ~💠
<action; statement input; statement: she sto|e pasca| when they were going hive after the masquerade because this unit is he|med & therefore inaccessib|e input; statement: she was awfu| to pasca|. pasca| has corrupted memories of their time together. is scared of her. input; statement: she did not go wi||ing|y. />
okay bad idea to take a quiCk 6lanCe at the timeline before i keep on keepin' on...
seems t'be somethin' of an epidemiC 'round here!
[⚙︎ Just got handed a supposed packet of withered fruits and seeds without a sing|e fruit in it. Insu|ting. ⚙︎]
Just been told about herrdin' barrkbeasts. Is that what I am? Is that what my boss hirred me as???
...um why does it feel like someone's watching me??? ...don't like that. don't like that at all actually!!!
y'know, i don't think i ever 6one fishin' before. never had the time for it.
alri6ht well, 6ot a plan of aCtion, my six-shooter, and a determination t'not 6et violently and horrendously maimed so... now i just 6et to watCh the door and hope it don't open without warnin'. just uh. wanna Clarify there ain't an immediate or Clear threat... i think. i've been 6ettin' anxious as hell all holed up in here. mi6ht just be my pan playin' triCks on me. still... appreCiate the help, folks. y'all're too kind. ^◡^
well i got that *now*! i saw the bunny picture first and kinda went off of that
READ ALL ABOUT IT — [ A stripey-hole means-- er, slammer. Prison. ]
That time of perrigrree wherre I'm gonna need someone to maul me to death soon enough. Orr similarr. I ain't fussy. #violence #gorre #death #nsfwe #cw-self-harrm in case