♦ pitied by @unendingUroburos
i can't think that well
VvvvvvvvvvvV ૮⦶ﻌ⧃ა 💬 not being a univer'se-destroying p⦶wer-crazy lunatic kind of makes me feel better about myself ૮⦶ﻌ⧃ა 💬 like hey i serve the angel and follow it's c⦶mmands and i am ૮⦶ﻌ⧃ა 💬 ૮⦶ﻌ⧃ა 💬 was ૮⦶ﻌ⧃ა 💬 awful to people to push them away ૮⦶ﻌ⧃ა 💬 but at lea'st im not that guy ^^^^^^^^^^
man i f33l like shit
...
VvvvvvvvvvvV ૮⦶ﻌ⧃ა 💬 well. one of my palecrushes might be dead i guess ૮⦶ﻌ⧃ა 💬 an⦶ther reas⦶n why i should 'stop getting attached to people ૮=ﻌ=ა 💬 man why doe's this pushing pe⦶ple away shit have to go both ways. its way easier t⦶ make 'someone else hate me than it i's to stop caring about people ^^^^^^^^^^
B// < sometimes i f33l like i dont look on here enough
i need to stop having crushes on people i barely know.
YOU ARE DOING BETTER. THAN I DID. PROBABLY.
VvvvvvvvvvvV ૮ =ﻌ=ა 💬 ૮⦶ﻌ⧃ა 💬 i ૮⦶ﻌ⧃ა 💬 maybe. thank you i guess ^^^^^^^^^^
VvvvvvvvvvvV ૮⦶ﻌ⧃ა 💬 ૮⦶ﻌ⧃ა 💬 ૮⦶ﻌ⧃ა 💬 ૮⦶ﻌ⧃ა 💬 than⚔︎ ^^^^^^^^^^
VvvvvvvvvvvV ૮⦶ﻌ⧃ა 💬 ૮=ﻌ= ა 💬 ૮⦶ﻌ⧃ა 💬 maybe. i guess ૮⦶ﻌ⧃ა 💬 im still an evil and awful person though ^^^^^^^^^^
i have such a fat fucking crush :(
HUMANS HAVE LIFE SO EASY LIKE, GOOD FOR THEM AND ALL BUT I'M JEALOUS
B33 < man nobodys falling fur my silly tail trick today B33 < sup uro
i dont think anyone likes me ivve alwways been put up wwith an thats the best i can manage
Splinters will find you in the middle of the ocean. And you won't be able to get them out because you only have one arm.
To think it all started with me getting dumped by english.
VvvvvvvvvvvV ૮⦶ﻌ⧃ა 💬 ...whatever ^^^^^^^^^^
X That isn’t getting you off the list x
Sea swept hair is not for the weak. #LittleSailorThings
kinda yearning rn. missing my matesprit and kismesis
If I actually went into any detail at all about the #yearning in front of people who don't have the full context for my entire life, I would mostly end up getting a lot of concerned looks. So I'm just going to leave it at that.
#7earning, but i just need to keep going. it’ll be better soon
well. glad to know im not the only one yearning i guess. even though most of you are just being stupid and making jokes, and arent experiencing a deep hollow ache in your chest that feels as though it may never be filled.
၄⋆၃ squinting loudly so i may or may not be reading yaoi while high and im giggling my ass off this shit is soooooooooooooooooooo fuxking ass THIS YAOI SUXKS GIMME ANOTHA ONE #silly #substanxes
VvvvvvvvvvvV ૮⚔︎ﻌ⦶ა 💬 ok well ૮ ⚔︎ﻌ⦶ა 💬 whatever ^^^^^^^^^^
VvvvvvvvvvvV ૮⚔︎ﻌ⦶ა 💬 bad people deserve nothing ^^^^^^^^^^
ugh. yearning ache.
VvvvvvvvvvvV ૮ ⚔︎ﻌ⦶ა 💬 im a bad person ૮⦻ﻌ⦶ა 💬 but hey at least im working on not being awful to people anymore ૮"_ _ა 💭 ^^^^^^^^^^
who ever knows with this fucking guy.
I feel like I got on just in time to watch a nuclear bomb go off.
IT SEEMS. UNLIKELY. IT IS. IMPOSSIBLE.
i dont give a shit about the dash topic that was fucking awful to wake up to.
Oh relatable content.
c< ....i caNNOt be feeliNg pitcH 4 tHat assHOle.... augH.... #vaguepOstiNg >c
I broke another punching bag and now the gym is mad at me.
B33 < unfurtunately not if i wanted to actually mewse them fur flying B33 < nyalso id n33d them specifically tailored to me which is kinda a hassle when i can just use an umbrella if im not flying
handshake emoji.
B33 < real as fuck
absolutely it's not!
My sister hates my fashion accessories. What a bitch. #bitch
#unloveableandyearning
hm. i am struck with undesirable thoughts paired with the ache of yearning. unfortunate.
I want something.
i kinda wanna talk about my upcoming soberversary but at the same time im worried it might seem like some kinda flex on other mes or like im looking down on them for not having the same negative relationship with alcohol that i do am i too much in my own head here its super late why am i even posting anything (the answer is, lil elspeth needed her mommy)
Milking a snake today and I’m reminiscing.
u know the clone thing started as rly funny but i think its just made me hate myself more #vent
c< because peOple sucK, aNd tHiNK tHeyre better tHaN OtHers >c
More often than any reasonable person would ever want.
#7earning again. suffering again. but i just need to hold onto the fa(t that this will be a temporar7 thing. it’ll be over before 7ou know it
this site is public. and i am cowardly.
ah, of course. same level of cosmic bullshit. maybe paradox space just likes its villains round.
this time, something somewhat concerning to me, pertaining to a very evil eyeball. #dashwatching i suppose.
Violence and kidnapping can be pretty fun, though. Maybe just in moderation.
READ ALL ABOUT IT -- [ Had a dream last light about her. Weird. Ugh. ]
guess im royalty or smthn like that fuc this is a mess
This is the point of alcohol consumption where I stop giving myself the option to publicly post. DMs only for a while.
It's always men in my life, giving me trouble
I understand.
I do+n't particularly enjo+y 8eing alo+ne
[An image is posted. Snowman sits on one of Yaldabaoth's coils. The lens-flare of its brilliant visage obscures a decent chunk of the image. She seems to be wearing a modified version of a Thief of Time's godtier robes. In her hands, she holds the clock-pendulum she stabbed Caliborn with.] I can't quite decide if I like this garish attire. Perhaps a few more modifications could be made. I do know an excellent tailor. But first, I really should head home.
[A video is posted. Snowman's pitched battle with an unkillable Lordling continues. She and her alternates weave through the morass, striking and evading. Nevertheless, galaxy-blue blood drips from slowly accumulating wounds. A leaking head-wound. A gash along her ribs. Numerous bite-marks. CAMERASPRITE's vision flickers. Her left arm dangles limply, a bullet having torn through something important to its operation. The video ends.]
not that kind of mood. ...mostly. i am aggravated.
I co+uld )(ave swo+rn I did....
man i hate #7earning. bluh.
oh. i think i might b3 having a manic episode. fahaha. i feel like a god. this most definitely isnt good for me! heehee. heheehe3heeh33hehehehe fahahahahaha x) i do wish that ugly fucking door would get out of my head though
hm hm hmh hm. mmm. hm.
apologies. my head is a bit of a mess right now.
mmhg. yearning. growl. #yearnposting.
i make sure they arent inhabited, yes. ...thank you, cal.
yes. please. ignore them.
the stupidest emotion is one i cannot even speak about in this moment because it would be incredibly pathetic. but it is one i have experienced several times since truly experiencing emotion again, toward and in relation to several people. and it pisses me off that the brain is so stupid like that.
Back to being grumpy.
oh, don't even spare him the effort. UmU
men will call yoU a bitch for ignoring their harrassment, and then call yoU a cheating whore when a different man harrasses yoU. this is why i simply don't engage. #directposting #exhaUsted
--^^> ¡ w4nt to be held,.,. ¡t m4kes me feel l¡ke ¡'m not be¡ng left 4lone for 4 second. <^^-- ↓ --^^> my exoskeleton ¡s too rough, nobody w4nts to hold 4 gold blood w¡th ¡nsect fe4tures. ¡ desp¡se my gu4rd¡4n's enh4ncements. <^^-- ↓ --^^> even ¡ know the s4d re4l¡ty,., ¡ wouldn't be 4l¡ve w¡thout th¡s 4r4chn¡d body. <^^-- #lonelypost¡ng #selfh4te
No, no. The frog is innocent. It’s just been a long fucking game, man.
mm. no. yes. maybe. its stupid. just overly anxious about one specific social interaction and i have no idea why.
it took several fucking hour's to kill one basilisk fuck this im going back home im tired of gettin my ass kicked out here
evil affirmations yo friends hate you theyre tryna krill you they got ulterior motives and they want you dead they have a groupchat called [your name] stink like bass
I found a schedule of my to do list It says I had therapy today I didn't go I don't need it
ah, halloween. the one night i can go oUt as myself withoUt being instantly recognized. ~u~
i have a fucking migraine
https://i1.sndcdn.com/artworks-000208487928-1qoro2-t1080x1080.jpg FEELING TOO MANY EMOTIONS AT ONCE, FUCK THIS NONSENSE
God. I need to work on my posture.
metaphorically, 18 hours straight does something to you
i just want someone to hold me in their arms and tell me i am more than enough
They leave a lot to desire. I was recently told I was not as much of a selfish asshole that was assumed of all Lords and I thought, Well, Surely we can't all be expected to be that way
mnh. stabby bitey mood. i suppose i could stab myself but thats not fun to me anymore. has to be someone else stabbing me, or me stabbing someone else.
he really does think he can bait me with this, doesn't he? does he think he poses a genUine threat?
simple things tend to feel more complicated the longer you think about them :/
nno. yes. nnno. no. nno. need. kill. something. ffuck.
finding out somepuppy I'm close to is. desiring me somekinda style while also taking a dear friend to the mediculler is. an experience I'll admit
BX33 < lmeow thats fair B33 < but nyalso i dont want people to think i dont care
B33 < *ac regrets clicking on spoilers nyalmost immediately j33ze* BX33 < man ive gotta actually listen to past deva and forego the juicy gossip/bile fascinatnyan B33 < fur the sake of my sanity
...i wonder if no. bad. bad dog. stop that train of thought.
you and me both.
jUst ignore the bUgger. he'll take any reaction at all as reciprocation. XU~
Yearning Hours
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I swear to god I look away for two days and something always happens.
aLl tHe tImE (o: LiKe yEr a pAsSeNgEr iN YeR OwN FuCkInG FaTe. WaNnA GeT OfF ThE RiDe bUt sOmEoNe sTrApPeD YoU In rEaL GoOd.
*...the darkheart admittedly still wants what it cannot and perhaps should not have.*
I got the weirdest and most inexplicable headache. That's crazy.
I didn't forget the day of the week. You did.
GUYS. COME ON. THAT POST WAS MEANT TO MAKE YOU GUYS FEEL BETTER. ):B
What good is a villain that no one detests?
B// < nvm hunting isnt hitting fur me fur once BTT < guess ill just hang around like a bum
Troll shit, yes.
at least he's not hitting on me anymore. :u
i didn't have a normal monda7. frankl7 i would have taken the strong as fu(k i(e mumm7
ᐖ IS ᐖIS A SAFE SAPᑈE 2 SAY HUMMAN SKIN KINᐖA WEIRᐖ ME OUT o_O IT MEMINᐖS ME OF MEATS ᐛ
B33 < oh great and meow the talking pool table wants to preach to us about changing the rules
t\ ' >< ' / #juniorponder #newpronoun? #buzzgrub... #juniorlikesit
Just had a scary thought, that there's a 0.02% chance there's someone out there that really loves me, never have I been more terrified of a thought.
Ugh I need vodka, I'm starting to have thoughts about kissing people again. #substance
Just had a terrifying thought, that there's a small possibility that someone yearns for me, scary shit I know. #spooky #scary #Ohgodthehorror
i've had mUch less patience of late, when it comes to Unwanted advances from certain cherUbim. qUite frankly, hearing *that* makes me want to be sick! i jUst want these men to leave me well enoUgh alone.
i did not want to know that! XU~
hmmm nah
man im glad im just a sing≡r
KAR UPDATE: QUESTIONING MY SEXUALITY.
...BEC WAS MEAN TO ME AGAIN... :(
---- |oh that doesn't make much sense to me I'm sorry| ____
>:εε som3on3 said th3y hat3 g33n ;<< ~
WHY THE HELL DOES EVERY OTHER VARIATION OF ME POST THAT THEY ARE HORNY? DID I MISS A MEMO OR SOMETHING?
Upon further review, I've come to the conclusion that human 8eds aren't quite as dura8le as I thought. I was under the impression that oak was, argua8ly, amongst the top contenders for the 8est possi8le options for a frame. How laugha8le of me to 8elieve that. The mattress met the same f8. I need a new one. ::::(
holy fucking leg cramp pain aughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
You people make a girl NEVER want to get her derp on.
time to dig myself a little hole of embarrassment! ~u~;
I'm going to ignore her ★nd hope she tires herself out.
trust me, it would not be pretty
its not really but its also not something i would consider avoidable
afraid i can't help it he is my boss after all
i tell ON-E JOK-E and this happens fuck my life honestly
Why are they pitchflirting. I'm literally right here.
Bedtime again. Nervous systems are fucking annoying.
tha slumber party was ok but moby it aint for trolls coz everyone went to bed and im wide awake eelmao
I'm sorry, my companion, but no. We all have our own destinies, and yours culminates here. I would not rob you of that.
I’m in hell.
It’s surprising to me. And disappointing. I wanted to get infected and study it like a bug.
no
She keeps saying that "Space And Time" are overrated and is now flashing green a bit. Shes starting to scare me.
Been far too aware of a certain someone, as though things haven't been shitty enough.
Not a good day to be in my head.
Tell me why I just found Stinky in the garage, somewhere she couldn't fucking get down from. Why do cats do this.
MUM!!!!!!!!!!!
Go+regle Search:Ways to+ erase specific memo+ries fro+m o+thers?
Go+regle Search:Fastest way to+ dig a ho+le large eno+ugh to+ crawl into+ and bury yo+urself in.
Go+regle Search:Ho+w to+ delete Chittr po+sts
UGH WHY ARE THERE NO GOOD CLAW SHARPENERS BUILT FOR CHERUBS THIS IS BULLSHIT GOD FORBID A MAN-WOMAN EVER WANT TO STAY AT THE TOP OF HIS-HER GAME SO I CAN FLAY THE THROATS OF ALL WHO DARE THINK THEY CAN STEP UP TO ME —EMBER💥
OH MY FUCKING GOD STOP!!!!!!!!!!! I DONT HAVE AN ALIEN MATESPRIT FUCK OFF
Diary Entry #6 I dreamed abo+ut her again, last night. I do+n't remember many o+f the details, but I recall fleeting mo+ments o+f passio+n, and so+ft mo+ments o+f tenderness. And to+wards the end, I remember so+mething else... The phanto+m presence o+f her, in my mind, so+o+thing my co+nscio+usness and guiding me thro+ugh acts that so+meho+w felt even mo+re intimate than anything physically co+ncupiscent, while also+ being mo+re gentle than even the so+ftest caress... Needless to+ say, I wo+ke up in quite a state, and spent the first ho+ur o+f my day tending to+ that. I can o+nly co+unt my lucky stars that I live alo+ne, and do+n't have to+ wo+rry abo+ut any no+sey ro+o+mmates accidentally o+verhearing me as I bury my face in the pillo+ws while mo+aning her name, and making a mess o+f my sheets. Again. After I cleaned myself up, I began to+ also+ think abo+ut ho+w it feels so+ strange, that the dreambubbles and the dreams o+f everyday life can be so+ clo+sely related, yet so+ co+mpletely separate... I kno+w fo+r a fact that o+ne is no+t the o+ther, and they even feel different. No+ matter ho+w go+o+d o+ne may be at lucid dreaming, it still do+esn't ho+ld a candle to+ the bubbles, as far as ho+w real everything is. If I to+uch so+mething in a dream, at best, it feels like I'm watching a mo+vie fro+m a first perso+n perspective, o+r maybe there's a phanto+m sensatio+n if it's so+mething I've felt befo+re. But the bubbles allo+w o+ne to+ actually feel the to+uch o+f ano+ther, and lo+se o+nes self in the little things that the physical wo+rld is to+o+ o+verwhelming to+ take no+te o+f, no+rmally. It must be so+me kind o+f sick co+smic jo+ke o+f the Universe, that the waking wo+rld sho+uld have so+ much happening in it at all times, that simple things like ho+lding hands, o+r feeling the co+o+lness o+f ano+ther's fingers trailing alo+ng o+ne's skin sho+uld be so+ easily o+verwhelmed by everything else happening. Meanwhile, even the mo+st intense lucid dream makes everything feel as if it's smo+ke o+r mist, if it has any sensatio+n at all. But the bubbles have the perfect amo+unt o+f awareness and sensatio+n, to+ let yo+u enjo+y tho+se so+ft and quiet mo+ments fully, witho+ut distractio+n o+r being o+verwhelmed... But it's because things no+rmally feel so+ disco+nnected, that they may as well be a dream. Seems as tho+ugh no+ realm is perfect. Everything is either to+o+ much, to+o+ little, o+r to+o+ fleeting... Maybe I was wro+ng, fo+r having given up my Go+dtierho+o+d, and my endless existence in the dreambubbles, in exchange fo+r a 'real' mo+rtal life... If I'd stayed there, perhaps I'd have met Aranea anyway, and we co+uld spend o+ur days and nights to+gether mo+re regularly? But wo+uld she have even no+ticed me, if I hadn't bro+ken the pro+verbial mo+ld, and returned to+ life? O+r wo+uld she simply have seen ano+ther po+int o+f data? Ano+ther Po+rrim playing o+ut the same life sto+ry as a tho+usand o+thers, just with a few mino+r tweaks to+ when I did certain things befo+re dying... I do+n't think I'll get much do+ne to+day, diary... Perhaps I sho+uld just cancel to+day's appo+intments at the sho+p, and clo+se it fo+r a little while, while I so+rt thro+ugh all these tho+ughts? I co+uld take the mo+to+rcycle fo+r a ride into+ the desert, and clear my head a bit with the sun and wind... #nsfw #shestillthinksthisdiaryisprivate
Sadly... X(((
I am well past this point.
I think there comes a certain point in lag where the only correct answer is to start hitting your head on your desk.
https://cdn.imgchest.com/files/065256c46b41.gif (( #flashing gif
One should exercise extreme discretion regarding unsolicited gifts from unknown sources. It is wise to remem8er the cautionary nature of the 'Monkey’s Paw', 8enevolence is rarely the primary motive of a stranger, let alone the white ink dou8lespeak.
come to think of it, it *is* a bit shamefUl i can't even break warp. i'm a grown cherUb, dammit, i oUght to be spanning lightyears in minUtes! U~U #vent
sat up too long and now my spine. ow.
being alone sucks.......no one would want to befriend a limeblood though :(
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i never did end Up taking that photo, sorry loves. suffice to say, jane doUsed me in a very, very potent plaster, painting me in the alabaster of hUman bone! roxy, meanwhile, has been tricked into the shadow dimension for the evening. i was meeting with some people from pUblic works aboUt my latest mUral, and sUffice to say they had qUestions. i mUst stress: *april fool's is not a recognized holiday on #earthc.*
TIPS I WISH I KNEW. WHEN I WAS GETTING INTO "LOVE." FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME. 1. LOVE IS PAIN. 2. YOU WILL EITHER KILL THEM. THEY WILL KILL YOU. ONE OF YOU WILL DIE FOR A BORING REASON. OR YOU WILL BREAK UP. YOU CAN ALWAYS SKIP TO THE GOOD END. BY BREAKING UP. AS QUICKLY AS POSSIBLE. 3. ALL MEN DO IS LIE. AND CHEAT. AND GAY. YOU CAN AVOID THIS PROBLEM. BY CHEATING FIRST. AND HARDER. THIS NEUTRALIZES HIS INEVITABLE BETRAYAL. AND ALSO. ENSURES IT. LIKE BALANCING A SCALE. OR CREATING A TIME LOOP. 4. WOMEN WILL HURT YOU EVEN WORSE.
Go home, Gorr'Rylaehotep