♦ pitied by @unforeseenFragment
=oXO i have a lot to do tonight so i,ll probably be unreachable for most of it¡¡¡ i hope you all have a good night¡ =oXO
=oXO it,s too hot for all this''' but we gotta eat so i,ll persevere i just needed to complain slightly first =oXO
[BEGIN MESSAGE] i mizz them. #vague [END MESSAGE]
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...yeah, i'll stay home. all that last ni6ht took it outta me 'n' i'm pretty sure i a6itated my ankle doin6 it.
𝚃𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚖𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚢 𝚋𝚎𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚐𝚜 𝚝𝚘:@eclecticEngineer You aren't quite sure of when the power surges started. They were small at first. Little zaps that would make you crush something suddenly. Enough to make you no longer use them to carry your lusus around. The mediculler doesn't have an answer for you. You stop going out. You try to find reasons, patterns to why they happen. Bright lights. Flashes. You can work around that. You dim your own psionics, slowing the pulse of their rate till they don't hurt your eyes anymore. You wear sunglasses to help and you do not consider the suggestion to get a port installed so you can discharge the energy. You are out with friends. It happens fast. A flash camera, someone taking your sunglasses as a joke for the photo. You come to on the floor. Exhausted and weak and surrounded by the smears that were your friends. Your pan hurts, drained of energy. Hours later, when you've hauled your weak self back to your hive, you book in for your first port installation. I'm very sorry. #gore #death #violence 𝙼𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚢 𝚏𝚒𝚗
.) Qh, um! I was gQing tQ talk abQut my rQller hQckey game, but, like, it seems like nQw isn’t an apprQpriate time, judging by the feed. SQ, I guess I’ll wait a bit! 😅 ))
=oXO lots of sad things happening on the dash all of a sudden''' i hope everyone is uh''' either doing okay or will be doing okay soon¡¡ =oXO
=oXO 8 is too many trolls in one place i think' i think if i went to one of the big events that keep happening on this site i might actually keel over dead¡¡¡¡ um i,m okay though just tired' maybe overwhelmed' but i have to stay in the mealblock until we have food available i,m mostly just telling atrexi what to tell other people to do though but too many cooks makes the room really warm' =oXO
z1eep wi11 make very 1itt1e difference. i am zpending m0zt 0f t0m0rr0w unc0nzci0uz whi1e tr011z 1ike y0u decide if they need t0 dig further int0 my nervez. #g0re #b0dyh0rr0r
...0h. i d0 n0t want t0 g0.
i d0 n0t want t0 1eave my m0irai1 a10ne up there.
...they have given me a date. z0rt 0f. i have tw0 0r three nightz bef0re i am rehe1med.
iwi11n0tcryiwi11n0tcryiwi11n0tcry n0 wait d0 n0t zend-
♤ Alright, I've Done All The Planning. All That's Left Is Getting The Prints Into An Architect's Hands So They Can Iterate And Improve ♤
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.) Qh nQQQQQ my cQ-wQrker just texted me and said that she just gQt tQ the stQre abQut peQple are, like, already queueing up fQr the latest card set release! We dQn't Qpen fQr, like, anQther hQur 😭😭 I think tQnight is gQnna be super flat Qut!! ))
It really hurts my heart to see ꫂ❁eoꫂ❁le going through so much on here...but I'm also! Glad to see them sharing it...since it means they have an outlet! And an avenue towards helꫂ❁! No one should have to suffer alone ❣︎
Ack. I almost thought about making one, too. You might be right... ❣︎
the zec0ndhand pain i am fee1ing fr0m imagining thiz iz embarrazzing
Oh, I think I need to stop being online for a bit. I am having edgy bastard feelings, which means I should go outside or something
((but also yeah it is genuinely uncomfortable and it's been making me nauseous all day so yeah uhhhhh not feeling too great about sticking around i gotta admit :s ))
...Christ even when i have him bloCked i Can tell what's 6oin' on. alri6ht i 6otta level with y'all ri6ht here 'n' now 'Cus i'm fuCkin' nauseous: if that motherfuCker - and y'know who i mean - isn't 6ettin' stopped, if he's just 6onna be allowed to post that dis6ustin' shit and 6et away with it for whatever dumbfuCk reason some Cretins are Comin' up with, i'm strai6ht up just deletin'. ain't no fuCkin' way we're just allowin' that shit to be posted with impunity. there ain't any fuCkin' reason he should be 6ettin' praised, ain't any reason he should have apolo6ists baCkin' him for whatever reason but here we are. edit: i had some time to Calm down, level out. i'm probably not 6oin' to be deletin', but today has been mentally exhaustin' unlike anythin' else. sorry folks.
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zhe iz n0t yet back 0n1ine z0 my c0ncern 0n1y gr0wz.
i. mn. i wi11 1eave it f0r n0w. i am. i am in my 0wn head again. i wi11...try t0 f0cuz 0n z0mething e1ze. and maybe z1eep.
...uh. howdy. sorry. i'm really embarrassed about Crashin' out so damn hard. y'6otta understand i ain't ever felt flushed like that before. ain't ever felt so Crushed like that before. i think what i really need is to just... head baCk home. not 6o on some stupid 'adventure' where i'm 6onna 6et myself killed like an idiot. i'm 6onna try 'n' keep it down for the next Couple days either way. yap less. it's been a lil' too rou6h on yer loCal Courier. thanks for CheCkin' up. makin' sure i'm okay. don't make sweepin' life deCisions when you're exhausted mentally 'n' physiCally. mi6ht shoCk ya to know that 6oes badly. m'sorry a6ain folks. u︵u
cconfessionn um. i wwantt to see. a bbodyy of wwaterr ssomenightt.
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sometimes the drone picks me up and shakes me until i pass out if it senses i'm getting angry at people i hate this i am not a snowglobe ♪
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sometimes i want to turn my dressing room into a rage room but that fucking overbearing drone my boss has on loan from a fuchsia restrains me every time ♪
My brother is chewing on ice directly next to my ear. I might have to kill him, actually.
>> Aww thank you whwjwhwkw ¡ try rea11y hard to be n¡ce to everyone 🥺🥺
thank y0u. they have tightened my reztricti0nz back up and i am having t0 1earn h0w t0 zpeak ar0und them again.
It's hard having secrets. Sometimes I think I'd like to just stoꫂ❁ hiding. Stoꫂ❁ letting the fear of consequence hang over me and deal with whatever may come. I think about changing myself sometimes, too. But I'm ꫂ❁robably not brave enough for that. It's okay. I'm lucky. I know that. I'm really! Really lucky. And I'm haꫂ❁ꫂ❁y I'm alive ^^ ❣︎
Um okay I think it is late enough in the morning for me to lose some inhibitions. And to assume that few ꫂ❁eoꫂ❁le will see this and it will be buried by evening! So! Sometimes I zoom in. On his ꫂ❁rofile ꫂ❁icture. Just to look at his eyes. Because I think they are very ꫂ❁retty >//< ❣︎
genuinely think a little bile just went into my mouth
I don't think you're suꫂ❁ꫂ❁osed to tell me your wish. ꫂ❁lease. ❣︎