#yearninghours
#venting #yearninghours My life feels viscerally incomplete without them. I had an actual soulmate, we understood each other in a way no one else could, we were flushed for each other for LITERAL YEARS, and I STILL fumbled them. How many people can say that. There's a reason I keep saying that getting too far into detail in my yearning posts would just make me look pathetic. It objectively IS pathetic!!! All I had to do was put in the bare minimum of effort to keep in touch beyond just existing in the same space! And I somehow managed to get a failing grade at flushcrush, something that is NOT normal to ...Read more
#vagueposting #venting #yearninghours Sometimes I wish I could just reach into my consciousness and delete the part of me that cares about them. What am I supposed to do with a love like this for someone who, in all likelihood, I will never see again. Maybe I could be more at peace with myself if I forgot what it was like to have an "other half" and could just be satisfied by the people who ARE in my life right now. But I can't forget, because no matter how much I stopped being the person I used to be, [deadname]'s repetitive, circular life still happened, and I have to live with the memories of being he...Read more
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Alright. I'm taking an early reprieve from #yearninghours. Enjoy your self-flagellation.
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There Is So Much Vulnerability In The Act Of Pailing, Especially Between Alternians. Your Friends, Or Your Quadmates, Or Your Casual Flings. There Is Something Softer There In The Give And Take Of Two Bodies. A Tender Glance Shared Between The Unzipping Of One's Pants? A Shy Glance As Hand First Meets Skin? Fuck Off. #nsfw #nsfc #yearninghours
Rahhhh. #yearninghours again.