#venting
၄⋆၃ if i have to stay in my timeline on alternia in my hive for any longer i might rip my hair out sure alternias easy for high bloods espexially high bloods that have not soxialized a night in their life im just so tired of myself question mark the way the world works question mark i mean ive had to lie on forms and paperwork for SWEEPS bexause i xould not maintain a matespritship or kismesissitude and now i must lie on everything POSSIBLYYYY FOREVER bexause my matesprit is human and not even supposed to be on alternia the sky is always murky and the rain is just axidix enough our skin ha...Read more
SELF-LOATHING AND FEELING LIKE I'M A FUCKIN' FRAUD AGAIN. ALAS.
i don't like following orders because they're a coping mechanism btw what would i even be coping with? it's not like in the earlier years of my life i knew exactly what i was gonna do and needed to do. and when i didn't have a plan or anything to go off of things went to absolute shit and the only time i felt comfortable was when my body was when i was getting told what to do by someone way more competent than me and when i got stranded alone for literal sweeps i was desperate to do anything that i could interpret as some orders to follow. like i said, not a coping mechanism. #venting
Got a l!ttle buzz go!ng and !ts got me th!nk!ng just how much of a mess ! am, and yet there's trolls that tell me !t's okay to be a mess and that !'m not alone, and ! wanna bel!eve them, ! really do ! wanna bel!eve ! am not alone but...! always feels l!ke ! am and !f not !'m the last cho!ce for any troll...and ! just...why can't ! be some trolls f!rst cho!ce? Why can't a troll just walk up to me and just...! dunno, hug me ! guess? But yet on the other hand !'m so fuck!ng parano!d and traumat!zed from past trolls that ! would probably just...freeze up or run away or hurt them, gog !'m such a screw up and a...Read more
#venting #yearninghours My life feels viscerally incomplete without them. I had an actual soulmate, we understood each other in a way no one else could, we were flushed for each other for LITERAL YEARS, and I STILL fumbled them. How many people can say that. There's a reason I keep saying that getting too far into detail in my yearning posts would just make me look pathetic. It objectively IS pathetic!!! All I had to do was put in the bare minimum of effort to keep in touch beyond just existing in the same space! And I somehow managed to get a failing grade at flushcrush, something that is NOT normal to ...Read more
Ughhh !'m try!ng to !mprove my mood and be wh!ms!cal and happy but every 2 to 3 m!nutes ! hear my stup!d lusus mak!ng some no!se and !t's l!ke UGHHH be qu!et for once!!!!! #rant!ng #vent!ng
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of course the moment i try to get off i can't get them out of my head of course can't i just fantasize in peace smh #nsfw #suggestive #venting
#vagueposting #venting #yearninghours Sometimes I wish I could just reach into my consciousness and delete the part of me that cares about them. What am I supposed to do with a love like this for someone who, in all likelihood, I will never see again. Maybe I could be more at peace with myself if I forgot what it was like to have an "other half" and could just be satisfied by the people who ARE in my life right now. But I can't forget, because no matter how much I stopped being the person I used to be, [deadname]'s repetitive, circular life still happened, and I have to live with the memories of being he...Read more
Slightly twitches my tiny fucking fluffy tail. I feel really understimulated. Didn't anticipate how much of a problem this would be. So used to having a rigid schedule at all times that I didn't really notice how much I needed one to function. Bored as hell. Have a lot of stuff I can do, theoretically. But also have nothing to prioritize. So I'm just sitting here, waiting for something to happen at me, I guess. I'll take this over my old job any day, but this also sucks. It just sucks in a different and more subtle way. Ugh. ······································································ #mo...Read more
I fhink I'm imsixk - stupid body - stupid stupid litrke thing> #sickness #venting
I hate this. I hate this stupid game. I hate these people! dont.. dont mind me. The consorts are annoying me. #venting #livesburbing
Damm1tdamm1t- 1 lo5t 5ometh1ng! 1 hate th15- #vent1ng
I feel like I'm wandering an place of madness.. #venting #livesburbing
#venting #sevendraws https://file.garden/ZjWeSXBkUxBjUmEk/ventartseven1.png
I don't feel well.. I keep fading in and out. Sorry if I seem peculiar ? it's nothing #venting
#lesbianlifehack Don't fucking cheat on her you absolute waste of space, she loves and cares and cherishes you and the fact you even consider that says more about you than you would ever care to admit. The fact you are even contemplating this says you don't deserve her. #venting
HOLY SHIT I AM SO FUCKING PATHETIC. HAHAH. GOG. I HATE MYSELF. #VENTING
BUT WHAT IF THE PEOPLE CLOSE TO ME *DO* HATE ME? WHAT IF I HAVE QUADMATES BECAUSE THOSE PEOPLE ARE PITYING HOW PATHETIC I AM. FFFUCK. #VENTING
you go try growing up in a isolated fuckin lab on god knows where island that i guess im still stuck in and a mom who just gives you dog food and tells you to fuck off. not giving any basic info or shit. CALLING YOU A FAILURE AND LYING TO YOUR ENTIRE LIFE. AND WHAT DOES SHE DOES NEXT? SHE FUCKIN DECIDES TO SELL YOU AWAY TO SOME FUCKASS WEIRDO DICTATOR ASSHOLE POLITICIAN OR WHATEVER THE WORD IS THAT PLACES YOU IN A FUCKIN SHOCK COLLAR WHENEVER YOU DONT OBEY HER. SHE THEN DRAFTS YOU TO FUCKIN I DONT KNOW THE SAME ISLAND. AND IF YOU END UP KNOWING EVERYTHING CONGRATS. IM NOT DUMB. FOR FUCK SAKE. FUCK. FUCK. ...Read more
i just dont understand me sometimes. not like, me, me. but other mes. how? how could you be so... so... ugh! ugh! i dont even think im going to be able to pretend anymore. i was having fun puppyposting and being a silly dog but that memory box thing dredged up way too much! im jade harley. youre also jade harley. sometimes youre not. but thats okay. we can be okay. we dont have to do this. we dont have to be this way. you didnt have to turn out that way at all. but you did. and i did. we did, together. and were human. mostly. we try to be, anyway. but sometimes we just need to escape from tha...Read more
You Know In A Way I'm A Lot Like The Flower I'm Named After, It Wasn't Intentional I Chose The Name Of A Young Age But Perhaps I Was Predicting Something. Roses Are Such A Fickle Flower, Sharp Along Their Stems Hurting Those Who Don't Know How To Handle Them Properly. They Need Light To Grow And Thrive, They Need Water And Attention In Order To Grow Properly. They Need So So Much And In Exchange They Can Truly Thrive. But I Am So Far Gone From That Now. The Sunlight I Once Had Had Was Much More Pale Than The Original Sun But I Liked It That Way. Her Pale Light Glow Illuminated Me We Both G...Read more
its so )(ARD makin fronds nomoby likes honesty these days smh everyones like meenah thats rude meenah dont say that meenah ur wrong meenah whyre u bein so mean meenah ur too intense meenah u need to chill oh i dunno moby cuz if i reely didnt give a shit i wouldnt bother tellin u what i think DUMBASS i mean fuck where can i find hardened beaches who can dish out n take it like i do 38/ this #venting lame af i kind of dont efin wanna try anymoor
come back home when you have some sense you can throw your life away, just not at my expense you're not the son i raised save the son i disciplined and praised for the one who disobeyed me i guess i'm hard-headed i'm dead set on ruining everything and everyone a vision said i'd never grow if i'm afraid to pledge flesh and bone #lyricposting #venting
vent art #venting #sevendraws https://file.garden/ZjWeSXBkUxBjUmEk/Un2n4amed.png
I Keep My Closet Free Of Skeletons 'cause I'm Much Better At Digging Graves but I Always Dig Up Bones In Your Sympathy i Can't Trust A Single Thing You Say uh-uh-uh-uhh-uh-uh uh-uh-uh-uhh-uh-uh don't Look Too Hard 'cause You Won't Like The Scars He Left In Me #lyricpostinh #venting
Help I'm drowning but I'm dry, even when I try to cry I can't tell if I'm alive, or if I've already died If I change to make it right If I change with all my might Maybe I can find the light Turning all of me white #lyricposting #venting
I Think I'm Starting To Remem8er Why I Typically Find Various Kankri's Annoying........ "tw": #kankri #vantas #kankrivantas #venting #vagueposting #directposting #theinsuffera8le #yesimmockinghim #mocking #howmanytagscanieventhinktocramintothis8itch #swears #pronouns #words #letters #typingquirks #thenum8ereight #titlecase #annoying
I think ill ju2t go practic3 my h3adbutt2 again2t a wall until my pan 2hut2 down #cw-23lf-harm #v3nting #fml
Monogamous People Confuse Me Sometimes, You Start Dating Someone Knowing They're Polyamorous, And Are Okay With Them 8eing Poly, And Then 8reak Up With Them When They Do Poly Stuff? Makes No Sense To Me At All I'll Say. #quadrants #drama #venting #nomonogamyhate
^^(tW #Venting, #Violence)^^ ^^i keep finding more and more bodies in the forest tonight...^^ ^^this most recent culling Was hard on us all, it seems^^ ^^it's just part of mY Work, i knoW, but^^ ^^still^^^^
lowkey i get kind of in the dumps when thinking about my bro which i hate admitting, i wish he was still around as controversial as that is to say as a dave like i'm gonna get shunned with torches and pitchforks by the dave community for saying that i get that i have my dirk and all but it's not the same yknow, my bro wasn't a good person but he wasn't bad either, he was a real one the sickest of bros of all time sorry for #venting on here, the shades came off for a second my bad bros probably thinking im soft for this fml
^^// #tW corpses, #Venting i found a poor jadeblood all burnt up :( thankfullY i had enough treasures on hand for their marker (crescent-shaped fruit to represent the moon, old Waterskin, Writing stick for Wisdom), and the gizzardbeasts ate Well^^ ^^i neVer kneW You, mY friend, but i am glad You are part of the cYcle again.^^