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@alternasiaGlamorizer
ECLECTIIC CONSUMER OF ALTERNASIIA MEDIIA AND UNDERGROUND TUNES IIN SERVIICE TO A BEAUTIIFUL COBALT WITH IIMPECCABLE FASHION SENSE PLEASE ASK ABOUT MY MANGAKA DREAMS
its late aint no ones gonna see this. no one sees my posts anyvway. just talking about stupid mental health shit. rambling thoughts, exhaustion about it. been diagnosed recently by a psychologist. post-partum depression, regular ass depression, C-PTSD, some other shit. a lot of other shit... i dont get half of this shit. most of these terms vwerent evwen on beforus. got vworried they vwere gonna toss me in a loony bin vwhen my moirail recommended going to a human therapist. apparently, i made one too many jokes about killing myself. dunno vwhy this all makes me feel anxious. i dunno, vweird feeling and shit on my chest. heavwy as hell. apparently, being tired all the time is not normal. a lot of other stuff. blegh this is a stupid post.
II HOPE IIT DOES NOT CAUSE YOU DIISMAY KNOWIING THIIS CHIITT WAS SEEN BY ANOTHER TROLL BUT IIF IIT IIS ANY CONSOLATIION TO YOU II FIIND YOUR ATTEMPTS AT SELF IIMPROVEMENT TO BE VERY IINTERESTIING NOT IIN A STRANGE WAY MORE IIN A WAY THAT MAKES ME FEEL VERY IINVIIGORATED TO IINVESTIIGATE MY OWN IISSUES DESPIITE POTENTIIAL BLOCKAGES UM IIS THERE A BENEFIIT TO SPEAKIING WIITH A HUMAN LIIFEFORM OVER A CERTIIFIIED DOCTERROR OR IIS THAT PERSONAL PREFERENCE
i did post it on a public forum, people usually just ignore vwhat i say so i figured itd be the same case here, so no harm, no foul. and yeah, if you can, it doesnt hurt vwhen you get in a better place to do it, I had to get pushed to do it cause I aint... the vwisest about these sorta things? took a lot of convwincing to get me to go. better for it evwentually. and humans knowv more about mental health than trolls do, and alternian docterrors can kill you or hurt you. on beforus you can get coddled/culled (interchangeable on beforus), and I am a seadvweller, so its more rare but not unheard of. Humans are less extreme about it.
YOUR CANDIID REPLY IIS VERY REASSURIING SOME SMALL PORTIION OF MY PUSHER WAS CONCERNED FOR YOUR IIMMEDIIATE SAFETY SIIMPLY BECAUSE OF THE MANNER DIISPLAYED IIN YOUR CHIITT HUMAN LIIFEFORMS DO SEEM VERY IIN-TOUCH WIITH EMOTIIONAL PROBLEMS PERHAPS IIT IIS BECAUSE THEY HAVE SHORT SQUIISHY LIIVES IIN COMPARIISON TO THE MULTIITUDES OF SWEEPS AVAIILABLE TO NOBLE- AND SEABLOODS BUT THAT IIS NOT THE TOPIIC AT PRONG UM II HOPE IIT IIS GOIING WELL FOR YOU
VWords on a screen can only offer so much reassurance, but Im in no immediate danger. Im just on some sorta emotional rollercoaster. Its not a fun ride. 8eing vwulnerable isnt really my thing... so probably a vweird post from me in general, 8UT I am okay. Youre fine, its a convwersation. 8ut, yeah, they are. They care a lot about mental health and the vwell-being of those around them. And only take action in extreme cases. And, that could be it, but from my understanding, its just the large urge to understand themselvwes and to prevwent they consider tragedy. Any loss of life to humans is tragic. On Alternia, its another day; on 8eforus, its sad but also another day. They havwe a great capacity for Empathy, I think, evwen if they vwere strong, theyd be like that. Its getting better; I havwe a support system. Im struggling, but its not stuff I share often. Im figuring it out, ya knowv?
II SUPPOSE II WIILL HAVE TO RESEARCH THIIS FURTHER DUE TO MY OWN MYRIIAD IISSUES BUT TO BE CLEAR YOU ARE THE PRIIORIITY OF THIIS CONVERSATIING SO PLEASE UNDERSTAND IIT IIS SAIID VERY HONESTLY WHEN II TELL YOU THIIS IIS PROGRESS TO BE PROUD OF AND SEEKIING ASSIISTANCE FROM ALIIENS IIS A SIIGN OF HUMIILIITY II THIINK
,., MMMM_ ,.., "_ "__"MMMMM ,...,, ,..., __." --" ,., _-"MMMMMMM MMMMMM"___ "_._ MMM"_."" _ """""" """"" "" , \_. "_. ." In all regions of Alternasia and Beforasia... ,., _"__ \__./ ." there exists a universal adoration for the seasons. MMMMM_" "_ ./ Embrace a badge that signifies that, with '''' ( ) FOREVER, IN SPRING. ._______________.-'____"---._. \ / \________________________/ (_) (_)
OH THIIS IIS UM THIIS WOULD BE THE BADGE FOR SOMETROLL SUCH AS MYSELF IIT WOULD BE A GREAT HONOR TO RECEIIVE IIT PLEASE
Yes! #juniorbadgedyou #foreverinspring
YOU ARE VERY GRACIIOUS IINDEED THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR THIIS OPPORTUNIITY JJUNIIOR YOU ARE NOT A LIIFEFORM BUT YOU ARE EXACTLY AS HELPFUL AS ONE WHIICH IIS JJUST AS GOOD
MY SIITUATIION IIS ESCALATIING RAPIIDLY AND WORSENED BY THE ACIID RAIIN PREDIICAMENT WHIICH HAS COMPLETELY HAMPERED MY OPTIIONS FOR ESCAPE THIIS IIS EXTREMELY PRESSIING II AM FREAKIING OUT ON A LEVEL PREVIIOUSLY NOT KNOWN TO BE POSSIIBLE THAT OTHER TROLL IIS ALMOST CERTAIINLY DEAD OH MY STARS
༻𐫱༺ Typically sspeaking a rainbowdrinker will glow w𝒽en attacking 🌻 T𝒽ey may alsso move quite fasst 🌻 You may ssee woundss on t𝒽em t𝒽at look like t𝒽ey may be fatal yet t𝒽ey will sstill move around 🌻 You will often ssee fangss 🌻 T𝒽oug𝒽 by t𝒽at point it may be too late 🌻 If t𝒽ey 𝒽ave a ready ssource of blood nearby t𝒽ey ss𝒽ould leave you alone- t𝒽e fress𝒽ly dead or dying will do 🌻 For mosst of uss, cutting off t𝒽e 𝒽ead iss an effective form of desstruction 🌻 Sstabbing t𝒽em t𝒽roug𝒽 t𝒽e puss𝒽er iss an effective way to sstun t𝒽em 🌻 #violence #deat𝒽 ༻𐫱༺
IIT UM OR MAYBE II SHOULD SAY SHE IIS CURRENTLY SHAKIING WHAT APPEARS TO BE A VERY DEAD #CORPSE AROUND BY THE NECK AND THERE IIS DEFIINIITELY GLOWIING IIT IIS BRIIGHT ENOUGH TO BE VERY HARD TO SEE MANY DETAIILS II HAVE TRIIED TO HIIDE UNDER AN AWNIING BEHIIND A WASTER COLLECTIION BIIN BUT II AM IIN THE BACK OF THIIS ALLEY WHIILE SHE OCCUPIIES THE FRONT WHAT SHOULD II DO II CANNOT BE IIN THE OPEN FOR VERY LONG THIIS UMBRELLA IIS ALREADY UNHAPPY WIITH THE CURRENT RAIIN SIITUATIION
༻𐫱༺ It ssoundss like ss𝒽e iss 𝒽ungry t𝒽en 🌻 𝒽mn 🌻 𝒽ass ss𝒽e noticed you 🌻 And w𝒽ere are you 🌻 If I'm nearby I could come and assssisst 🌻 ༻𐫱༺
II AM CURRENTLY LOCATED ON ALTERNIIUM-4 IIN THE EAST QUADRANT OF THE FIIRST ALTERNIIAN GALAXY SO ONE OF THE COLONY PLANETS UM II DO NOT THIINK SHE HAS NOTIICED ME II WAS HIIDIING IIN THE ALLEY FOR OTHER REASONS WHEN SHE CHASED THE UH ""VIICTIIM"" IIN HERE AND POUNCED LIIKE A WIILD HOWLBEAST THERE IIS SO MUCH #BLOOD
༻𐫱༺ 𝒽mn 🌻 I do not t𝒽ink t𝒽at iss my planet 🌻 🌻 🌻 A𝒽 🌻 Deep breat𝒽ss, yess 🌻 It will be alrig𝒽t 🌻 Your optionss at t𝒽iss point are to eit𝒽er make yoursself ssmall and wait 🌻 Or to walk out and pretend you cannot ssee 𝒽er 🌻 ༻𐫱༺
WALK OUT AND PRETEND II DO NOT SEE HER SEEMS A LIITTLE UM #SUIICIIDAL FOR LACK OF A BETTER TERM THE POWER OF IIGNORANCE IIS VERY STRONG BUT II DOUBT IIT WIILL HAVE EFFECTS ON SOMETROLL ACTIIVELY DOIING SLURPIING NOIISES
༻𐫱༺ A large part of it iss to not pressent yoursself as prey 🌻 ༻𐫱༺
THAT IIS FAIIR UM SO THE OPTIIONS ARE NARROWIING SLIIGHTLY ONLY BECAUSE IIT IIS CURRENTLY ACIID RAIINIING WHIICH IIS NOT IIDEAL AND MY UMBRELLA IIS OLD II AM FEARFUL FOR THE IINTEGRIITY BUT IIN THE MOMENT II AM ATTEMPTIING TO BE BRAVE WHIILE WEIIGHIING MY OPTIIONS IIT IIS NOT MY FIINEST HOUR DO YOU THIINK II SHOULD RUN OR JJUST WALK OR MAYBE ATTEMPT CONVERSATIION TO SEEM PLEASANT
༻𐫱༺ Walk 🌻 Running will make you sseem like prey 🌻 Ss𝒽e likely will not want to talk 🌻 At mosst you will want to do a polite nod 🌻 ༻𐫱༺
ADMIITTEDLY II AM TERRIIFIIED OF DOIING THIIS IINCORRECTLY II PIICKED A TERRIIBLE DAY TO DRESS IIN SPARKLY CLOTHIING EVERYTHIING IIS JJIINGLY AND OH NO OH NO OH NO SHE IIS COMIING TOWARDS THE BACK OF THE ALLEY II DO NOT KNOW IIF SHE HAS SEEN ME OR NOT
HELLO LIITTLE PALMHUSK TROLLS THIIS IIS AN EMERGENCY THIIS IIS THE MOST IIMPORTANT CHIITT II HAVE EVER IISSUED PLEASE RESPOND IIMMEDIIATELY IIF YOU HAVE IINFORMATIION ON IIDENTIIFYIING WHAT A ""RAIINBOW DRIINKER"" LOOKS LIIKE THIIS IIS A PRESSIING MATTER THIIS IIS IINCREDIIBLY TIIME SENSIITIIVE HELP
HELLO II HOPE THIIS IIS IIN RESPONSE TO THE BODY OF MY CHIITT AND NOT THE IIMMEDIIATE OPENIING OF IIT
༻𐫱༺ O𝒽 dear 🌻 I can assssisst 🌻 ༻𐫱༺
YES PLEASE IIF THAT IIS POSSIIBLE II AM LIISTENIING OR IIN THIIS CASE READIING VERY CAREFULLY
PLEASE TELL ME YOU ARE NOT PRESENTLY IIN THE ALLEY WIITH ME ON ALTERNIIUM-4 THAT WOULD BE IINCREDIIBLY AWKWARD AND HORRIIBLE ACTUALLY
THAT IIS A RELIIEF BUT ONLY BARELY TO BE CLEAR II DO NOT HAVE ANY IISSUES WIITH ""RAIINBOW DRIINKER"" TROLLS II AM JJUST PRESENTLY IIN DANGER II THIINK
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THIIS IIS A VERY DELIIGHTFUL IIMAGE YOU HAVE PROPERLY CAPTURED THE ""CUTE"" FACTOR OF TWO TROLLS IIN A WARM QUADRANT UM AND CHIIXIIE LOOKS ESPECIIALLY WONDERFUL HERE THANK YOU FOR TAKIING THE TIIME TO MAKE SUCH AN EXCELLENT PIIECE ON BEHALF OF THE OSHIIMEN YOU HAVE MY ETERNAL APPRECIIATIION
he ha2 been ♊︎n here for hour2 now..
II HOPE THAT ALL IIS GOIING WELL FOR YOU IIT IIS VERY HARD WORK BEIING A HELM FROM WHAT II HAVE HEARD IIS SOMEONE CURRENTLY IINVADIING YOUR PRIIVACY
♊︎t"2...... work.. ...... ye2,, but ♊︎t"2 f♊︎ne.. ♊︎t wa2 bored.. ♊︎t2 enr♊︎chment ♊︎tem2 have not been...... enr♊︎ch♊︎ng enough..
WHAT WOULD HELM-4221 TYPIICALLY DO FOR ENRIICHMENT PERHAPS II CAN ASSIIST EVEN THOUGH WE ARE LIIKELY VERY FAR APART II HAVE BEEN TOLD THAT MY TASTE IIN MEDIIA CAN BE VERY IINVIIGORATIING UM II WAS TOLD THIIS BY ANOTHER HELM WHIICH MAY HAVE NO ACTUAL BEARIING OR WEIIGHT IIT IIS JJUST AN ATTEMPT AT HELPIING
p♊︎lot.. ♊︎t ♊︎2 a p♊︎lot.. you w♊︎ll refer to ♊︎t a2 2uch.. do not u2e ♊︎t2 de2♊︎gnat♊︎on.. ...... ♊︎t ha2 many ♊︎tem2.. mu2♊︎c acce22 ♊︎2 ♊︎t2 mo2t u2ed avenue of enr♊︎chment,, but ♊︎t ha2 puzzle2 and tr♊︎nket2 a2 well.. ♊︎t recently got ♊︎t2 mov♊︎e pr♊︎v♊︎lege2 back..
OH UM II AM SORRY II WIILL REFER TO IIT AS A PIILOT FROM HEREAFTER II UH IIT IIS VERY NIICE TO MEET YOU ADMIITTEDLY II FEEL VERY AWKWARD CONTIINUIING THE CONVERSATIION AFTER MAKIING A BLUNDER LIIKE THIIS II WIILL ENDEAVOR TO BE RESPECTFUL FROM NOW ON AND ASK WHAT SORT OF MUSIIC IIS THE FAVORIITE OF THIIS PIILOT
hm.. ...... ♊︎t doe2 not have a part♊︎cular favor♊︎te ♊︎n m♊︎nd.. ♊︎t w♊︎ll l♊︎2ten to anyth♊︎ng at lea2t once..
UM WOULD YOU LIIKE TO LIISTEN TO SOMETHIING NEW OR WOULD THE PIILOT PREFER TO TALK ABOUT WHAT THE MOST RECENT SONG IIT HEARD WAS LIIKE II AM SORRY THESE QUESTIIONS ARE EXTREMELY BASIIC II AM JJUST VERY NERVOUS
you 2hould be nervou2.. =:]] ♊︎t ♊︎2 f♊︎ne w♊︎th e♊︎ther.. la2t 2ong ♊︎t l♊︎2tened two wa2 th♊︎2 one..
THANK YOU FOR SHARIING THIIS SONG II AM GOIING TO LIISTEN TO IIT BUT II WIILL BE HONEST YOU ARE VERY SCARY TO ME SO II WIILL BE TAKIING MY LEAVE GOOD LIIGHT TO YOU UM IIT WAS NIICE TO TALK
LAST DAY ON-CALL FOR MY HORRIIBLE JJOB BEFORE II AM PERMIITTED TO ENJJOY A NIICE LONG BREAK OF UM FOUR LIIGHTS WHIICH IIS NOT A LOT IIN THE GRAND SCHEME OF THIINGS BUT IIT MAKES ME FEEL A LIITTLE BETTER KNOWIING THAT II HAVE THIIS TIIME SPECIIFIICALLY FREE OF ALL CONSEQUENCE
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II HAD MAYBE PLANNED TO FIINALLY PIICK UP MY MERCH DROP FROM THE POST SO II COULD HAVE A LIITTLE PHOTOGRAPHIIC MOMENT BUT II AM VERY NERVOUS TO BE HONEST IIT SCARES ME TO BE SEEN OR KNOWN IIN ANY CAPACIITY