Doctor Caligari
@drCaligari
Cherub anatomist, nomenclatural surgeon, and curator of all poorly understood bilateral atrocities.
[CASE] I,_[DOCTOR]_Caligari,_have_a_demand. Subject. Subject_yourself.
[CASE] [CHERUBIM_MORPHOLOGY] A_cheek,_a_curl,_a_winglet._Some_are_overfed_decorative_infants_nailed_into_the_ceiling_of_cathedrals_and_painted_pleasant_familiar_colors. These_are_incorrect_depictions_of_my_kin. A_cherub_is_more_like_a_locked_cabinet_with_a_snake_inside_of_it._A_cherub_is_a_skull_not_as_symbol_of_death_but_as_a_survival_trait._Your_theologies_have_mistaken_us._We_are_ultimately_the_totality_of_whatever_aspect_it_is_we_have_decided_to_digest. The_earliest_observable_form_is_not_the_humanoid_but_the_serpent-wriggler._It_is_green,_tapered,_and_oddly_obscene_in_its_simplicity._It_is_akin_to_a_living_punctuation_mark._However_it_is_the_beginning_rather_than_the_end._Skull-headed,_duel-eyed,_dual-cheeked,_a_single_body_with_two_verdicts_taht_are_still_wet_in_ink._The_face_is_already_a_mask_before_there_is_anything_beneath_it. It_does_not_resemble_a_mammalian_ape_man's_baby._ The_egg_itself_is_important._Cherub_birth_begins_with_confectionery._The_sugary_shells_are_their_candied_armor._A_nursery_turned_nourishment._The_first_act_is_to_eat_the_prison_that_held_you._This_is_doctrine._You,_the_cherub,_must_learn_that_shelter_is_something_to_be_consumed._This_idea_is_drilled_into_you_before_speech,_posture,_or_separation._ The_body_and_brain_of_a_cherub_is_not_simple._It_is_not_simply_two_souls_inhabiting_something._No,_the_cherub_body_is_a_courtroom_where_you_both_take_turns_on_the_witness_stand_and_give_your_delightfully_expert_opinions_to_the_world._You_take_turns_at_existence,_divided_by_sleep,_names,_and_rituals._ It_is_not_uncommon_for_cherubs_to_leave_notes_for_one_another,_after_all,_we_are_often_alone_in_such_endeavors._My_alternate,_Calisare,_and_I____We_communicated_primarily_through_our_medical_notes._I,_[DOCTOR]_Caligari,_know_that_Lord_Caliborn_of_English_Fame_had_communicated_via_drawings._ This_is_a_strategic_sibling_rivalry,_generally._It_can_only_be_carried_out_through_an_entire_forensic_reconstruction. To_be_a_young_cherub_is_to_live_inside_a_house_haunted_by_yourself. The_humanoid_form_is_the_species’_great_joke._Green_skin_stretched_over_an_almost-person._Skull-like_head._Glassy_puppet_eyes._Dark_under-eye_hollows_like_bruises_left_by_prophecy._Clawed_hands,_sharp_teeth,_forked_tongue,_and_a_mouth_which_can_behave_politely_but_would_rather_be_an_unsuspecting_trap_door. The_lips_are_a_curtain_we_are_not_fully_blessed_with._The_jaw_is_the_stage_machinery_jutting_out_from_the_improper_coverings_to_display_our_true_machination. Consumption. The_cheek_spirals_are_not_decoration._They_are_confession. Blood,_alignment,_dominance,_and_identity_all_bleed_outward_into_that_little_ornamental_curl._A_spiral_is_a_civilized_way_of_drawing_a_coil._A_coil_is_a_civilized_way_of_drawing_a_snake._A_snake_is_a_civilized_way_of_drawing_hunger_with_no_limbs._The_cherub_wears_its_argument_on_its_cheekbone. The_exoskeleton,_if_we_accept_the_term_literally,_suggests_the_species_is_not_properly_“skinned”_the_way_mammals_are._It_is_shelled._A_cherub_does_not_merely_inhabit_a_body;_it_is_sealed_into_one._This_makes_the_humanoid_phase_feel_like_an_insect_pretending_to_be_a_corpse_pretending_to_be_a_person_pretending_not_to_size_you_up_for_consumption._ Hieronymous_Bosch_would_have_gladly_placed_our_ilk_beside_a_cracked_egg,_a_spoon,_a_ladder_going_nowhere,_with_the_little_devil_writing_family_law_on_a_fish. Our_tongues_deserve_separate_attention._ Forked,_black_or_white_depending_on_who_is_awake,_striped_in_the_pre-separated_state._The_tongue_is_the_earliest_banner_of_divided_sovereignty._It_tastes_the_world_twice._It_lies_in_two_directions._It_is_a_flag_hung_from_the_mouth_of_a_skull. Our_claws_are_similarly_simple._Trolls_have_horns,_humans_have_hands,_cherubs_have_instruments._Our_fingers_look_designed_for_writing,_carving,_gripping,_cutting,_and_opening._They_are_born_to_be_archivists_and_vandals._Which,_given_our_culture_revolved_around_jujus:_Heirlooms,_toys,_curses,_keys,_weapons,_and_contraband._A_cherub_loves_an_object_due_to_how_well_it_can_survive,_not_because_of_sentiment. Cherubs_mature_by_becoming_less_inhabited. One_half_wins._One_half_is_consumed,_erased,_subdued,_metabolized,_or_otherwise_made_into_the_dark_nutrient_of_adulthood._The_victor_is_not_merely_the_survivor._The_victor_is_the_editor._They_remove_the_sibling_from_the_manuscript. This_is_delicate._This_predomination_cannot_occur_too_early._Caliborn's_stunting_is_not_just_psychological._It_is_a_morphological_and_theological_feat._He_is_an_unfinished_verdict._He_is_a_larval_tyrant._He_is_a_little_king_in_his_body,_who_has_yet_to_receive_all_of_his_instructions. A_proper_adult_cherub_is_grander,_more_monstrous,_more_complete._Wings._Power._Cosmic._The_failed_adult_is_his_tantrum_preserved_in_amber. A_mature_cherub_is_no_longer_a_child-shaped_coffin._It_is_closer_to_an_ecological_event. They_range_across_space_as_solitary_powers,_each_carrying_the_vacancy_where_their_other_half_used_to_be._This_is_the_funniest_part_of_the_design,_don't_you_think?_Not_haha_funny,_rather,_strange_funny._ The_sibling_must_be_destroyed_so_the_adult_can_spend_the_rest_of_eternity_looking_for_someone_who_resembles_them_enough_to_fight. Cherub_romance_is_therefore_grief_with_teeth. You_have_read_it_all_through_the_'Chuchu_Nunus'_that_have_come_before_me. I,_[DOCTOR]_Caligari,_will_not_speak_on_it. I,_[DOCTOR]_Caligari,_will_only_describe_it_as_a_knot_around_the_dead_stars. [DIAGNOSIS] Do_not_trust_any_species_whose_infancy_begins_with_candy_and_whose_adulthood_requires_a_black_hole. That_is_not_an_animal. That_is_a_cosmological_disease. Myself_included._
[CASE] My_respite._Cut_short._Cherubim_need_observed.
[OBSERVATION] This_recent_[CASE]_of_mine_is_inconclusive._I,_[DOCTOR]_Caligari,_simply_cannot_find_information_on_Calliope.
[DIAGNOSIS] I,_[DOCTOR]_Caligari,_apologize,_Calliope_Lalonde._I,_[DOCTOR]_Caligari,_was_researching_a_specific_state_of_yourself_on_the_behest_of_your_sibling.
ah, i see. her. i'd avoid doing anything for him, if yoU can help it. it's bad for yoUr health.
Understand_that_my_health_has_not_been_a_concern_in_quite_a_long_time. [THE_CABINET]_is_my_legacy.
[CASE] Seeking_more_cherubim. As_zilly_as_that_is.
THIS ONE SEES YOU AS A “PRETENDER”, I’M AFRAID. BUT YOU AND I KNOW BETTER, DON’T WE?
[OBSERVATION] You_attribute_unearned_words. Speak_not_for_me.
Greetings. I,_[DOCTOR]_Caligari,_do_not_think_you_are_a_pretender. I,_[DOCTOR]_Caligari,_do_not_believe_you_serve_any_interest_to_my_studies,_as_your_[CASE]_is_special. Sole_Cherub.
special? how is oUr natUral matUration special? sUre, it occUrred in a strange way, bUt is that not interesting for stUdy in and of itself?
AN INTERESTING ENDEAVOR. TO CATALOGUE THE CHERUB. FOR WHAT PURPOSE?
[OBSERVATION] We_are_a_lost_colture. [CASE] I,_[DOCTOR]_Caligari,_would_like_us_found.
[OBSERVATION] Calliope.
I’LL BE WAITING WITH INTEREST ON THIS ONE.
My_[OBSERVATION]_in_her_[CASE]_is_that_she_is_no_more. Scraps_across_space. Time. There_are_pretenders. I,_[DOCTOR]_Caligari,_cannot_see_her. I,_[DOCTOR]_Caligari,_cannot_feel_her.
[OBSERVATION]. Calderus_is_a_study_in_contradictions. Verified. De-verified. Gold-Plated. Unstable. Established. Unestablished. Normal. A_Failure. A_cherub_whose_existence_is_insistence. Claim_to_birthright_to_others,_possibly_faulty. A_Cherub_Standing_In_Ruins. This_Profile_Is_Less_Than_Personal. A_Medical_Chart_Of_Failures. [CASE_NOTE] Calderus_is_obscure_but_not_difficult_to_understand. He_is_very_legible. Too_legible. He_arrives_in_capital_letters. His_Title_Is_Not_Subtle. Unashamed_Unmaker. He_has_no_restraint._He_has_no_morality._No_compass_guides_his_ship_of_pride._He_is_a_subject_that_is_not_merely_a_destroyer,_but_he_refuses_the_social_aftercare_of_destruction._He_does_not_apologize._He_does_not_flinch._He_does_not_sanitize_with_euphemisms._There_is_not_a_ribbon_placed_around_his_blade_to_turn_it_ceremonial. His_noise_is_necessary._The_shape_of_his_words_are_unwelcome._ He_is_not_subject_to_ordinary_violence._He_is_less_than_impulsive._He_attempts_to_calculate_a_hygienic_take_to_his_ruined_planets. His_lust_for_the_primordial_game_construct_is_peculiar. A_diagnostic_distinction_to_be_made_for_certain. Though,_in_spite_of_his_apparent_age_and_ancient_existence,_he_retains_a_skeletal_form. He_has_not_erupted_into_snakehood._He_is_alone. His_duality_is_singular. He_does_not_merely_hate. He_presumes_it_is_finished_and_unworthy_of_love. [DIAGNOSIS.] Architectural_Contempt. Chronic_Form-Rejection. Sovereign_Disassembly_Reflex. Advanced_Anti-Contrition_Syndrome. Probable_Megalithic_Ego_Preservation_Beneath_A_Surface_Of_Deliberate_Ruin. [OBSERVATION] A_Name_Like_Calderus_Carries_Heat. Not_Fire,_Exactly. Fire_Is_Too_Honest. Fire_leaves_something_behind. Calderus_is_a_furnace_built_inside_of_a_courthouse._ Warm. Procedural. Fully_Destructive_of_the_Records_he_Observes. This_Is_The_Particular_Danger_Of_Him. He_Does_Not_Merely_Unmake. He_Justifies_The_Unmaking_By_Existing_After_It. [THE_DOCTOR_OPENS_THE_CABINET] This_Is_Where_The_Body_Becomes_Interesting. I,_[DOCTOR]_Caligari,_Suspect_Calderus_Carries_Himself_Like_A_Structural_Event. The_shoulders_are_declarative,_not_board._His_hands_are_not_at_rest,_they_are_delayed_as_consequences._His_eyes_are_calm,_yet_manicly_red. He_sees_the_forest_not_for_the_tree,_but_for_its_ruin. This_Is_A_Man_Looking_For_Joints. Everything_Has_A_Joint. A_law. A_friendship. A_body. A_title. A_god. A_name. Find_The_Joint,_Apply_Pressure,_And_The_World_Reveals_How_Much_Of_It_Was_Performance. [DIAGNOSIS_REVISED] The_Lack_Of_Shame_Is_The_Crucial_Organ. Shame_Is_Often_Described_As_A_Moral_Sense._This_Is_Imbecilic,_But_Popular. Shame_Is_More_Accurately_A_Social_Bridle. His_Shame_Needs_Repaired. His_Humility_Is_Missing. In_Calderus,_This_Bridle_Is_Either_Absent,_Severed,_Or_Being_Worn_As_A_Belt. This_Does_Not_Mean_He_Is_Free. A_creature_without_shame_may_still_be_enslaved_to_the_need_to_prove_that_shame_cannot_reach_him. This_Is_The_Secret_Disease_Of_The_Unashamed. [CONCLUSION] Recommended_Continued_[OBSERVATION]. Do_Not_Ask_Him_If_He_Regrets_Anything_Unless_You_Are_Prepared_To_Become_Part_Of_The_Answer. Do_Not_Offer_Him_A_Fragile_Principle_Unless_You_Have_Already_Located_Its_Replacement. Do_Not_Confuse_His_Lack_Of_Shame_For_Lack_Of_Memory. Abandon_Him._He_Is_A_Function. Heed_Him._He_Is_An_Event.
…EX-FUCKING-CUSE ME? ARE YOU STUDYING ME LIKE A GODDAMN BUG?
No. I,_[DOCTOR]_Caligari,_have_not_pinned_you_to_my_corkboard. I,_[DOCTOR]_Caligari,_merely_observe_our_kin.
WELL. NOT THE WORST IT COULD BE. BUT NOT…ENTIRELY UP TO DATE. I’VE BEEN GOING THROUGH SOME THINGS.
[OBSERVATION] Caliborn_Presents_As_A_Fascinatingly_Overdeveloped_Example_Of_Terminal_Predominance. A_Cherub,_Properly_Speaking,_Is_Not_Subtle._Subtlety_Is_Solely_For_Creatures_Who_Require_A_Social_Adaptation_That_Permits_Their_Opinions_To_Be_Annexed_By_Others. Cherubs_Do_Not_Have_Such_Faults. His_Profile_Describes_Him_As_“CEO_OF_SEX,”_A_Cry_For_Desire_To_Be_Incorporated,_And_Made_Litigiously_Available_And_Answerable_To_Him. [DIAGNOSIS] Acute_Monarchic_Libido. Advanced_Anti-Subtlety_Syndrome. Catastrophic_Volume_Dependence. Severe_Signature_Theft_Reflex. Probable_Untreated_Lordship. His_Public_Conduct_Is_Consistent_With_A_Creature_Who_Does_Not_Allow_Weakness_In_His_Orbits._Restraint_To_Him_Is_Insults._Attention_Is_A_Resource_To_Be_Mined._ He_Praises_Violence_As_A_Form_Of_Self-Actualization._His_Rebellion_Is_Employment_Training. His_Mentorship_Includes_Removing_All_Leashes_Save_For_His_Own_Sisterly_Bond. This_Is_The_Free_Cage_Illusion. [CASE_NOTE] There_Is,_However,_Method_In_The_Brutality. Caliborn_Does_Not_Shout_To_Be_Loud. Scale_Is_Our_Native_Language. His_Ego_Is_A_Load-Bearing_Apperatus. Remove_It. He_Will_Collapse_Into_A_Useless_Pile. He_Is_Not_Difficult_To_Read. He_Is_Difficult_To_Survive_At_Close_Range. He_Has_Not_Intimacy. Only_Intimidation. -horror_ He_Does_Not_Need_A_[DOCTOR]. Continued_[OBSERVATION]. Reinforced_Furniture. No_Sharp_Objects_Within_Admiration_Range. And_A_Strict_Policy_Against_Allowing_Him_To_Name_His_Own_Departments.
[OBSERVATION] I,_[DOCTOR]_Caligari,_have_learned_of_other_Cherubs_on_this_website.
OOC / Subscription Note: This account is for Dr. Caligari, a Homestuck cherub OC inspired by The Cabinet Of Dr. Caligari, silent film horror, German Expressionism, fake medical authority, anatomical theater, and very normal opinions about cherub biology. By subscribing / following, you can expect: Cherub anatomy, biology, nomenclature, predomination, and developmental horror. Medical file formatting, case notes, observations, diagnoses, and theatrical pseudo-academic nonsense. A lot of “the body as argument / the name as incision / identity as architecture” typeposting. Dry clinical cruelty. Unsettling cabinet imagery. Occasional interactions where your muse may be analyzed like a specimen, patient, or poorly labeled drawer. Body horror-adjacent language and horror theming. This is not meant to be a real medical account, obviously. It is a character voice built around gothic horror, fake scholarship, cherub weirdness, and theatrical categorization. Likely tags include: #horror #body-horror #NSFW #NSFWE #gore will be used if things become explicitly bloody, surgical, or injury-focused.
I,_[DOCTOR]_Caligari,_am_a_Cherub_Anatomist,_Nomenclatural_Physician,_Former_Director_of_an_Institution_You_Know_Too_Well. I,_[DOCTOR]_Caligari,_Have_Come_Here_In_Search_Of_Conversation,_Specimens,_Errata,_And_Those_Rare_Social_Disasters_Which_Clarify_An_Entire_Field_Of_Study. My_Work_Concerns_The_Cherub_Body. Its_Architecture. Its_Predomination. Its_Dual_Occupancy. Its_Many_Vulgar_Misnamings. You_Will_Find_That_Most_People_Describe_Cherubs_Incorrectly._They_Say_Good_And_Evil._They_Say_Sibling._They_Say_Monster._They_Say_Madness. I,_[DOCTOR]_Caligari,_will_study_you_intently.