@karmaDagger — #cw-mental-health
dont know whether to laugh or cry rn. think im just gonna block and ignore it so i never have to see it again. shouldve done that earlier.
think im just gonna go back to sleep. try and sleep all day before i have a self-destructive episode and do a bunch of awful shit to cut off everyone who cares about me.
this shit along with the failed suicide attempt (why i was gone for a whole week) paired with the gradual increase of depressive episodes and a feeling of deep loneliness even when talking to and hanging out with people i give a fuck about is really doing number's on me. but i guess thats the point. break the vessel until its suitable enough, right? ...wonder if that implies the demon eye thing is the cause of my mental health issue's recently. it isnt, ive always been this way. but i guess itd be nice to have something to blame.
am i even real at least when i was slutting out constantly i felt real. an object is real i dont think i know how to be a person. i dont think thatll ever change
i hate knowing im not even a person. created by a bunch of peoples options to be a "vessel" for some evil fucking demon eyeball and then i guess thrown down to earth like 20-something year's ago where i experienced abuse first at the hands of my sister then at the hands of the people i fell in with after running away from home when i was i didnt ask to be created i dont want to be this fucking thing thats only purpose has been to serve host to some shitty fucking eye was me being sent to earth part of it how much did wdg know would happen have i been fucking groomed for this broken so that ill make...Read more
getting morning wood used to be fine but after being raped by someone i met on pesterchum it just feel's like my own body is violating me. i didnt ask for this boner. the fuck. but i dont even know why i feel that way. its far from the first time that kinda things happened to me and i didnt give so much of a shit back then maybe its cause i care about myself more now than when i was a kid idfk #cw-rape #cw-abuse #rape #rape-mention #cw-mental-health #cw-rape-mention #cw-sexual-abuse #vent
i think im too tired to care. fuck it. behind the tree it goes with everything else i dont think about. i guess thats one benefit to mental breakdown's when you cant sleep. they make you super tired
cruel joke of the universe that i cant even cut myself to assure myself im real cause i dont bleed ever since that fucking piece of shit demon eye-knight-whatever thing possessed me. lol. lmfao. fahahah. heheheh. copies are monochrome. gman made this account for me along with the apple pfp. apparently kris deltarune has association with apple's given a couple people have mistaken me for them based on pfp alone copies are monochrome. my skin literally turn's grey when im away from the bunker-mansion for too long copies are monochrome. my older sisters name was destiny which everyone would always sh...Read more
iillalwsyss neverbbe a person iillalways bejust a bad ddog whohurtd people ttheonky way tostop it is ifi die ismrkrry imsorry
alright gamer's heres the next MILESTONE WOOO HYPESQUAD ill be K-K-K-KULLINNNNGGGG MYSELF WHEN WE REACH FIFTY!! THOUSAND!!! KULLLLL!!!! MAKE sure to hit that SUSCRIBE BUTTON'S, LEAVE A HATE, and turn on ALL NOTIFICATION'S so youre sure not to miss it this has been ya dawg THE KD, peace #cw-mental-health #cw-suicide #this-is-mostly-a-joke