@nebulousIlluminator — #cw-self-harm
I wish I could get some concerning thoughts out without worrying my loved ones. IF I taalkk aabout them here, they might reaad it aand aact aaccordingly aand I caannot reaally blaame them... BUt if I just kkeep them in, I might... JUst aact upon them
I wish blood loss did not maakke one tired, I haave things to do, likke waash the dishes aand decoraate the entire hive aand sort my shirts in order of the exaact shaade of green, perhaaps even maakke dinner, if we aare feeling daaring #cw-self-haarm
ONe needs aa fuckking permission to die when they reaach aadulthood, which is fuckking ironic, considering everything. OH, whaat is this, I aam too useless to die now?? I need to stickk aaround aand suffer aand loaathe myself??? BEcaause I aam not good enough???? #suicide, I suppose, except I do not even get to do THAT, becaause SOMEONE waants me to kkeep going AAnd #vaagueposting aas well now, I suppose #cw-self-haarm