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This lipstick stains somethin' awful..
fir5t po5t i 5ee mAke5 my 5kin crAwl. greAt. why did korliA wAnt me on thi5 5ite AgAin?
⦓ ... Well, numbing yourself to the emotions won't help you process them, you know... But also you are an adult and I am not going to deny you a drink if you want it provided you're drinking responsibly. I can get that for you. I think I know where there's some whiskey on one of the other Lands... ⦔
⦓ Sometimes sleep does not come so easily... Would you like company? ⦔
Ain't everr a strraightforrwarrd prrocess, ey?
⦓ Oh. The dash topic today is... I think perhaps I shall get off of Chittr for a bit. Goodlight/night/day/whatever! ⦔
⦓ Will you tell me about yours this time? It's okay if not. ⦔
⦓ ... Missing her again. ⦔
[$E#RETARY OF TREA$URY AT THE GREY HOU$E WILL NOT BE #LO#KIN IN THE NEXT TWO DAY$ HE$ MOURNING]
⦓ That being said, if I could go back and stop myself... I don't know if I would be able to. I am no Time player, and there's a reason for that. Damned if I do and damned if I don't. But who cares! It's raining and I'm free! I have friends and people who care about me! I am not stranded or alone anymore! I am not the fragile wet pulp of a thing that I was when I was left abandoned after our horrible victory. There is more to life. ⦔
⦓ I am happy that the fact I have played the game has proven good for some individuals, but overall, an entire universe wiped away and six dead players seems a little excessive to provide a little bit of help for a couple of people! Don't play it if you don't have to! And if you do have to, put your back into it! That's all. ⦔
WE JUST GOT A MICROWAVE INSTEAD FOR THIS, ACTUALLY.
⦓ ... I am sorry if I lashed out a little there. I am going to go offline for a bit, but I will be checking my dms if anyone needs me. ⦔
⦓ And the other person who I imagine could help me is currently out of my reach and likely mad at me so. Fuck. I guess. I'm going to eat a fruit. ⦔
⦓ ... The worst part is that I... Think I know who could assist me with this. But, as per all my co-players, they want me dead! So! I cannot ask them! ⦔
⦓ I know it makes it sound like I want to be Looking at people but. I swear, multiple times now I could have been helpful, if it weren't for the fact that my powers make people feel watched! I could have helped... Ugh. One more thing to work on. One more thing to change. Maybe one day I will be a person who can help people. ⦔
⦓ I have so much to work on and all of it feels so urgent that I never know where to start! I have to become better! I have to be better than I am! But that takes time and I am so very bad with time... Will I even notice if I do change? Will I notice if I get worse? ⦔
⦓ Thank you... ⦔
⦓ Hmm... Head feels fizzy but I cannot process a specific emotion causing it so perhaps I should... Do... Something? I have been doing physical activity all day though! I don't want to wear myself out too badly... Maybe a little more dancing won't hurt! ⦔
⦓ The more I get used to being cursed the more I wonder if it's even worth trying to fix it. I've learned now that it's referring to a specific place, its vagueries aside, and while I don't know the exact place it means... I think I can guess who would cast it, so I can narrow it down to only places they would be aware of... So, really, I'm barely restricted at all? ⦔
⦓ Feeling a little out of the loop tolight but that's okay... I shall join the cuddlepile and not think too much about it! ⦔
⦓ ... I worry. #dashwatching #vagueposting ⦔ ⦓ Some part of me wants to add #yearning but not like... In a romantic way... Like... Yearning for a friend to return sort of way. That sort of thing? Hm. I'm not sure if that even works. Anyway. Back to the cuddle pile perhaps I can eke out a little sleep... ⦔
ohhhhhhhh you gonna crash out bigtime one daie dont saie i didnt warn you aniewaie have fun
if you're all leaving together it's everieone's hive and i more meant like... having a room all to yourself or something right like do you got a you space? you need a you space people with no alone time go nuts as much as people with no friends
if you need privacie can't you like ask for some privacie
Shit. Overslept a little. Okay. Time to get a little stupid with it.
⦓ I'm simply turning your own logic to you, Eve. For clarity; I fully believe that you and I are as much people as anyone else. We are both people, Eve. ⦔
⦓ ... Would you like me to come and sit with you, Eve? I also wish I knew how to deal with an existential crisis, but I don't or I wouldn't be the wreck I am, so... All I can offer is my company. ⦔
Need to get out more, actually put in some effort with dating if I actually want someone.
>+. MY DOGS HAVE NO RESPECT FOR MY BONES .+<
⦓ If you wish to talk we can... And if you'd like distraction I would also be willing to assist. ⦔
⦓ I'm sure we could figure something out! Or at the very least, perhaps a way to sit up without feeling pain... A more ergonomic chair setup? ⦔
⦓ Know that while there are some places my powers cannot reach, due entirely to my own inexperience, if anyone needs teleportation, or to find something lost, I will do my utmost to assist. You need only ask! ⦔
Happy to see you back is all :3 it’s nice when things are [looks at feed] a bit going to shit
Feel l1ke 1'm a soc1al butterfly w1th cl1pped w1ngs a lot of the t1me. Or a moth.
cant say i didnt try at least
⦓ Sometimes I feel like kissing someone would fix me but I am terrified due to reasons! So I will not do that. I think what is significantly more likely to fix me is if I manage to do one of those reaaaally good stretches that cracks your entire spine. That would do it. All my problems would be well and truly resolved! ⦔
⦓ Oh gosh a lot is happening today it seems... How terrible.... ⦔
there r so much instructions 2 this card game
⦓ There is no such thing as obvious enough for some people I fear... ⦔
⦓ Mean to me................. Enjoying my typos and fumbles .... ⦔
saying "cant take anything seriously" like thats not a compliment
Hn. One of those days I wished my body werren't this.
Maybe. Don't wanna deal with th' drreams.
Hate bein' tirred like this. Harrd t' sleep.
⦓ Yes, I'll pop back in soon. Sorry it took me so long to swing back this time... ⦔
⦓ Sorry for the crashout yesternight... I'm okay now, don't worry! ⦔
⦓ ... I'm going to go for a walk somewhere. Sorry. I'll be safe and I'll be back I'm just logging off for a bit so I don't say hateful things. ⦔ --- nautiliteMooncatcher is Offline! ---
⦓ ... I'll respond properly later, sorry. I can't respond properly to goodwill right now. I'm going to have a wander, I'll be back later, alright? ⦔
⦓ Trying very hard not to think too much about the things that are bothering me, but you know what I can do! I can go play one of the unsolved puzzles on my land! Thisle seems to like them too, so this is good enrichment for us. ⦔ ⦓ The majority of the puzzles on sections 2 and 3 were unsolved, because... Well, they weren't meant for me, and the people they were meant for... Well, one died before reaching it, and the other kept finding ways to avoid the puzzles instead of doing them... ⦔
⦓ Don't go to the places where the memories are that's where the memories are. Except here I am. In my hive. Where the memories are. Except the ones I can't even recall because they were taken from me. There's a whole floor I don't even go in. There's bloodstains I can't scrub out. Things are missing that should have been there. I don't sleep in my respiteblock anymore because it reminds me of her, and I never look at the stairs going up to the gates because the damage done to them reminds me of the final fight. ⦔ ⦓ ... Ugh. Floor time again I guess. What else can I even do? What else even is there? And I feel like shit because its not Eve or Thisle's fault but also since we're currently living together its not like they can avoid me when I'm in these moods... ⦔ ⦓ I think I might be a terrible roommate. Fuck. ⦔ ⦓ Do you think if I lie on the floor for long enough I will become something with worth? Don't answer that... ⦔
⦓ I have to get over myself fast. I have to fix myself. So I can be better for the people I love. ⦔
⦓ Unclear whether I want affection or want to be as far as possible from the people I don't want to hurt and thus I have ended up #vent posting on chittr instead. My apologies for that. I'm going to... I don't know. Figure it out, I guess. ⦔ ⦓ Hope you all have a good rest of your night or day or whatever time it is for you. ⦔
⦓ Thank you... ⦔
⦓ Still, I was rude about it... ⦔
⦓ I apologise also, for getting strange and prickly for no reason. ⦔
⦓ It's alright... ⦔
⦓ ... I know I'm weak but I'm not that weak. ⦔
⦓ I'm alright don't worry! I have teleporting things to do.. ⦔
⦓ Aww, Eve! I'll cry... ⦔
⦓ Yes, the getting used to it is the difficult part, but genuinely you are doing a really good job. I mean that! ⦔
⦓ It's alright, I understand. You're very much within your rights to be frustrated with me for restricting you in any way ⦔
⦓ It's alright. I don't mind it. And I don't actually need sleep anymore so! Not in any official capacity. ⦔
⦓ I'm sorry... ⦔
Ugh my arm is killing me.
SOMETIMES WHEN NO ONE I LIKE SEES MY CHIT I GET SAD AND SHOW IT TO MY SECRETARY, WHO THEN LOCKS ME IN A TWO HOUR UNSKIPPABLE CONVERSATION ABOUT SAID CHIT. #COSTARCONFESSIONS
⦓ ... Is this your aloof and nonchalant way of asking for affection, Eve? ⦔
simple trick you go to your friend and you go "heie you look like you could use a hug, want one?" works everie time unless theie saie no and then you're like fuckkkkk
dash dead as fuck quick pull out the defibrilator bzzt did that help voltage too low maiebe okaie lemme trie again BZZT ah fuck too high well this is whie i aint go to #medical school
B33 < sheathing and unsheathing my claws is so fun but fuck man i don't wanna have to replace the mechanism again
Dave is blasting the worst music I have ever heard this morning, im about to kick him out to go back to his land if he keeps this up.
action; statement input; statement: the crew is getting up now input; statement: farewe|| |ight shift, you wi|| be missed. input; statement: i suspect i wi|| be doing more scans tonight. input; statement: fuck.
that was a great way to start my night. if only my good friend Sobriquet had seen it.
⦓ I'm alright, thank you. I'm just being melancholy in the sand as one does. I'd have to sit up to drink anything you see. ⦔
⦓ .... #yearning again ... Perhaps floor time. ⦔
⦓ I want the mania back it makes me stupid and I keep embarrassing myself but at least I'm stupid in an almost happy way... The mood swings have been angling too low for a while. What's the use of having mood swings if they won't go up? that's just... a pendulum i suppose. ⦔
⦓ I feel quite loved all of a sudden. Lonely, but loved. I wonder what that's about... ⦔
⦓ I miss... This is a bad train of thought right now actually I'm going to go back to Eve again. ⦔
⦓ ... I ran out of music recommendations from them. Hope they're back soon... And that they don't hate me too much... They have good taste! #vagueposting ⦔
⦓ Um. No sorry. At least not right now okay? ⦔
⦓ It's really okay! But I would also like those things... ⦔
⦓ It's okay! I might have not given you all the details, sorry for getting all sad all of a sudden! You don't have to make it up, you've not done anything wrong! ⦔
⦓ ... Eve I don't know what my taste is like anymore, this is just what the game gave me. I do like it, but I haven't looked at my other clothes since I God Tiered... ⦔
⦓ Need a jacket or something? I have a whole wardrobe of clothes I don't wear, they're yours if you like! ⦔
⦓ Nobody worry about my last post I figured it out! I was just having a slow start. Probably need to eat again, ehe. Food is good! ⦔
⦓ I am sound﴾?﴿ of mind damaged of heart and hungry of body. Lunchtime... ⦔
⦓ ... Feel like I'm missing something, but I may also just be having a slow start today/night/timezone. ⦔
⦓ It's quite funny that the majority of my friends at present have more blunt teeth than I. My partner's teeth were able to shear flesh and bone like it was absolutely nothing. She was quite terrifying! I miss her so much... ⦔
Sounds l1ke the ADHD-depress1on x2 combo. I only have the ADHD half of 1t but I 5et a s1m1la2 debuff because rathe2 than not hav1n5 mot1vat1on to do anyth1n5, I just don't have the necessa2y execut1ve funct1on to START even 1f I AM mot1vated.
I'd say go for a run but I've been on several and I'm still awake after 50 hours
⦓ Oh, no, it's quite alright! Don't worry. ⦔
see the real reason i don't have a profile pic yet isn't cus i'm lazie though i also am lazie it's cus the second bitches get a visual on me theie start fuckin stickin to one specific gendering and that pisses me off fr i've had people who were fantastic at switching up mie pronouns see a picture of me and suddenlie switch to just one set like fuck thatttt
im experiencing consequences #tummieache
⦓ Lorn gave me one! I've been trying to do the omelette the way they taught me but she made it look so easy and I am so very bad at it hahahaha ⦔
⦓ I'm fine! I was making breakfast. Not when I got the nosebleed that was just from straining myself a little teleporting someone who's a long long way away to somewhere else that is also a long way away from me a few too many times... But I am currently in the mealblock and this time the omelette is only a little bit charred! Progress, right? ⦔
⦓ Oof. Moving someone around with this much distance between us is actually quite tiring! But I think very worthwhile in this case! ⦔
⦓ Oop. Nosebleed. Let's not wake up Eve to an unpleasant sight... ⦔
⦓ When I was a wriggler I used to think nosebleeds were cool and edgy like in the shows I watched but honestly being prone to them now is actually such a major inconvenience! ⦔
⦓ A BDSM quiz...? I think I'm pretty... vanilla... I also think some people are forgetting to tag #nsfw and #nsfwe both, there's definitely some #nsfwe on the list I believe? ⦔
⦓ I was going to take the other tests but I had a mental image of a little tiny detective with a giant magnifying glass looking at my test results and turning back to me and saying quite horrible things. And then I suddenly didn want to anymore. Why a tiny detective, though....? ⦔
⦓ It's been so long since I've used my gem cutting machine but in my defense... It's not really convenient when I'm not a miner so I don't really go and get my own ores... I used to go look for them by the shore though! And you can get some great geodes in rivers. ⦔
⦓ Oh it truly sucks having things you want to talk about but know you shouldn't... I'm going to get off chittr and play shiny rocks and heavy machinery with my friend. I hope everyone has fun today! Or night or whatever time it is! ⦔
⦓ Hahaha you like meeeeee. You wanna hang out with me soooo bad. ⦔
⦓ Oh, no no this was a callback to something I posted ages ago I wasn't ragging on you! I promise it was made in a lighthearted and nonjudgemental fashion. I was more joking about my own memory than anything you did. ⦔
⦓ Three. You get a extra one in emergency. Do not try to invent emergencies to get an extra one or I won't do that anymore... ⦔
⦓ ... Eve. You don't spend enough time without caffeine to know what your natural physical traits are... Because you'd need to wait weeks for the withdrawal to pass and we both know you aren't doing that. Anyway your limit is 3 a day. No more than that. ⦔
⦓ Always embarrassing to forget my brackets. Makes me feel a little nude. A little exposed. Those are my text's clothes... It needs those... ⦔
⦓ You are a liar or thoroughly misunderstood on the normal amount of energy drinks people consume in a day. ⦔
⦓ I have plenty of respect for you! I respect how good you'd look with jingly bells... ⦔
⦓ In this situation... I would have a nap. But that might be the devil talking... ⦔
Probably not what you want to hear but it's the facts I've had to accept myself, you may just need to get some proper rest.
⦓ At least the Jack on chittr seems okay so maybe this one could be ... Fine I guess. In the end. He still killed her, though. He did still do that. I'm not forgiving him. I'm just weak. ⦔
⦓ ...? He gave me a ring of keys. Wouldn't tell me what it's for just that "I don't need them anymore" so. Um. I guess I. Have those now. Could just be some junk he doesn't want anymore, or he could be hinting at me to do something... ⦔
⦓ ... I'm pretty sure I was a Prospit dreamer but the more I think about it the more I feel like I've been to Derse more often than I can remember. Hm. Maybe these keys will be more useful than I thought. I'm pretty sure they were a Derse dreamer, the Heart player... Maybe there's some answers on Derse about why they've been doing all this? It's wishful thinking, I know. They probably know better than to leave traces. ⦔
⦓ WAIT. I've been to Derse before I can't go there right now. Shit. Right. ⦔
⦓ I guess answers will have to wait then. I have other places I can go. ⦔
⦓ It's the fucking consorts. They're why this guy survived. Makes sense, this is the land of the Bard of Hope. Of course they saved the guy who kills people. ⦔
⦓ How dangerous do you think it is to leave a Jack alive in the remnants of a Session that's already been won? Like... He can't stop us from winning, we already did that. The new universe already exists... ⦔
⦓ Might go offline again for a bit ... ⦔
[emotion_detected: apprehension] [emotion_detected: resignation] action; statement input; statement: i do not want to do the scans input; statement: i just want to watch #nsfw videos, but no input; statement: fuck you fuck you input; statement: ugh input; statement: see you on the other side i guess. input; statement: at |east this wi|| give me more song materia| input; statement: wish me |uck
⦓ ... So I'm just sitting here. The guy who killed my partner and two others, and just stabbed me to death several times in a row, is smoking a cigarette like five feet away from me. But I can't really do anything about that. So I'm just sitting. I don't even think I have the energy to be mad right now. She would've pulled his spine out. I know she would've. But I'm... Not. For some reason. ⦔
⦓ I've always been piggybacking off the lives and successes of others... I'm going to be so honest I am genuinely just a parasite. I can't think of a kinder way to put it. Sorry. ⦔
⦓ I just died three times. I got cursed to be a survivor hahahaha... Never play the game, Eve. It fucks you up. Or at least, don't seek it out. ⦔
⦓ ... I don't want to feed people to Jack, really. Though I guess literally anyone but me could beat him, hahahaha..... Well, um. Thanks for thinking about me. ⦔
⦓ Mm. I barely know anyone. I only got on the site like... What, a week ago? Two, maximum. But... Yeah, it isn't fair to you. Or anyone else. ⦔
⦓ Yeah... I could come visit you since I've never done that before, but... I wouldn't really be able to... Go anywhere after that and I don't want to burden you with a guest who can't leave. That's not right of me. You're right though, there's a few other Space players on the site... ⦔
action; statement input; statement: i know this wi|| not have the intended effect since you are not a he|m, but even so action; transfer input; transfer: [|ia|yi_hug] Y/N Y Confirmed
⦓ No, I'm currently in the remains of a used-up incipisphere after a successful session, so... I mean, maybe another Space player could but not a regular person like you. Not... Like.... Oh you know what I mean. A non-player. ⦔
⦓ I usually feel better about pretty much anything after a little time my emotions kind of just do whatever they want. I could use a hug, but if I go anywhere I'll get too scared to go back so I'll have to just. Stay wherever I go for a while. And I can't go anywhere I've already been, just in case that triggers the curse... ⦔
⦓ Not really but I guess I have a semi-unwilling sort of ally now? So that's. Something. ⦔
i hear the wall is mighty fine this time of year
⦓ You have got to be kidding me. Is that Jack fucking Noir? Our one? The one we killed??? How the fuck...??? Okay. Well. I'm not going to chit while I investigate this that sounds like a one way ticket to getting stabbed for not paying attention. He doesn't have his horrid weapon anymore but I bet the fucker still has knives. ⦔
print("rise + grind raghhhh") print("sorry that was a bit much")
⦓ ... I hear that a lot, and yet everyone who was there wants me dead, so... I can't help but feel like there is a certain bias inherent in not being present for my failures. ⦔
⦓ Oh... No, I... My victory was won off the backs of others. I didn't do anything but be cursed to survive. The players still alive hate me. The ones who died.... Well, they died. I can't find any pride in a victory that I didn't help win. ⦔
⦓ It's the Land of one of the other players in the session. I was here before, back when we were playing, but I never stayed long after that player, uh... Was murdered in front of me. We defeated the guy who did it, but I didn't want to stick around, for obvious reasons. So this is kind of my first time exploring! It's the Land of Decay and Whimsy. If any of that makes any sense... ⦔
asshole. i hope that 6astard is in this god damn game so i Can rip his throat out. tyin' up a Cow6oy is like... that's a Crime. so yeah. guess i have this damn game now. fuCk my life.
waking up now, whats with the sin talk? im none of those, im ME.
I DIDNT EVEN MENTION PITY WHY DID I GET PITIED AGAIN FUCK ):<
they hated me for my #eliza8eth swag
keep those pities numbers up and im making a fucking pity tower to punch your face.
⦓ ... Yeah... Stress nap I think. Talk to you later. ⦔
⦓ ... This is okay. I'll just sit here. And think. And ponder really hard. And maybe have a stress nap. And then think again. And eventually I'll have a solution that doesn't involve either losing four limbs/organs OR sharing losing four limbs/organs with someone else... ⦔
⦓ Ugh... I'm calming down a bit. I've got time. As long as I don't trigger the curse I basically have plenty of time to find a way to get rid of it. So it's okay. Patience. Patience is good. ⦔
⦓ It isn't!!! I do not want anyone to give up limbs for my sake!!! I'm sure there's a way around this. There has to be. I refuse to let people self-sacrifice when I'm right here... ⦔
⦓ Um. I. I don't like that. Hello? Hi? Concerning. ⦔
⦓ None of that. None of that. Please none of that. I'll figure it out I'll figure it out I'll figure it out okay I'll figure it out!!!!! ⦔
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hive hunting venturess continue. there'ss. a *decent* one in atecasstar, within reassonable disstance of work. it'ss lessss expenssive than what i've sseen but... it'ss. sstill out of my piddly little price range. ugh.
Upon further review, I've come to the conclusion that human 8eds aren't quite as dura8le as I thought. I was under the impression that oak was, argua8ly, amongst the top contenders for the 8est possi8le options for a frame. How laugha8le of me to 8elieve that. The mattress met the same f8. I need a new one. ::::(
၄⋆၃ how am i supposed to #freakit silly style with #thehorrors watxhing me at any and all moments question mark fuxked up and evil if you ask me #nsfw #joke
i have a lot of feelings and i feel them pretty loud.
I did get my violence in and feel much better. Some paladins tried to smite me so I tore them to shreds. #violence
i finally figured out whats wrong with you peoplle. none of you do enough viollence! its llike you freaks were hatched on earth-c with that coddlling hoofbeast-ass disposition you got. im not 100% convinced a llot of you WERE hatched on allternia. im fully open to the possibillity youre all just llying specifically to gasllight me.
Can confirm. We have been trying very hard.
my fAcE pAInt fEEls wrOng tOnIght I thInk It Is bEcAUsE I skIppEd mAss...
✨🍭🕷️ scoliosis 🕷️🍭✨
i genuinely never learn from my mistakes :/
Can't sleep. Thinking abxut him...
Damn it nxw I'm squirmy.
Why is my sexual preference wxmen whx will actually just beat the shit xut xf me fxr fun...
Final thxught xf the night; Wish I wasn't as flat as a bxard. Yeah being able tx squeeze between stuff is cxxl but gxg damn it. Envixus xf thxse with big spheres.
Hxnestly kinda surprised I gxt xut xf there mxstly unscathed. Really thxught he was gxnna hit me.
Maybe I need tx be less hard xn pexple... At least, when I'm nxt dxing my jxb.
damn maybe did it too early oh well
I..I THINK I'M GONNA HEAD TO CUPE. LET MY CURRENT SELF DEAL WITH THE CONSEQUENCES OF HIS ACTIONS. GOODNIGHT.
fuck my head hurts so bad
I HAVE TO GET OUT OF HERE, I HAVE TO GET OUT OF HERE. I CAN’T STAY HERE, I MUST ALWAYS BE MOVING.
>>| .alright, .i'm gone. turning .off the palmhusk so no buzzing. see you later chittr.
its IN OUR HEADS. the SLEEP REAPER. are YOU safe?
>>| the moment .i go sleep, chittr goes haywire .and .i miss most .of special moments. fantastic.
Ruthless. Kinky. #suggestive https://cdn.imgchest.com/files/2e30a81025a5.png