private thoughts

i feel ill i dont know hiw to talk to people very well i should but I dint i feel sick i am scared of most of the big events that happen here as what if something bad happens to people and wgar if ir isny fault thatcwhy peope got hurt and then everyone hates me go to therpat they day but what if they cull me for being that useless abd qhats the point ofcsuck a weak little troll existing I dont understand how some places work and the hows as its different but different hiw but i dong wanna b i ther as well that im not foung well but i am probably so clearly not okay that I font know how I havent beern out down kike a dog ad who cant judt talk to people but nooo i live as thats not my purpose within the grand plann and if i die earluet then im condemning anoyher to suffer the dame way amd then itll be worse and then what's the point of everything #gore #violence #horror

how does anyone not immediately want to curl up and die at confessions intimate thoughts with others i couldn't actually imainge writ8ng it down and then posting it while having an name attached to all of it the thought makes me feel ill it doesn't rven bother me that much people do that more of how do they not feel like theyre going to be tortured with red hot iron tools into open wounds as skin is burned to the bone and salt is poured into the wounds as well too #violence #gore #nsfw