i dont know what time it is. or how long i was out. lost a lot of blood. haru healed me. man im a fucking idiot huh. maybe i should actually, idk, consider going on medication so i dont have these fuckin episodes? crazy thought. ive unblocked everyone. sorry for making people worry, for pushing people away, for generally just being mentally ill. human brains ugly i guess. or, well. im not human im just made of human parts, but you get the point. ...if im not gonna become my future self, i think that means i might be a doomed self now. not sure if that means ill die or not. my phones broken. kind of got soaked in blood, the uh. load gaper overflowed with the stuff. room stinks of puke and blood and i definitely need new clothe's. bye-bye to the iconic grey striped sweater. typing this from my computer real quick. i dont feel safe living here at the mansion anymore. not now that ive finally realized that... "gman". the doctor. wingdings. has been orchestrating my entire life, including.. the traumatic shit i went through. i refuse to be a character in his fiction. ...even though this is arguably a paradise to live in- free food, free housing... pretty much *anything* i could ask for gotten entirely for free- i cant stay here. not sure where ill go yet. if anyone knows how to kill metaphysical assholes, itd be appreciated if you could kill snaggedWritings/gman/the doctor/wingdings. thank you for caring. sorry for being a stupid piece of shit. it will happen again probably- definitely not as bad as this one though. unless some other world-shattering revelation happen's but im doubtful anything will come as close as "your every waking moment including all the evil shit that happened to you as a kid was orchestrated by a guy who thinks of you as simply a character in the fanfiction hes writing about an abandoned 2009 webcomic". bye for now. not.. not going anywhere. just not gonna be on for like. maybe a day or so while i recover. @voxAngeli is keeping me... i think anchored is the word. @carnationDeficient @arsenicCatturbate you guys are welcome to visit the mansion while im not on chittr. wouldnt recommend it since i dont think its safe here anymore, but. options there. im gonna pass out now.
...it changed. try not to think about whether youre a doomed self or not right now. your fate changed for the better. glad youre not going to become me. sleep well.
B33 < stay safe
:33 < mewr an idiot :33 < don't do that again or i'm gonna have to come and beat mew up
You can come stay with me and Noelle at my mom's if you want.
dont threaten me with a good time
thanks for the offer, kris