john egbert
@ectoBiolojest
hello! i am doing my best. my private messages are always open if you want to talk to me.
((update: a close friend helped me get my OCD medication and i've been taking it for a few days now, even with a low dosage i already feel the difference. i still can't get the meds for my bipolar and depression without a psychiatrist appointment so i'm still waiting on medicaid for that. i might be on and off of chittr incredibly briefly here and there, i don't plan to engage with posts unless prompted to but i will try to answer dm's.
((i'm sorry for posting like that the other night. this is a bit personal, but i've been unable to get access to my medication for my mental illnesses recently (they cancelled my medicaid out of the blue and i didn't realize for months) and while i did have extras leftover that i've been able to take for these last few months, as of like the start of this week i've been 100% unmedicated for OCD, depression, anxiety, and bipolar. my compulsions, intrusive thoughts, and especially my mood swings were/are in full effect and it isn't pretty. i have not had full control over my mind and actions and i hate it, so much. i'm sorry for letting that show here, and especially in front of people i really care about. i applied for medicaid again last month but they are absolutely waiting the full 30 day limit before they review my application so i'm just sort of left out to dry in the meantime. i will probably take a break from chittr for the sake of my mental health until i can get fully medicated again. if you want to get in contact with me for any reason you can reach me on discord at lunaalex.
first person to reply to this post is a poop head.
bad brain night.
((sick to my stomach for the stupidest god damn reasons.
((sorry for using john as an outlet for personal frustrations on the TL. not trying to clog anyone’s feed at 6 in the morning.
i don’t know what to think anymore.
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doing worse??? #doing even worse???
doing bad. #doing bad.
oh ho ho ho. or something like that.
just something that was said by someone at the masquerade party tonight.
very happy i got to attend like, half of the masquerade tonight. looking forward to tomorrow!
always with these GOD. DAMN. CLOWNS!!!
whats all this im hearin about clowns? yall dont like clowns in this joint?
((pic of the outside. deliberately using discord links to let the embeds decay after a while lol https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/1425380837918244944/1505028515442196581/IMG_9435.jpg?ex=6a092288&is=6a07d108&hm=c050d55d9aa5ccef47007e34e27c1d50afba0495fd341f0e09bccc45307c4719&
((my experience so far with the masquerade party has been interesting in that i’ve been absent for most of it because i had to attend a concert, and joined the chat during intermissions. https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/1425380837918244944/1504983709219033229/IMG_9434.jpg?ex=6a08f8cd&is=6a07a74d&hm=f731a7298a755b40214accaac53429a34e9845663cf8964860e62820f8123793&
i’ll be back at the masquerade party in like, an hour i think? how’s it going?
c< i MeaN, sOMe daNciNg, plus we Have a lil gaMe gOiN ON iN tHe secONd rOOM >c
c< a little yes Or NO gaMe, just, teN questiONs giveN frOM tHe peOple >c
jesus christ just followed me. i wonder if he is also at the masquerade.
don’t forget, blocking sex pests on this website is free. #cagttl
killing them is als0 free if y0u're skilled en0ugh
They actually just made blocking people cost three dollars. It's a travesty. (I'm kidding, no they didn't.)
((i’m excited about the masquerade party but of course today of all days i’m getting pulled out of the house to do other stuff D: i’ll probably be very in-and-out if i’m there at all, and i’ll likely just be reading the log until i’m home again and free to fully participate… does anyone know how long it’s going to go for?
(( it's supposed to last for 2-3 days iirc! so you'll have time to be active throughout :D
((FR i a bitch stays unavailable every fight night, every sicknasty saturday or whatever, literally the only thing i've actually made it to was megido may. ((at least i made that one. it'd be embarrassing if i missed THAT lol.
((i don’t think you were on the site during eridan week, but if you weren’t at the i want candy group chat, that’s probably the biggest event you would have missed and imo everything else has paled in comparison just from the sheer insanity of it. i’ve missed like almost everything else, and even then i was absent until the very end of the aforementioned chat lol
((must've been before yeah, by the time i heard anything about it it sounded like it was already a legend.
((RIGHT UGUHGHG WHY DO I HAVE TO HAVE A JOB AND RENT DUE!!!))
((apparently it’s going to go for a few days, so even if today doesn’t work out we may have more chances to join in :)
((yeah !! !! I'm gonna do as much as I can 8ut pro8 wont 8e longer than an hour or so eeeeeekkk 8ut hopefully yes !! !! i hope you have time to go !! !!))
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@amorousChanteuse are you going to attend the masquerade party?
hell yes!!! i hope to see you there, or see you but not know it’s you because of the disguise and all.