♦ pitied by @noUser
i feel bad because my last post had heavy #violence #nsfw #drugs #substance #dubcon #cnc #incest #alcohol #gore #stockholmsyndrome undertones but i actually got real responses so now i should kick rocks and think about my own ethics
yeah we breakin out the classics
one single affectionate and loving pat on the head would get me there #nsfw #joke #patheticposting
damn i am so pathetic i miss him and he means nothing to me
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well you know what time it is time to #pickatmyfeathers
ohh shit i just know an ambrose from there mb
look not to whine on here like a poor little kicked puppy but it is pretty weird being literal years behind my friends everyones been alive doing their own things growing and developing relationships like theyre speedrunning the life board game and shit and im just sitting here trying to catch up when from my perspective no time has passed its fucking weird to blink and suddenly everyones older and wiser and theyve all settled in or started to settle into domestic lives, i mean shit i didnt get to see my sister get married or be there for june while she discovered herself, or fuck all its nauseating knowing that theres this hole of time thats just been consumed by a gluttonous neutral destruction and yeah sure i could go back and set up some loops so i dont actually miss anything but everyones so happy and times so fragile and i dont know if i have the brain power to do it anymore im running not on empty but a downgraded system it doesnt flow as nicely it hiccups in places i dont want to risk everything just because i wish i could be there even if it means theres this unbridgeable gap i guess