hello?
@umbrielUnrecovered
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roxy and i have been having a lovely time! i helped her design a trollsona, and she insisted we take a photo!! don't they jUst look gorgeoUs? ^u^ sorry if i'm making a strange face or anything, i've never really shared a photo of myself before... (( art by @voidedOut ))
omgogshdjsh we look SO friggin cute :3
yoU were wonderfUl to design with!!!! i never thoUght i'd get to share this with yoU...
hm. hmmmm. @imJunior, can i have the yUri badge?
Girls! #juniorbadgedyou
i wish i coUld be real again ...was i ever?
Your Here Now Aren't You? I Feel Like Even If Loosely That Fits The Bill Of Being Real
very loosely, perhaps... the initial giddiness has sUbsided some. i'm still endlessly thankfUl to have this, bUt... well. i'm still dead. u~u
Being Gone Never Gets Easier Unfortunately, But It Is Nice To Find Comfort In Others Who Relate Your As Real As Any Other Ghost On This Site Is I'll Assure You That
thank yoU, lovely. it doesn't feel that way, bUt i appreciate it nonetheless. looking back, i think i always felt a little fake. i pUt on a persona. watched things happen, never made any moves myself. i felt as a disembodied voice. a transparent eyeball, to qUote a poet whose name i've long forgotten.
It Never Does Unfortunately. I Can Relate In A Way, Being So Different Cast Out For Differences Even By Your Own Variants But You'll Find Yourself Soon I Did
♦️█ ░ y0u mattered...t0 s0me...and that is real en0ugh... ପ(∗´ര ᎑ ര`∗)ଓ ▒ ▓❤️
i swear, if i ever meet that particUlar vriska... well, i'll probably be sUmmarily execUted by lord english, bUt before then i'll give her a stern talking to!!
yoU know, i woUldn't have to go to sUch lengths if certain parties hadn't organized a massive bloody search for me!! >:U
i wish i coUld be a normal amoUnt of stimUlated! >~< it's over or Under for me, it seems.
the stories i read dUring my life... they inspired me. why, i may have written some songs aboUt yoU, dear reader!
i said "might..."
i've written a few songs never showed anyone, i'm not sUre they're very good...
I’d be happy to hear them any time, liebchen.
it's almost too mUch i'm already exhaUsted bUt i mUst wait for her she said she woUld come...
i trUst her she is scared and alone like me
i feel like i'm going to be sick. i'm so bloody stUpid. i shoUld jUst... pop the damn bUbble already. shoUt my name to the heavens and let him find me.
dont do that!!! D:
When does it get easier? When does the crying stop?
၄⋆၃ it doesnt keep going despite the tears until you run out of them or like a massive beast of the depths of the oxean sink to oxean floor and die from exhaustion and misery
Even if it means crying in front of my coworkers? My sons?
၄⋆၃ as embarrassing as it is sometimes it is ok it is ok to feel deeply and xompletely sometimes it feels like the tears never stop and in a way they never do they just pause
Thank you, Xennox. I think this did help a bit. Of course, it's not ideal, but what can I really do? I can't keep avoiding my responsibilities.
u hope 4 smth better isnt that ur whole thing?
၄⋆၃ you deserve those moments of happiness that life xan offer do your best
Yes... yes, I suppose you are right! These hope powers have been so useless as of late I sometimes forget they even exist.
u got this jakey :3
*、iT G3TS 34SI3R WITH TIM3 M4N, IT11 G3T B3TT3R！⚡️
i feel... restless. there's the natUral apprehension - i shoUld be safe with jUst her, bUt what if i'm wrong? what if she inverts and becomes a beacon?? ... almost more frightfUl, to me, is the worry that i'l mUck it Up. what if i say something wrong? what if my voice isn't right? what if i somehow rUin oUr very first meeting? bUt more than fear, i think this restlessness derives simply from the fact that i am sick and bloody tired of being alone. being at the compUter doesn't scratch that itch like it did in life, i... i need to feel something. someone. i need toUch.
....if i can feel romantically flUshed, then... er... does that mean i can also feel...? i mUst experiment at once!! :U
do you have someone you have feelings for? :o
yes!!! roxy!!!!! it's new and exciting and a bit scary, althoUgh it's really more confirmation of something i've sUspected awhile now... >u<
so i take it you two have, like, talked about this? :3
yes! sorry i'm jUst a bit... is there a good version of overwhelmed? becaUse that's how i'm feeling right now. i've not had any living contact for a small eternity Until a few ambigUoUsly-long hoUrs ago, and... blimey!!! it's all happening so qUickly, i fear i mUst hang on tightly or be swept Up with the cUrrent!!!!
oh, absolutely hang onto it. this is one of the feelings that makes life worth living! you deserve to be able to feel as much of this as you can! and if you can hold onto it, really hold onto it, it's going to feel longer than that small eternity! time will just slip away in the best way.
well, i've no life to live, as sUch... bUt i'll take it to heart, miss jill!
you have life enough. don't you feel something that makes your heart flutter? life or not, it's enough.
i really do.....
well there you go. run with it. go where it takes you. have fun!
im so friggin happy i found her
who were you looking for? :o
callie!!! :)
oh snap! how's that going?
surprisingly well actuallyl even tho i was terrified id end up ruinin it somhow lol
oh come on, do you really think you're like, a bad person or something? :(
not rly no i just havent done this in a long time yk like, b social and stuff
i guess that makes sense. it's not like i'm that much less awkward than i use to be. really i just throw myself at people and hope they like me.
well it works i thnk ur rly likeable :)
jeeeeeeeeeeeez. you're sweet. and you're totally acing being social! i never would have guessed you weren't good at it!
i'm told this is how i get badges... @imJunior can i have the game over badge?
oh, and if there is a badge for being dead...
so i will level with you wasnt sure what kind of dead we were talking grateful dead ungrateful dead blaugh scary zombies or like we miss you sorta dead not sure what type of person you were in life and consulting cali b gave me nothing but junior and i are kinda tight so i just went ahead and slung you the game over and all the accompanying dead stuff i know about hope it helps
jUst... dead. a ghost in the bUbbles. a forgotten artefact of some grand restrUctUring... thank yoU, thoUgh! bUt. Um. please don't bring me to his attention again? i'm kind of trying to hide from him, and the best way to do that now is to hope he forgets i'm still aroUnd. <~<
who cali b? sure no prob
\ i >< i / #juniorbonusbadgedyou
i love roxy more than anyone i think i dunno but i love them a lot
i'm in love.... i'm flUshed????? what a whirlwind!!!!!!!!!!!
CONGRATULATIONS.
she's probably asleep. she's probably jUst bUsy. she's probably not avoiding me she was already not online for a bit before i started messaging her directly bUt what if she is what if she hates me what if i bUggered it all Up why can't i be normal what's wrong with me
OOC but holy shit {{ https://cdn.imgchest.com/files/31c8f2dd0108.png @cloisteredConnoisewer#3938 @uprootedGarden @neonAllnight }}
// triple sorcerer death barrage
// shit we gotta start the Sorcerer squad
Sorcerer squad....))
please please please tell me i haven't already bUggered this Up... the second i finally got to talk to her again....