#death-mention
𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐂𝐄𝐒𝐒𝐈𝐍𝐆… █ Bored again now. █ Nobody ever tells you this, but drifting aimlessly in space slowly running low on food and having to be super conscious of water and desperately hoping the growroom can be expanded enough to feed everyone and having to eat the corpses of those who already died just so there's enough for everyone to stay healthy while we wait for the plants to grow and being worried that any minute someone will snap and decide to try and kill me and blow up the ship to end their suffering and take us all down with them again... █ Its boring. █ Its boooooring. [NOW PLAYING: ...Read more
𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐂𝐄𝐒𝐒𝐈𝐍𝐆… █ ... This unit would have accepted having his hair brushed as a treat, also. █ But I also don't really want to say that. █ The helmstech is a little rough with it sometimes. █ Not... Terribly. Not anymore. █ But now that𝐄𝐑𝐑𝐎𝐑〈 499 𝐂𝐂 〉 █ My caretaker is gone, so they are doing the best they can. █ The soldier who has been assigned to share the duty of caring for me is ██████ untrained. █ This unit was granted mechanical arms to perform minor self care tasks of her own in addition to lessen the burden on our skeleton crew [crew count: 12], but it's not the same. █ ...Read more
⦓ I did once ask her why her favourite song was about dying in a thawing lake and she gave me the most wistful little smile and said "I like songs that make me feel things I'll never feel in reality. How do you drown a seadweller?" ⦔ ⦓ ... I refrained from telling her how it would be possible. I think she knew and was being facetious. I just told her I was happy she'd never drown. She laughed. ⦔ ⦓ ... I don't remember how that made me feel. ⦔
I ACCEPT. YOuR RESIGNATION. FROM LIFE.
၄⋆၃ #lyrixs ( #Death #Death-mention ) ill die a vague rexollextion ill die awkward xonversation ill die what you xant remember ill die as a resting stranger https://open.spotify.xom/traxk/5Zn34yXEogJH9VpQN5qKzj?si=70698bd4fax44ax7
... I suppose I hoped that I'd finally be free of the thought of him when he died. Hah. Perhaps when my body hurts less, so will the memories. I'll try to distract myself for now.
As irritating as it is to be resting this much, I can count myself lucky that he didn't break my legs, so I can still walk around. I know he considered it. He considered much worse. Lucky me that he prefers when people can attempt to fight back, so he can laud it over them when they fail. ... Preferred. Could. He's gone now. Good fucking riddance. I hope his body rots well so he can finally do something good for the world by feeding the detritus eaters and fungi.
*tzzk* I am in a strange state. Between mourning. And apathy. I am. Unsure what to do. With the corpse. At this point. Despite all the time we spent together. And all of the missions. We went on together. I actually do not know. What burial methods they wanted. They never told me. So now I have to. Guess. And I. I don't know. But I doubt they would want. To be buried on a planet. They have never been in. I will have to. Find a way to preserve or cremate him. For when I can eventually. Get back to somewhere we recognise. *sskh* *tzzk* ... I should take him home. That's what I should do. *sskh*
*tzzk* A lot of. The music on the ship. Was chosen or shown to me by my mechanic. Who is now dead. I. Do not particularly want to listen to it. I have a very small selection of songs. That are not covered in this feeling. That do not make me taste. Blood. *sskh*
aw man just saw some people died thats fucked up. feel bad about not letting the yella fella in now he must be scared i wouldn't wanna be outside right now either, yknow?