♦ pitied by @glitzyAbscissa
1 d0 w0nder what the bezt j0ke 1 have ever ch2ckled at, perchance 1ll get that th02ght 0ne day
th1z1zadreamth1z1zadreamth1z1zadreamth1z1zadream z0rry, 1 j2zt 0bzerved the m0zt gl0r12z z1ght~ w1th all rezpect t0 my fr1end...
1 m1zz my fr1end z0met1mez, 1 d0 h0pe zhe'z alr1ght... yet 1 h0pe y02 g2yz are g00d t00~
{{ Thanks, Kneion! Sorry I haven't been super active! I'll surely return in a few days!
{{ Hey. Serious post, I'm really sorry, but I feel like I'm digging myself in a bigger hole when I'm not addressing the problem. My partner texted me about a week ago with an update, which I'm very grateful about, but it's still difficult to make myself enjoy things I want to enjoy, or to even hang out with people before getting overstimulated and have self harm ideations again. It's kind of put me in a situation where I'm talking to about anyone, even if I don't like the person, the attention is comforting. I'm too scared to reach out to people, knowing they're okay with my bullshit, but I don't want them to see my like this or know how much I'm eating myself alive. Thank you for the support on my last similar post, it means a lot. Being away from Chittr kind of helps, but I miss roleplaying. Soon enough, I will return in a better headspace. #cw-self-harm #cw-self-harm-ideation #mental-health #cw-mental-health
1 agree, y02 zay1ng that already gave me 1deaz >.)
Hall0ween talk... 1 w0n't deny 1 t00 l0ve t0 dabble 1n that~! 1 zhall ztart l00k1ng f0r 1deaz t0 make f0r the 0ccaz10n >.)
maybe my l0v1ng k1zmez1z w1ll zew me z0meth1ng... 0ne can dream >.)
Well th1z 1z what happenz when y02 get d1ztracted!! 1'm th1nk1ng 0f mak1ng new cl0th1ng f0r var102z 2zez! 1 m1ght zew 1t later >.)
...I þink somξonξ ξꝇsξ ⳁuŧ mξ in þѧŧ ꝩξry gѧmξ ѧs ƿξꝇꝇ.
♨𝒰uugh. 𝐼've searched high and l✿w f✿r this plush and 𝒩𝒪𝐹𝐼𝒩﹗ ≈>:(
sometime's i lay in bed and im reminded that. the crashout and realization that wingdings is an evil piece of shit arent the only awful memorie's i have here. that. girl i met on pesterchum, while i was banned from chittr for a while, who i invited over cause i thought she was a friend and i was so desperate for contact. and she got me so drunk and high that she was able to make me genuinely think she was my older sister destiny. and she raped me. ... i cant get out of this mansion soon enough. its easier to bear with haru here but. yeah.
♨𝒢✿g 𝒟𝒜𝑀 it﹗ 𝒯his is all ෆy fault, 𝐼 sh✿uld have stayed quiet﹗﹗﹗ #𝒱𝐸𝒩𝒯𝐼𝒩𝒢 #𝐻𝐸𝑅𝐸𝐼𝒢𝒪𝐹𝒰𝒞𝒦𝐼𝒩𝒢𝑀𝒴𝒞𝐻𝒜𝒩𝒞𝐸𝒰𝒫﹗﹗﹗
♨𝐼'ෆ s✿ s✿rry. 𝐼'ෆ s✿rry 𝐼 did this. 𝐼'ෆ s✿ s✿rry. 𝐼 didn't ෆean t✿. 𝐼 th✿ught 𝐼 c✿uld help prevent it. 𝐼'ෆ s✿ s✿rry.
♨@karෆa𝒟agger 𝐼'll still l✿ve y✿u. 𝒩✿ ෆatter what. 𝐼'ෆ real. 𝐼'll always be there f✿r y✿u. 𝒫lease, let ෆe help y✿u in any way 𝐼 can.
♨𝐼 need t✿ rest, 𝐼 can't keep acting like this. 𝒢✿✿dlight, every✿ne. 𝐼'ෆ n✿t g✿ing t✿ st✿p l✿ving theෆ.
♨𝒪✿ps, still here﹗ 𝒩✿fin t✿ chit ab✿ut recently. ≈:𝒟
♨𝐵arely rested, but 𝐼'ෆ up t✿ tackle t✿day's w✿rk﹗ 𝐿✿t's ✿f events...
♨𝐼 hate thr✿wing up. 𝐼 feel all gr✿ss and sliෆy like 𝐼 need t✿ take s✿ ෆany trips in water t✿ clean ෆyself fr✿ෆ that feeling.
♨𝑀y pan is culling ෆe...𝒲hat did 𝐼 ෆiss﹖ ≈:𝒪
♨𝒢✿gdaෆn shellfish 𝒯eal stains w✿n't get ✿ut.
1 may have... acc1dently half 0f my r0bez and drezzez.... 1n my h1ve...
♨𝒰gh. 𝒮leeping didn't help﹗ ≈:(
♨𝒲✿nder if 𝐼 sh✿uld try attending ✿ther events ✿n 𝒞hittr, but unsure what events are even g✿✿d...
♨𝒰gh. 𝒮✿ b✿ring at ෆy hive. 𝐹inished sales and 𝐼 d✿n't even have anything else g✿ing ✿n. ≈:/
Ŧhξ ŧξmⳁξrѧŧuԙ ȣŧsiƌξ hѧs бξξn noŧ onꝇy ŧormξnŧing, бuŧ chѧngξѧбꝇy ƒickꝇξ.
I þink I shѧꝇꝇ бξ in ԙθuisiŧion oƒ nξƿ gꝇoꝩξs, ƒor þѧŧ ƿhich I curԙnŧꝇy ⳁoßξß hѧs бξξn ŧoo ꝇoggξƌ ƿiþ ƿξŧ ink.
♨𝐼 wish ෆy ෆatesprit didn't w✿rk ✿n a ship s✿ 𝐼 c✿uld actually visit hiෆ. 𝐼 envy every✿ne wh✿ is able t✿ freely see theirs, ✿r ✿ther quadrants. ≈:(