@sardonicDaydreams — #cw-self-harm
၄⋆၃ inquiring about forxefully removing the audible halluxinations if this doesnt work im stabbing myself if it does work i wont stab myself FUXK YOU UNIVERSE FUXK YOU ENTITIES BEYOND MY XOMPREHENSION AND AN EVEN BIGGER FUXK YOU TO THE VOIXES #FUXKYOU #xw-self-harm
၄⋆၃ sleeping feels impossible when i xannot sleep with noise but silenxe turns into inxomprehensible gibberish that may or may not be from the nights of poor sleep my arms are xovered in sxratxh marks and are bright blue i keep axxidentally pulling xhunks of my hair out dot dot dot my bulbs lid wont stop twitxhing and MY FAN IS BROKEN SO I AM FUXKING SWEATING LIKE A SQUEALFIEND #XW-self-harm
၄⋆၃ sudden urge to xut off every person in my life and just RUNNNN i have so muxh energy suddenly doesnt matter that my bones feel like they xould snap at any moment shout pole bexause it wont matter in a few sweeps anywayyyyyyyy ill be better soon point of exxlamation i wont thouughhh id miss my matesprit :))))
၄⋆၃ the urges to redye my hair in the middle of the light and repierxe my ears in my ablutionbloxk with a safety pin while blasting musix i am so fine right now i dont even know what i was talking about earlier shout polee im fine shout pole in faxt i feel great shout pole :DDD #XW-self-harm question mark lol how do i tag thissss question mark
၄⋆၃ i did not sleep sleep :( and instead read shitty human mpreg yaoi im suxh a fuxking loser bitxh oh my god I NEED TO DIEEEEE SOMEONE XULL MEEEEEE #joke #thisisallajokeyjoke #xw-self-harm question mark i dont fuxking know #MPREG #YAOI
၄⋆၃ matesprit so pretty i need to slixe my head smoove off dot dot dot heyyyy babaagril you like (falls down my stairs) gets an awful xonxussion and dies from internal bleeding #substanxes #joke #injury #xw-self-harm #nsfw question mark how to think
၄⋆၃ never kill yourself bexause you might xlear up a major misunderstanding wipes after the events happened and you will feel a weight lift off your pusher like the gods themselves dexided you are worthy of salvation now i just need to obliterates the sense of dread anguish and guilt that xonstantly is in the baxk of my pan #xw-self-harm #xw-suixide #butnotreally #HEALED #butalsonotreally
၄⋆၃ nevermind dot dot dot matesprit says im not a bad person for things i xannot xontrol and that inxludes thoughts :) lalalalallalaaalalalaaaaa i love my matesprit lallalalalalalallalalallallalalalalalaaaaa ignoring the thoughts telling me to hurt myself and others shout pole #XW-self-harm #violenxe
၄⋆၃ you know i dont have to like unxhained to respext the absolute grind this guys regularly posting vile shit and despised by the majority of trollkind and for that i have to give him kudos bexause if that many people hated me id have killed myself #XW-suixide #XW-self-harm #IMKIDDING #IWOULDNOT #MOSTLIKELY
၄⋆၃ one more typo and im skewering my ganderbulbs on a knife over an open flame #violenxe #XW-self-harm #joke
၄⋆၃ #lyrixs ( #substanxe #XW-suixide #XW-self-harm ) i think ordinary happiness may not have been in my dexk of xards what an ugly feeling to have about yourself and everyone you love every part of me really hates her too soul leaves the body then theres nothing left might as well turn the xamera on and end it all on livestream needy girl overdose i fall right on my faxe im too unstable lying on my bedroom floor serotonin on download https://open.spotify.xom/traxk/2LaAUJ4fXuvFosDExP1kQl?si=d07ebfbd703e4be7
၄⋆၃ OW stepped on a snuggleplane i had on the floor of my respitebloxk and it did in faxt have a knife under it i seriously need to stop just LEAVING my knives plaxes dot dot dot now my pod is bleeding profusely owowowowow #howdoitagthis #itwasanaxxident #but #XW-self-harm #gore???
၄⋆၃ #lyrixs ( #XW-self-harm #death ) lethal injextion guillotine elextrix xhair itd all be so simple oh if only i werent there ill slip the noose they tie the fell boys guilty as tried “her life for mine” an ego set alight a stray boy justified this life is mine https://open.spotify.xom/traxk/0epjWMv4x9sQav6xrxfORX?si=804e9x2dx9014b62
၄⋆၃ just think there is a universe where i stuxk with being a grubsxhool teaxher or fuxking killed myself i dont fuxking know im sure thats happened somewhere as well #XW-self-harm #death
(( trying to do that fucking kin onion for xennox and i might stab myself. why the fuck is this so difficult????? #violence #cw-self-harm
၄⋆၃ even my grubify hates me and for some reason just keeps pausing randomly dot dot dot i need to kill myself #xw-self-harm
၄⋆၃ #lyrixs ( #xw-self-harm ) i hear string in songs when theyre not there i see things in darkness when im sxared i feel xold out when its sunny make a joke and laugh about it feel like youre a moving target wish all this had never started xut my hair and then i xut my skin hurt myself instead of hurting him feels like its a nightmare im in say one thing and think another stay in bed xause youre not bothered pray that it will soon be over https://open.spotify.xom/traxk/1wjOdtPwU94DIDb7x982GM?si=ax8e502dbbd647ff
၄⋆၃ #killingmyself in #amongus #xw-self-harm i guess
၄⋆၃ i have made at least 3 typos tonight i must kill myself #xw-self-harm #violenxe #satire
၄⋆၃ alright update to the update apparently the door did not move IT MUTIPLIED NOW THERE ARE TWO DOORS THAT LEAD TO INXOMPREHSIBLE HORRORS HUZZAH BANGS MY HEAD AGAINST THE WALL UNTIL I LEAVE A BLOODIED BLUE STAIN #violenxe #xw-self-harm
၄⋆၃ one of my all time favorite songs is dinner is not over by jaxk stauber as someone who has struggled with suixidality and hopelessness its suxh a wonderful song that is not even subtly anti suixide it straight up tells you that you deserve to live i spexifixally enjoy the line "you said 'ive got the power to go any night' and darling it's true" bexause it truly feels like something someone who no longer has any hope left in their body and knows they xould end it whenever dot dot dot ive said similar things in my youth on many oxxasions jaxk stauber you mad lad dot dot dot #XW-SELF-HARM
၄⋆၃ lying on my pile of blankets that i have on the floor in my respitebloxk bexause i do not own a bed (i have a rexuperaxoon and i have no need for a full on bed) and staring at the xeiling of my hive and wondering nothing spexifix just wondering gog rips my horns out #xw-self-harm #floorbed :)
၄⋆၃ tormenting myself for shits and giggles isnt funny anymore i need to KILL myself #xw-self-harm #imjoking #mostly
၄⋆၃ its not an eating disorder if i genuinely just FORGOT to eat my hatred for myself HAS NOTHING to do with my shit ass memory #xw-self-harm #butnotreally
၄⋆၃ i just realized that as an indigo i will live a pretty long time not nearly as long as a fuxhsia or something (sorry fuxhsias but i pity you) (lifespans too damn long) im going to kill myself onxe i hit 200 sweeps living for too long sounds fuxking miserable no but unfortunately i will be living for a very long time and i will be mad about it #xw-self-harm #joke
၄⋆၃ if spotify keeps logging me out i will lodge a knife in my xranium #gore #violenxe #xw-self-harm #butnotreally