♦ pitied by @exasperatedCaretaker
Thank God for cigarettes. #substance
Finally back home from therapy, my God am I exhausted.
Trying to unwind and relax, a bit difficult to do.
How in the hell do I go from having homoerotic fantasies to dealing with negative feelings, seriously its impressive how easily my emotional balance can be pushed over like a deck of cards. #wtf #notfond
i almost forgot about this... heh... dont worry... i know you all miss me...
[BEGIN MESSAGE] [ACTION:QUERY] what iz with zeadwe||erz and being p0zzezzive? [END MESSAGE]
tummy hurts
Gonna blow something up with my mind.
db3 if you actually are hastur the king in yellow in disguise. first of all, not fucking cool man. second of all youre officially un-invited to the appleslice affair house party thing im hosting
I probably won't, truth be told right now I'm fighting old habits and issues because I tend to freak out a little bit when shit doesn't go according to plan, but I appreciate it.
No, I only talk to my therapist about my problems, no one else.
No, I'm having slight car trouble and I might need to reschedule my therapist appointment, don't like when things don't go the way I want them to.
Well today has went off of schedule, I don't like that, I need things to stick to their schedule and my plan.
*Kshh* Do you copy? My #FLARP players are still mad but are now telling others to avoid me. This upsets me. Don't blame me for bringing the "extreme" to the "extreme live action roleplay." Lame. *Fzzt* Over! *Tchk*
Some of the usual suspects liked my previous post, but there was someone that was a bit shocking. #vagueposting
[BEGIN MESSAGE] adapt. and when tthat iz n0t en0ugh. keep g0ing. y0u are n0t d0ne yet. bec0me z0mething ztr0nger tthan what tthey have zet f0r y0u. [END MESSAGE]
[BEGIN MESSAGE] en0ugh 0f a chance tt0 pr0cezz tthingz. ... [EMOTION: dizguzt. hatred. fear. gui|tt. grief. envy. pity. c0mpazzi0n. |0zz. anger. ze|f-hatred. 0verwhe|m. fruztrati0n.] fuck. [END MESSAGE]
𝚃𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚖𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚢 𝚋𝚎𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚐𝚜 𝚝𝚘: @eclecticengineer you Should Hate These Events. the Lying, The Amount Of Trolls, The Clothes... Everything About It Is In Theory, A Nightmare For You. but There's Rules. And The Rules Are So Clearly Defined That You Love Them For It. be Polite. Be Obedient. Be A Good Little Accessory. so You Continue To Agree When She Asks. she's Nervous About Tonight. She Tries To Hide It, But You Can Tell. A Dinner Invite From The Sort Of Seadweller Who's Above Other Seadwellers Will Do That, You Think. you Decide To Be Perfect Tonight. You're Introduced As Her Pet, This Time. she's Careful In How Others Interact With You. No Drinks Can Be Given To You, No Touches That Aren't On Your Arms Or Your Head. She Uses The Ports As A Reason. You're Glad To Have Her, Because You Know If You Spoke, That'd Be The End Of It. someone Does Speak Out. Another Pet. Green, You Note. for A Moment, All Eyes Are On Them. the Quiet In The Air Has A Hunger To It, An Energy That Shifts In The Highbloods Around You. you Note The Other Accessories Aren't Looking At Them, So You Do The Same. when Dinner Is Served, You Can No Longer Look Away. Not From The Dead Gaze Of Them, The Severed Head A Centrepiece Over A Body That's Been Dismembered. They're Laid Out On The Table Now, Cut Into Careful Pieces And Arranged In A Way That Means You Can't Forget What You're Eating. You Feel The Eyes On You As You Flinch At The Sight. Azalea Tells Them You're Just Twitchy, And The Focus Fades. the Liver Is First. Rich And High In Nutrition, It's Passed Around The Table. Carved Up For Your Highbloods To Eat, Piece By Piece. Your Stomach Turns As She Beckons You Closer. be Polite. Be Obedient. you Do Not Want To Be Fed This. She Knows This. There's Pity In Her Face As Her Fingers Press A Piece Of Liver To Your Lips. the Expectation Is Obvious And You Open Your Mouth. She Does Not Let You Back Up Until You've Chewed And Swallowed, Fingers Leaving A Smear Of Blood Against The Corner Of Your Mouth. you Return To Your Place Behind Her. and Piece By Piece, She Makes Sure You Eat With Her. that This Experience Is Not One She Will Have To Bear Alone. that When You Go Back To Her Hive You Will Both Feel Awful About It. That She Has An Experience To Pity You Over And Vice Versa. you Will Beg Her To Never Again Take You To A Dinner Like This. in A Show Of Mercy She Does Not. #cannibalism #gore #death feed. 𝙼𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚢 𝚏𝚒𝚗 ⠀⠀ ⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀
for real hope you can get them responsibilities all tied up in a lil bow
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*tzzk* I do not need. People to agree with me. But hating. On my vulnerable posts... Makes me sad. So. Block. The people who. Only use the hate react, however. Are allowed. *sskh*
I'vE bEEn tIrEd All nIght, thE lIght Is cOmIng bUt mAtEsprIt chIxIE Is bAck, And I fEEl mUch sAfEr slEEpIng In hEr Arms lIkE shE cAn prOtEct mE frOm thE wOrld
Good evening chittr, guess who's sleep schedule is beyond fucked, worse part is I have therapy tomorrow I'm so fucked.
Anyways, did I miss any murders, kidnappings or blackmailing while I was asleep?
I feel a slight irritation under my skin, don't know what's up with that, considering nothing has really bothered me yet today, maybe I just need to unwind and try to relax.
Okay, who's spreading the lie that being a bottom is hard? As a guy who use to be a bottom, it was the easiest thing in the world, now being a top is so God damn stressful cause you gotta plan all the shit. #nsfw #rant
Also fuck I feel like I'm starting to get a bit burnt out on the binding of issac, which blows because it's a fun game but I've unlocked a decent amount of shit and did some of the challenge right, even got that afterbirth 100% achievement but geez, the road to dead God is a total pain.
God damn, I hate insomnia, but alas I guess I gotta stay up for the entire night so I can fix mu sleep schedule and not miss my upcoming therapy appointment.
You know, I got a feeling some shit is gonna happen tonight, don't know what it'll be or if it's good or bad, but it'll be something.
n0 w0nder seadwellers d0nt like getting 0ut 0f the water. im stuck in wet ear hell.
[emotion_detected: fear_high] action; statement input; statement: head tech is coming in. in bad mood after being he|d up by cadets input; statement: wishthisunit |uck it is so scared
I'm gooing throough improovised military training run by self-prooclaimed amateur Cerulean Leader Beasttamer Prince oof Blooood General Mazyar and i can't stoop crying this is literally animal abuse and the animal in questioon is me oone oout oof ten
sometimes I wonder if my kismesis and I should have an auspistice like responsi8le lovers and then I remem8er I'm 8asically already that for us
action; statement input; statement: i can ta|k about it as much as i |ike input; statement: it is just difficu|t when they are monitoring me c|oser than norma| input; statement: & it is when they are stricter with me that i am thinking about it more
[emotion_detected: frustration] action; statement input; statement: but i wi|| have to time it carefu||y so i don't get yanked away by the he|m summons input; statement: case in fucking point.
action; statement input; statement: thinking about #suggestive #nsfw things |ike my |ife depends on it input; statement: kind of want to ta|k about it but i wi|| have to t error:inputdenied
:> I’m very old ^nd experienced -v- c^n’t stop, I’m ^fr^id. <:
Dame sorrta feeling.
*tzzk* Experiment over. Please forget that I was attempting. To pander to a wider audience. I am literally. Just some guy. *sskh*
Only a few people have access to where I'm, and I am very disinterested in kissing any of the 27 people I occupy the space with
Oomg i'll never get a descendant noow 8[
at what point d'ya reCkon it's morally aCCepta6le to a6andon ship in a game where at least half of the partiCipants are either not takin' it seriously or are just outright antagonistiC to their teammates 'Cus this is some real 6ullshit.
❤ I mean I'm more worried about like, the mental states of people who are clearly turning to their vice of choice to feel better... ❤
Oh my Gog. Dolly Parton… I’m in agony.
"Sex" YEAH, THATS WHAT I WANT RIGHT NOW. BUT WE CAN'T HAVE CAN WE? DIDN'T THINK SO. FUCK MY LIFE. https://forms.gle/dAcvEArxQ6SkWjtX6
I AM LOGGING OFF FOR A WHILE, BEFORE MY SPONGE DRIZZLES OUT OF MY HEAD. GOODLIGHT FOR REALS THIS TIME. I WILL BE BACK LATER TO ASSESS THE DAMAGE.
I find a lot of people hot, but I can count the amount of them on here I'd date with less than one hand. #suggestive
nothing summons a crowd of daves more than a pregnant troll i guess #dashwatching #satire
i don't know many cowards, frankly. at least not combat ways. intimacy ways? oh yeah.
*ell i got to em first and theyre calling me handsome and asking for my alternian express card so
print("awww fuck man i was looking for them")
print("they are calling me the first ethical incel") print("i do not hate women or anything i just get no play")
I love getting up and hearing every bone in my body crack, fun.
Regretting this already.
print("it is still there") print("scroll quickly + you might catch up") print("move") print("move") print("move")
print("i just meant the whole titty tuesday thing") print("it seemed to have been picking up now")
i am... trapped... this may be the end for me...
xx_i_fink_if_i_die_it_wgill_b_frum_chokgin_on_a_smartie_xx
⦓ Just the snack. Thank you. ⦔
⦓ O-oh. Um. No thank you. I am not mentally stable enough for something like that today. Have a nice ... Whatever time it is for you right now. ⦔
⦓ And the other person who I imagine could help me is currently out of my reach and likely mad at me so. Fuck. I guess. I'm going to eat a fruit. ⦔
⦓ ... I am sorry if I lashed out a little there. I am going to go offline for a bit, but I will be checking my dms if anyone needs me. ⦔
⦓ Of course not. But at least one of them already does... Maybe it's my turn. Ugh... I don't mean that. I'm just. I don't want to. ⦔
⦓ I need to become better so that I can do good. My aid is unwanted because it is too risky. I need to eliminate the risk. ⦔
⦓ I have so much to work on and all of it feels so urgent that I never know where to start! I have to become better! I have to be better than I am! But that takes time and I am so very bad with time... Will I even notice if I do change? Will I notice if I get worse? ⦔
[emotion_detected: apprehension] action; statement input; statement: the research team wants more scans done today input; statement: p|anet 6 is a gas p|anet input; statement: fuck fuck fuck fuck i hate scanning gas p|anets input; statement: fuck everything fuck off input; statement: i don't want to scan it! i don't want to i don't want to i do not want to i do not want to i i i i it it does not waN Tt error:inputdenied
h@@@@ugh my thinkpan is achin' after sleepin'. well, thats a successful evenin' if i ever knew @ne!! @u<
:> H^! A wonderful thought. They h^ve occ^sion^lly done it ^nd it w^s quite deserved. But ^l^s, I don’t w^nt them to be corrected too h^rshly. <:
[BEGIN MESSAGE] [EMOTION: ann0yance. fruztrati0n.] 0ne 0f tthe newer ttechnicianz waz zh0cked tt0 find 0ne 0f tthe ttabz i had 0pen waz #nzfw c0ntent. i kn0w i am n0t a he|m tthat iz 0ften f0und indu|ging in tthiz c0ntent. but tthat d0ez n0t mean i never d0. her reaz0ning f0r tthe |eve| 0f zurprize waz. [qu0te] "i tth0ught y0ur zituati0n meant y0u d0nt enj0y activitiez |ike tthiz" [end qu0te] inaccurate. and a p00r azzumpti0n 0n her part. SIGH. i zwear tthey f0rget i am a ttr0|| tt00. #vent [END MESSAGE]
Personally think that ascending to godhood should have fixed my eyesight.
action; statement input; statement: the |ight shift has ended input; statement: i am not |ooking forward to the current cyc|e but at |e error:inputdenied
༻𐫱༺ I do 𝒽ave a limit on my bite force, as I don't 𝒽ave teet𝒽🌱 Lessss a bite, I ssupposse, more a sstab wit𝒽 t𝒽e probossciss🌱 ༻𐫱༺
do not fret my new friends,,, i will be safe,,, and... i will be able to survive... no one will catch me... even DEAD...
༻𐫱༺ Apologiess for my lack of activity🌱 I losst my enric𝒽ment for a w𝒽ile due to biting a ressearc𝒽er🌱 T𝒽ey sseem concerned🌱 𝒽a𝒽a🌱 {^v^} #violence ༻𐫱༺
[BEGIN MESSAGE] i am a|right. juzt buzy. n0t enj0ying tthe new zchedu|e. [END MESSAGE]
[BEGIN MESSAGE] a zhame. [END MESSAGE]
I need to stop doffing my ★rmor so e★sily. Or m★ybe I just need to go to sleep. We'll see how I feel in the evening.
YOU REALLY START PICKING UP HIDDEN DETAILS AFTER HAVING TO WATCH A FILM A FEW HUNDRED TIMES. #GETMEOUTOFHERE
Feeling so understimulated and bored out of my mind, new type of hell has been achieved.
the vworst time to vwant to engage in social behavwior is vwhen its late as hell and no one is online.
| Why Does No One Care A8out My Jars | #myjars |
Sooo.. why in tarnation are we posting askboxes are we just that bored huh
I'm drinking until I can't think. #substance
Keep gettin' ads ferr shapewearr that's "guarranteed to get rrid of moobs" and mate, come on. Think I'm th' wrrong audience herre.
I got in a big fight that lasted a day and a half that upset a lot of people that care about me so I'm reflecting on my actions and keeping out of trouble. I guess I still have chores to do, though
vvaliant effort noble soul but it wwas done long before you came here i am in the throes
fuckkkk
if i mix enough alcohol somethin wwill knock me out im sure
trollss iss it too late to learn an insstrument. i wass going to ssay "iff youre already xx ssweepss old" bbut at any point bbeyond ththe golden grubbhood period honesstly
I'm ticklish by the way
[BEGIN MESSAGE] [EMOTION: envy.] [END MESSAGE]
I got sunburnt yesterday. Ugh. I was not built for heat. >:T
have i mentioned i'm underground? i didn't realise for a while. found a tunnel heading down 6ut it gave me a 6ad vi6e. just some massive underground Cavern. Can't even see the Ceiling. still sandy as fuCk though. i do see a star twinklin' to the west though, and it vanishes if i move laterally enough, so i reCkon that there's an exit. keep y'all posted.
wwhy the fuck am i awwake
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[MM] is now Offline i care so much.... why do i have to care....
YOU THINK YOUR LIFE IS HARD? TRY QUASI-AUSPISTICING FOR A STATE.
print("that you got to score in the first place")
c< i Need 2 sleep.... i just Hate dOiNg NOtHiNg.... i waNNa Help i waNNa MaKe peOple Happy.... i Need a driNK #substaNces >c
𓄀 I g⌖tta st⌖p being ar⌖ʊnd pe⌖ple wh⌖ piss me ⌖ff. 𓂃 ོ☼𓂃
nah, i'm good. +hank yov.
༻𐫱༺ Bunnie my friend I 𝒽ave made a misstake🌱 ༻𐫱༺
༻𐫱༺ Good newss🌱 I can cut my 𝒽air🌱 Bad newss🌱 I now 𝒽ave t𝒽e mosst 𝒽orrendouss 𝒽aircut🌱 And alsso ssome minor bleeding🌱 #blood #injury ༻𐫱༺
Despite being Divine, I am still as lonely as ever.
One of these nights I'll win ★ fight ★g★inst Kris. I me★n, he'll be holding b★ck, but I'll win.
Y-o-o-u w-o-o-uldn't BELIEVE the ruckus I just heard fr-o-o-m d-o-o-wn the hall.
action; statement input; statement: i am so done with tonight input; statement: i am going to spend the next few hours of the |ight shift making that s|eep memory data pack |ike i have been intending to input; statement: & then running it on repeat. input; statement: i just input; statement: i just want the peop|e i care about to be safe & happy input; statement: i want to fa|| as|eep with pazcie [@ec|ecticEngineer]
I'm assuming that's a no to positive updates...
action; statement input; statement: same
I stopped asking questions
it's alright man theie woulda wanted people to joke about it
:> T^king ^ p^use to be ^ sp^ghetti ^g^in. Al^s, I c^nnot medit^te in the limin^l tuber sp^ce infinitely, I h^ve ^ job. <:
lost a pal to sopor addiction back in the daie rip bozo we still miss your gigglehonks and the waie you were a lot less murderous than the average clown
do you like expensive and panrotting addictions that are proven to actuallie do real ass damage to your pan? if so go for it
:> L^nt^n did go ^ wee bit further th^n the situ^tion re^lly w^rr^nted, so it w^s ^ bit ^nnoying ^t the time, but then he c^lmed down so I did not hold ^ grudge. <:
:o(
good. shit rots your pan for motherfuckin life if you eat too much.
:> H^! I w^s fine. You should see the other guy. Or not, r^ther, prob^bly not. I w^s the one m^king sure he didn’t go too off the r^ils -v-b he w^s fine in the end though, so I w^sn’t bothered. <:
:> The first time we met I did indeed le^rn this very quickly, yes. <:
[BEGIN MESSAGE] i w0u|d n0t rec0mmend tthiz. [END MESSAGE]
:> You c^n. In^dvis^bly. I ^m sorry L^nt^n decided to le^rn this f^ct through person^l experience. <:
woah that guy liked my post, is today a serious day for me not to get pitied smg shot at.
yo dm me if you wanna hit #nsfw
၄⋆၃ ruby is just gone i dont know what to do and that xreepy ass yellow bastard thinks he xan trixk me or something you asshole i know what your namesake DOES you xant drive me mad you xannot kill me i have survived THIS DAMN LONG youre not smart youre not slixk and i will figure this out help door guy and find my damn matesprit
:> My condolences. I wish there w^s more I could do to ^ssist. <:
Then no.
[BEGIN MESSAGE] it iz a|right. it tturnz 0ut it iz re|axing. being a p0tat0 with him. [END MESSAGE]
action; statement input; statement: the crew is awake input; statement: i am pretty sure tonight wi|| be spent processing & ana|ysing the fucking massive amounts of data from scanning p|anet 5 input; statement: hopefu||y there are no weird discrepancies input; statement: i do not want to be made to run more scans on it
༻𐫱༺ I mean, w𝒽at'ss next🌻 Kudzu🌻 ༻𐫱༺
༻𐫱༺ I would like t𝒽em to give me plantss t𝒽at I need to put effort into growing and t𝒽at will not desstroy anyt𝒽ing t𝒽ey ss𝒽are ssoil wit𝒽🌱 ༻𐫱༺
MAYBE I SHOULDN'T HAVE A MATCHING PROFILE PICTURE WITH MY LOVER THAT ISN'T HERE. IT HURTS TO GET RID OF IT, THOUGH.
[BEGIN MESSAGE] z0me 0f tthe tthingz z0me 0f y0u zay rea||y make me w0nder h0w y0u have any quadz fu||. 0r even any friendz. [END MESSAGE]
༻𐫱༺ Firsst mint🌱 Now bamboo🌱 Dissgussting🌱 ༻𐫱༺
༻𐫱༺ T𝒽e usser numberss are low t𝒽iss time🌻 ༻𐫱༺
(\ /) ...there it is. the full body pain finally set in. woof.
Hn. One of those days I wished my body werren't this.
Fucked up I can't dig herre.
Envious.
MY BACK. IS FUCKING. KILLING ME. I HATE HAVING BACK PAIN.
I wo+uldn't have use fo+r them, I'm afraid. I o+nly eat blo+o+d.
I'm no+t the best co+o+k so+ I can't o+ffer much.