Lantan Nikkel
@nebulousIlluminator
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MY memory issues haave been getting worse laately aand I aam not sure whether to be concerned or not. I haave waalkked this paath so maany times...
NO, not reaally. BUt I thinkk you would enjoy my post aabout fingerfuckking the test tube caap dispenser better #nsfw
I aam going to need. SO maany hugs. I hope I caan find the waay baackk hive tonight
MY faavourite thing aabout this job is when the test tube caaps get stuckk aand you haave to fingerfuckk the dispenser aa little. CAaan you tell I haave not gotten much sleep?
:> Even ^ m^n on low sleep c^n be ^ profession^l fingerfucker. I h^ve f^ith. <:
THaankk you, EIleit, your trust in my fingerfuckking aabilities maakkes me very haappy. I hope I caan find my waay baackk to ORmici's hive tonight
:> -v-b wh^t else ^re friends for? And I h^ve f^ith in you. <:
I aam lost aand cold aand tired... THe BAaasin is laarger thaan I remember
I found somewhere to curl up for the daay. IT is quite haard to see aanything over aall the trees. I would climb one, but... AAs shaameful aas it is to aadmit, my body still does not seem to taakke kkindly to physicaal aactivity
:> Th^t’s not sh^meful. Frustr^ting, difficult, but not sh^meful. Recovery is ^ long ^nd h^rd business. <:
I haate it, EIleit, I caannot do aanything. BUt thaat does not maatter. I will find my waay baackk. HOw aare you doing?
:> H^! Well, I c^nnot bl^me you ^t ^ll for h^ting it. You will indeed find your w^y b^ck reg^rdless, I ^gree. And I ^m well. <:
I might stop trying to find my waay to ORmici's hive aand staart lookking for aa waay baackk to workk, I will need to go there in aa few hours aagaain aanywaay, haah. I aam glaad to heaar you aare doing well. DO you haave aany new projects?
:> Ah, the c^ll of l^bor…yes, either would be ^ good ide^. And I do not right now, but th^t’s fine, my l^st one w^s r^ther intensive, ^nd I h^d to get c^lled short-notice to fix something else during th^t time. Right now I’m t^king ^ bit of ^ bre^k, then I’ll prob^bly get b^ck to my long-r^nge port^l project. <:
I aam tempted to not come to workk tonight aand just continue lookking for ORmici's hive so I caan curl up on the loungeplaankk with them aand spend some time with HAaaze... AAh, I see you haave haad aan intense time. AA breaakk sounds likke aa greaat ideaa then. HOw aambitious aare you with the long raange portaal? DO you intend it to workk between plaanets?
AAnother daay aat the toxic sludge job. JUst me aand my twenty cyaanide contaaminaated saamples #mycyaanide
TO claarify, I aam haappy aabout them
MY maatesprit is not taakking caalls or responding to messaages. HE haas not been for aa good while aand while it is not unusuaal for him, he haas been taakking longer laately. I aam worried aabout him... I hope he is just busy. PReferaably with aanything thaat is not thaat wretched, daamned cult
I haate meaat, I haate meaat, I haate meaat, I caan't do this, I caan't eaat tonight
BUt I waant to kkeep aall of you haappy aand heaalthy. I aam so sorry, I will try aagaain tomorrow
BUt you likke meaat. I thinkk I will try cookking two meaals every time. ONe with meaat aand one without. I thinkk thaat will workk. AAnd then everyone caan pickk or haave both, if they feel likke it
THaankk you. I will try. DO you mind if I just come sit neaar you for aa while?
ONe side effect of my job I find paarticulaarly hilaarious (or thaat might just be becaause I aam perpetuaally exhaausted aand my sense of humour is deterioraating) is thaat I expect to haave nitrile gloves on aat aall times aand I get genuinely surprised when I caatch aa glimpse of my haands aand find thaat they aare not BLue
:> It is funny in ^ mildly ^bsurd w^y, but I think you ^re entitled to some ^bsurdity, L^nt^n. <:
:> -v-b No compl^ints, honestly. Working on projects, thinking ^bout costumes, cle^ning…I’ve h^d ^ lovely time l^tely, ^nd I’m gr^teful. <:
:> I w^s thinking of being very silly ^nd dressing up ^s Fr^nk-N-Furter for Fright Night…possibly ^sking P^sc^l if it w^nted to dress up with me vi^ VR. <:
HAaah, thaat sounds aabsolutely splendid. DO haave fun, if you decide to go through with it!
I thinkk this person might be trying to woo me??? #vaagueposting
THaat is aalright, I reaalise my jokkes caan be quite haard to discern from my usuaal expression
IT is eaasy to miss. MAaay I come join you... WHerever you aare?
THey aare going to do unspeaakkaable things to me aat workk tomorrow
I should waash the dishes, but my baackk hurts aalmost unbeaaraably aand I haave not even gotten up yet. BUt I need to do it aand then I caan go to sleep
Bring a chair to the sink, and take a break ev--very now and then.
I might spend the whole night lying down... BUt there aare things thaat need to be done. I will get up eventuaally
I aapologise for worrying you, it waas not my intention. AAre you doing reaasonaably well, considering the circumstaances?
IT'S fIn3, W3'r3 frI3nDS S(o) I'm a W(o)rrI3D guy! anD y3ah! D(o)Ing b3TT3r Thahan I WaS a l(o)T (o)f D(o)cT(o)r vISITS. Wh3h3n Th3h3 ThIng IS hahaTch3h3D D(o) y(o)u WanT T(o) S33 Th3h3 lIl ThIng?
OH, I aam not good influence on grubs, but if you aare okkaay with thaat... I will be mostly haappy to see you
n3ITh3h3r am I! anD H3H3R3 W3 AR3! S(o) lIk3 L(O)ADS b3TT3r Thahan I'D b3 pr(o)bably.
HAaah, I suppose. WE will see. I will be haappy to see you aagaain
N(o)T Sur3 Wh3h3n, buT my hIv3 afT3r IT'S grub pr(o)(o)f anD l3SS l3Thahal.
I wish I could rip the claaws of aanxiety out of my pusher
I aam glaad to heaar thaat. I will curl up neaarby aand aattempt to get some sleep
THe toxic sludge job is likke aa toxic ex. YOu kkeep getting texts aand caalls aand emaails aabout how it waants you to come, how it misses you. BUt then you show up aand it is aall "whaat aare you doing here?" "You aaren't supposed to be in tonight" aand "it's naationaal holidaay". CAaannot pleaase them aall
dont do :t to pleaze them. do :t all for yourzelf.
I do not thinkk they will paay me if I kkeep workking. I suppose tomorrow it is
PErhaaps the melaancholy will releaase its grip on me once I haave slept properly. I caan only hope thaat will be true this time
WHaat is everyone's faavourite soup? I aam curious
THaat is good. AAnd quite personaal, everyone haas their own version
yes, the basic spicy grub flavor one is my favorite. it's one of my go-to comfort foods.
I will try it aas soon aas I caan get some. THaankk you for shaaring
of course! I add a little sesame oil to it when I'm feeling fancy. would recommend.
INteresting, I would not haave thought of thaat. DO you thinkk HAaaze would likke to shaare some with me? I aam not sure aabout their staance on instaant soups, so faar we haave not haad aany
I think Haze would be willing to try it. it won't hurt to ask at all.
I suppose it will not. THaankk you for shaaring, I will report once we haave tried it
SOup is aa very comforting food. I aam curious whaat kkind of soup HAaaze likkes to maakke
WEll, time to get up aand stop drowning in unproductive feelings. WHaat should I maakke for dinner? I aam thinkking something vegetaable baased
I wish I could get some concerning thoughts out without worrying my loved ones. IF I taalkk aabout them here, they might reaad it aand aact aaccordingly aand I caannot reaally blaame them... BUt if I just kkeep them in, I might... JUst aact upon them
:> If you w^nt someone to t^lk to who will not judge you or be stressed ^bout this topic, L^nt^n, my DMs ^re open. <:
THaankk you, EIleit. IT is not aas terrible aas it might sound likke this. BUt I aappreciaate it. THaankk you
:> I believe you. But something doesn’t h^ve to be sh^tteringly terrible to t^lk ^bout. However, I will not prod if you’d r^ther not. -v-b <:
THe naap, saadly, did not maakke me feel better. I aam in aa very straange paanspaace