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33> Th3 Am0unt 0f Chitts I Hav3 Ab0ut Th3 Strid3rs Alm0st Mak3s M3 L00k Lik3 I'm 0bs3ss3d With Th3m. I'm N0t <33
Thanks. Solutions here may more wild than the average bear. Like Novocain injected directly into my maw. #needles
This is an issue stemming from a recent event. Putting anything in my mouth teleports my head back into a space that simulates the mental fuckery of what happened. Even feeling myself salivate is a challenge.
8=l < Have I forgotten how to be mean 8=l < It's not partic001arly bad that I did 8=l < No one who matters wants me to be anyway 8=l < I'm not in those sorts of relationships 8=l < I wonder if I've lost a part of myself 8=l < Hm
coughed up blood again lol #gore
The fuck does this mean. Dirk what the hell are you planning-
[Scanning...] ▒ ▒ ▒▒ ▒ ▒ thiz one zeez. i believe it waz unethical then. [Targets ???]
awesome sounds nasty so it must be good
i think i just coughed up blood? #gore
...oh, huh. that chew toy form actually did get a couple applicants. i probably wont reach out to any of them about it, though. maybe. idk, if i get desperate enough again.
im so glad i dnt make many pst evryone hats bc i alredy decided what im goin when i hit 30k kull and i am DREADIN it
I should probably be more upset he dreamt me up again.
oh yeah uh gettin decapitated fuckin sucks n idk how any dirk tollerates that shit enough 4 it 2 be plan b #gore #cw-decapitation #violence
fair? still sucks when u get decapitated on a blunt ax tho
Whenever I start feeling antsy or yearning for lip to lip contact with another living organism, I know newports and vodka will always have my back to help drown out those silly desires. #substance
I just remembered I still need an ambassador for Earth C on Alternia and Beforus...
mmm fair fair. ill stop bustin yalls balls about it though i just wanted a lil sliver of thought and i know its hard to get outta you guys because of aforementioned complicated thoughts and feelings.
highk the nicest thing any dirk has evr said 2 me lol
how can i b there 4 any1 when everythin feels so impossibly fleeting? :/
and im overstimulated again fuuuuck
gguh
havent found my dirk in the bubbles yet :/ i rly hope hes alright
euthanize ke i'm gonna puke
Get ready liver daddy got yelled at in proximity voice chat today. #substance
Ouch...
Well, thanks me for the reaffirmation I guess.
idk, my dirk n i, we kinda went thru a few rough patches growin up, and i only recently found out he kinda reciprocated my feelins way back when, n just... yk, shit was so complicated i cant rly blame him 4 not tellin me then
no i had to yse a lot of pressure and my finger is, believe it or not, not as hard as an apple
sleep tight baby-b
you ever have a perfectly reasonable conversation with a fujoshi of the darkest circle of hell and get distracted by your own reflection in a comment im not saying im hot no i am
Oh. Got that knot 1n my chest that 1 scared another one off by be1ng my spec1al brand of stup1d
i mean no probably not but damn
He deleted his account too. Wow
2 nails
damn i feel like shit today
do u ever have a reoccurin nitemare that makes u go "i guess im not dealin w that as well as i thot i was" have 1 where i wake up in my old home alone leik the last several years nevr hapend
a showr wont fix me but if it can make me fell evn a bit beter that b rly nice rn i wont but i can dream
staying with roxy tonight they hurt themselves, probably won't reply until tomorrow #cw-selfharm
that would make sense it ws rly bad for a few dys there an thn it just kinda stopd dint rly have any cooldown tiem from strssed 2 vibin
whats a gp?
it stped arledy so no hopital 4 me
here i was thinkin the bloody nose thing was related 2 stress or somthin but iiiiits baaaaack! an its just as bad as last time lol #gore
i think i learned my lesson on sharing what i like to snack on :(
(^・ω・^)ﾉ < MY FURLLOW OMEWGA!!!!!!
Since its been about an hour heres your mandatory im still lost and wandering aimlessly update. Youd think after all these years this wouldnt be an issue huh!
I'm doing a bit better than earlier. He came home, eventually. We're going to talk.
yeah man its like clockwork couple of weeks go by a jake and dirk go haywire and spread their dirty laundry out on the feed like i cant believe its not butter on toast couple weeks of other random bullshit then another dumpster fire of a public display of animosity rinse rave repeat
He's a liar. He's such a fucking liar. I'm getting off chittr for a little while.
Dirk went on an adventure without me and I'm just left here sore and feeling like a loser. :(
as much as i want to ride my bike today i cant risk getting caught up in a bad stormmmmmmuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhh.
(( OFFLINE DUE TO MY ENTIRE HOUSE FUCKING FLOODING UP TO MY ANKLES FUCKFUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
there is literally nothin in this world that could be so damn important that you gotta stay up 50 hours at your desk i stg dude you might be a genius but that m in your name might start standing for moron if you dont rest and reset
I only had a pang of a headache today, so I will be calling that a win.
i'm a good dog i'm also a tired dog
fantasizing about my bro kicking my ass but being proud i dont cry or get upset and giving me a small nod while he steps on my dick standing above me and if i can cum to it in 10 seconds i get to but otherwise i am not allowed and #nsfw #nsfwe #violence #incest