♦ pitied by @voidedOut
lukewarm coffee & 6 chicken nuggies #lunch
i i dnt liek lookin at myself in the mirror
unfortunately for evveryone it wwas actually a perma death.
happy matesprit m0nday t0 me............................
i think i'm burnt out on emotions
I've been getting out a little more recently.
roxy and i have been having a lovely time! i helped her design a trollsona, and she insisted we take a photo!! don't they jUst look gorgeoUs? ^u^ sorry if i'm making a strange face or anything, i've never really shared a photo of myself before... (( art by @voidedOut ))
action; statement input; statement: unfortunate|y i cannot do either input; statement: a|though i rea||y want to
feeling the sudden urge t0 buy a new pair 0f khaki sh0rts f0r this weekend. #g0thnight
You should be thankful you did.
i used 2 think id exorcised the ghost of heteronormativity outta me but every time i see some hot guy in his 50s my womb starts screamin n beggin like it just remembered its factory settings 😩
oh yeah uh gettin decapitated fuckin sucks n idk how any dirk tollerates that shit enough 4 it 2 be plan b #gore #cw-decapitation #violence
print("and here i thought i got fairly hammered sometimes…")
Well, the schedule is very important to keep up with, I run a tight ship here man and I'm making sure to not crash into any icebergs, you understand right? Besides with the few posts I've made I'm sure it's enough for one or two people to crank one out too with their imagination, although if the people want I could try making one more post, as a treat. #nsfw
i died 5 fuckin tiems wait actully i got FUCKIN MURDERED 5 TIEMS #cw-death #cw-murder #violence
i don't think i've been this stressed in ages
I feel it best that I extend a formal apology, to Laika and those who love them. Last night, I helped them relapse. I offered them alcohol, and did not even try rescind that offer after finding out they were four months sober. I was already more inebriated than usual myself, and I believed at the time that allowing them to get plastered would keep them from doing something worse. Selfishly, though, I think I just wanted someone to get wasted with. I'm sorry, Laika. Please, please don't blame yourself. You were vulnerable, and I was irresponsible. For what it's worth, I was glad to have you around either way.
god, i'm just tired.
sme
fuk just fuck whtevr im home im safe i clened up bc i felt gross idk heres a pic 2 prove its rly me
ugh why are n0ne 0f my regular flirts 0nline im in a m00d #suggestive
a lil snippet from my horny playlist ✨️💅
... roxy will be back they they have to be right like this whole thing is just they'll be fine they have to be
I'm drunk I don't fucking know #substance
No, I never have dreams.
Yesterday doesn't feel real, so much happened, too much.
Voice in my head constantly telling me awful thing about myself, about my session, that I will be the cause of dooming the session. Stuff like that.
besides, between the two things here, i don't want to think about kerning when i could be thinking about SOMEONE, we won't name names, going to bed naked.
i am kerning so much about you!
Missing someone I barley got to know this morning.
tummy ache :(
We should speak more sometime. I do not talk to my own version of you very much... and it would be good to get some firsthand accounts of what it is like on the other side before I get there.
You're right, my apologies.
Ughhh nevermind, scratch the vodka idea I can't find any, guess I'll pop a pain killer and call it a day. #substance
Well 0kay n0t THAT regular
Think I'm about to throw up ugh.
if i dont get some socializing in im gonna go insane
Migraine time, joy.
Let's get me in the ring at #FightNight.
It's typically considered bad form to enable someone's addiction like this. If any version of my daughter gets alcohol poisoning from your offer, I will hold you personally responsible.
B// < yeah i know B:// < im not saying itll fix efurrything or that youll have no regrets B:// < but B:// < ive lived too many lives with things left unsaid ig
It's weird knowing that If John didn't die my life would have been so different I wouldn't even look like the same person anymore
i think bein home makes my mental health worse #vent
When does it get easier? When does the crying stop?
jeeeeeeeeeeeez. you're sweet. and you're totally acing being social! i never would have guessed you weren't good at it!
Immso lonelyuy hahas #substances
Mhmmm. #substances
I still don't know how to respond to the comments on this
...er. bad? i've been excrUciatingly lonely since my demise. i've had to hide myself away, lest certain villains discover me and eradicate my soUl entirely. U~U
if i'm being honest... yoU were at the forefront of my mind for varioUs reasons... er, one of coUrse being that yoU were the most likely to actUally show Up! bUt yoU never did. my own faUlt.
if only anyone coUld... U~U
oh, roxy!! i've missed yoU so mUch!!!!! i've missed yoU all so mUch, i. how am i speaking to yoU right now? did yoU do this?
please?
to me. are yoU replying to me?? please, Um... say something i'd not think of?
still, it seems a nice diversion. reading aboUt these peoples lives, or afterlives. now, the qUestion. woUld reading her page hUrt me, or comfort me?
i had this dream. this silly dream, that somehow the game woUld allow Us to meet. a mUse of space coUld cross that gap, coUldn't she?
that seems to settle it. memories, floating throUgh the nothingness, somehow filtering their way to me. nice to know i'm still lUcid. or, no. that's not very nice at all, is it? it woUld be so lovely to forget. to go mad, as any other creatUre woUld Under sUch conditions. bUt we mUst bear the solitUde, mUstn't we? some crUel part of oUr design. bUgger all.
it is~ soOorry～
anywyas my therapist has me goin in once a week bc i guess my brains rly fucked up 4 othr reasons i dont think my joke about not knowin another human till i was 9 or 10 helped
when a handful even understand like, half of what happened, and a lot less understand the other half, it's just hard. and the whole mental health industry isn't prepare doe it all, like in general.
yeah, i just generally need better therapy. i can't explain to my current one what it feels like to die.
you'd think that, but it's mostly just people who can't understand the worst stuff i've been through.
it's honestly not that much better outside of them.
Love waking up late and almost missing my therapy appointment, sorry chittr but I'll be busy for a few hours also morning to everyone.
Hearing that other versions of me had kids makes me think about it a bit, I think Id rather not have children don't think I'd be the best mother aside from that.
one day i'm going to get a proper night of sleep. last night definitely wasn't it but one day.
hopital
Should probably make myself an actual meal, but that does seem like a lot more work than just drinking wine and a small cup of coffee. Perhaps I'll just throw something together gives me something to do. #substances
where b0yfrien..........
(( "MIDDLE AGED" IS DIABOLICAL what the FUCK 😭😭😭
Suppose it doesn't really have that much morality. It feels selfish to message them however as if I'm using them as a way to cope.
Is it bad that I send messages to Johns and Jades accounts to vent about things? It just seems a good private place to store messages even if they'll never receive them.
Dave is yearning for his childhood best friend, yet again. Lucky me I never had a crush on Jade, to my knowledge that is who knows it was a long time ago.
\ O >< O / ;;;;; #scary...