#existentialism
Anyone else just kind of perpetually somewhat tired? I mean, it can be a good day, I can be enjoying myself, but there's an undercurrent of weariness that never quite goes away and finds certain things just as you'd expect them in the same tired state of monotony that just seems to sink in further as you see things slowly growing worse. It doesn't even feel like a bad thing, necessarily, maybe just something that comes with bearing witness. #Existentialism #?
Entry 3? Unsure My nose started to bleed this time when I was writing the different possibilities i cant even control what they tend to be theres no reason to many of what I have seen besides something happens in one way or another and so i cam see the events as a participant im noy doing too well at this im tryint to avoid telling too kuch of it all as its strange amd people wont understand or soemth8ng at times i find out about someone who confises me greayly and hoe they act makes no sens3 to me the pain is too exicit8ng despite how it hurts and its horrigying but im strange and i know thay i...Read more
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Timelines are odd. The idea of a branching web of all interconnected realities isn't all that difficult to comprehend, but the heartbreak that comes with such things is... unique, I'd say. Knowing someone, loving someone, losing someone, then seeing their face around the corner, only to be that of another person entirely——someone with their own complete inner life, yet in them you can only see the past, a past they don't even know, one they've never even considered. The inverse too, is true. I've seen faces from my worst nightmares smile at me with nothing but genuine kindness. My nervous system doesn't q...Read more
i have had a very long time to learn things not important things necessarily i can solve a rubiks cube with my feet i learned to juggle 13 objects at once i spent nearly four sweeps teaching myself to whistle! there was nobody there to see any of this which i think improved the experience considerably there was no pressure to learn it i could take it at my own pace! #immortality #eternity #isolation #timeabyss #existentialism #unreality #absurdism
i think ruins are nicer than intact buildings a ruin has already proved its worth you can sit in it without being expected to do anything in particular it is very relaxing 0u0 #ruins #decay #existentialism #unreality #deathimagery
((OOC Pinned post: This is pascal, she's in the torment nexus- aka, helmed. She's relatively experienced at it but got chittr access recently and loves it. Her way of dealing with it is by helping others. This account will have #horror #existentialism #bodyhorror #nsfw and #nsfwe. Apologies if she's too much. Quads: <>- @fatallyForever Others are open! If you want to play a member of her crew I'd *adore* that. Bonus for technicians/caretaker trolls. She has a captain but they just have a name and blood colour right now. She's a part of the same fleet as Lialyi and so shares the lieutenant and gen...Read more