♦ pitied by @guardedGnostic

most of my troubles would be solved if i really could shrink ppl and put them in jars lol less fires

look not to whine on here like a poor little kicked puppy but it is pretty weird being literal years behind my friends everyones been alive doing their own things growing and developing relationships like theyre speedrunning the life board game and shit and im just sitting here trying to catch up when from my perspective no time has passed its fucking weird to blink and suddenly everyones older and wiser and theyve all settled in or started to settle into domestic lives, i mean shit i didnt get to see my sister get married or be there for june while she discovered herself, or fuck all its nauseating knowing that theres this hole of time thats just been consumed by a gluttonous neutral destruction and yeah sure i could go back and set up some loops so i dont actually miss anything but everyones so happy and times so fragile and i dont know if i have the brain power to do it anymore im running not on empty but a downgraded system it doesnt flow as nicely it hiccups in places i dont want to risk everything just because i wish i could be there even if it means theres this unbridgeable gap i guess

:33 < i dunno if any of them really wanna talk to me

as far as im aware. my existence isnt really that common. <:B

Slam. Slam. Slam. Slam. Not poetry, but rather, the sound my head makes against the wall.
being a sprite is strange. i used t0 be a dead girl. and i supp0se in s0me ways i am still that dead girl. but i am als0 s0mething much m0re than that.

jst heard someone whistle to get their dogs attention at the park and my head fully swivelled in tht direction so fast on instinct........... #nsfwe #nsfw

Sorry, excuse me. Roxy ripped a chunk out of my hair.



