Rose "Mom" Lalonde
@tiresianThaumaturge
Author. Revolutionary. Dark sorceress. She/Her.
I like Roxy's girlfriends, they're sweet. Time will tell if I find them deserving of my daughter's hand, but they've evaded my ire for now.
I love my daughter so much. I wish I could stay in their universe for the rest of my life. It's...
it'd be nice for you to have it all too. i just wish there was a way to make that happen that also didn't break reality really badly.
I've gotten more in the last few months than I ever thought I could. I get to see the new Earth. I get to be a mom. It's not everything, but it's enough.
maybe i am being selfish about it. but i'm going to see if there's anything i can do. there just has to be a way for everyone to have their cake and eat it, too.
If you think you have something, let me know. Noble sacrifice is nice and all, but if there's a loophole that doesn't doom a timeline I'll take it.
well, what if there was a way to do both? i sort of recently figured out how to be in two places at once with my glitch powers i got from sticking my arm in a hole in reality inside of a dream, but what if i could figure out a way to like, to that to someone else?
That would be existentially terrifying. ...But I'll consider it. I'll watch The Prestige again for research.
yeah, well, you know some things need to happen. you know it needs to be you. and i know i can use my powers on things and people that aren't me. don't get me wrong, it's hard enough teleporting people and things, and this "two places at the same time" thing takes a lot more work than just the teleporting. so, i'm not saying it would be easy. i'm not even saying i know how to do it. i'm definitely not saying i can do it safely. but maybe. maybe you can get the reward you will help make.
I'm just not sure I'll be able to handle it when I'm the one who dies, knowing another of me gets to go and frolic with my daughter. Or that I'll be able to handle when I'm the one who lives, knowing that another me died hoping she would be me instead. I'm not sure I can leave Strider behind, either. ...But I'm still considering it. You do your research, and I'll do mine. We have a few years left to ponder, I think.
this is the kind of power i've been burdened with. the kind of power that can change fate. never said it was easy. it never has been. and maybe using it to help others without breaking reality also puts that burden on other shoulders. but hey, i can probably do more than one person if i can do one, so you wouldn't have to leave your strider, if it's doable at all.
...That's a fair reaction.
I feel it best that I extend a formal apology, to Laika and those who love them. Last night, I helped them relapse. I offered them alcohol, and did not even try rescind that offer after finding out they were four months sober. I was already more inebriated than usual myself, and I believed at the time that allowing them to get plastered would keep them from doing something worse. Selfishly, though, I think I just wanted someone to get wasted with. I'm sorry, Laika. Please, please don't blame yourself. You were vulnerable, and I was irresponsible. For what it's worth, I was glad to have you around either way.
The steadily rising kull score on this chit says otherwise. I'm not going to tear myself apart over this, if that's what you're worried about. I just wanted to take responsibility, now that everything's over.
▼i dont wanna hear shit from you, less so give you the satisfaction of being forgiven, wallow in that shit▲ ▼maybe someone will offer you a drink to get over it▲
On principle, I'm a proponent of rehabilitative justice. On principle, I'm against torture for any reason. But in practice, I make exceptions. Does that make me a bad person? A hypocrite? Probably both. I've stopped caring.
Please, G-d, let them be alright. I haven't prayed in decades, but just this once. Please.
The waiting is the worst part.
Shes right of course.
I miss my house.
Getting wasted with @uprootedGarden. The penny lands tomorrow. #substance
Urgh. Heavy drinking and possession don't mix. I'm choosing very actively not to worry about their intrusion. I have enough to worry about. Do we know anything more about Roxy and Dirk? Their location? I know they'll be okay. I know they will. They're probably already awake, just trying to find their way back to civilization so they can contact their loved ones.
♦️█ ░ if it is any c0ns0lati0n...it likely is n0t any easier 0n the spirit p0ssessing...that y0u have imbibed up0n drink... ପ(∗´ര ᎑ ര`∗)ଓ ▒ ▓❤️ ♦️█ ░ the sensati0n is warm...but dizzying...very hard t0 leave... ▒ ▓❤️
It wasn't a spirit. Imagine thousands of tendrils pushing into your brain through your throat. Imagine them snaking through every vein in your body, ready to move you if you just give in. Now imagine all of that felt almost *pleasant.*
♦️█ ░ 0h. ପ(∗´ര ᎑ ര`∗)ଓ ▒ ▓❤️ ♦️█ ░ i d0nt...have t0...imagine... ପ(∗´ര///ര`∗)ଓ ▒ ▓❤️ ♦️█ ░ it S0UNDS...alm0st...pleasant... ପ(∗´◞///◟`∗)ଓ ▒ ▓❤️
... How long havei been typing in R'Lyehian?
They don't usually dot his. I think they want me to break the rules. Break everything. They thingk coming when I am at my weakest will bypass the fact that I odn't trust anything they say anymore.
I'm not exactly the most stable or sober right now but, I'm here if you need to talk even if I'm Just another you. #substance
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:33 < bless you!!! :33 < *ac even has a little handkerchief in her t33nsy paw for you!! i mean how kind was that even*
H' ephaiah vulgtmnah. Ahagl ephaiah lloigehye ephaii. N'gha ah nafl llll ahna fahff ehyee. Fuck, fahf Jack Daniels ah ahorr'eog...
H' ngahnah. Ahh f' ah llll nog ya? h'ah syha'h ph'nglui ya ahogog n'ghft y'nah? f' ah gotha hnah hup ya?
I always just have to watch, don't i. I just sit and watch like always. I saw the omen. I fucking felt it. And i didn't do anything. What if I just abandon this world. Go to Roxy's, where I can actually protect them. ... And doom the version who hasn't yet landed. Fuck me.
Fuck it. Just one glass. #substance
@embellishedBookworm What's the situation?
Okay. Okay. Then we wait for them to regain consciousness. Or... respawn, whatever the terminology is. And... and we go from there. How long does that usually take?
i honestly don't know. maybe 20 minutes? maybe longer? i just. i didnt realize i cared this much
That's a good thing. Hold onto that, Jill. We'll find another way. We will.
i could break reality. i could undo this. i don't know what it would do but i could fix it so it never happened. billions would die but
Don't. They'll be okay. They'll come back. This wasn't heroic and you know it. We both know it.
i know. and. i'm resisting going in. i could destroy so much. i do so much more than just teleportation. theres almost no where i cant go. a gun wouldnt stop me.
Stay together, Jill. Do whatever you have to to take the edge off but stya together.
I won't drink about this. If I'm going to be there to help, I'll need to be sharp as a needle. Those killers had better pray that Roxy wakes up and shows mercy before I get there.