
The Insufferable
@consultingGoodness
TW: This pr9file will c9ntain vari9us triggering t9pics related t9 in-depth discussi9n 9f pr96lematic issues pervading s9ciety, including 6ut n9t limited t9 #hem9ism, #classism, #a6leism, #slurs . . .
Much t9 6e said a69ut the pr96lematic treatment 9f qu9te unqu9te 'd99med' timelines and the rampant alpha-timeline privilege that d9esn't get discussed. The idea that s9me9ne is less imp9rtant as a pers9n simply 6ecause their respective universes did n9t g9 h9w they were 'supp9sed' t9 g9. Might make a g99d t9pic f9r an essay t9 6reak me 9ut 9f this rut. TW #timelines #alphaPrivilege #chr9n9l9gicalInequality
I d9 n9t get upset when I find that I am #6l9cked. I am n9t 'The Insuffera6le' 6ecause every9ne unanim9usly l9ves my message; just as The Signless, I am 9ft maligned. (TW #impliedRejecti9n9fTruth #impliedIgn9rance) I respect every9ne's right t9 curate their 9nline experience. I simply h9pe th9se una6le t9 hear my w9rds are c9rrectly tagging their c9ntent in my a6sense.
While I fully 6elieve in the right t9 #privacy and #an9nymity, I 6elieve it is a tw9-way street. If I d9 n9t kn9w y9ur #pr9n9uns, #caste, 9r particular #sensitivities, it is harder f9r me t9 6e an adequate #ally 9r t9 9pen up a69ut my 9wn th9ughts and feelings f9r fear 9f tresspassing 9ver 69undaries I am unaware 9f. As such. I will n9t 6e 9pening an "ask 69x", 6ut instead as always enc9urage questi9ns in chitt 9r DM f9rm.
S9metimes, I think 6ack t9 the night in which I realized with sh9cking clarity that all 9f my friends hated me. And, in my weakness, I 6elieved that I hated them, t99. With a 6urning passi9n, even. With 6lack 6ile rising t9 my lips, I uttered f9ul #expletives I dare n9t repeat. Such resentment and anger was s9 terri6ly un6ec9ming. It pr9mpted me t9 greatly change my 9utl99k. T9 c9mmit wh9lly t9 6ettering myself. I laid d9wn my arms 9f hate, and instead walked a path 9f peace and f9rgiveness. It's 9ne 9f the events that made me the man I am t9day. TW #hate #plat9nicHatred #martyrd9m #thingsAre6etterN9w #IF9rgiveThem
In spite 9f my 6est eff9rts, I just can't c9ncentrate t9night. It's em6arrassing f9r 9ne such as myself, wh9se entire purp9se in un-life is s9cial and p9litical discussi9n and de6ate, t9 6e utterly incapa6le 9f putting pen t9 paper and w9rking 9n my essays. T9 the pe9ple I am letting d9wn, I am s9rry. I will d9 6etter. #ap9l9gyP9st #failures #wastedP9tential #essays #s9ci9p9litical
I've decided I will, in fact, 6e p9sting my #kankri9pini9ns 9n my sessi9n-mates. Starting, 9f c9urse, with Meenah (f9r n9 reas9n in particular) (and m9st certainly n9t 6ecause she was/is r9yalty; I c9nsider all 9f my friends 9n equal f99ting, if n9t relati9nship-wise then certainly n96ility-wise.). 9ne might think, at first glance, that we are p9lar 9pp9sites. 9n the #hem9spectrum, in terms 9f 9ur attitudes, 9ur pr9clivities t9wards #vi9lence (9r lack there9f). I h9wever prefer t9 see us as tw9 sides 9f the same circular currency 96ject: We are 69th natural leaders. We are 69th c9ncerned with fixing pr96lems. And we have 69th 6een 9n the receiving ends 9f re6ukes when it c9mes t9 mustering up change. And we are 69th n9t afraid t9 speak 9ur minds. 9f c9urse, let it n9t 6e said that she shares my m9re disciplined qualities. She #fights, she #insults, she #kills - and, h9nestly, she is particularly skilled at such. Scarily s9. While I disagree with her meth9ds, h9wever, I cann9t deny that she has had m9ments 9f success that even I aspire t9. As devilish as her Alternian incarnati9n is/was, she definitely c9mmanded the attenti9n 9f the masses. Were she t9 turn such charisma t9 6etter causes, she c9uld 6e a w9nderful ar6iter 9f pr9gress. 9ur sessi9n may have 6een a failure, and I take my share 9f the resp9nsi6ility f9r such, 6ut I firmly 6elieve that were 9ur friends a tad m9re mature and willing t9 f9ll9w 9rders? T9gether, we c9uld certainly have succeeded. This is n9t meant t9 disparage said friends either, might I add - we were all y9ung, we all made mistakes. I simply feel that Meenah (and I, 9f c9urse) made the fewest. 9n a m9re pers9nal level? I feel as th9ugh we 'get al9ng' quite well. 9f c9urse, yes, she thinks my m9n9l9gues I mean dial9gues are l9ng-winded, self-serving, and '69ring as all shell' (pun n9t my 9wn), 6ut that is simply the surface level 9utsider's view 9n things (which I w9uld thank y9u all t9 withh9ld, f9r the time 6eing). 9f my disciples I mean friends, she is easily the 9ne I wish t9 reach the m9st with my messaging; th9ugh reluctant t9 accept, she is n9thing sh9rt 9f h9nest and I can always trust that she will give me her direct, unfiltered 9pini9n a69ut my w9rds. That s9rt 9f thing is invalua6le am9ngst a sea (pun n9t intended) 9f th9se wh9 either dismiss me 9ut 9f hand, 9r meekly n9d and accept with9ut truly digesting the things I am saying. I will n9t speak in-depth a69ut her... Quadrant-related entanglements (#r9mance #nsfw #quadrants); I am n9t in the market 9f idle g9ssip 9r hearsay, and c9nsidering the nature 9f dream-6u66les and parad9x space alt-timeline shenanigans in general it's safe t9 say every9ne has dated every9ne at S9ME p9int, and many 9f th9se every9nes dated n9ne 9f the every9nes that an9ther every9ne did. Alternate-self discussi9ns are simple, like that. I will additi9nally n9t c9mment 9n the p9tential #pr96lematics 9n s9me 9f them either (#itsAL9t9fHeavyStuff #n9tTheTimeN9rPlace #sheWasG9ingThr9ughAL9t #kind9fMessedUpStill) th9ugh will n9te that in at least 9ne timeline - curi9usly - she ended up with the 9ther Vantas. As adults, 9f c9urse, seemingly during s9me s9rt 9f c9nflict - I am n9t entirely appraised 9f the specifics. F9r me at least it's unexpected, really (and as his Dancest9r I really sh9uld n9t speculate 9n his relati9nships, either #weird #reallyWeird) 6ut fr9m what I have heard, at least, they made a neat c9uple. G99d f9r them. Part 9f me w9nders if it was his l9udness and his fightiness, 9r if it was the characteristic Vantas sensitivity and charm. It's n9t my place t9 say, I supp9se. In all: I like her. I respect her. I fully 6elieve she can m9ve past many 9f the pr96lematic 6ehavi9urs h9lding her 6ack. And while 9ccasi9nally she risks falling 6ack int9 the typecast r9le 9f 'fuchsia-6l99ded princess', I see past the fr9nting. There is certainly a pusher 9f g9ld underneath it all. 9r, at least, 9f s9me s9rt 9f preci9us metal. (N9t 6ecause she is r9yalty, 6ut 6ecause she is 6ettering herself. #itsAMetaph9r.)
I w9nder if I sh9uld start making #9pini9n p9sts a69ut my respective sessi9n-mates. May6e even chittr users. N9t essays 9r call9uts, per-se, 6ut simply my h9nest views such that there is n9 c9nfusi9n 9n h9w I feel a69ut th9se ar9und me. It c9uld even spark reas9ned de6ate a69ut their vari9us #flaws and #sh9rtc9mings, and p9tentially enc9urage them t9 d9 6etter. D9 we think this w9uld 6e ethical? I d9. Hmh. Much t9 c9nsider.

















