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Apparently, I need t9 fix my wardr96e as I have l9st s9me weight. Perhaps I sh9uld schedule my meals s9 w9rk d9esn't steamr9ll 9ver my pri9rities.
Putting in a reminder t9 update my pinned.
i'm beginning to thynk that being voidbound means that the most deeply held desyres or dreams one has are always going to be unfulfylled. #personal
there are tymes where i almost myss parts of beforus. i never had a particularly fraught relationship wyth the troll who acted as my culler, but he was much more experienced than many others in his position, and he saw the value in allowing those under his care express themsylves and whatever inner frustration or dyfficulties that landed them in his care in the fyrst place. i don't know. it is very hard to parse through these emotions sometymes! i am just glad that he never saw how poorly his other charge had crumbled after we entered the medium. #personal #thynkingaboutthepast #beforus
Is it t99 late t9 6l9g p9st like I'm 9n tum6lr?
N9 9ne ever wants t9 watch 5 h9ur s9cial justice d9cumentaries. Sad sad Kankri.
It's n9t that I 9pp9se change in my pers9nal life it's that I fear it. I'm afraid 9f changing where I am. Finding myself s9mewhere else. The safety I h9ld n9w seems s9 suff9cating. May6e I've always 6een safe in this way. It makes me feel helpless. There's pain in the c9mf9rt 9f y9ur 9wn 69dy and mind. There's pain in the l9neliness 9f s9litude. There's pain in the change 9f letting s9me9ne in. Pain is the 9nly thing we kn9w f9r certain is temp9rary. Pain fades, we f9rget h9w much it hurt s9 we seek the thrill again. I want the thrill 9f the fear 9f pain. I want t9 put myself in fr9nt 9f a m9ving vehi...Read more
|--[ i Am BAck. seems thAt i hAd fOrgOtten my pAsswOrd, And cOmmitments hAve Been keeping me AwAy frOm the internet. since then, there is Only One updAte regArding my ex-mAtesprit. it seems thAt the client we used tO frequent hAd sOme issues - nAmely thAt By lOOking up certAin keywOrds i cOuld still Access Our chAt histOry, even if they Are BlOcked And muted. BecAuse they were things i stAted. sO i spent the Better pArt Of twO weeks deleting Over 56 thOusAnd messAges. three sweeps Of histOry, deleted frOm my side. cAll me petty But i left A finAl messAge tO them. i'm dOne. nOw. BAck tO Our schedul...Read more
( My eyelashes are seven feet long People stop, they stop and stare They wanna know if I got 'em glued on But I woke up and they were there I was born with makeup on Mani-pedi and everything #lyricsposting #personal #dontbemeantome )<
|--[ my ex-mAtesprit tAlked ABOut me, it seems. i fOund their pOst By Accident And it mentiOned me By nAme. i will Admit thAt things were BAd At the end Of Our relAtiOnship BecAuse Of me. But i did nOt intentiOnAlly cAuse Any grief priOr tO thAt - if it hAppened, it is sOmething i need tO wOrk On preventing. i dO nOt recAll ever trying tO gAslight Or dOwnplAy their feelings. they needed suppOrt And i Offered it. But thAt is nOt why i Am cOmplAining, chittr. nOt Only dO they deeply hAte me, But they hOpe thAt i lOse sOmeOne i cAre ABOut. thAt i feel grief And regret And suffer. dO they nOt recAll thAt i ...Read more
--accezzing mem0ry.10g.chunk.ca.20.tpn-- 10cati0n: [redacted], a1ternia it iz unc1ear h0w he haz g0tten thiz many viruzez 0n hiz huzkt0p. mind1ezz c1icking, he zayz. y0u te11 him y0u think he did it 0n purp0ze t0 get y0u zpending the day with him. he 1aughz, he1ping y0u p1ug y0urze1f in. y0u are zudden1y n0 10nger there, watching y0urze1f with the huzkt0p camera whi1e y0u ztart the w0rk needed t0 he1p him. y0u bare1y fee1 the m0vement az he pu11z y0u int0 hiz 1ap. y0ur b0dy reactz az hiz handz, 1arge and r0ugh, z1ip up under y0ur zkirt. y0ur thinkpan d0ez n0t, t00 buzy dizmant1ing whatever bu11zhit h...Read more
♯would enjoy my ♯own ♯personal ♯badge is this covered by ♯trollbamacare @barackObama
We listen and we do not judge. Stepping. I understand those who rather fancy the idea of stepping on people. Or more astutely, understand wanting to step on just one person. At a time, anyway. Is that odd? Striking a pose while driving a heel into someone's stomach. Arms pouty and brattily akimbo, extracting obedience and embarrassment in seemingly equal measure. A rush edges its way down my shoulder blades and beyond my spine. I feel the words on my lips, even if I do not say them, "Pathetic, aren't you?" I want it. I want to take the first step. Gently gliding to affirm dominance even as squeal...Read more
#Personal #Horror #BodyHorror #Vent #Angst #Counting #Down #From #10 And one. Still mad. Okay. This is completely fucking unacceptable. I cannot even mark all as read. I am losing control of my life. The curse of my bloodline made manifest in the form of @thatGamerrrgrl. You contemptuous creation. You pig. You beast. You talkatively chatty and unruly horse's anus. Are you FUCKING SERIOUS RIGHT NOW? You do not have to hit every single react button in painstakingly fastidious order on every single post I make until the end of time just because I happen to sport a passing resemblance to you in term...Read more