Aranea Serket
@arachnesGratitude
We don't talk a8out it. Okay? Okay.
Hmm. My leave of a8sence appears to have 8een punctu8d with that of familial friendly fire. Not entirely unexpected 8eyond the shift in paradigm allowing a multitude of our ken to occupy any given physical or digital space 8eyond, like, two or three. Usually it's just a swarm of Striders, or may8e Vantases if we're lucky. (Vantii?) That 8eing that, and this 8eing this- Wow, I'm sure glad I'm not her!
If I had my way, a majority of these entries would 8e replaced with soap.
D-->It is not my fault wash rags are made out of such flimsy materials.
real funny stuff, serket
I'm not doing this one.
:33< same
Thank you very much for your input, everyone! I will take it into consider8ion and may release snippets of my archives here and there in the meanwhile.
There was once a time in which I was... Well, honestly, a little o8sessed with the concept of the one, true, irreplacea8le Alpha timeline. Perhaps seeking the relevance I was never allowed within our own narrative, or feeling I was owed it after... Well, I'm not going to put anyone on 8last for the sweeps on sweeps of interpersonal drama. Anyway! My point. I had, at one time, dismissed the possi8ilities held 8y other timelines as mere happenstance. Curiosities, irrelevant against the gr8er picture of the Alpha. Realizing that none of that actually, truly matters was very, very freeing. Allowing oneself to grow attached to those you would've simply dismissed as a single of a vast multitude, not 8othering to see the intricacies that might set them apart, and even outright refusing to see the possi8ility in those far-flung offshoots that wear our names and faces 8ut in different tints and hues. It's all such a fascin8ing wealth of possi8ility and inform8ion! I'm kicking myself a little 8it for treating all of it- And, as much as it pains me to say it, all of those that fall under that um8rella- as something unimportant. That all said, my archives are getting rather 8eefy. I should look into digital storage, perhaps, 8ut the novelty of having all of this in a physical, tactile medium is just too appealing.
Gonna ask folks ta' rub yer belly next, Buddha?
i spent so much time trying to keep just one timeline intact that by the time i was able to interact with others and not undergo a time paradox induced death i realized how refreshing they would all be no two the same yet all alike i thought they were all worth saving and thats why i wanted to make sure as many of them as possible could reach the afterlife and find some purpose in their undeath that they werent allowed to find in life for what felt like sweeps i could sit and watch how different things could have been for all of us with the slight differences and similarities all of them had but eventually i needed to start living my own life again so i cant just spend all my days watching that said if you do manage to digitize your archives theyd be great reads for me while im spending more time away from the outer rim!
THERE'S A DIMENSION TO HAVING SUCH A SCREECHBEAST'S-EYE VIEW OF ALL THE POSSIBLE DIVERGENT PEOPLE YOU COULD HAVE KNOWN, COULD HAVE BEEN, THAT SENDS A VIOLENT RIPPLE DOWN MY POSTURE POLE. I FEEL IT MOST OF ALL WHEN I HEAR SOMEONE CHIT THAT ANOTHER TROLL IS "THEIR KARKAT", OR "NOT MY KARKAT." BEING ON CHITTR AND INTERNALIZING THAT DISSONANCE IS EITHER THE STRIKING OF A DULL, TETANUS-ENCRUSTED SHACKLE, OR A SPONGE-BOGGLING ABANDONMENT IN THE VAST SEA OF IRRELEVANCE. BEING HERE MEANS THAT I'M EITHER *EVERYONE'S* KARKAT, OR I'M *NO ONE'S* KARKAT. IT'S A LOT TO THINK ABOUT. AND FUCK YOU FOR COMPELLING ME TO THINK ABOUT IT.
I think this sho+ws a wo+nderful level o+f gro+wth, Aranea. And I applaud yo+ur ability to+ self reflect. I kno+w ho+w hard that can be, when yo+u're a gho+st in the bubbles, but it so+unds like yo+u're making excellent headway! And what is sto+pping yo+u fro+m having bo+th a physical and digital co+py o+f yo+ur reco+rds? They can serve different purpo+ses, and yo+u do+n't have to+ limit yo+urself fro+m having access to+ the tactile fo+rmat, just because yo+u also+ want the ease o+f use which co+mes fro+m a digital co+py.
3833 < With the grandiosity of Time and the part it plays in every existence, I wouldn't say that your obsession was unwarranted. > 3833 < The idea of something being The One is what many people strive for in some aspect of their existence, but honestly? I'm grateful to experience all of these little pockets of individuality beyond that secular One that we, being Timeless, can't even discern! > 3833 < It's exciting! It's so beautiful and unknown!!! > 3833 < Additionally, a digital archive MIGHT be useful, but the smell of ink is missed. 😔 >
Timelines are a finicky thing like that. The shared experiences act as a sort of anchor 8etween individuals, at times, 8ut on the other- When was the last time you saw an entire timeline's worth of people of any descriptor show up in one spot? I certainly can count the amount of times that I've witnessed such a thing on one hand, at least. If it were up to me, the concept of "my" or "your" or "their" version of an individual would lose its relevancy, though at the same time I'm full and well aware how that can quickly 8ecome awkward, what with wanting to 8ond with another over shared experience and all. I like to think things would 8e far simpler if terms like that were saved for one's individual friend groups, or even quadrant 8onds, 8ut the sheer multitude of certain people *also* complic8s the notion. There's really no one clear solution, I suppose. As frustr8ing as that is to admit.
Ah... Well, um. Thank you. ::::) Honestly, I am considering it. It's just the sheer effort involved in such a task! Committing everything to memory and writing it down was a monumental task in itself, having to repeat the process- al8eit 8eing one of transferal and diction rather than actual wording- sounds a 8it nightmarish. 8ut may8e I can work something out. I could get help, for one.
That is very true. No+t every endeavo+r has to+ be o+ne that is taken alo+ne, and I'm sure that yo+u have several individuals who+ wo+uld be happy to+ help, if they were asked. Yo+u co+uld also+ lo+o+k into+ simply scanning them in, rather than co+pying them again by hand?
I get the odd impression that, perhaps all-too-specifically, there is a giant command prompt hovering over my head right now. Stranger still is that I have the *distinct* feeling that it says something along the lines of "====> Decide you don't care a8out any of this." How strange!
can i come with?
She has to sleep sometime.
:33< go to hell go to hell go to hell go to hell go to hell go to hell go to hell go to hell
:33< watpurr is the enemy!!! :33< if i got bed and wake up in watpurr im bringing out the claws!!!
I feel that, as long as she isn't contagious, we should organize some kind of intervention for that one Nepeta altern8. And 8y that I mean "collectively gra8 her and force her to take a 8ath." I feel you could peel so much grime off of her you'd 8e a8le to make a second Nepeta at this r8.
tHiS SoUnDs lIkE KiDnApPiNg wItH ExTrA StEpS
Well it's not like we wouldn't let her go afterwards! Sheesh.
Rigging the weather cycle to rain is perhaps the only way to intervene. Touching her would 8e a 8iohazard.
i feel like it’d be eas7 to bathe shitpeta. just get a lad7 in the bath too with her bulge out and she’d go right in. #nsfw
can i volunteer to give her a tongue bath?
I... You can do what you want, 8ut that sent a tremor through my 8ody the likes of which I haven't felt since the last time Cronus spoke to me. And I don't mean that in a good way.
i was joking mostly, but also i would do it if she wanted me to, so take that as you will.
I just can't in good faith support such a thing when she rolls around in actual gar8age.
I confess curiosity, though my distaste for chaos has kept me away from girl's night. Plus, it would just 8e so awkward, wouldn't it?
You should come. We're still here.
c< i MeaN... everytHiNg Has gONe 2 sHit, sO... feel free 2 cOMe aNyway >c
Ehh, I've had enough of 8eing wrapped up in violent shenanigans for one lifetime. Several, in fact.
it's mostly just busy! not all that bad. and you'll hardly be the most controversial guest if you do go!
c< tHats fair eNOugH, tHOugH, yOur daNces2r gOt Her sHit raN a MOMeNt agO, sO... rejOice iN tHat fact >c
Oh, I'm not worried a8out *that*. I'm worried a8out catching strays, as it were.
It's a shame that the a8ility to fry technology-8ased mind control without also frying the victim's 8rain in the process is an a8ility that would take a lot of sacrifice to cultiv8. #NotAtAllVagueposting
oH NO, i HOPE WHATEVER THIS IS, yOU FIGURE OUT, tHAT SOUNDS VERY, uNETHICAL, WHATEVER IT IS,
You've all played into my hands. https://images2.img8ox.com/28/2a/ZMrXJYio_o.png
A couple of hours, 8ut that's 8ecause some *consider8* individual decided to go and h8 all of my chitts. Regardless, it seems it only goes up to 99+, so I suppose I can clear the cache, as it were.
Or you could interact with 11 or so notifications every now and then to maintain the double 8s. : )
on(e 7ou get to triple digits it just sa7s 99+
Hm. No longer 8usy with what had kept my attention 8ut now I'm pondering whether that's a good thing or not.
Turn back before the weirdos on this site get ya
Alright, there are some things that require my attention, so I will 8e scarce for a 8it. I'd say to 8ehave, 8ut I know that would just encourage more chaos.
ill do my best!
I hope their experience is going 8etter than the last time I was swarmed 8y Megidos. #dashwatching
You know, despite the... Mm, I wouldn't call it "shyness", per se. Reluctance, perhaps? That I've learned over the course of the 8orderline immeasura8le time I've spent 8eing dead, I'm considering opening my social circle, somewhat. Talking to more than the same twenty four-odd people for eternity isn't good for anyone's mental health, after all.
yo, truth... l1ke 1 l1ke y'all and all that but man 1t gets bor1ng be1ng dead w1th all the same people for so long... although 1t 1S n1ce to see ya around, doll }:)
do i count? was i in your social circle before? if not can i join it now? OuO
I was loosely including all of the mem8ers of the four sessions intertwined together, so yes. That said, if you would like to speak more, I wouldn't 8e opposed to it! You know how these things go. Even with eternity 8eing what it is, you can still manage to avoid spending a considera8le amount of time with certain people, purely on accident.
gosh dont i know it! this is why i like this website it lets me spread my wings! and theres still so many different versions of everyone to observe that its just like doing what i love! so ill be happy to talk with you any time aranea!
I am the very picture of serenity. Smiling, passive, enjoying myself within the confines of my own lane.
FAILED ATTEMPT AT COPE.
YOu LOST THE ABILITY TO SMILE. DEGREE BY DEGREE. THAT YOu SPENT WAITING FOR A SHRED OF EVIDENCE. ANYONE NOTICED YOu WERE GONE. OR HOPES YOu MIGHT STILL BE.
ABLE. TO BE BROuGHT BACK.
Frankly, I'm just not going to dignify him with a further response. It is rare I say such a thing, 8ut it truly isn't worth the effort in engaging with. Any exchange of ideas would just 8e equata8le to putting one's hand on a hot stove.
CHAT. SHE FOLDED.
MY MISTAKE. SHE FOIDED. THEN FOLDED.
SHE FOIDED. FOLDED. CALLED ME HOT. THEN FOLDED AGAIN.
THIS SHOuLD HAVE STAYED IN THE DRAFTS. IF I FELT THIS WAY ABOuT AN ADVERSARY. WATER TORTuRE WOuLD BE INSuFFICIENT. TO WRENCH IT PRIED FREE. YOu DuMB SELF-DOuBTING CuNT.
Anyway, in light of the recent manifest8ion of yet another silly holiday, I hope you Megidos all enjoy your day. Or night. Whichever.
thanks aranea! ill try to file for an aranea week next chance i get!
I appreci8 the sentiment 8ut I'm not sure how good an idea that would 8e! Granted, those scant altern8s of myself whom currently exist on this site may feel differently, 8ut I'm not quite so thrilled a8out the idea of having a spotlight thrust on me, currently. I don't think there would necessarily 8e any strife 8etween the four or so of us, though I also haven't actually *interacted* with any of my alts, yet. Much to ponder, 8ut not quite so much I'd like to act upon.
like them or hate them its always worth giving them a shot you might learn something new about yourself so theres always more to gain than there is to lose!
You're right, 8ut I must admit a level of trepid8ion towards the idea. That goes towards socializ8ion in general, as of l8. It's a whole thing; I'm not going to rant a8out it. Just this once. ::::P
we all feel that even i do when it comes to the souls in the afterlife but a low stakes environment like this is the best place to let your hair down and try something new wish you luck!
Oh, gr8. https://images2.img8ox.com/52/f5/9wU8y2ec_o.png
Your favorite. This is a joke as you can break down the components to 1 and 7, add them to eight.
At least someone has my 8ack in this trying time. This is said partially facetiously- Not for your effort, mind, 8ut moreso saying that I *do* see the others offering support.
OF FuCKING COuRSE YOu CAN. DuH. WE ALL KNEW THAT. AND AREN’T JuST LEARNING IT. AT EXACTLY THIS MOMENT.
Unloved cherub.
You don't need to do much for provocation.
:)
VERY SAD. YOu CANNOT HELP BuT SELF OWN. JuST TO GIVE YOuRSELF uP.
No hard feelings, right?
ALL.
ALL HARD FEELINGS.
YOu EVEN LOOK LIKE A COLD. uNLOVEABLE BITCH. IN YOuR PROFILE PIC.
everything ok?
YOu SMELL. AND THERE IS A REASON. WHEN YOu LAID LOW. FOR ALL THIS TIME. AFTER BEING LAID LOW. BY THE WIMPRESS. MY SERVANT BY THE WAY. NO ONE EVER ONCE CAME LOOKING FOR YOu.
DISREGARD STINX. LISTEN TO ME. I SPEAK LOGIC. THAT WITLESS BITCH SPEAKS OBSCuRED BY SuCKING ASS. NO ONE EVER WONDERED. OR CARED. IF YOu WERE OKAY. YOu WERE NOT EVEN IMPORTANT ENOuGH. TO BE A MEMORY.
Oh, please. You really think you can get under my skin with the sort of talk that my mind had 8een feeding itself on loop for the past several sweeps? Not even the level of fascin8ion that I hold for your species is enough to make a single word spewing from your hateful mouth register a single shred of importance to my emotional st8. Sure, gr8! I'm irrelevant. So what does that matter, now? So many of us are. Even if I weren't likely an offshoot of a offshoot, what would it matter? I'm still here, despite and in spite of those who would have it otherwise.
WAIT THIS RuLES. I DO NOT HAVE TO GET INSIDE YOuR HEAD. I AM ALREADY THERE. YOuR EDGY. MENTALLY WEDGIED. BuLLYABLE ASSCHEEKS ALREADY THINK LOWLY OF YOuRSELF.
Self-loathing does not equate to caring a8out anything you say, unless you're trying to claim that you share some kind of a8surdist kinship with me.
NO. YOu MISuNDERSTAND COMPLETELY. I TOLD YOu TO HATE YOuRSELF. AND YOuR DEFENSE. FLIMSY AND FuCKING MORONIC. WAS TO FELLATE YOuR OWN SWORD. AND SAY. GOOD LuCK CuTTING ME NOW. I AM SAD AND ALL ALONE AND PATHETIC AND BLuE. WAH WAH. PEE PEE. BOO HOO. WAH WAH. PEE PEE. BOO HOO. GONNA CRY NOW? PISS PERHAPS? PISS AND COME PERHAPS? PISS AND COME. TO THROW YOuRSELF AT MY FEET AND WEEP HARDER? DuMB SOW.