♦ pitied by @invasiveLovebug
yeah, me too. 1t d1d also jumpstart my torment nexus career so 1 cant really compla1n too much about 1t
i won't be doing those very often they take a lot out of me, and looking at my palmhusk kind of resets where i am mentally but idk i might as well be using this power for something
With any luck the ibuprofen will kick in soon.
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solid food was a mistake if anypuppy wants to attend my funeral make sure it’s yaoiful and that my eulogy is propped up with exu8erant claims of my greatness
꧁#grief #zebruhcodakk #kryqusxyllem #traumadumping #selfreflection #mourning #cwdeath #cwobsession #cwpublicspectacle #nsfwe Hhhh. I've spent a long time trying to determine if there is an appropriate amount of time before I should stop being affected by something that rewrote all of the scribbles of my thinkpan. I haven't found the correct determination of time. Which, I guess, is surprising to me. I thought I would understand time very well by joining the Felt. But I think I understand it less. It's been a long time since Zebruh. I can say that plainly. It's not pretty. It's noe like, a bit of romantic devotion to him. Not as like, a joke, or a badge. Or an announcement. I'm not trying to make you all twitch. It's just. How long it's been since Zebruh. That's the line my pan keeps returning to. Since Zebruh. Before Zebruh, happiness wasn't easy. It was recognizable, sure, but it came like a pressure. It was a small mercy chemically dispensed through my pan to make my continued suffering worth it. A message could sit in my pan for nights and keep me warm enough to survive #mypod. After him, happiness just doesn't happen the same. It's awful. I still laugh, I still get flustered, I still enjoy board games and measurements and my little bits of cruelty from Chittr. I feel the stupid jump in my thumper when someone says something kind. I think I believe them for half a second. But I have to punish myself for believing them. Nothing gets as high anymore. The happiness reaches the ceiling and breaks its horsn against it. Everything pleasant is aware of itself and the room around it. I am skeptical at all times. Every little warm thing has me checking the corners of the room as if it is allowed to exist in my life. I used to think being noticed by him was proof that I had been made real. Then I lost him. Then everyone noticed me. And being real became unbearable. I wish I could say I learned something from it. I wish grief made me kinder, or convenient. I wish I could say I'm done confusing my feelings of devotion with feelings of surrender. I can't discern between attention, and safety. I want to be understood. I'm not finished. I'm not finished healing, but I am trying. There's a little humiliating difference, you know. Kryqus made me understand another piece of it, whether he meant to or not. The incident with him, and the way that I was forced to look at myself like a carnival machine that chews on its visitors. It's staying with me too. I was angry, I am always angry, really. Of course I was. Anger is easy. He recoiled from me, and I felt angry. But, he eventually relented. Thankfully, he finally declared that he officially had no interest with me. I'm happy about that, I guess. In the same, small, fleeting way. I wanted to say it was all voluntary. I wanted to say everyone who came near me knew what the page was. I wanted to say I am only a mirror, and if someone bleeds on the glass, that is hardly the fault of the reflection. A mirror can still be cruel, especially if the subject is. A stage can be a trap. Chittr is a trap. It is a stage of grief and cruelty. I do not know what all transpired with Kryqus after. I don't wnat to know. I guess. Out of fear that I had something to do with it. Maybe more than I would like. Maybe the incident was never really between us as individuals, but between what I made and what it allowed people to become while standing near it. I don't want to know. No single apology in the world could fix it. What happened. I know I can't fix it. I can't fix him. I can't fix how I felt or, maybe, still feel about him. My pan is fresh, it is always fresh. Like a recently peeled scab that keeps trying to heal over itself. I think I am coming to terms with the fact that I will not return to who I was before Zebruh. I was not better. I was simply broken differently. I do not think happiness returning at a lower rate means its fake. I still get to feel happy. But it's all maintenance. I hate maintenance. Maybe this is cope. Maybe it is ugly. I loved Zebruhh. I love him so much. But I lost him. Something in me dimmed, broke, and let me crumble into a spot where I have harmed and embarrassed myself in public enough times to know that shame is my indecency. I am not decent enough to do or be anything new. I am a spectacle, mistaken for needing saved. I am continuing to make a spectacle out of myself because that's what makes Chittr clap. Even if pitifully. But I am still here. Not triumphantly, or, as a symbol of something. Don't make me into a discourse object, or a pity offering. Do not see this as a reason to ask more invasive questions in my messages. I am an inventory note. Vesica Anelus remains present as the Panoptic. Happiness is present, but altered. Grief is present, and intrusive, and is sovereign over me as it pleases. I remain, unfortunately, responsible for what I preserve on this website. Hhh. His page remains under review. Given he is dead. This will continue. That will have to be enough for tonight. Because there is nothing more I can say. I just miss being the nothing more part of that. #Nothingness꧂
...not having a domestic partner is the pits... ...sometimes you'll lay down to go to sleep and you'll realize you didn't plug your palmhusk in... ... and then you realize that your charger is across the block from you and that if you want it to be charged you'll need to get up and get it... ... if i had a partner who loved me i could just make sad eyes at them until they brought it to me with a long suffering sigh...
okay okay okay fuck I am understanding why the general rule for medicullers is do not treat somepuppy you care a8out
i like that it makes me cough because of how much cinnamon sugar gets stuck in my throat
gods im so glad to have a fucking break rn. im always doing shit that requires my attention, i almost dont even know what to do with myself. sitting in my chair like huh. okay. hm.
They Will Only Continue To Suffer Bites Until They Learn Their Lesson.
It Needs Help, But Does It Want Help? It Will Bite You. Best Leave It Alone.
Do You Ever Watch The Beetle That Falls Onto It's Back Near Your Pool Struggle For What Feels Like Hours? #literallyme #relatable
Hrm? A warm body?
I had a patient today. I do not cut to the flesh. My Thimble is so much finer than that. It catches onto things too small for even blood to know it exists. I worked slowly. I teased apart little strands no microscope could ever hope to see. Every cell, and every impossibly tiny knot that tells a body what its supposed to become. "There you are..." I said. I found it. I found something I was certain was wrong. It wasn't. The disease had rewritten this part of him, so much, that the healthy cells seemed to be irregular. I mistook the body's attempt to compensate as the source of the illness. I picked the corrections apart. I smoothed every imperfection until only the damaged instructions were left. Healthy tissue loses the argument. Cells divide exactly as they are told. Unfortunately, they are now listening to the disease. When I finished, I swiped away invisible dust from my gloves and smiled with exhausted satisfaction. "I got all of it." I believed it at the time. From that point onward, whatever was quietly consuming my patient, ahd nothing else to fight. I accidentally restored it to prominence. How is it that I know this? Because I am lucid. For only a few more moments. It is my guilt, I am admitting it to you now. #gore #bodyhorror #horror #medicalhorror
Too close to what Ormici calls me. But thank you. I was considering something along those lines... It's difficult. i don't want to seem too pretentious. ... I am perhaps a little pretentious.
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>> ¡'m ડo g1ad, Bod¡e!! ¡'ve k¡nda juડt been gett¡n by each n¡ght, y'know?
I wouldn't be SURPRISED IF IT WAS.
Yes...
God, I MISS that little mailman so much! #chittranonymous #yearning
If there's ever any sort of variation of Persep on this fuck of a platform you guys have to PROMISE not to lust after him. Okay?
shчt чp
:33< mocáli likes meow i can tell this beclawse sometimes she likes one of my posts at random :33< that HAS to mean she likes meow right guys?
༻𐫱༺ I'm in a ssimilar boat 🌻 It iss difficult ssometimess 🌻 ༻𐫱༺
>>| just no.
#BODIE #T-T
#THISISFUCKED
)(e was just probably overstimulated I am so sorry!
Hmm... I guess y⚣u're right, I was s⚣ tired ⚣f the l⚣⚣ks I kept getting back h⚣me that I didn't b⚣ther. N⚣w that I'm traveling I might give it a try 030 Thanks!
↗️TARGETED CHOLERBEAR ATTACK HOW TO.↗️
↘️countless people constantly posting advice.↘️ ↗️RELATIONSHIP ADVICE↗️ ↘️advice on how to be a better troll↘️ ↗️YOU KNOW WHAT THEY ARE NEVER POSTING ADVICE ABOUT?↗️ ↘️employment advice.↘️
#ItsLateButIMightGoToTheGym #IveGotTooMuchEnergyRnHaha
Okay. Okay.. This One Took Quite A While To Think Of Because We Had To Confer The Best Way To Answer. ⋆♤˚⟡˖ "everyone Hates My Matesprit. His Divisive Nature Wasn't Really Something That Impacted The Actual Relationship, But Now I'm Having Doubts. I'm Starting To Worry They're Right About Him. I Feel Brushed Aside. I Feel Like He's, Intentionally Or Not, Dangling His Attention Over My Head, Making Me Jump For It. It's All Really Starting To Impact Me, And I Feel Like I Can't Even Talk To Anyone About It Because They'll Jump To Telling Me To Finally Dump Him. Worst Of All, I Worry That If I Bring It Up To Him, He'll Find A Way To Get Out Of It. What Should I Do?" ˖⟡˚ ♤ ⋆ ~ Conundrum Has Been Heavily Edited To Take Out Possible Identifying Details, But Still Keeping In The Core Themes. We Will Still Address The Other Parts As Best We Can. #advice #matesprit #emotionalabuse Taking A Quick Peek Over Your Profile, We Get The Feeling That You Are An Incredibly Reasonable Person, That You Take Advice When You Can. If You Weren't You Wouldn't Be Reaching Out To Us In The First Place. We Do Not Know Who Your Matesprit Is, We Neglected To Look On Purpose So We Couldn't Be Swayed In Case We Too Had Opinions. I'm Afraid To Say, Much Like Your Friends Would, That It May Be Time To Pull The Plug. You Recognise That He Is Not A Good Person, And While That Didn't Effect You At First You Are Now Experiencing The Same Thing Other People Warned You About. Remember That Your Opinions Right Now Are Based Purely On The Way He Has Been Treating You, Not Other Factors, But Even Then It Would Be Perfectly Fine To Break Up With Someone Who Didn't Respect Your Friends And The Other People You Care About, And He Certainly Is Not Respecting You. Usually We Recommend Talking To A Partner, Telling Them How You Feel And Gauging Their Reaction And Receptiveness To The Feedback; But In Your Case You Say You Are Afraid That If You Do That He Will Not Take It On Board And Will Just Somehow End In You Rolling Over And Forgiving Him. I Feel Like That Alone Should Tell You The Correct Course Of Action. More Than Anything. More Than The Way He Treats Others, More Than What Your Friends Tell You To Do, More Than The Uneasy Feeling Settling In Your Gut.. You Should Not Be Afraid Or Nervous About Telling Your Matesprit How You Feel. You Should Not Be Worried They'll React Badly Or That Nothing Will Change. You Should Be Able To Come To Them With A Problem And Expect At Least A Compromise, If Not A Satisfying Conclusion. Please Take Some Time To Think.. Are You Okay With This Being The Rest Of Your Life? Are You Okay With Feeling Like You Are Walking On These Enamel Shells? Are You Okay With Feeling This Way Every Time You Are Brushed Aside And Can't Tell Anyone About It? If Not, You Know The Answer To Your Question. Our Dms Are Open If You Would Like To Converse More. ♥ #quadrantconundrums ♥
1ts fun
I do not deserve or need your sympathy. But thank you anyway.
Into the data centers of a Godllike machine fallselly wearing the face of the woman you failled to save, actually. That is where it can go. Just a hypotheticall. Llaughing out lloud.
#T-T #INeedToPreemptivelyRollUpMyRugs
I d0nt kn0w any gay dudes wh0d like t0 give me a backrub
Yeah. Just people lusting after Caelum. Which I should have seen coming. But I am a fool, Posnah. A FOOL.
I Am Only Stating Objective Fact. Uvu
I Would Continue With The " Bit ", But Every Time I Think About How Tall He Is I Actively Squirm In Place. We Must Stay Focused. #nsfw #nsfc #explicit #explicit #explicit
i.would.rather.die.free.than.live.an.immortal.slave
I'm. trying not to think a8out it. Karama said it'll 8e okay, so I'm clinging to that. perhaps delusionally
it's 8ad, 8odie ૮ ◞ ﻌ ◟ ა I saw the picture, kind of wish I hadn't
yeah;; I knew something 8ad was going to happen, 8ut he's quite the stu88orn troll
:> So ^m I, most times, ^nd honestly th^t often feels like ^ good thing. Especi^lly considering wh^t Florid just s^id. Re^lly is unfortun^te since ^s Arty s^id it did offer to protect him. Al^s, hubris. <:
o-)- he’salive and i’m going to findhim so dontworryabiutme guys
o-)- hi everyone, im sure a lot of you saw what happened in the stream. but my matesprit isn’t answering my calls or my texts. something is very very wrong. if you see this man please please let me know, please put any sightings or information on #whereisucedesroykie here’s what he looks like, he’s the indigo in the picture and @ultracriticalBalk
yeah lol
Lowkey highkey middlekey c major g major d minor (key) feeling like a relationship is slowly getting tainted but trying to "do" anything about it will accelerate the tainting. You feel me big dogs?
Sometimes Your Network Of Friends Grows, And As A Formerly Isolated Troll You Are Elated. Then You Realize Alternia Is Unforgiving, And Everyone You Know And Love Is In Danger All The Time.
#IDid #ButAhh #ImEnviousHonestly #OfThePeopleWhoCanPostAboutTheirRelationships #AndNOT #GetNegativeReactions #T-T #OhWell
:> Im^gine m^king ^ confession. I just keep ^ny untow^rd feelings deep down inside me, ^nd then one night I’ll die. (●＾◇＾●) <:
" Oh, That Looks Interesting " I Say, .5 Seconds Before Realizing That Historical Account Is Karkat. What The Fuck. #whatthefuck
o-)- just when i think it cant get anymore worse it starts getting worse!!!
i'm good as hell at it, but observation is like my least favorite part of the job like yeah okay i'll just sit on my thumb for several hours watching a set of cameras for small details ok ok cool
↘️i am unsure why you are so upset about this.↘️
o-)- how do people even deal with this?? like?!?! actually!??!!? how do i not feel murderous over something ridiculous like this. because i really really want that stupid office nerd to be turned into a small paste in the ground but i have a feeling that is NOT going to go over well for some people which IS CRAZY because WHY are you guys even bothering with someone who smells like yogurt oh my god
so like my whole deal is an open secret at this point, right. do NOT comment i don't wanna know just hit reacts an i'll interpret them accordingly.
:> F^ir enough. I ^dmire your br^very ^s I cert^inly do not sh^re it on th^t topic. <:
:> It cert^inly does things to m^ke one feel like they ^re drowned in surre^lity. I too try to ^void this cognitoh^z^rd. <:
Don't you have a man leave my dads alone
#DontWorry #HeLikesMyTailNow #:]
#HeIsNotFine #ItsAWorkInProgress
#ThisIsntReassuring
#JustOneDay #WithNothingHappening #LearningNothing #DoingNothing #FeelingNothing #Bliss #IAmChasingBliss #BlissfulIgnorance #SweetNothingness
◌ It's best not to acknowledge some things. ⧂
Mm. Very We77 I Know How To T@ke @n 7 Gr@cefu77y. You're $ti77 @ Weirdo Fre@k Though, P7e@$e 7e@rn How To Be Norm@7 For Once, You Grove7ing $hit $t@in
I'm Going To Post This And We Are Going To Move On. Nobody Say Anything, Just Let It Exist. https://i.imgur.com/mnibtqq.png
:> Are you sure I c^n’t m^im him ^ little. <:
,,,no $omething i$,,,very,,,very wrong right now,,,
Sometimes it goes down for like half a second.
:> More hopeful you don’t meet more, ^h, duds th^n ^nything. <:
I Think To Myself " I Miss My Goofy, Close Up Casper. " And Then I See His Post About Someone " Whimpering " And " Peeing " In His Dms. Everything Is The Same As It Has Always Been. #nsfw? #positive? I Guess. I'm Not Labelling Nsfc Because It Is His Fault That Post Exists And I Read It With My Ganderbulbs.
:> Eugh. I'm sorry you've h^d to de^l with th^t. I know I joked ^bout it l^st time but I do feel for you. <:
Perhaps, I have been neglecting my duties as of recent.
((im cursed to be like 75% correct all the time))
man i need to cuddle a big buff man again #yearning
Sorry guys, I'm a hater right now because one of my hivemates wanted to do some defensive training with me, went "easy," and still knocked my ass to the floor about seven times. So I'm being an evil hater on the internet.
:m hungry and cant |_eave
PLEASE WHY WHY WHY SOMEPUPPY LISTED THE PEEPY I WANT FOR 150 CAEGARS THEN TOOK IT DOWN...AFTER I MESSAGED THEM... FATE WHYYYYY
the c|_urch funct:on was out of muff:ns
WAIT WE’RE #YEARNING? MY TIME HAS COME.
i sqhoukd rly stope treqatin my body leik i haqve a spare 1 lol
I'm sure it will !! just one of those nights
not even gonna lie, morale is low
You ever think about the want to be wanted?
true it is a stupid concept
A bit of a slow night tonight on my sketches, I apologize. The migraines get exponentially worse by the day.
> who want me <
One Day, Without Realizing It, I Forgot What His Face Looked Like. I Should Have Never Stopped Thinking About It.
I'm Scheduling The Removal Of This Old Tattoo. It Is Going To Hurt Like " Hell " But It Was A Long Time Coming- I Hate That This Branding Was Ever On My Skin.
The P7e@$ure W@$ @77 Mine! Though I W@$ Definite7y @ Bit $ore 7@ter H@h@ 😅
It Is Probably Good For Me To Finally Grieve Properly, Do Not Be Too Sorry.
I Have Been Pouring Over My Passed On Moirail's Belongings. None Of It Smells Like Him Anymore. It Upsets Me Very Much.
:> #yourfolly Folly born of fondness, though, which is usu^lly the best kind. <:
xoxo Fin31y ag3d iz right 0mfg?11???1??1?? xoxo
⚓︎ i am ha〰in the 〰〰orst day an sherry isnt e〰en f〰ckin here right no〰〰
i imagined myself with someone on here last light...pictured them moving slow and kissing me. i just want something tender. ♥︎ #suggestive; #concupiscentanonymously ♠
-------------------------- statUs Update. i am still beetel. i haVe lost mUch of my plating. i haVe long-term hearing loss. i am not sUre When this is recoVerable. beetel still has no hiVe, nor lUsUs. beetel Will not risk pendra rotten's existence in exchange for hoUsing. beetel has been tactically hiding in hiVes of trolls he dislikes, hoping they are bloWn Up too.
YES, I KNOW. I'M AWARE THAT I HAVEN'T MADE A CHITT IN AGES. THE ARID DESERT I'VE LEFT BEHIND IN MY ABSENCE COULDN'T *POSSIBLY* GET ON WITHOUT THE ENRICHMENT I PROVIDE BY BEING A HATEFUL LITTLE TERMITE ON THE FRINGES OF SOCIETY. BEHOLD — THE BLOSSOMING OASIS OF FUCKS THAT I GIVE. OOPS. TOO BAD. IT WAS A MIRAGE. THERE ARE NO FUCKS. YOU JUST ATE A MOUTHFUL OF SAND. GET BENT, ASSHOLES. WHATEVER. FUCK THIS. I DON'T HAVE IT IN ME, RIGHT NOW. DO SOMETHING BETTER WITH YOUR TIME. THIS SITE TRAINS PEOPLE TO SHOUT EVERY THOUGHT THEY THINK OFF THE TOP OF THEIR PAN WITHOUT HALF A FUCK'S WORTH OF WELL-NEEDED PONDERANCE. INCLUDING ME. AND FUCK ME FOR THAT. AND FUCK ALL OF YOU, TOO.
None Of You Even Know Me. All Of You Can Count On One Prong The Amount Of Conversations We've Had One On One, If We Have At All. I Have Not Even / Met / Most Of You. You Are Attached To My Public Persona, Nothing More.
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K--<i think incessantly posting about someone i was with for a couple of blinks is probably not doing me any favours in the mental stability department so im gonna try and shut the HELL up about it
i don’t really wanna air his dirty laundry not MMy place n all but soMMethin happened he ain’t hurt or nothin just soMMethin personal n bad
he7 he7 he7. i'm not revealing an7thing 7et! shhh
i'm sure i enjo7ed seeing 7ou, too! i have to take it on faith, be(ause i didn't (lo(k 7ou
:> It’s for the better people tend to ^ssume I’m ^ m^n bec^use I don’t think I could t^ke the pickup lines some trolls use on femme goth women. Someone would lose ^ limb ^nd it wouldn’t be me. <:
I THINK I WAS EXAGGERATING A BIT WHEN I WROTE THAT NOW LOOKING BACK ON IT, ALONGSIDE MAKING SOME HASTY ASSUMPTIONS AT THE TIME CONSIDERING WHAT WAS BEING DISCUSSED WITH HEMOISM.
doll, their aCtions, obviously. if they have it in their pusher to go and openly oppose the system, then i may Consider they do have good intentions ~
typing for drafts. all of this is bullshoot. fork the system. i am SO FORKING SICK of having to hold myself just to stay alive. this is awful. nobody and I mean NOBODY should have to forking die because they want the right to be alive and not suffer for it. we all should live in my not so humble forking opinion . the fact that I even censor my own shoot just to seem docile is deplorable. fork all of this. fork it all. -🐎
Nah, I know. I'm just thinking about like outside of the context of this situation. Many such cases.
:> I ^m not someone who tries to d^te (I do not disd^in rom^nce, quite the opposite, but I ^m ^ /very/ niche t^ste) but while I’m not ex^ctly ^ sentiment^l person I do think it’s nice to see ^ good couple who c^re ^bout e^ch other. Or more th^n th^t. I’m cert^inly not ^g^inst the ide^ of poly^mory. Or long-term ^shen trios. <:
:> I c^n’t s^y I ^dvise it but I ^lso c^n’t s^y I h^ve ^ brilli^nt ^ltern^tive, so, I simply wish you luck ^nd hope you meet someone who is ^t le^st s^ne ^nd fun. <:
‡ fucccǁ«ǁ«ǁ«ǁ«ǁ«ǁ«ǁ«.... i want beef chow fun or broccoli beef....... fuuuuuuuuccccǁ«ǁ«ǁ«ǁ«ǁ«ǁ«ǁ«ǁ«. chittr help. liǁ«e for chow fun, pity for broccoli..... ‡
>> ¡ am f1attered by whoever ડent ¡t ¡n, but ¡ rea11y waડn't expect¡ng anyone wou1d want me 1¡ke that !! ડo ¡ am a 1¡tt1e baff1ed
i kn𖤉w its just grim ⟢s shit
kind⟢ g𖤉t ⟢ little s⟢d there ⟢t the end
-^Yeah that was f∇cking r∇de get the f∇ck off my post d∇de.^-
:> I’m sure he’ll underst^nd. It w^s good of you to try, but I’m not surprised it w^s overwhelming; I’d h^ve felt the s^me w^y. <:
(◕ ᴥ ◕) gudont listen to that guy hes guweird
Yes- That is what I meant- I am not interested in- Fighting a system that works to sustain itself so fiercely- Even if I- Don't fully agree with it-
:> Did something go wrong in your he^d th^t you think this doesn’t sound /incredibly/ creepy? <:
K--<being lonely makes me lethargic and being lethargic makes me unable to go outside so i become lonelier
So, basically, I don't even have it in me to joke about the raisin this evening. That run was brutal, Turlen and Rorian want me dead. #raisinfordinner #yummyparfaitforcasper
I ddon't kknow I ssaw a ffew bbutt ccheeks~<
Trying To Listen To Literally Anything While Someone Is Having A Loud Conversation Nearby And Music Is Playing Ambiently Is Making Me So Fucking Evil Right Now
i WASN'T MAKING FUN OF HIM,,, i THOUGHT HE'D LIKE AN OLD TIMEY, tRICKSY GUY OUTFIT, sINCE EVERYONE WAS PROBABLY GONNA ASK FOR CUTE GIRL STUFF,,, #VAGUEPOSTING
oh no i thibk im a guy but i dont have time to find that out :'7 </3
♯thistoo shall ♯turn into a ♯wholething
THERE W★S ★ SOPOR FURNISHING M★RKET THIS EEEEENNNNNTTTTTIIIIIRRRRREEEE TIME ★ND NOBODY THOUGHT TO TELL ME?!?
⚓︎ i think e〰eryone on this site is pandead 〰〰atere〰er not replyin to nonsense anymore
,,,even when di$gui$ed,,,a$ $mug,,,pa$$ive aggre$$ive di$mi$$al,,,humility i$ $till well worn by the medicore,,, http$://cdn.imgche$t.com/file$/296f6ca05ad8.png
It's Okay, This Is The Way He Is. He Will Come Around On His Own Time. :>
We got a second vote for DMs! Sad that the most realistic answer is also boring...
Having a crush pisses me 0ff s0 bad like h0w dare y0u d0 this t0 me
<I thĭnk yŏŭ'd bĕ / lĕss săd ăs ă / wĕĕpĭng knĭght ănd thăt's / săyĭng sŏmĕthĭng.>
that is horrifying. but allso optimistic.
1T'S L1K3 4 COMB1N4T1ON OF FLUSH3D 4ND P1TCH FOR ON3. 4ND FLUSH3D FOR TH3 OTH3R.... 1T'S W31RD. 4H4H4... >:///]
H4H4H4... OH M4N, 1 H4V3 SUCH 4 CRUSH ON 2 P3OPL3.. H4H4..
Hm, no. But good ★ttempt, more compelling th★n most.
Embed Failure My Beloathed
Touching grass isn't helping I need to get biblical.
:> Gener^lly I try to ^void it but given my choice to consume ^ single drink l^st evening th^t then knocked me out, I know I c^nnot spe^k from ^ position of dr^stic^lly gre^ter wisdom either. <:
you say that, but what if i've got a special kind of yearning that makes people want to kill me with hammers what then
That2 my 23cr3t Im alway2 y3arning
↘️are you all aware that i can see your disparaging posts and commentary made against me.↘️ ↗️PARTICULARLY WHEN YOU INCLUDE MY NAME IN SAID DISCUSSIONS.↗️ ↘️which i have taken to obsessively searching at least twice a night, in order to track my social revenue and gross interpersonal profits.↘️
th4nk you 4 expl4ining,,,, it''''s 8een stuck in my think p4n 4 quite some time
before the rot my eyes were the prettiest red and blue and now theyre just gross absences X( #gross and sometimes i miss the way they lit up my respiteblock
you're right, why did i expect anything else from this place. :/
.) The cQmmQn tQpic Qf the feed tQnight is, um. Interesting! And nQt sQmething I'm willing tQ discuss haha. Anyway!! #RaeList! This sQng is called The Vulture! A bit Qf a drum and bass thrQwback, thQugh I think Pendulum's Qther sQngs were mQre pQpular. I really like the beat Qf this Qne, thQugh! )) .) https://www.yQutube.cQm/watch?v=-NfTuf5wIfw ))
(◕ ᴥ ◕) gusiiiiiighhhhhhhhh
*jingles jesterly and miserably (mostly miserably) to the gym*
(•́⍜•̀)🎪 [Attached to the image is a picture of the floor. There's nothing in the image, it's just a photo angled downward toward the ground.] CHECK OUT THIS MUTHAHAFUCKING BIRD DAWG. xoD
do this, do that, we need this door open, we needed that information yesterday, keep an eye on this location for twelve hours straight, yup, all seven cams of it, no breaks, oh yeah and while you're at it, decode this, encrypt that, find this guy, find that guy, give us all the info you can dig up on this list of people we've gotta hit, oh also my palmhusk isnt working can you look at it, oh you're good with tech, why is our stupid fucking coffee machine broken, as if i would know anythinggggg about that i dont even DRINK coffee
He said he would 8e fine if I stepped out to take care of some shit! I should NOT have left him alone!!!!!!!!
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fell
i'm desperate for positive attention / i don't know why / i just am
its ok. you cann hate i will love
... I su/)/)enly un/)errstan/) @(o/)exSempiterrno 's feelings when it (omes to that warrmbloo/) (haserr he (omplains about a bit morre #vagueposting
♯subjective
in case any yall were curious microwaving a softboiled egg to make it hard boiled since you underestimated the time needed to boil an egg doesnt work and all that happens is when you cut into the microwaved softboiled egg it explodes at you and hurts
c< i waNNa Kiss wOMeN #yearNpOstiNg >c
I've Made A Pile Of Soft Things On Scorpulous' Back. I Have Never Been So Safe. #notpositive
I'm Afraid I'm Stuck Here. My Lusus Is Too Large And Unpredictable To Transport. I'd Sooner Be Caught Than To Let Him Die.
Sometimes All Rooms In The Hive Are Panic Rooms Because You Are Panicking, And That's Okay.
my luZuZ got carried off by inferno antZ when i waZ 4 and i havent Zeen him Zince
(•́⍜•̀)🎪 YEAH BUT THAHAT'S LIKE. A WHOLE THING. :o(
Yes, They're A Loathsome Beast Of A Creature. But " We Ball ". #positive
Remembering When My Ex Matesprite Used To Lock The Door On The Outside To Keep Me In. Good Times. #nsfwe
The Gull spies a prize Whille I rest upon the pier Stealls my fucking food #haiku #nothappy
AS ALWAYS. I AM CHAINED TO A WALL. SO. I’LL BE HERE.
6ot no transport to speak of, so i 6uess i'm stayin' home for fi6ht ni6ht. maybe next time i won't bust up my le6 like an idyit the day before! >◡<
woke up today with terriblle pain in my abdominall jaws. cant move without it hurting. another day in my broken body. fuck me, man.
[[<ok But Why 1s The Captain Of My Ship So Hot? like Why Do Assholes Have To .. Look Like That. Fuck. #nsfwish? #thirsty #nsfw>]]
ri6ht?! i mean there's some tamer sCary folks who i'm like... 6otta admit, i kinda like a lil' bit of sCary! but then there's some real horrors that i wanna look away from and just... Can't! like lookin' at a horrible sCuttlebu66y aCCident or somethin'!
:( it was just supposed to be demonstrative
:> I will…^fter gently bonking my he^d ^g^inst the w^ll. I mispl^ced ^ semicolon in my code. Woe. <:
:> Instructions uncle^r, the spiders I’m trying to m^ke fully remote-controlled from ^ high r^nge ^nd give e^ch individu^l leg its own fine m^nipul^tion ^re testing me. <:
vV I ACTUALLY THINK IT MIGHT BE PART ØF THE PRØBLEM. SØRTA. I CAN'T REALLY EXPLAIN IT WELL Vv
.) Qh! TQnight is #FightNight, isn't it? I'm nQt gQnna gQ because that's prQbably, like, a bit tQQ dangerQus fQr an anQn like me, but I hQpe the peQple whQ dQ gQ have fun! And, um, try nQt tQ kill each Qther tQQ much? ))
== inventing a machine... that pulls out the part of your thinkpan that hurts... #gore ==
vV I THINK IT'S GØING TØ BE A REST NIGHT TØNIGHT. HEAD HURTS Vv
^man my experience meeting other bronzebloods on this website has been> ^well>
>> to everyone ¡ keep acc¡denta11y hate react¡ng, ¡'m ડorry 🥹 un1eડડ you know that you deડerved ¡t, then actua11y, fuck you (moડt of you don't deડerve ¡t tho ¡ ડwear !!)
>> ¡ am aડhamed that b1ueb1ood ડaw my comment on that poડt 1mfao #vaguepoડt not that ¡ take back what ¡ ડa¡d, ¡'m juડt embarraડડed
↗️I WILL EXPLAIN EVERYTHING YOU NEED TO KNOW, IF YOU ASK ME.↗️
I'm a little bit concerned thhhat people are um. legitimately thhhinking I want to die. And hhhhhh hhh I guess I understand whhhy from my posts but hhhhhh hhhhhh it feels so stupid to clarify often... hhh.. ALSO I'VE ALREADY HHHAD THHHERAPY AAHHHHHHHHHHHH I've said it before! Um! I don't want to die! Althhhoughhh um, I do read a lot of um, reader self insert stuffl ike thhhaatandit'sveryhhhot bUT ANYWAY in real life um. hhhhhhhhh. fucked up dark romance tropes adfgdty <333 Still um. I like. um. being thhhreatened a bit even if it's empty. Maybe especially if it's empty? No. No, it's um, like, thhhe ambiguity? #suggestive #nsfw i guess from hhhere sogshhhfgjf I don't know. I've never been hhhurt to know um. If I'm like. um. hhhhhh hhh fhhhfhhhfghhhifdghhh a masochhhist actually but um. I thhhink. It's really hhhot to know my life could be immediately ended and thhhat like, um, even if it's not done, it's like, a looming thhhreat. S sds somethhhing hhh about thhhe fear of it turns me on a lot more thhhan anythhhinghhh elsegsfgfhhhs thhhis is so embradrassingdfgghhhdhhh SORRY SORRY OKAY AAAA I WROTE TOO MUCHHH AGAIN
^one day you are going to be minding your business at your place of work and an inconceivably evil purple blood is going to abduct you and ruin your life and you're only going to be able to hear this chit over and over and over in your head the entire time>
:> I’m gre^t ^t terrifying visu^ls! …do let me know if I s^y one th^t bothers you, though. Sometimes I forget to tone it down. <:
It2 kinda crazy how many po2t2 I ju2t typ3d out and d3l3t3d b3for3 po2ting thi2 #dontmindm3 #on3oftho23night2 #probablyb32tif #youju2tignor3m3
(◕ ᴥ ◕) uehhhhh… fraimi headache… my latest drama didn’t end like i guwanted to… i HATE SECOND ML SYNDROME!!!
-=[ okay ! ! yay ! :-)_☺]=-
my digestionn sac hurts. i thinnk i ate somethinng bad.
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Man I r3ally cant think of 2hit to po2t today.. Womp womp I gu322
...okay I am going to go and hide now because aaaaAAHHHH
...um why are the clowns multiplying??? ...this is very unnerving actually and I'm really not a fan of this!!!
And you use that to strike out on the daily?
i thin k i got a crush on my homie
i ♯too grow ♯weary of wearing ♯coats & ♯longskirts very ♯often / the ♯mugwoods are rather ♯humid
i would like to kill someone
Maybe if you kept more of thhhat condescending hhhhhh tone more often it would be more tolerable... hhhhhh hhh
;; THE LIGHTBULBBBBBUEE😭🥺💧Eu💧💧E E😭😭 E EUE🥺🥺😭UUUUE😭🥺💧🥺😭 ue 💧eeUEE😭🥺💧Eu💧💧E E😭😭 E EUE🥺🥺😭UUUUE😭🥺💧 ;;
>> httpડ://f¡1e.garden/ad3CHVqDaT8zhrd0/muff1edડcream¡ng.png #vaguepoડt #ડuggeડt¡ve #maybe #juડt to be ડafe
.) Qh, the AnQnymQus CQnfessiQns are back. ThQse kinds Qf blQgs always make me, like, super nervQus, since, like, it feels like it dQesn’t take lQng befQre things like that turn intQ the bQQk frQm Mean Girls, y’knQw? ))
☆~𖦹 My first impressions of this place is that a lot of you seem fine but a select few of you would be the first to die in a horror movie 𖦹~☆
Trying Not To Look In The Direction Of That Clown Too Hard. There Is Something Wrong With My Pan. #suggestive
:> I will never throw stones from my gl^ss hive of Being Weird, but I perform this wondrous ^ct where I try to keep my more uncomfort^ble tendencies where they belong: to myself. Which is why I h^ve no problem judging my fellow fre^ks ^nd perverts who f^il to ^ccomplish ^s much. <:
:> No it is not. Do not give credit where credit is not due to someone who is, to put it mildly, ^n obsessed fetishist who doesn’t underst^nd bound^ries. And quite honestly I do not c^re if someone IS ^n obsessed fetishist, but the f^ct th^t she keeps bugging other people ^bout it is the problem. <:
vV IT'S KINDA WEIRD! I GUESS THERE'S EMPIRE NIGHT, BUT WHØ'S CELEBRATING THAT EXCEPT FØR THE WEIRD-ER TRYHARDS? Vv
₣ound the ∫i∫ fuckers that've been diggin' up my damn crops. ₣eedin' em ta the ♆o∫ves, Ah'm sick of em fuckin' up my harvest the past coup∫e'a perigees.
I am far too indebted to a certain fate, engendered with too mvch crvel pvrpose to hold svch foolhardy joys in my sovl. Bvt it is admirable, yet.
HHHhhh exactly!!
HHH hhh hhhahhhhhh hhh thhhey don't prepare you for so muchhh hhhighhhblood attention in lowblood schhhoolfeeding hhhhhh I feel like I must be doing somethhhing wrong because I hhhhhh hhh d don't thhhink thhhis is really deserved! HHH hhh hhhhhh I'm just a rusty!
I don't feel pale for my moirail. I don't really feel anything towards them at all anymore.
i feel as though i am lyttle more than a ghost to every individual i meet. i wyll never be anything more than a useful contrivance or means for them to get to the end that they want. there never has been a future for me, and as far as i can tyll, there never was a tymelyne wyth any such happy endyng for me. i have always just been a vessel for others ambitions.
@aeneasCaldarium would would would its so shameful but would
;; eeverything worrie§ me very badly ;;
HHHeeehhh sorry sorry I'm meant to be sleeping hhhhhhhhh normal activities normal thhhoughhhts #normalposting It's like a shhhock down my spine hhhhhh (good)
i have a crush on someone here, but he's not online often, and i kind of feel like a needy puppy waiting for him to come onto chittr and comment on my posts
...all this to say. fuck my back hurts...
...as you get older you begin to forget things. like the fact that you can't sleep through the whole night without experiencing consequences....
:> Im^gine h^rder! Or m^ybe don't, I don't w^nt to give you d^ym^res, h^h^. Let's just s^y I c^n be very morbid ^nd I h^ve no qu^lms ^bout violence (not th^t th^t's unusu^l, but ^ lot of people don't like th^t in ^ m^roon), ^nd I h^ve ^ few physic^l tr^its most people find off-putting. It's nothing I t^ke person^lly, though; I like who I ^m, I'm not going to bl^me other people for looking ^fter their own comfort. And th^nk you! <:
:> Extremely unlikely! I possess v^rious tr^its th^t would c^use most people to run scre^ming or ^t le^st inch ^w^y in discomfort. But I r^rely let it bother me bec^use I know I c^n be helpful ^nd ^ good friend. <:
.) Qh, gQsh, Qne Qf my cQ-wQrkers suggested that we hQst a cQsplay event at wQrk, and I have nQ clue whQ tQ dress up as! It’s, like, Qh nQ!! I’ve fQrgQtten every single character whQ exists ever!!! ))
i'm seeing rainbows in your usernames and shit like i'm sorry whoooo is putting it out there with their full name and face that they're all for hemo-equality lol
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c< aHHHH, yes, tHats a feeliNg i KNOw, aNd Hate, i HOpe it gets better 4 yOu >c
It aches the pusher to have someone you miss. Especially when they are currently off of the mainland. #vagueposting ? I am trying my best.
...funnier this way...
>> ¡ juડt d¡ડagree w¡th you on a fundamenta1 1eve1
IIt ii2 extremely embarra22iing.
𓋹 I see. Thank you for the information 𓋹
>> the dangerડ !! ! ડomet¡meડ ¡ fa11 try¡ng to get up out of cha¡rડ the wor1d can rea11y get ya
Jeff the wishes there was Mrs. the Killer.
>> aw that ડoundડ n¡ce ¡ th¡nk w¡11 probab1y keep embarraડડ¡ng myડe1f tho thank you anywayડ Bod¡e :))
i thinnk im nnever goinng nnear a beach againn.
The 0rc and i are 0ver
:> A m^n is entitled to ^ slice of secrets. <:
𝑽𝒆𝒓𝒚 𝒎𝒖𝒄𝒉 𝒔𝒐. 𝑰 𝒂𝒎 𝒈𝒍𝒂𝒅 𝑰 𝒂𝒎 𝒏𝒐𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒐𝒏𝒍𝒚 𝒕𝒓𝒐𝒍𝒍 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉𝒕.
Wow look at the time, guess that early start yesterday was not a sign of things to come after all Lol
jusst taalk aand praay people dont haate you.
(V)(',,')(V) st℧bbed my toe (V)｡°(°.◜ᯅ◝°)°｡(V)
I Didn't Even Do Anything Wrong. Why Are You Doing This To Me. https://file.garden/y2lswzodi23qppvi/cranky%20hate.png ~ Geh Heh Heh!
dont have a lot of men to kiss bro i dont really get around town not that big of a slut
Many such cases. It is truly tragic.
EVERYONE SHHHOULD BE COOL WITHHH IT HHHHHH IT'S BASICALLY THHHE PEAK OF MY LIFE SO FAR HHHhhhhhh hhh
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☆Sorry! I'm just a little mad right now okay? Ugh maybe I need a break from chittr.☆
>+. MY LUSUS WAS GRABBED BY A HAWK .+<
gutterblood scumblood ketchup packet ARE OUT THERE if you prefer