♦ pitied by @tenebrificTermagent
You, too? Or is this just my pro8lem again?
I think you should consider yourself lucky actually.
⊹₊˚{ shes, like getting REALLY good at rainbow drinker: the masquerade }9ᗜ9{ }˚₊⊹ ࣪
The phillosophy post. Was not about me. For the record. It was hypotheticall
Normall again
I am not meant for the genre of post currentlly taking over the website.
MADAME LLALLONDE PLLEASE
I do. Though I selldom am referred to as it anymore.
Step 3: Regret
Oh dear. I've fallen into The Thought Pattern again. I am llucky most of my heckllers appear to be offlline.
I will Tire of hearing your woes onlly as soon as you Tire of hearing the aimlless waillings of a wretched ghost.
i'm not gonna get tired of it rose just want you to stop feeling bad!
no i just want your head to feel better cause head pain is day ruining
inaccurate i forget things >:)
Steam fogs the mirror Water tricklles down my chest Salline down the drain #Haiku #Suggestive by technicallity. #Soothing
I am tired now
hole-y 2hiit not thii2 agaiin. You probably don't want two know about the la2t hole-y war2.
True. In truth it is allso intimidating having another peeking through the windows of mine soull and psyche. Which I do not hide very well
I have been followed by Miss Rankmaid. I hope not to bother her with my underwhellming amount of sallacity.
Oh no
did anyone else wake up yearning (tags: The Rankmaid/Chittr, rankmaid arisen, i need a cigarette, #substance, archive rating: M)
we both know how it would have ended :/ i would love to live in the fantasy land where one of us confessed but honestly i think it would have just ended with us further apart.... for the greater good of the timeline i need to be forever lonely and eternally alone :/
im so scared of who ill become rose.... im terrified of myself chewing holes in my arms to stave off bad impulses.... rose how do i stop feeling like a monster.... how do i stop hurting more than everyone else.... even the selfish mes are miserable.... i feel like im destined to be sad no matter what and i dont know how to handle it :(
but if the path for that causes pain.... if the path for that leaves kanaya hurt and a daughter full of spite.... is it worth it?? :(
it just hurts to see a me hurt people.... i should be the only one that should need to suffer :(
What is a mind? Is it on, off, left, right, wrong? If we are our pans, yet they escape so easily, what are we? Meat within a cage of bone within a cage of flesh? The electricity coursing through the meat? Dare I utter it, a soul? Is there a sole soul? Or perhaps... "As above, so below," so says the proverb.
i KNOW THE FEELING, oN BOTH ACCOUNTS, aHAHA,
Oh wow he posted another. I don't have much to say on this one. Too much is redacted to get a good read on his mind. #cagttll
To pain, chronic, emotionall, physicall, sociall. I raise my proverbiall gllass.
No more open than the proverbiall barn door to mine pusher that, insofar as the chittr denizens tell me at lleast, has been bllown off the hinges.
Quite. Some things never change.
why am i getting an ominous and vriska themed vibe.
Some of the youth intimidate me with how free of inhibitions they llive their llives. But I suppose the bar is llow for that comparison.
...Is it still yearning, if the o+ne yo+u yearn fo+r is asleep beside yo+u?
i think i'm #7earning. fu(k. i don't have an outlet for it
i gotta figure out what i wanna do with like. myself i guess.
I woulld often slleep in a tent further separated from the rest of my regiments in the war. On the worse days, mere proximity to me coulld evoke aches and pains in the bodies of those near me. They pretended they coulld not feell it. But I coulld see it in the bags under their eyes, the sllowing of their movement. The tone of their voices.
If onlly I coulld somehow offer ballm to your pan. But my presence has been known to cause pain, rather than soothe it. May your aches pass with allacrity.
hope that you feel better rose i've been having similar issues :(
You just cannot manifest a good combat training simullation in a dream bubblle. I will never be a llotus fllower at this rate, for my martiall training excercises will onlly ever be that. Exercises. I need true combat. My llotus bud remains shy.
I did not know that bud was another word for that. #suggestive, apparentlly
do you ever crave physical attention someone petting you holding you close and you know you need it more than anything in the world but you can't, you just can't take it because it hurts more than it helps the pain of physical touch makes you yearn for the freedom yet again of loneliness ...uh i mean eheh woof i like scritches-!
i don't even remember the last time i talked to any of them he...heh... :(
Were it not for a thorough look through your history, I would not ask such a thing. Perhaps you are upon a cave wall, perhaps you are reduced and diminished in the face of your transformed darling, perhaps you are that which remains once the bomb goes off. Or perhaps you grant wishes. No matter your reasoning my dear, your quill and your brush both shed light upon your personage, as well as delight the senses and higher faculties. For these myriads of reasons, I find myself willing to turn a blind eye.
Goodnight so long no light in this song. Don't quip counting sheep or you may trip and plummet to sleep.
Good night, my friend.
ooc: listenin to my duellist Death music again 😎
I try to be patient with the cllowns. They are victims, too. So bllind and naive to that fact though they are. But conversing with them... makes the phantom wounds of my finall night reopen. The spears re-embed themsellves in my fllesh, and I hear the festivall music of the cllowns of a bygone age, dancing around my barelly-lliving-effigy. And in those moments, it feells as though she is gone again. I hate cllowns. #viollence.
-- The Duellist has set their status to RANCOROUS 😡 --
@curiousClowder since you were the only suggestion on the what to do post. #nsfw warning [pictured, jinx, standing before the camera. she is topless, only her torso and the lower half of her face visible. the blush is obvious. her admittedly modest bust smooshed together by her hands, which vaguely shapes her tits into a heart. she has bunny faced pasties over her nipples.] there. is this yuriful? i feel very silly!
Tumulltuous waves Sinking deep into the dark To llonelly seabed #Haiku
My personall messages have been unusually free of the version of the Condescension that has thus far harried me so frequentlly. I want to call this a win, but it simplly means I have been llonelly instead. Is that not pitifull? To be missing having any communique at all, even if it is from such a wretch? Perhaps she is bringing me llow, after all.
My mom genuinely swears by lemon tea with a few drops of gold blood And yes I mean the human one Your mileage may vary I am 90% sure it is placebo
Very plleased to report I shoulld have a shirt within the hour. Everybody may rejoice now, for I will be noticeablly lless colld from the coastall breeze.
Why are my shirts still wet. Why. How llong must they spin in this infernall drying apparatus. I am llucky dreambubblles do not have neighbors to see me through the windows. I am lliterally shaking my head in exhasperation.
Good thing I don't do that. Because I am. Normall.
At a crossroads were I want to yearnpost like Larsko but if I do that her kids are absolutely going to see it and I think I'll finally hit my limit on what amount of shame I can feel if they see that shit. It was a lot easier to embarrass myself when I was a bachelor I dunno how they do it.
that is more or less exactly what i was thinking! it took me a moment to figure out what everyone was talking about but it really is kind of a sobering experience reading all of that...
i would rather destroy my mental health than see any singular rose unhappy
I am llaying on the flloor in front of the firepllace wasting away to escape Samsara. Trully these are the highllight moments of incorporeall existence.
I may be trapped in Samsara.
Changed my mind. Sea abllutions are not a desirablle way to clleanse one sellf. It is very, very colld. I must needs sit before the fire to warm in a bathrobe. For I allso forgot to do llaundry.
surly they wont say anyth1ng unbash1ngly we1rd about my fr1end's ancestor. surly not
Considering throwing mysellf to the Sea rather than take my usuall abllutions that I must take after forging. I am not meant for the heat. Even without a shirt, I end up covered in sweat. The trialls we endure for our art.
okay! i recorded something in my earlier "i love being me" mania sooo. um, here it is! i kinda messed up at the end but it was funny, and i'm sure people won't mind. [It's a simple video. It begins with Jinx leaning over the phone, a bright grin on her face as she leans back and the autofocus adjusts. He is clad in a size-adjusted version of his chidlhood get up, then, with a brief flicker of reality, she's glancing down at herself, clad in the same outfit, and shaking her head. She twirls, grinning bright, and pressing a small button on a box in her left hand, the attire swapping to her old god tier, windsock and all. another blue flash, and Jinx is beaming as he looks over himself, once more clicking the button. It was a different take on the god tier, a cropped version of that top worn over another crop with longer sky blue sleeves to match the breath symbol. the baggy pants have been replaced with high waisted shorts, a similar blue belt, and her legs sported knee-length sky blue socks, clouds scattered across in sweeping patterns. Another flicker of reality, and she leans forwards, sticking her tongue out at the camera and floating up, around, even briefly upside down, clicking the button on the small box again and moving to the next outfit just before the crop falls upwards. Now she's clad in quite the elegant navy blue suit, a tie of yellow tucked into a royal blue vest, she twists herself back upright, stretching out and admiring the suit, before clicking the button once more. The suit is replaced by a knee length swing dress, a gradient of navy at the base to her usual blue hues near the top, encircled and danced around by streaks of the bright breath sky blue, only for them to meet in the middle with a sash in the same hue. She grins, spinning enough the skirt flares out, and with another flicker of reality, he's smiling down again. The differences were always subtle between the two, but nothing drastic. he presses the button once more, and is back to a more normal outfit, jeans and a tee, tongue stuck out. with one last little shift in reality, she winks at the camera, bowing low- only to scramble as the remote is dropped. it lands on the button, and the bunnygirl outfit she'd worn ages ago was upon her, she squeaks, a hand moving out to knock the camera over with a gust of wind, a nervous laugh turning into a manic giggle before she steps over, pink blushed face visible briefly, and turns off the camera.] yes, i could have edited it, but mistakes are part of the fun of living. #nsfw because of the last outfit.
I really should stop flirting with my alternate selves.
... So did I. ARGH. HE MUST BE STOPPED.
ts was totally not me bro who would post something like that that's crazy ahahaha
i normally crave physically touch ... but for some reason recently if someone were to try and touch me i would try and tear their arm off. uh so don't try that at least for a while
Ɏ it will still be a-a-a pony a-a-and ponies a-a-are cool i think Ɏ
i think my whole thing is dying and being yuri so i get you
think i'll lose my mind in hysteria
answer has and always will be men are nothing
i do feel sorry for any other me who is affected.
i need a fucking drink. now.
okay i knovw i didnt just see doc scratch of all people hate on my post about manipulating rose fuckin lalonde into compromising situations #nsfwv #directposting
Never related too a chitt this much befoore
cronus count your days
the most awful thought i have is what if what he did worked #nsfwe
he hit on me. numerous times. allmost EVERY time.
...I am so sorry.
┐(￣ヘ￣;)┌
I had intended on cllearing up the garden that has become so very overgrown, but llost motivation upon actually llooking at it again. I do not know how the gardener did it all those sweeps ago. Pllants are... not my strong suit. All these fllowers and weeds...
s1gh. 1 do m1ss her tho guys ngl #mys1tuat1onsh1p
If the peoplle of this website were trully kind they woulld never llet me llog in
Tys ever the case that such Overt Dysplays hath made them uncomfortable.
Had I known it was about kissing I woulld not have asked. I am not availlablle for that, oh no.
I bellieve this might be it chat. It is quite possiblle that it is "so over"
i dont have anyone
Hmm. I remain gllad my ectobiollogicall framework did not allign with that of the Seer.
there are indeed levvels to this shit for those wwho havve the eyes to see not just anyone is doin things like predictin eridans return to rumble in da pumpkin patch like you did
true and i wwould be tellin you this if i caught wwhiff of evven one iota a the typical girlyearnin i havve come to expect from lowwer tier chittr users but you kneww that too didnt you
I'm not surprised you have the foresight or restr8int 8ut I gotta admit that it's a huuuuuuuuge 8ummer you don't let the rest of us pick on you for this kind of shit!
I am sitting on the beach. I have brought a chair, and my feet are in the water. My cane rests on my llegs. This is peacefull.
You should fight more. Fighs are fun.
that feelin when u so hungry all ur stomachs start hurtin
Every bone in my body aches. My incorporeall body, with ethereall bones. It will be one of those nights.
f1rst t1me was bad,t h1s t1me pan just hurts a lot1ts f1ne
never plaeyd those human games but what 1 know and what 1ve exper1neced personally from s1m1lar th1ngs, 1t hurted so watch out! but dont let a luttle pa1n deter you from do1ng ehat you want 1f so des1red
Note to sellf: Find a way to mitigate my typing quirk from manglling her name.
feelin liek my brain went on vacashun wifout me lol
Being part dog comes with plenty of good like better smell hearing fur on most your body But it sucks because it means I go into heat like a dog and it's ten times worse. ("-ࡇ-) #nsfw
Of Course And Sorry About Whatever Happened Between You And My Alternate Self I Suppose Heres To Hoping Your Life Becomes A Bit Less Complicated For The Foregoing
Because Im Apparently Trading My Self-Respect For Peace Of Mind Tonight Like Or Reply To This Post And Ill Arbitrarily Decide Whether Or Not I Would Be Willing To Share A Quadrant With You
dID YOU KNOW, tHAT WORLD-RENOWNED WRITER tROLL sTEPHEN kING WAS ONCE, hIT BY A SCUTTLEBUGGY? jUST SOMETHING TO CONSIDER,
im ok..... i think i need to change my look
haha wow uh i just had one of these moments but less cute and with more broken glass https://cdn.imgchest.com/files/d0a42d25bda0.png
THAT DOESN'T COUNT IT'S FUCKING ALAN WAKE YOU CAN BE ATTRACTED HIM REGARDLESS OF GENDER AND SEXUALITY
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𝓣𝓸 𝔀𝓱𝓸𝓶𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓻 𝓲𝓽 𝓶𝓪𝔂 𝓬𝓸𝓷𝓬𝓮𝓻𝓷, It's alright! I was genuinely asking. ~ 𝓜𝓼. 𝓢𝓬𝓻𝓲𝓹𝓽
Aah, wwell, I personally am sort of skittish when it comes to .. Exposed figures, so - Well, I'm skittish to a lot of things, so that isn't really saying much, but .. Okay. Yeah. I'm just a poor frame of reference.
She said my power level was 7,999.
what's happened to her? :U
i HOPE THAT, tHAT IS NOT TRUE,
Rrrrr... ... mhm I'll take it then tankss
Mmmmmn drunk Can I stay with someone for the night? I promise I'll behave I just don't wanna teleport home andvm get aaaaall stick #substance #suggestive(kinda)
I don't often like to talk about it. After all the parts where you and I differ aren't exactly casual dinner conversation.
Would you believe me if I told you I remember being the princess doll? Feeling Rose knit over my face, replacing it row by row by agonizing row with the face of something otherworldly, grotesque? My fingers fused together, my mouth replaced with a mass of writhing, 100% cotton tentacles, my head swollen to bulbous proportions beneath my silly princess hat. Because I am not sure I believe myself but it sure feels like a memory.
I am tempted to agree, but my Llady has tolld me many... many times that even the worst wretches of the middlle castes are victims of the highbllood hemogemony. I am confllicted.
love a bitch so much she starts making you watch hamilton
all i know is that i want to be free and live in a city and kiss girls!
... I need a drink
Do you every feel bottled in what society expects of you stuck within a single box you HAVE to chose according to everyone else but you don't fit just one box you fit so many. And then your friends who although are still close to you and don't fit in every box perfectly somehow do the Herculean task of fitting or at least acting like they do And that just leaves you a mess of different emotions feeling and personality that will never fit in anywhere ever because all you will ever be is a dumb mutt.
What about "Hurty" or "owie"
kEy To HaZiNg AwAy LiFe'S bItChNaStIeSt AiLmEnTs Is To TaKe Up A mOtHeR fUcKiNg ToKe Or TwEnTy AnD rEtReAt YoUrSeLf To SeClUdEd MeDiTaTiOn. LeT tHe EnErGiEs Of ThE rEaLm WhIsK aWaY yOuR mOtHeR fUcKiNg OuChIeS. :o)
never mind, it is really hot outside. oh my god.
need some meds
On to lless dour thoughts. I am forging once more. What shoulld I forge.
To this day I remain unsure of exactlly how she saw me. Simillar to a human daughter, or son? Or more as a tooll, a weapon, capablle of being manipullated? I know I hated her. But there are other feellings about her I had as well. A tanglled knot so dense and olld that it may never be untanglled
★wesome
Rose I miss you Can i lay my head in your lap plase and possibly cry #substance
I miss fitting in her lap. I miss fitting in your lap.
The vet sucks I hate it and the needle was cold and I had to wear a stupid muzzle Roan I will never forget this as long as I live >:(
You guys wouldn't actually put me down if I got rabies right Haha right
Missing Wife Hours #wifeposting
You captured it perfectly. That look. The one I so exhaustively analyzed. Today has been hard hasn't it Rose?
7ou know what where /is/ he, it’s been a while. ma7be someone found his pages and he disappeared, is that what happens?
i don’t know if i even have a a mom, and i’m definitely not one of the jades who are a mom, so i’m just here. :/
Sorry roses I tooks some rum :( I will pay you back I promie #substances
Hehehe arf! Rum :)
To wallk the halls, steeped in colld bllue llight And pass the washmaids and cooks, they avoid my stern gaze. A hand on my shoullder, staying just out of sight, Another on my chin, a turn of my face. "Gllance at them not, my handsome young Knight, They deserve not your focus, Yet you stand, in a daze." I recoill and stand straight, rearing up to full height I obey her command, yearn the Bite of Her Praise.
I wanna start a band I play guitar but don't really know anyone else who plays instruments so it's been hard :/
i think you should drawgs what..eVer you want!!!
Okay good to hear! Was getting a little confusing and freaky but I'm not gonna question it!
Happy mother's day. I miss you. <3
For Matrons Day I Would Like A Pound Of Excedrin Extended Release And A Nap
I WISH THAT WAS ME! I WISH THAT WAS ME! I WISH THAT WAS ME! I WISH THAT WAS ME! :( #jadesYuriReaction
misogtnist trolls luv me #myburden #imsissypussandthisusmyboulder
you have (nnot that you should nneed it) my permissionn to keep that nname if. you like it
i am kind of scared for tonight but it is something i have to do!!!!!! i am going to visit an old dead alternia with jinx and i dont quite feel ready for what it means for me but i have to do it
god, i wish i were a lesbian with someone. that would be cool. thanks.
B:33 < its good fur you
bark....... it is really frustrating having my whole headspace change every couple of hours.... does anybody else deal with this? woof?
i never feel quite the same day to day hour to hour sometimes i feel foggy and sometimes that doesnt feel bad? but i dont feel that foggy right now it is kind of exhausting
i never used to yearn or at least i never noticed it but now hoo boy! yearn central over here :/
Girllllll, I'm here just wwaitin' for youuuuuu! (Wwoo-wwoo) - Posted from my Unreal Heiress Tiaratop FLARP VvR Headset -
(Oooooh) Tell me that you're comin' through (Uh) (Come on, girl) - Posted from my Unreal Heiress Tiaratop FLARP VvR Headset -
I can de88 anywhere. I am a master de88er.
Does Anyone Else Feel Like Their Patience And Or Sanity Are Starting To Wear By A Really Untenable Amount
that space is vastlly oversaturated anyway. the "rose that doesnt post holle every 3 minutes" space is whats in demand
When in doubt, post ass. #nsfw
So Just To Provide A Rousing Update Of My Current Circumstances I Am Indeed Still Trapped In Here With The Mother Grub
sorry, i won’t jade. i’m a changed woman.
french is like literally your last name but thats okay i forgive you
Even Lord English "The ★ngel of Double De★th"?
Tick Tock indeed. Haa Haa. Hee Hee. Hoo Hoo.